So I was lucky to get to ARC read You're Not Supposed To Be Here by Mike Salt
This is up there in my favorites from him, it was so emotional.
Are second chances truly worth it?
Can you really change things, or is it more misery than it's worth.
Maybe you aren't supposed to get a second chance sometimes or are second chances just all make beleive, and we never really get one..
I knew this was going to be the book for me when Gabe work up in what seems to be a parallel universe, but me, always the skeptic wondered, did he or is this a quick mentyB our MC is taking.
That would be my EXACT thoughts for myself if I woke up suddenly.. ( recently had apartment maintence in to work on my plumbing, and they swapped the way the hot water turns on, did not tell me, legit was worried until I asked my bf if this was a new change or had I lost it)
But on the flipside, what would I truly give to wake up, and the worst things I had done in life, I could just not do them?
Would I ruin my new life, in different ways, or can someone truly change who they are , at their core, that made them make those choices to start with ?
The more I read, the more I thought, this is not what it seems, and then I remembered, Mike is a horror writer, where did I think this was going to be a happy second chance..
I want to leave this review as vague as possible, because I NEED yall to read this like I did, it would be a absolute disservice to this book to know too much, because what a rollercoaster.
I wanted to scream and did so many times, I just wanted to shake Gabe but at the same time, so freaking many times, I caught my self feeling for him. I loved him and hated him, he really was so human and relatable would I make some of those choices?
No but I understand WHY someone would..
Maybe its because its that time of year again, where i spiral into my Dark Tower cave, but when i finished this, book, like the one neon sign that flashed across my brain was, okay Mike is one of the "last word-slingers" .
That was dark, grating, emotionally charged horror, that was palpable , the tension his words created, painted a world I normally cant see.
I'm getting goosebumps just writing this review
Mike Salt