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God Was Always Speaking, I Just Wasn't Listening: A Veteran's Journey from Suppression to Salvation
★ First-Place Winner, International Firebird Book Awards
★ International Book Awards Finalist
★ Readers' Favorite International Book Award - Honorable Mention
Sometimes, everything changes with just one whisper.
He had it all—or so it seemed. A decorated Naval Officer, a devoted family man, and a respected leader.
But behind the uniform, the success, and the sense of duty, he was drowning.
Depression. Anxiety. Self-doubt. The weight of life pressed in.
Until a sunny day in September, the moment everything changed.
In this brutally honest memoir, Ben lays bare his deepest struggles—the unseen battles that nearly consumed him, the supernatural encounters that shattered his doubts, and the miraculous events that unfolded during a mission trip to El Salvador.
And once you hear his story, you might begin to recognize the whispers in your own.
This isn’t just a memoir. And it certainly isn’t your typical military hero story. It’s proof that God is still moving, still speaking, and still reaching for us—even when we least expect it.
Inside, you’ll
✔ The mental health struggles people rarely talk about—until it’s too late (Veteran Mental Health, Depression and Anxiety)
✔ How God speaks in ways we don’t expect—and why we often miss it (Hearing God’s Voice, Spiritual Warfare)
✔ The real cost of keeping it all together when you’re falling apart inside
✔ A faith-driven roadmap for anyone searching for meaning in their life, especially post-military (Military Transition Guide, Finding Purpose)
This book is
Men & women battling silent struggles—faith, mental health, and identityVeterans searching for purpose beyond the uniformAnyone desperate to know if God still performs miracles
★ International Book Awards Finalist
★ Readers' Favorite International Book Award - Honorable Mention
Sometimes, everything changes with just one whisper.
He had it all—or so it seemed. A decorated Naval Officer, a devoted family man, and a respected leader.
But behind the uniform, the success, and the sense of duty, he was drowning.
Depression. Anxiety. Self-doubt. The weight of life pressed in.
Until a sunny day in September, the moment everything changed.
In this brutally honest memoir, Ben lays bare his deepest struggles—the unseen battles that nearly consumed him, the supernatural encounters that shattered his doubts, and the miraculous events that unfolded during a mission trip to El Salvador.
And once you hear his story, you might begin to recognize the whispers in your own.
This isn’t just a memoir. And it certainly isn’t your typical military hero story. It’s proof that God is still moving, still speaking, and still reaching for us—even when we least expect it.
Inside, you’ll
✔ The mental health struggles people rarely talk about—until it’s too late (Veteran Mental Health, Depression and Anxiety)
✔ How God speaks in ways we don’t expect—and why we often miss it (Hearing God’s Voice, Spiritual Warfare)
✔ The real cost of keeping it all together when you’re falling apart inside
✔ A faith-driven roadmap for anyone searching for meaning in their life, especially post-military (Military Transition Guide, Finding Purpose)
This book is
Men & women battling silent struggles—faith, mental health, and identityVeterans searching for purpose beyond the uniformAnyone desperate to know if God still performs miracles
312 pages, Kindle Edition
Published March 18, 2025
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September 7, 2025
Powerful, inspirational, life changing story! I cried through many parts of this book. One of the things that made it so impactful for me is the fact that I know Ben’s parents, Cindy & Jeff personally. I grew up in Tatamy and am a lifelong friend of Cindy. During the summers, we played together, riding bikes all over the streets of Tatamy and swimming in her family’s pool. I knew Cindy’s parents, Betty & Stu…. Wonderfully kind people who always welcomed me into their home! Cindy and Jeff graduated a year before me from the same high school! And I’m still in touch with them, exchanging Christmas cards each year where we “ catch up” on our families and events. We text a few times also; I’ve seen pictures of Ben and his family even though I’ve never met them !
BUT….. I never knew what Ben was going through in the difficulties of his life. To read about his struggles and how he came to know God, and our Lord & savior, Jesus Christ, is nothing short of a miracle. I am also a devout Christian and I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit guiding us in everything we do. To read of the wonderful conversion that Ben experienced is so heartwarming!
If my review guides someone else to pick up this book, then the Spirit has stirred in them too. READ this beautiful story!!!
BUT….. I never knew what Ben was going through in the difficulties of his life. To read about his struggles and how he came to know God, and our Lord & savior, Jesus Christ, is nothing short of a miracle. I am also a devout Christian and I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit guiding us in everything we do. To read of the wonderful conversion that Ben experienced is so heartwarming!
If my review guides someone else to pick up this book, then the Spirit has stirred in them too. READ this beautiful story!!!
March 21, 2025
God Was Always Speaking, I Just Wasn't Listening: A Veteran's Journey from Suppression to Salvation was a quick and easy read. Ben Duelley writes like you are friends and sitting next to him in comfy chairs, maybe drinking coffee, and he is telling you his story. Every time you think you know what is coming next, I am guessing you don't get it right, or not the extent of what happened next. You don't have to be a veteran or a Christian to appreciate the journey Ben was on. I can imagine his story helping many people who have struggles, hit some bumps in the road, or are just looking for some direction. You may not think you need his story in your life, but you may know someone else who does, and that is what and why Ben is sharing. It is also why I am sharing, because if this review gets his book in someone's hands who it helps, then the few minutes I took to type it up was more than worth it.
March 8, 2025
An amazing story. Raw, personal, touching and relatable.
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