**Many thanks to NetGalley, Random House - Ballantine, and Emily Stone for an ARC of this book!**
Lexie doesn't really know how to feel when she learns her father has passed away...is it grief, shock, or something else entirely? After all, she hadn't spoken to her dad in almost ten years, after his choice to remarry and start a new life with his 'new' family. Lexie has been trying to focus all her energy into manifesting her own life, and hasn't even really interacted with her half sister Rachel...until this shared tragedy brings them together. Amidst all of THIS inner turmoil and confusion, she is hit with some big news that could change her life forever: Lexie's father has left part of his company, R and L Travel, to her. And since this company specializes in holiday-themed travel, where guests get to experience some of the world's most beautiful and unique holiday traditions, it seems like this COULD be a dream come true.
But there's also some fine print...if Lexie can successfully CO-run the company with one other owner for one year, the two of them can then jointly decide the future of the company. This doesn't sound too bad, until Lexie finds out who owns the other half of the company: her father's grumpy yet somehow-still-frustratingly-attractive exec, Theo. The two begrudgingly agree to put their initial snappiness toward one another aside and attempt to see how the year goes, while they take this opportunity to explore the world together in the honor of Lexie's father and the company he spent so many years building. But when what first seemed like frustration starts to feel more like uh, a different kind of frustration, and their relationship moves into different 'territory', has fate brought them together for ANOTHER reason? Could her father's last wish have led Lexie to find a new kind of wish fulfillment all on her own? Or will Lexie's grief and conflicted feelings about the dad who abandoned her keep her from truly taking a leap and keep her firmly stuck in the past...and TRULY on her own?
I've been hearing about the fabulous Emily Stone for quite a while now, but have been hesitant to pick up any of her books because from what I had heard, they normally mixed two elements I don't EVER voluntarily want mixing: grief, and Christmas. Not only are these two ideas diametrically opposed in any normal situation....throwing in a ROMANCE on top of all of that seemed like a bit of a mish-mosh in my mind. But nevertheless, I was intrigued and anxious to check out the strong writing and enticing holiday stories I'd been hearing about from trusted reviewer friends for years...so much so, that when I was offered an early copy of this one, I broke my OWN rule and read a holiday themed book prior to December 1st. 😱 (
Gasp!
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And as sad as I am to confirm it...there's a reason I don't pack away boxes of tissues with my Christmas ornaments: this particular Christma-romance Latte with a heavy dose of Grief Sprinkles on top was NOT exactly the kind of early holiday beverage I'd hoped to have...and I just wasn't a fan of the flavor.
The reason to me is simple: this book didn't need to be a romance...at all. I understand the premise of a holiday story (particularly in the context of the business that REVOLVED around holiday traditions!) but there was just something about the whole Lexie-Theo relationship that just felt completely off...you know, like a busted Christmas light that makes the whole strand go dark. (At least, back in the old days!) I know this is supposed to be a enemies-to-lovers romance, but these two just didn't really fit as a pair in any respect from the first page on. Their initial interactions didn't have that 'spark' that felt more like banter, and they didn't even have that much in COMMON aside from family trauma, which to be honest, doth not a romantic relationship make. It's hard for me to think of anything LESS romantic than that, honestly. Not to mention, having crappy or unsupportive parents doesn't really make up for you acting like a man child.
(One guess who I'm referring to...and I hope that's all you'd need!)
And another part of the reason I had SO much trouble with buy-in in regards to this particular relationship was simple: you just SHOULDN'T. DATE. YOUR. COWORKERS. Not mixing business with pleasure is more than just good advice; it's HR POLICY at companies all over the world. Not only does it feel like bad form, in this particular situation it was FAR more complicated, since these two strangers essentially went from not knowing each other to running a company together...but there was FAMILY involved. Seriously, I don't think the author could have created a messier situation for these two if she'd tried. Even if these two felt like they just HAD to be together (or even just to hook up), the fact that they couldn't see the forest for the trees and keep things professional sort of pointed to the fact that perhaps they WEREN'T really ready to run the company together...or at all.
But the main reason this book felt like such a holiday downer (and where it missed the opportunity to grow, breathe, and develop) was that SO much of it was focused on the family trauma that sort of got these characters where they were in the first place. Lexie needed to deal with her abandonment issues, and this alone would have been fodder for its own novel. Making the 'antidote' to her daddy issues a man-child of sorts just seemed like a strange choice. 🤔 Lexie also meets Rachel, her half sister, who is definitely a more likable and complex character, but even this budding sister relationship is forced to take a back seat time and time again...so we can fit in long descriptions of the various holiday trips. As someone who would quite willingly give R and L Travel ALL my fictional money in the also-fictional scenario where I am a millionaire and can afford it, I expected this to be my favorite part of the book, but I felt like I was being told about the traditions more than really FEELING them, and amidst all of the grief and strife, there was a large disconnect between the holiday joy I'd hoped to feel and the grim reality of this holiday hodgepodge.
And while I don't completely regret the chance I took by having an early 'holiday horchata,' you'd better believe I'll be WAITING for my first delicious Peppermint Mocha read until that perfect, snowy, sweater weather day...you know, the one that is 'Always, in December.'
😏
3.5 stars