In the morning, when I rise / You are the first thing on my mind / And in the middle of the night / I feel your heartbeat next to mine (Emotions – Mariah Carey).
I realize that calling something “uniquely special” is completely redundant and is pretty much nonsense the more you analyze it, but I honestly can’t think of any other phrase that perfectly encapsulates my feelings towards the Gives Light series of books. And since I’m in a state of heightened emotions right now due to how beautiful this book was, I think it's safe to say that I'm in a corny enough mood to where I can say that something like "gee, these books really give light during the darkest days," without any hint of irony and still feel pretty good about myself! Sorry, that was wacker than Batman sound effects. I don't know, I guess I relate to these books on a much deeper level than most of the stuff I usually read because much like how they read in a lot of ways more like Skylar's journal than following more common story beats, I've been kind of using my reviews as an outlet for my own thoughts. It's kind of fun, like I'm writing in a journal of my own! The only difference here being that I'm posting my opinions on a very public forum. Hm, much to think about... but yeah, from complaining about "pretendians" in my extended family to whatever else is on my mind, I suppose that even though I'm not literally writing a novel here, I might have still inadvertently taken inspiration from Rose Christo's fluid prose and the stream-of-consciousness approach to her writing. Anyway, St. Clair is the third installment, but I think you’d be doing this book a disservice if you only judge it as an island, because in my opinion, this series reads more like a long running show and it’s something that kind of all blends together to where you can appreciate it as a collective where you look back at the whole thing fondly rather than critiquing each individual piece. It’s basically a slow burn in every sense of the phrase and asks for the patience of everyone who comes across it. You know how every one of those TikTok dances are all overly choreographed and hyper specific to each beat and every lyric to the song? Yeah well, I have questions. Like, I always wonder what happens when they stop recording on their phone and the song is still going… like, do they just stop dancing mid song and immediately start editing their TikToks with the dead cold precision of Patrick Bateman? Does their rhythm only extend to those few nine seconds and as soon as the soundbite ends are they so thrown by the sudden lack of pre-practiced moves and preparation that they immediately go off beat? Also, where was I going with this? Oh yeah, I was going to say that these books are the opposite of a choreographed song-and-dance routine, that they're more the literature equivalent of dancing through an entire song naturally. They’re the kind of books where you need to just feel the groove and let it ride for its entirety. Instead of consuming tiny little snippets for content, the Gives Light series is a full course meal!
And now that I’m mixing up metaphors, let me get back on topic by saying the key to enjoying these books is instead of stopping after every book to say something like “it starts to get boring after book three” or “nothing really happens in this one,” you sort of have read each one like you're catching up to an old friend. Hey, I wonder what’s good ole Skylar is up to! How’s the fam!? Which all of this is basically to say that… nothing really happens in this one. I mean, only if you were to interpret this book at only the utmost surface level you possibly could, because if the first two in the series were about identity, then this one is about community. Now that Sky's on some "I've been called Casper, Shorty, Lil' Bit, and some they call me Vanilla Child. But you know that don't mean my world to me, 'cause baby, names can't cramp my style" type shit, we finally get to see him as not just an accepted member of the community based on the encouragement from the other folks on the rez, but also can see it radiating outwardly from his newfound inner confidence. So yes, while St. Clair is more like an update on Skylar and Rafael’s relationship (still going strong and they’re planning to go to college together!) and the ongoing fight that the Natives are going through to stop the U.S. government from draining the lake on their Reservation, it’s hard to complain about this aspect because… well, that’s just literally what the story is! I don’t know, I guess the reason why I keep hammering in this point is because I’ve seen a couple opinions that basically state that these books dip a little too into history lesson territory for their liking, and while that’s a totally valid point (I guess), that things can get a little “guilt-trippy” when you get deep into the cultural aspects and the historical context, but I’m sorry, it’s not really a book’s problem if an honest recollection of history is uncomfortable to its readers. It’s important to understand that to tell a story featuring Native Americans is to tell a history lesson. The impact of genocide doesn’t just go away after a hundred years, and ongoing struggles against problems like stolen land and stolen people is something that just isn’t talked about by anyone outside of Native communities, so just the fact that there are these discussions even happening in a novel format is incredibly important. A history lesson can’t halt the narrative if it is the narrative! It would have been the easiest thing for Rose Christo to keep the Gives Light series as a purely adorable and sweet romance set against the backdrop of an idyllic Reservation, but the fact that she instead interwove real life problems that her tribe faces into the narrative is not only brave, but it’s arguably impossible not to. All of this trauma is a part of our present as well as our past, and in order to understand the story, you have to hear all of it. No matter how uncomfortable some of those truths might me.
“I didn't need the voice. I just needed the boy who wanted to give me the voice.”
Besides, while these books might seem like they have no real beginning or end in any kind of traditional narrative sense, it still works for me because the conversation surrounding Native Americans are so frequently in the past tense, as if we’re long gone, that it comforts me in thinking that by not having any kind of definitive ending, each one of these books are protesting the idea that there is an ending for our people. Hey, we’re still here and won’t be going anywhere anytime soon. Look, there are a lot of stories about community and coming together to fight against seemingly insurmountable odds that threaten the environment (we’ve all seen Hey Arnold: The Movie), but the prospect becomes quite a bit more profound when you read about the people, the Natives, in real life who continuously have to fight against the encroaching tide of colonialism just as a part of their daily lives. This book is about the real fight, and not the idea of protest that's only attractive to would-be activists who like to co-opt real life issues and turn the attention from real issues to focus their own inflated ego (Shailene Woodley). In fact, I appreciate that while these books are about community coming together, they still don’t portray Natives as some kind of monolith, and that there are always several different opinions on what's right and what's wrong. It’s hard not to notice that in most film depictions, Natives are mostly just used as set dressing, an aesthetic that fades into the background to make a historical setting feel more authentic. I recently watched that 2005 King Kong movie while in Cannon Beach and I had one thought… man, Jack Black used to be in real movies, but then I had one more… that harmful stereotypes and offensive depictions of Natives isn’t some prospect of the far distant past, but rather these offensive images of “savage Indians” is so ingrained with pop culture’s idea of what Native Americans are like that it doesn’t even register as racist imagery to a lot of people. I think that’s why books written about Natives by Natives like the Gives Light series are so important for not just me, but anybody else looking to learn as well. Which is all basically to say that Native portrayal in film isn’t much different than how we’re seen in real life, and that sensitive depictions are important to counteract racist viewpoints. It's funny because in my experience, if there are three Natives in a room, then you’ll find twenty opinions, twelve of which I’m supplying. And even then, I’d actually argue that Skylar’s tribe is still written as having a stronger sense of community than is what's often seen in real life or other novels about Natives, like how The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian supplies that the Reservation is only ever something for Indians to escape, while these books see it as fighting to protect the only land we have left. See? Many different opinions to consider!
Even in my own family, there are often arguments about what the tribe should be doing here or there at any given opportunity. I'm always hearing "they should be doing this with the blood quantum!" over here and then "the tribe should be sending out this amount of money!" in the other ear! Seems like a fun topic of discussion, huh? I was at a Pow Wow in July and it was cool and the fry bread was delectable (though, I got sunburned for the first time in my life, so that wasn't very fun), but there were things I didn’t like about the overall experience… like how before the dancing started, Mr. Announcer Guy told everybody to stand for the prayer (which is fine, that part was fine), but it went on forever! I was about done when the man just started just including random shit into his prayer circle to prolong the speech even longer (like, twenty minutes at that point), all talking some shit about “apologizing to the bugs for if the dancers accidentally stomping on them” or whatever, and it’s like… what is this, a damn filibuster!? Dude, we’re all standing in this sweltering heat and there’s no sun shade, let’s get the dancing on the way lest I get sunburned! Oh yeah, and I guess this part was worse, but there was also there this odd moment where they brought out the police chief to speak to the audience about how the cops are there to protect Native communities (they’re not) and blah blah blah (that’s when I left), and I’m sorry, but just like at Pride, the cops don’t belong at a Pow Wow. But all this is of course my opinion! A few of my twelve on the matter in fact, at the end of the day, I’m just one dude who likes to read beautiful books like St. Clair! So yeah, why don’t we wade over onto calmer shores, because now that we're over here in safer territory, I’d say that even without the relatability angle, there’s no doubt that I would still totally dig these books based solely on the classic appeal this series has. And it’s not even just the fact that I'm pretty sure these books take place in the early 2000’s, but they just feel classic in that real and honest kind of way. Fun fact, you know how I always talk about how I love music in a general sense as if I’m out here like Addison Rae? I mean, Ugh I love music too, so it must be weird to hear that I don’t actually have a Spotify! Woah, what? It's just that in my brain, the idea of having to pay a subscription service every month just to listen to a song is absolutely wild to me. Besides, I like to own my music and listen to it without the need to have stats or show other people what I’m currently listening to, I just want to listen to songs in a classic kind of way! Besides, it’s more convenient and reliable that way and not in the least bit performative. So yeah, that’s exactly why I enjoyed reading St. Clair so much, because even though it might not be the most traditionally put together Young-Adult novel out there, it's still nonetheless as reliably poignant and steadfast in its depiction of love, community, and tragedy alike.
I feel good, I feel nice / I've never felt so satisfied / I'm in love, I'm alive / Intoxicated, flyin' high.