This book utterly shredded me emotionally, leaving me in a tangled web of feelings. As the story unfolded, I encountered some scenes that didn't resonate with me, but the ending was a stunning surprise that far exceeded my expectations. What an ending it was! It wrapped me in a whirlwind of emotions—confusion, relief, sadness, and inexplicable joy—simultaneously crashing over me like waves on a rocky shore.
The ending gave the book 5 stars instantly, even if I had some issues with some things.
The author wove together a peculiar yet magnificent narrative that lingered in my mind like an echo long after I turned the final page. The atmosphere enveloped me in a delightful kind of creepiness, both unsettling and exhilarating, compelling me to delve deeper into the mysteries within. I raced through the pages, my pulse quickening as I eagerly grasped at the threads of the story, desperate to uncover the conclusion.
The romance unfolded in a way that I had long yearned for, raw and mesmerizingly intense. Although it was toxic, obsessive, and undeniably unsettling, I found myself irresistibly drawn into it. The boys' love for each other radiated such profound desperation that it often brought tears to my eyes. Andrew’s fierce devotion and willingness to go to any lengths for Thomas—even to the extreme of taking a life—made me feel happy in a very disturbing way, while Thomas's haunting readiness to let Andrew destroy him, just to see Andrew happy, made my heart ache.
Their love story was undeniably one of codependency and toxicity, but it was a hauntingly beautiful connection they desperately needed. I couldn’t help but see myself in Andrew, especially with his struggles with anxiety. I often felt a wave of frustration wash over me in his moments of panic, only to realize I would likely react in precisely the same way in similar situations. The author succeeded beautifully in depicting the nuances of anxiety—something I experience daily. Through the pages, I could almost feel Andrew’s turmoil resonating within me.
Throughout the story, I longed to envelop Andrew in a reassuring embrace, even when my heart ached in frustration at his choices. Thomas, with his sweetness, reminded me of a perfectly baked cinnamon roll—warm and inviting, keen to shield Andrew with his love. Only for Andrew through. Initially, I found him to be a bit of a jerk for avoiding Andrew, but as he revealed the reasons behind his behavior, everything fell into place, making his vulnerability heart-wrenchingly relatable.
The bond between these two boys felt as if they inhabited their own secluded galaxy, fiercely loving and protecting each other while the rest of the world faded into oblivion. While the side characters were not particularly fleshed out, it felt justified; after all, Andrew was drowning in his trauma and singularly focused on Thomas.
In conclusion, this book was nothing short of spectacular. I’m already counting down the days until the author’s next release in October, knowing full well I will devour it just as greedily.
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《It was strange, Andrew thought, how when something moved in the
dark, everyone’s first instinct was to go inside and hide under the covers.
As if monsters couldn’t open doors and crawl into bed with you.》
《His breathing evened out, but he made no move to get up. Andrew
didn’t care, not while they still touched. He craved Thomas’s affection, with
an intensity that left him dizzy. If he never had more, he had this.
It was almost worth being ripped apart by monsters.》
《Thomas turned off his flashlight and Andrew did, too. They stood for a
moment in the dark, before Thomas said, “I like how you are. There’s an
entire world of ink and magic stuffed inside your head, and I think it’s
beautiful. I just wish everything didn’t hurt you so much.”》
《This was how they were, bones broken and mended crookedly, each
entwined with the other. He thought maybe you could love someone so
much you ruined them, and then you ruined yourself.》
《Thomas tilted his head up, and the way he looked at Andrew was so
tender and fierce, so full of fearless worship. “I don’t care how dark the
world is for you. I’ll hold out my hand until you find it, and I won’t let go.” 》