✰ 2 stars ✰
“The ironic thing is that all I ever wanted was for people to read my book. I just never thought in a million years someone would use it against me.”
The idea was strong, the execution was not. 🙁 I'm sorry that this debut was not even on the Middletide of the range in which I rate or read things, for the lack of cohesiveness, let alone the believability of necessity into certain aspects made me question - why? Why, for starters, create a fake tribe, which ultimately plays no significant part in the narrative? Why spend so much time building up one character's entire life story, simply to paint him as a lovestruck recluse, which time, instead, could have been spent on delving deeper into building a more believable structure to the mystery? Why have so much attention given to a romance that felt so forced and flat that I was struggling to believe why I should care? Why was reading this such a chore? 😫
What could have saved it? It is hard to say, considering how much was not really working in its favor. For starters - allowing more time to be spent in the present; the constant back-and-forth of an unreliable time frame did not allow us to get immersed in the atmospheric way in which the author built up the first scene. It was striking - a very haunting glimpse of a murder that left me confused and curious at how it would eventually be explained. 😥 However, when one takes into account the eventual explanation - sorry, reasoning, behind the murder, it is very impractical and not at all capable of being acted out in the way that it was... Not that much detail was spent into going into it, that is - but it just feels too implausible for me to believe how 'a mystery novel about a murder that was made to look like a suicide.', when not once did anyone investigate the crime without relying on the source marterial, instead. 😐
I was not able to feel this as a thriller - at all; rather a very slow-paced romance that felt forced in its depiction. I'm all about long-lost love rekindling - soulmates forever. 'I won’t let anyone take away our second chance.' 🙄 Nakita was such a flat character - heck, even Elijah Leith was! But, at least he was trying; I could see in the writing that it was trying to make me care about his conviction, as well as his desperation to prove his innocence. But, it was a rigmarole of scenarios and situations that was trying too hard to be ethereal - one that drew on the secluded remoteness of their small town, which did not develop any further than a handful of characters existing in Point Orchards. So much unnecessary time was spent in depicting Elijah's every-day life through the years that added nothing to the plot. Some of the dialogue and train of thought for certain scenes - especially during Elijah's trial were tasteless - almost as if being read from a script. 🤷🏻♀️
“He would be a fool to let her go again without a fight.
“Maybe the only way to move on,” he said firmly, “is to take that first step toward someone else.”
It was not like Elijah was entirely unlikable; he was burned - twice over and he returned home, in the hopes that maybe he could start over. I felt for his despair over being a failed author and not having his hard work paid off; perhaps, then so much emphasis was put into showing how proud he was of the little achievements in his daily life - one that asserted his own skills of not having everything stacked against him - be it personally or professionally. 'Perhaps pride was the thing he was really addicted to. The pride of seeing his own work on the page or on the plate.' 😟 But, starting over came with a hefty price - one which he didn't even realize. The idea that the murder was drawn from his own novel was an intriguing concept; but with caricatures of law enforcement who behaved almost unrealistically if not comically in their handling of the case made it hard to feel the threat and danger to Elijah's life. 😮💨
And as much as I can appreciate the author's efforts to tie his past with his present, it was not enough for me to be drawn into the story. The imbalance to his crime, to his ill-fated romance, to his struggle to win her back and the mistakes he made while doing so - did not mesh well, too disjointed for it to be impactful. Maybe I just did not like Nakita - her actions, her temperament, her usefulness - everything about her made me wonder what he saw in her, in the first place. I don't know what purpose her belonging to a make-believe tribe played either, but urgh, just not happy with this. 🙂↔️ 🙂↔️ 'There’s got to be some evidence, something I can use to prove I’m not guilty' - and believe me, I tried to find it, too; but the actual way in which it played out left me empty. I was hoping the end it would reach somewhere, hoping that after the lackluster build-up, I would reach an explosive conclusion, but - 😮💨😮💨
It hurts to be so critical to a debut, but if you really want to thrill the audience with a riveting atmospheric mystery, then the pacing and the execution have to really reel you in. Perhaps with a little more fine tuning to the story, it could have been a more effective read. I mean, it is highlighted as an atmospheric thriller, but how am I supposed to be thrilled, when Elijah is waxing poetry about his long-lost love or the lengthy descriptive details are devoted to the minutia of his daily life, only for the action to pick up steam at an uneven footing? Just really disappointed this time around. 🙎🏻♀️ I wish it had not been, but... I feel like all I did was sigh my way through this, but what can you do? 😔