“I climb onto the bus and see that my favorite spot is open. Not only that, but no one’s giving me that hairy eyeball look I’ve been getting every other morning. I drop onto the seat and watch the world whip past and feel—for the first time in a long time—maybe she’s right.”
This last book has left me with a mix of emotions and thoughts. First off, I loved that we went back to the original structure of the chapters. I think that the fact that it said where they were added a nice touch. I wanna start by saying what I thought about the characters before the doors were open. I feel like Marco was more tolerable in this book. This probably has to do with the fact that Marco didn’t have as many chapters this time. On top of that, this was mostly because of the fact that we found out that he was taking care of Lexi while she was sick. By the end, I genuinely felt so bad that he didn’t end up with Lexi. I know he was a jerk in the 2nd book, but I thought Lexi would be more appreciative about the fact that he SAVED HER LIFE (do you get deja vu?). At the same time, the chapter where he was pretending to speak to her in his inner monologue was…kinda creepy. It might’ve just been that I didn’t love him at that point. As for Shay, she was definitely making less dumb decisions than in the last book. I liked how we got to see her be a bit more independent, and how she actually had a mission to accomplish. One complaint I had about her was that I expected her to have to put up more of a fight to protect the notebook (kinda like Marco with the card), but nope. Even Marco, who knew what it was, simply disregarded it. Talking about that, I would’ve loved to have seen more that scene, especially since they hadn’t seen each other in ages. Her second fault for me was that she never properly thanked Marco for all that he did for her (“Thanks” just doesn’t cut it for me). I think out of everyone, Ryan had the best character development throughout the books. I wanna start by saying that I think this book truly showcased how much he would do for Shay. Their relationship felt more mature on both sides, which was appreciated. “He might be the first and only person ever to call a five-foot-one, ninety-pound Indian girl ‘badass’ and really mean” The fact that he was so proud of her was justttt🤭. Finally, I liked how Kris and Ryan worked together. It was unexpected, but their differences made them work together really well. I was a Ginger hater in the previous books, so I was surprised at how much I loved her character. She was very flawed, but it somehow worked really well. The fact that she had a fear of the dark really emphasized the eerie mood in her chapters. I believe that the fact that she stuck with Maddie until her death made up for the mistakes she made in the first book (btw, I was so sad when Maddie died💔). Her quick-thinking and caring personality made quickly made me adore her. To end this section off, I really liked how it included the calls the Senator made. The thing that’s scary to think about is that, if the fire hadn’t started, would the government leave them in the mall to die? Now, for everything that happened during and after they were let out. I liked that it didn’t end once the roof was opened, and that we got to see their recovery. I also liked the fact that we got to see the more into their new relationship with their friends and family. The thing is, I wish it didn’t skip 3 weeks, I would’ve loved the immediate reaction of each character from seeing the outside world. Also, I knew the news article portion was necessary to show the reaction of those who had lost people on the mall, but it was wayyyy too long. I preferred the previous ones since they were 1-2 pages. Starting with Marco, his inner monologue about the struggle to return back to normal, if it was even possible, really made me think. I thought it showed the extent to which events that occurred in the mall had changed them. The fact that he ended the book was nice because it showed that even though he had been the most ruthless and had been betrayed by many, he was still beginning to see the positive side of things, leaving the reader with a sense of hopefulness rather than dread. Shay’s creativity definitely radiated during the last few chapters. I thought the henna she drew on her body was such a touching thing to do, and I’m glad that she had the courage to discuss it with her mom. I’m also really happy that she honored her Nani by drawing the original henna. On top of that, I had been hoping she would write a poem sometime during or after the quarantine, but I think the fact that it was post-quarantine made it hit different. As I had previously said, Ryan’s character development was extremely evident once he left the mall. I loved how Ryan quit football, since it showed that he truly gave no fucks about not being true to himself. It also showed a huge change in the sense that he stopped feeling pressure from his dad, unlike in the first book. I really liked the talk that Ryan had with his brother, since it showed both how mature he had become and how much his relationship with his brother had improved. The only thing I didn’t love about his perspective after escaping was the football scene. Not because of what occurred while he was talking with Shay and Thad, it was just the description of what was occurring in the game itself. Like, why did it have to be so long? I didn’t need a narraration of the game. Besides that, I loved Ryan’s chapters, and I liked that he got his happy ending with Shay. Lastly, Ginger’s authenticity really made her stand out in the last few chapters. It was sad having to see how she dealt with Maddie’s death, but I’m glad she stood up for her at the assembly. As much as I loved that Ginger spoke about Maddie in the interview, I would’ve preferred if she exposed the government’s shady actions during the quarantine. Even though she technically couldn’t have many chapters, I was very disappointed that Lexi’s perspective was written in text messages. It took away from getting to see her perspective on finally exiting the mall, and what she thought about the fact that Marco saved her. Talking about that, why did Lexi start randomly dating Darren? You would think she would be hesitant since, in the first book, it was mentioned that she felt like he didn’t care about her. Some honorable mentions who made an impact, despite not being one of the main four, were Kris and Mike. I was so relieved that Kris survived the virus, and I’m glad that he kept in touch with Shay. As for Mike, I wasn’t expecting him to be suicidal, but I’m glad he got the help he needed. The only big problem I had with the second half of the book was the fact that there were some scenes I would’ve loved having to tie up loose ends. For one, I would’ve loved to see what happened to Ruthie, especially if we got to see a reunion with her and Ryan. Also, I would’ve loved to see if anyone from the postal office group survived, especially after the massacre done by Marco’s team. Lastly, it would’ve been nice to learn about the motives of the criminals who caused the quarantine in the first place, and about what happened to the car that crashed into the fence. I know it was meant to leave a sense of mystery, but it just felt like more unnecessary loose ends. Despite its flaws, the pacing was an improvement over the second book. I didn’t notice the transition from third to first person, so it didn’t bother me. Overall, I’m glad I didn’t stop reading after the second book, and I’m glad to be done with this series
P.S. After this, I’m gonna read a super happy book that makes me feel no stress whatsoever😭