Even from a young age Hira was an introvert, too nervous to speak up, disappearing into the crowd at his high school. From afar he admires his classmate, Kiyoi, ruling as the king of the class with his handsome looks and his aloof attitude. To him, everyone is equally worthless.
With his low self-esteem, Hira is happy to play his part as Kiyoi's loyal gopher, but even he's surprised when he finds Kiyoi's phone number added to his cellphone. Every glance, every scrap of attention is precious. Could these lonely, suffocating feelings actually be love?
This was the cringest thing I've read all summer. 😵💫💀 Every time Hira said something to Kiyoi, I felt like I was going to evaporate. He is such a creeper - an embarrassingly awkward creeper whose creepiness seems to rubbing off on Kiyoi. 2.5 stars
The part where he gets scolded for sounding like the girls makes no sense in this because they do not use honorifics in the translation. Kiyoi-kun is how Hira calls him. Any why Kiyoi tells him to stop it and just call him like the guys do. Without any honorifics. Praise to the J-drama or I wouldn’t have known that. They have been fairly accurate so far too. Which, is why they are so awesome to watch.
In volume 1 this quiet guy was getting bullied but somehow fell in love with the beautiful BOY (they're in high school) who was the ringleader of the bully brigade. In volume 2, the head bully is disgraced and becomes the new target of the other bullies. This sends the stammering, anxious main character into a frenzy and fists fly. Turns out he's not shy - he's psychotic! And now fantasizes about being a school shooter.
I can't imagine this will end well and I hate it but yes, I'm going to finish the series, since I'm halfway there and it's free on Hoopla.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
If you do not like this story, nothing I can say will change your mind. If you do not like Hira's obsessive, creepy, idolization and semi-stalking of Kiyoi, nothing I can say will change your mind. If you are reading this as Hira's personality slowing wearing down Kiyoi until he just gives in and goes along with Hira's wants, nothing I can say will change your mind.
Because I felt the exact same way when I was reading the novel.
Until I got to the second half, and everything changed.
If you are reading this wondering how on earth everything can change to the point where this reads as less creepy / more acceptable (in my opinion, anyway), and you don't mind spoilers, here you go:
And I will say, had I not read the novel, I would be in the same boat right now as other reviewer (because I was in the same boat in the novel). But having the second half of the novel as context? I love this. I love this manga SO much.
Kitano Megumi's art is perfect for this series. She captured the unsettling, obsessive adoration Hira has for Kiyoi so well. Every scene, every panel, is just so beautiful. I love how... gross... Hira comes off sometimes, I love how much he visibly lights up when looking at Kiyoi, I love how Kiyoi is , I LOVED the dangerous look to Hira in that scene... I just love so much about this manga. It captures everything in the novel so well, and I am so excited to see how it continues to cover all the complexities of their relationship.
Again, if you can't stand relationships that feel a little toxic, or rather , you're probably not going to like this. If, however, you're interested enough to keep reading, but wary about their relationship dynamic, it gets better, I promise. But also I enjoy "containment protocol" / "the-only-motherfucker-in-the-city-who-can-handle-me" relationships, so I'm bias.
Well that was weird. I’ve never been into stalker romance, but I guess I don’t hate it as much as I thought I would. This is like Killing Stalking lite.
Hira is OBSESSED to the point that Kiyoi is all he thinks about. When the bullies at school turn to treating Kiyoi badly, he starts imagining bringing a machine gun to school and killing them all. Instead, he snaps and starts punching one instead.
We find out that Hira is asexual in volume 2. Well, he’s more Kiyoi-sexual, seeing as how he is only attracted to him (still ace).
En général avec les boys love, je suis assez manichéenne, j'aime ou je n'aime pas, je suis rarement tiède ou mitigée. Ici, pourtant, j'ai vraiment du mal à cerner ce titre...
Avec son héros victime de bégaiements et de harcèlement scolaire, l'autrice offre un angle de vue intéressant. J'aime suivre l'évolution de Hira de ce côté-là. J'aime également qu'il compense ses difficultés à s'exprimer par une passion pour la photo. Je trouve ce personnage touchant dans ses troubles et ses maladresses. Mais à côté ça, c'est également quelqu'un de très soumis et là, j'ai plus de mal.
J'ai vraiment l'impression d'avoir le cul entre deux chaises avec ce titre. Hira est amoureux de Kiyoi, un garçon de sa classe qui le fascine et autour de qui gravite tous les autres. Sauf qu'il y a rupture dans ce tome et Kiyoi, avec son étrangeté, sa grande indépendance, commence à déplaire et à être isolé, tout se retourne contre lui. Avec Hira, il est aussi particulièrement ambivalent, ce qui m'a fascinée autant que mise mal à l'aise. D'un côté, il est le seul à ne pas s'en servir comme larbin ou s'en moquer. De l'autre, il n'est pas clair avec lui et joue un peu de ses sentiments, le repoussant tout en le laissant approcher. C'est très singulier.
La "romance" si on peut l'appeler ainsi est donc écrite très étrangement, avec un vrai déséquilibre totalement voulu et accepter, donnant lieu à une relation pas très saine, avec un dominant et un dominé qui le veut bien... Pour autant, l'autrice livre des pages très sensibles et sensuelles également avec une scène dans une salle de classe rappelant le rapprochement de Rei et Kira de Mars autour de l'art, qui était très belle à voir. Sauf que je n'arrive pas à me positionner. Que veut Kiyoi ? Que fait Kiyoi ? Je ne le comprends pas.
C'est plus clair du côté du côté de la dénonciation de ce dont est victime Hira, qui se transfère à Kiyoi dans ce tome, car le petit groupe de harceleurs de leur classe le voient comme un type populaire qui dérange. On assiste à des scènes psychologiquement très violente mais où enfin Hira réagit et l'institution aussi du coup. Il était temps mais attention n'allons pas trop vite en besogne, on est loin d'avoir retrouvé un climat serein et apaisé avec les coupables punis. L'autrice nous montre plutôt comment souvent ça finit en statu quo.
Ce titre est donc un gros point d'interrogation pour moi. Il porte parfois des valeurs qui me plaisent en dénonçant le harcèlement de ceux qui sont différents par une minorité qui se croit toute puissante parce que auto-proclamée populaire, et elle le fait avec justesse. Mais il est porté par des personnages écrits de manière assez molle et antipathique auxquels je ne parviens pas à m'attacher malgré quelques rares scènes très bien exécutées et mises en scène qui m'ont fascinée. Je suis partagée...
This is a series that I've gotten wildly behind on, so it's really nice to be able to read through some of the manga version to remind myself what I'd read in the first light novel. I do still think I'm ultimately going to prefer the manga format, largely because the art is so gorgeous. I mean, if you're going to title something "My Beautiful Man," ensuring that the characters truly are that gorgeous helps a lot with the narrative.
This volume covers some of the stuff I'd liked least in the light novel - namely, Hira's violent tendencies. Although it does feel like it got toned down a little bit in the art, which is good. I...didn't need to see all his thoughts on that front, regarding how much he fantasized about brutalizing his classmates.
If you skim over that bit and just focus on the emotional bond slowly, slowly starting to form between Hira and Kiyoi here, it has that same wonderful flow that I'd liked so much in the first manga volume. Honestly, with a bit less of the inner monologue, you get to focus on their expressions and all the unspoken feelings filling the room - including from Kiyoi's side, without Hira's constant self-hatred drowning out the fact that Kiyoi is starting to respond more and more to this very strange, very devoted guy who worships him and would put his life on the line to protect him...for no reason that Kiyoi can really pinpoint.
The light novel fills in a lot more of what's going on in all of these scenes, of course, but the manga conveys the important bits very effectively. I hope it'll continue all the way through the end of the series - assuming I like the rest of the light novels enough to want to continue myself.
Ce n’est pas le genre d’histoire que je donnerais 4 étoiles mais c’est une histoire quand même intéressante et qui brûle notre curiosité; jusqu’à où cette relation va-t-elle se rendre?
L’ambiance y est triste par la perception de Hira, qui subit de l’intimidation en raison de son bégaiement. Une intimidation qui rajoute une ton sombre à l’histoire. Ensuite, l’arrivé de l’inébranlable et stoïque Kiyoi, qui sera rapidement idolâtré par Hira. Une idolation qui va aller au-delà des l’admiration et que Kiyoi s’en apercevra.
Plus l’histoire défile, plus que leur relation s’engouffre dans cette atmosphère étouffante et limite toxique. Kiyoi va aller jusqu’à quelle limite avec les sentiments de Hira? Et à quel fin?
J’ai aimé découvrir cette histoire a l’ambiance différente de ce j’aime habituellement. Les dessins sont vraiment bien, ils reflètent si bien les émotions des personnages.
This series/story is definitely an acquired taste. It's sort of a bully romance, in a way. Kazu is fascinated with Kiyoi, to the point where he'll allow anything within Kiyoi's wishes. He has none of the backbone that I loved in Caste Heaven - which is such a similar style of bully romance - and I really wish it did. I wish Kazu could at least have a spine.
For me, I can't see ANY reason why Kazu is so fascinated with Kiyoi, except that Kiyoi is beautiful. We don't even know why he became King of the bullies/school in the first place. There's no reasonable explanation for how/why he became so popular, because we don't see anything except Kiyoi being distant, broody and demanding.
For me, it lacks the connection to either of the two MC's that I need to look past the bullying and slavery, and especially Kazu's pathetic nature.
La relació entre els protagonistes és ben particular, amb una clara idolatria del raret de la classe cap al seu company. Tot plegat és estrany perquè les reaccions i els comportaments d'un i altre et descol·loquen: el popular li diu "gross" i "annyoing" per qualsevol comentari i el marginat cada cop es comporta més com un stalker força tèrbol... Lectura addictiva perquè vols saber cap a on va a parar la relació...
The MC is such a little weirdo. It's giving me so much second hand embarrassment omg. I still don't know how I feel about this series, but I am curious on how their relationship will develop and how everything will pan out.
Hira is on the verge of being flat out obsessed with Koyoi and it's almost scary. I had second hand embarrassment reading the exchanges between these two characters. It seems Koyoi is starting to warm up to Hira. I wonder how their relationship would unfold.
I think this is one of those stories where you either relate to the main characters in some way and enjoy their evolving relationship, or you don't relate to them all and find it weird and problematic. Personally, I'm really enjoying Hira and Kiyoi's journey.
It's still frustrating, and the pacing is awful. The love interest is absolute trash. The word tsundere doesn't even work on this type of character. Bro was just nasty. Even the main character leaves much room to be desired.
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I feel the same way about this one as I did the first one. Like…ugh. Stop being so mean to the sweetie heart😭 I get that he has some issues lol. He is obsessed— but poor guy didn’t grow up normally.
Anywayyysss…I like this book, I just hope it gets betterrr for Hira🤞🏼✨
sigue sin ser un romance bonito, es mas, no se si se un romance, uno adora al otro como un dios y el otro le tiene cierto repudio. aun siendo un bl tóxico este tomo se puede ver un poco mas de trasfondo en ambos protagonistas.
I didn't feel like this volume had the forward momentum I was looking for, but felt a bit more repetitive. I'm still intrigued to see where this goes, but am not as eager for the next installment.
My review is definitely not objective nor helpful to anyone wanting to read it, but I'm just so emotionally attached to the series. I love it. And I mean it.
3,5 ⭐️ I really love the live action adaptation of this story, but so far the manga hasn't hit the same way. I'm not crazy about the art style either, but I still enjoyed reading it.