An arranged marriage will become the perfect career opportunity for one would-be doctor—that is if a curse doesn’t get in the way.
Ten years of exhaustive study and sleepless nights have suddenly been rendered meaningless for aspiring Imperial Physician Lin Qingyu. In the midst of his education, he’s instructed to set everything aside and marry Lu Wancheng, the sickly son of the marquis—all in the hopes that this union will heal the illness that plagues the young master.
However, Lin Qingyu quickly discovers that Lu Wancheng isn’t just an ill-fated aristocrat. In fact, the man has a mysterious sixth sense that could help Lin Qingyu outmaneuver anyone, even royalty. Thus, Lu Wancheng proposes an idea to his new male bride, one that will help send Lin Qingyu back home to continue his studies and fulfill his dreams…both benign and dastardly.
Yet as feelings bloom between these new allies, a dark truth threatens to rip them apart in both sickness and in health.
This was a mix of both fun and pain simultaneously, a combination that I hadn't thought possible before. I didn't believe it could be possible to cry from the intensity of pain and yet laugh with pure happiness at the same time, but somehow, this danmei proved otherwise. I knew exactly how this volume's story was going to end, yet it still moved me to tears.
Honestly, this danmei revolves primarily around the main couple. While there are elements of political intrigue and some secondary characters who play important roles, the core of this story and its emotional impact is centered on the relationship between the two protagonists. I believe that focus is what makes this danmei so compelling.
Lin Qingyu is such a complex character, malicious yet incredibly humorous. He's the kind of figure who might be classified as a villain or antihero, with a demeanor that is cold and detached. He believes that anyone he finds repugnant or despises deserves to die. This might sound insane to some, but it is precisely what makes him so captivating. Lin Qingyu is fully aware of his own nature and embraces it. He exudes pride and arrogance, and his inner thoughts, often humorous, made me laugh out loud while reading. They reveal a layered personality that is both dark and amusing.
On the other hand, we have Lu Wancheng, the joker of the story. This guy hardly takes anything seriously, and his sense of humor is relentless. When he does become serious, it's often difficult to tell at first glance because he quickly slips back into his playful, jokester persona. Despite his comedic exterior, he cares deeply for those he loves. He is willing to endure immense pain and hardship just to ensure the well-being of the person he cares about and wants to protect.
Their relationship can be summarized in one phrase: husbands who kill together, stay together. They are undoubtedly the ultimate murder couple who scheme and conspire with such chemistry. Watching Lu Wancheng become so hot and bothered when Lin Qingyu is planning on killing someone is both hilarious and deeply romantic. Lin Qingyu usually masks his darker, more nefarious side, but with Lu Wancheng, he feels free to express it. Lu Wancheng finds Lin Qingyu even more sexy and attractive when he's in a murderous mood, so much so that he becomes entranced when Lin Qingyu’s killing instincts emerge. And let's be clear, the people they target and harm definitely deserve it.
In conclusion, this story was a rollercoaster of emotions, both funny and heartbreaking. I'm so captivated that I'm eager to dive straight into the second volume to continue this journey and, hopefully, to help myself heal from the intense feelings this first volume stirred up.
Beautiful petty gremlin x sweet adorable enabler. Love these scheming sworn brothers 😂. Once this novel is completely published, it will be my #1 rec to new to danmei readers. Politics-light, humor, romance, easy to follow plot, lovable characters, and just so well written. Expect to feel all the emotions ❤️💔❤️🩹
MC: Smart, aloof, cold, cunning, loyal, manipulative, holds grudges ML: Charismatic, clever, loyal, kind, “lazy” in everything but his pursuing of MC, shameless yet embarrassed, green flag when it comes to consent ✅
** Despite all the political scheming with the court, their relationship is nothing but complete honesty and bluntness with the ML confessing things even when he is so embarrassed 🤣
✔️Transmigration (but not from the POV of the person who TM) ✔️Historical ✔️Political/ court intrigue ✔️Slow burn ✔️Pining ✔️Power couple ✔️Together in multiple lifetimes
by this time i really should’ve figured out i’m not a fan of isekai/transmigration type of novels, but hey…. i still don’t like them. i cheated and read a bit more than vol1 provided here to really finish this first life arc.
i liked the idea that there’s nothing wrong with simply being a salted fish and being lazy, because life is hard and hectic, and moments of rest are precious. it’s even better to be a salted fish when there’s someone nearby who’s willing to laze around with you or who’s willing to take care of things while you’re lazy. it’s a very logical and fair idea for a chinese author, you know the whole society lacks proper rest, people are constantly working, competing, and exhausting themselves. it’s very logical to embody the fatigue from the endless hustle and bustle and chronic sleep deprivation of chinese society in a character whose greatest value in life is doing nothing and sleeping and i respect it.
now here’s where what i don’t like and it’s the main character. i’m disappointed that manipulating the lives, feelings, and destinies of others was made just… a character trait of lin qingyu’s? and not just a character trait, but a sweet, endearing one, the one that makes the protagonist fall in love with him. i’m not the one to propagate sunshine and rainbow characters, quite the contrary actually. i love morally ambiguous characters, but there’s a fine line between a well-written morally grey character and just being a jerk for the sake of it. with lin qingyu, there’s no explanation, no motivation, no personal philosophy or belief system driving his actions. he’s not morally complex, he’s just mean because… well because he can be. there’s no depth, no internal conflict, no compelling reason behind why he is the way he is. what makes it even worse is that these awful moments come completely out of left field. most of the time he’s just existing in this bland, nonchalant, neutral state where he does absolutely nothing of interest, and then you look funny at him and he’s ready to poison you bro what😭😭😭😭😭
i don’t think it would be much of a spoiler thanks to a very specific and detailed synopsis the author so graciously provided, but the ml when reading the book says he falls in love with lin qingyu’s character because he’s handsome and does bad things. later in that brief moment of self awareness lin qingyu, after numerous manipulations and scams, thinks that maybe he should stop being the worst, to which the ml answers “NO, be yourself!”. ruining other people’s lives and playing with their destinies for one’s own ends is presented as a character trait so mundane and with nothing to back it up. i genuinely can’t form a proper opinion on him beyond wow this guy sucks because there’s nothing else there. he’s not compelling enough to analyze, not consistent enough to understand, just annoying enough to make me wish i was reading literally anything else.
to make matters even worse for myself, another character i want to bring up in this discussion is HE who shall not be named, of course i’m referring to yan wushi. you may ask and rightfully so what the HELL does yan wushi have to do with anything, but i like to get philosophical. the christian beliefs cultivated in my brain over the years get alerted when a character who scammed people for his own ends, was cruel, and acted vilely, shouldn’t receive a happy ending and love. but then a rational side, reminiscent of chinese philosophical thought, intervenes: the character owes nothing to anyone but himself. as long as he doesn’t betray his own worldview, he’s not obligated to change for the better or act according to moral principles, because he’s already virtuous by honoring the vows he made to himself and working to provide himself with everything he needs. and i think yan wushi is a perfect embodiment of that theory and i give respect where it’s due. and so unlike yan wushi, who truly has his own worldview and values that simply don’t align with the generally accepted ones, but instead presents an entire ideological system within which he functions quite logically, lin qingyu… he just enjoys doing bad things you know he’s just a bad girl. well that’s all he enjoys really. you know sort of an eye for an eye… make the whole world blind…
that’s not a good omen when a character’s impending death is the only thing keeping you invested. the plot was so directionless that for 40 chapters i was just sitting there waiting for the ml to die and that was genuinely the most exciting part. i’m pretty sure this applies for the next 2 lives as well.
overall, it’s not terrible, but not great either. you see where it could’ve been good, but it just… wasn’t. not sure if i will continue
I wasn't expecting how this story played out! Wow! This was really good! I can't get enough! I love how Lin Qingyu and Lu Wancheng are so in tune with one another!
Lin Qingyu is so cunning, smart, and has an evil inner self that Lu Wancheng can see, and I love it! They both made me laugh! They are amazing characters who love to do bad things together, if you know, you know. The flirting between these two! In my opinion, from day one they're in love, even though they're "obviously" straight! Love this cunning and scheming couple!
"Of course. I love the way you look when you use poison."
Did I decide to continue on with this novel? Yes, yes I did! Will I still be buying all the volumes the moment they come out? Hell yes I am! Happy Reading!
❤️🩹Spoiler Warning❤️🩹
Lin Qingyu was arranged to marry Lu Wancheng to extend Lu Wancheng's life. Lu Wancheng is chronically ill and doesn't have more than six months to live. Lin Qingyu hated the idea of being a male wife so much that he planned to poison Lu Wancheng.
The conniving these two do! Dear lord, I loved it so much. If anyone insults Lu Wancheng in any way, Lin Qingyu will find a way to plot their death! Of course, it's vice versa, but Lu Wancheng, with his weak body, needs help from Lin Qingyu.
The way Lu Wancheng would say certain phrases made me know immediately that he was transmigrated! And he was transmigrated from saving someone's life, only to die in this new life! Sob, sob, sob! I cried so hard reading the ending of this volume! I knew that Lu Wancheng was going to die, and I wasn't ready for it!
This is one of my all-time favorite books and the official English translation was my most anticipated read of the year. What I really love about this story is how earnest the MCs are towards each other, they prove their sincerity through their actions as they wholeheartedly devote themselves to supporting each others’ ambitions and wellbeing. I mean, they also spend a lot of time scheming to destroy anyone who has ever wronged them in any way (no matter how slight) but morally grey characters deserve happy endings too. Lu Wancheng is a lazy salted fish and Lin Qingyu can be cruel and petty but they match each others’ freak in a way that makes me so happy. That said, the scene depicted on the cover is the most emotionally painful scene that I can recall reading in a book and with my emotions so raw from my dog’s recent passing it had me straight up sobbing.
"Although the reason you and I met was unfortunate, we've come all this way together, and I've come to see you as a close friend. A thousand taels of gold are easy to find, compared to the difficulty of meeting a kindred spirit. I...will always remember Lu Wancheng."
I went into this volume wondering why so many readers were hooked. The first half just didn’t catch my interest, and I kept trying to figure out what everyone else was seeing. I stayed with it, though, and I’m glad I did. Once the story settles into its real momentum, the tension sharpens, the emotion deepens, and the mix of wit, medical detail, clever banter, and political maneuvering starts to hit with precision. The world feels rooted in ritual and tradition, shaped by etiquette, belief, and a social order that pushes every choice.
The heart of the book sits with Lin Qingyu and Lu Wancheng. Their dynamic works because each stands strong in a different way: Qingyu with his cool intelligence and guarded warmth, Wancheng with humor, fragility, and a bold charm that cuts through the gloom. They spark whenever they share a scene. Their friction fuels the narrative, and the slow shift from arrangement to something more honest lands with quiet force. Readers who appreciate smart characters, sharp dialogue, and bonds built through steady growth will likely connect with them. Those sensitive to forced marriage dynamics, illness, or heavy household scheming may find the tone intense, but the emotional payoff runs deep.
By the time I reached the final chapters, the story had me fully hooked. The twists tighten, the complications build, and the emotional pull hits with real impact. The mystery around Wancheng adds a thread that keeps the momentum clean and focused. And while the first half didn’t draw me in, the second half hit so hard that I closed the book in tears and immediately went looking for an FTL version to keep going. For readers who want layered character work, rising tension, and a blend of sharp humor with real feeling, this volume is well worth the time.
"I can ignore everything else -- I'm too lazy to care about it anyway. But this... I can't shrug it off. ... You were born to stand atop mountains. Even if you commit every evil in the world, I can't let you be reduced to a mere speck of dust."
Absolutely gobsmacked. I'm writing this review through my tears...!
This is a book about loving someone for who they are inside, completely and unconditionally.
Not just the person that they pretend to be -- a person who follows society's rules of politeness and conduct, the person who is put-together and capable, even a person who is kind, respectable, and admirable -- no. This is a book about seeing past a person's outermost layer and not only loving, but whole-heartedly accepting (and even encouraging) everything that's underneath. Any level of nastiness, pettiness, ugliness, shamefulness, hatred, even the lies --when you find your kindred spirit, even the most poisonous toxicity is beautiful. Wancheng and Qingyu embody "unconditional".
I love the characters in this book. They are so different from any I've encountered before. I think that Qingyu and Wancheng stand out among the other danmei protagonists I've enjoyed because they're completely and shamelessly vengeful and devious, traits which are usually reserved for villains, those of whom are often two-dimensionally and unabashedly evil people. Yet these two do immoral things out of a sense of hurt pride and rage, or else on a mere whim for their own amusement, repaying insult with great injury. Yet they're very far from being, or even feeling like, mustache-twirling villains. One is chronically ill, whose family is merely waiting for him to die, an eldest son who could never amount to anything in the household even if he wanted to. The other is a genius cut down in his prime, who, on top of it, is the victim of sexual harassment, misogyny, and objectification by his peers due to his beautiful and feminine appearance. Both of them have so many reasons to hate, even kill.
Yet you never get the sense, in my opinion, that either are truly evil or bad people... they simply see each other, and give each other permission to be bad. They see the pain that living has caused the other. And both of them seem to say to each other: "Just let go and lash out how you want, I'll help you bury the bodies."
And there's something just so deeply satisfying about that. Neither protagonist is trying to be a hero, or the bigger person, or a saint or martyr, or anything. They're just lashing out and hitting back, because they've both been dealt the shortest end of the stick. Wancheng wants to look at beautiful things before he succumbs to his chronic illness, and Qingyu is so beautiful when he's doing bad things, so he'll help him however he can. There's something so raw, honest, and human about that, in the simple desire of that. Especially when you contrast the attitude of these two with the extremely strict etiquette and societal standards for politeness that the other characters adhere to, seeing two characters go, "No, fuck you, I'm not going to grin and bear it while you look down on me, you will pay for this." is nothing short of satisfying (especially as a queer person reading a book about two queer people -- sometimes, you just want to see bad things happen to the oppressor. Sometimes, I don't want to read a story where we're the bigger person who takes it on the chin).
You can't help but love watching these two be bad while reading. But they are also so, so good.
How is this book so funny despite being so sad all the way through? There's such angry, bitter feelings of regret and hatred in the protagonist, Lin Qingyu, but Lu Wancheng, his carefree, grinning, layabout husband, balances him out so effortlessly. They are so hilarious to watch together, fitting together like two puzzle pieces, or like a black cat with a golden retriever.
And in between these exciting moments of scheming and plotting and revenge are these shocking scenes of tenderness. Sometimes the author will seemingly-casually throw out a sentence like "Qingyu cupped Wancheng's cheek" or "Wancheng laid in Qingyu's arms" (paraphrasing) and imagining it will just paralyze you with its sweetness and intimacy. There's never a big to-do about their romance -- it's hardly even a (conventional) romance at all, but it's certainly not a brotherhood. Calling them kindred spirits just feels so right. It just develops into something far past friendship before you even realize it, all happening between the lines. And I love that. Qingyu doesn't even have a moment of realizing that he wants to do everything he can for Wancheng to live... it's just a feeling that he slowly, steadily takes action on without thinking too hard about it. It's such subtle and quiet storytelling but feels so natural and lovely.
I find myself wanting to watch them forever. I want them to stay together and have each other in the world, you know? I want Qingyu to have someone who loves even his ugliest parts, just like I want Wancheng to have that person who challenges him and gives him a hard time. They need each other. I can't imagine what's going to happen next, but I know I need to get my hands on the next book as soon as possible...!
Lin“I’m tired of pretending to be a good person. I’m going to poison all my enemies”Qingyu marrying Lu“I love the way you look when you use poison.”Wancheng
Lin Qingyu is close to achieving his dreams of becoming an Imperial Physician when an edict comes from the palace that he is to marry the sickly young marquess – Lu Wancheng. Bitter that ten years of hard work is being wasted, Lin Qingyu eagerly awaits his husband’s death, hopefully before the Imperial physician exams are to occur. But when the newlyweds spend more time together, Lin Qingyu comes to realise that this young master who’s been sick and bedridden his whole life knows more than he should. Lu Wancheng proposes an idea that will help send Lin Qingyu back home to continue his studies and fulfill his dreams. As feelings bloom between these new allies, a dark truth looms over their tenuous bond—one that threatens to rip them apart in both sickness and health.
I’m a big fan of transmigration stories but this is the first where it is the ML and not the MC that has transmigrated and I loved how Lin Qingyu was so confused by the random modern lingo Lu Wangcheng spewed. Their whole murderer x enabler dynamic was entertaining to read. I was having so much fun reading them make moves against everyone else then stuff started happening and I was fighting for my life in the last chapter. I’m so happy volume 2 is already out because I don’t know how the rest of you coped.
so cute !!! but damn i knew what was gonna happen and still teared up at the end
"perhaps they were what the scholars called soulmates"
their dynamic was so fun to read, especially qingyu's responses to wancheng's teasing
exhibit A: "every other beauty insults their husband by calling them a bastard. then physician lin comes along and calls me a swine right off the bat. as i'd expect of my wife" "fuck off" "i can't" he whined shamelessly
and we love wancheng being qingyu's #1 enabler and defender when it comes to his secret poisonings and gremlin tendencies 🫶🏼
the cover is so evil... excited to continue and see how the rest of the transmigration plays out!
i never expected to cry so much reading a novel titled MARRIED THRICE TO SALTED FISH but BOY was i wrong because i was sobbing even though i knew it was going to happen!!!
I love murder husbands. Match my freak is fine. But, match my desire for vengeance and retribution? To DIE for—literally.
Anyway.
This is SO GOOD???? Way better than I was expecting from the silly title. I’m actually bewildered by just how much I enjoyed this!
Not only is this a danmei novel that makes use of several favorite tropes, it’s also very much an inner palace/manor intrigue story.
Arguably, I’d say that’s what this first novel is mostly about—our two young, newly married men trying to navigate the interior machinations of noble (and married) life. Pettiness abounds. Squabbles can be found around every corner. Toes are stepped on. Righteous anger flourishes. Just desserts are served. It gives some lite “Downton Abbey” vibes. Very fun.
I was just so captivated by all of THAT. I really enjoy it when a story is able to convey the important things about its characters through their actions.
Show don’t tell, you know?
Here, the author really makes use of this setting and this story’s circumstances to the fullest extent to demonstrate everything you need to know about the characters. How they think or react to different situations. How they respond on short notice or how they scheme. What bargains they make and who they confide in. What slights they forgive and what crosses a line. It’s pretty well done—and so deeply satisfying at points.
More, I really appreciate how this writer crafted the relationship between our main characters.
It feels more natural than relationships I’ve come across is other danmei series. I like the pacing of it and how it grows over time.
I REALLY like the endearingly antagonistic dynamic the pair has. They really play off each other and their interactions genuinely move the plot along. More, I appreciate how they have this mutually respectful and playful relationship. They’re jokingly mean to each other but, ultimately, on the same side.
And, they’re both down with murder. Which, is super fun.
How this author chooses to reveal certain information about Lu Wancheng’s character also belies an understanding of craft when it comes to storytelling. Subtlety is an art. It requires a careful hand. You can make your readers work for things and wait for reveals. I really like how the author leaves us—the readers—with some implications but plenty more questions. It makes me want to pick up the next book.
Anyway, anyway.
This is a well-conceived and well-crafted series all-around.
Highly recommend! I’m definitely looking forward to reading more of this series. It’s probably one be of my top danmei reads going into this new year~
Well, I can't believe I ever worried I might not enjoy this book just because I usually don't buy books without knowing them or the author beforehand.
But oh my god, this book was so good I can't straighten out my thoughts. I sobbed so hard at the ending, and the three month wait until volume 2 will be painful although worth it.
I definitely recommend this novel, but especially if you've never read a danmei! It's really beginner friendly, and I'm kind of wishing it was my first one, although I love tgcf with all my heart XD
My friend asked while I was reading this if I think she'd enjoy it. My answer is 100% a yes. The characters are so special, the story is easy to follow, the dialogue is well written, and the plot is easy to predict but not in a bad way? It's more so like you're less likely to get confused while reading. The only thing I noticed were some typos, such as there being two of the same words right next to each other. (example: there there )
What a stunning and heartbreaking volume. I can’t remember the last time I cried this much over the book, the final chapters were so beautiful yet so devastating.
The relationship between Lin Qingyu and Lu Wancheng is so witty, filled with clever and tender banter. I loved this story deeply and somehow appreciated it even more after finishing this volume.
But why oh why did they have to put that scene on the cover? 😭
”You seem to have grown even prettier, Qingyu.” He was like an extremely poisonous flower that had hidden itself for a long time but finally had a chance to bloom. He was beautiful yet terrifying, causing heart palpitations after a single glance.
Lin Qingyu lowered his head to look at his pristine, flawless hands. When he spoke, his voice seemed a bit accusatory. “You were the one who turned me into this.”
I wasn’t going to read this until volume 2 came out but I’m so glad that I didn’t wait. But also I’m miserable because I sobbed the entire last chapter. Merry Christmas?
4.75 stars?? OMFG!! That was sooooo much more painful than I even expected!!😭 .
Genuinely had me bent over & FULL ON GASPING OUT HEAVING SOBS!!😭😭 & went through 4 tissues!! More painful than even Yuwu 🫠. I wish this entire series was out.🫠
My Favorite Quotes/Paragraphs:(✨fav is last✨) ⚠️Spoilers below⚠️
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇"Qingyu, this is the first Mid-Autumn Festival we`re spending together and it's also our last." Lu Wancheng looked at the bright moon in the sky and smiled lightly, "At next year's Mid-Autumn Festival, will you...will you still remember me?"
Lin Qingyu raised his head and looked at the same bright moon Lu Wancheng was looking at. He said, "Although you and I started off in an ill-fated relationship, as we've kept each other company, I have grown to regard you as a confidant and a close friend. Money is easy to obtain, but friends are hard to find. I-... will always remember Lu Wancheng." 🥺
Always remember... Lu Wancheng?
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇Lu Wancheng looked at him for a while, and said, "Qingyu, do I have to sleep in the guest room tonight?"
Lin Qingyu's heart moved and he asked, "You didn't sleep well in the guest room?"
Lu Wancheng said slowly, "No, it's not that." He was about to say something more when he heard Huan Tong rep outside, "Young Master, Imperial Physician Hu is here."
(...)"Proper business was important but Lin Qingyu didn't forget it was about the time for Lu Wancheng to drink his medicine, "Huan Tong, take Young Master Hou back to his room to drink his medicine."
Lu Wancheng looked at Lin Qingyu's rapidly receding back, a complicated expression on his face. Huan Tong walked up to him and said, "Young Master Hou, let me push you back to your room."
Lu Wancheng was silent for a long time. Suddenly, he smiled and whispered, "Huan Tong, what should I do if I'm a little depressed."
Huan Tong said, puzzled: "Why is Young Master Hou depressed?"
Lu Wancheng thought about it for a while and said, not quite sure, "It seems because... I'm the only one who isn't used to it." 😔
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇Lu Wancheng looked back. "Wish?"
"Yes. As long as the Buddha hears it, he will definitely help us achieve our wish."
Lu Wancheng, sitting in his wheelchair, looked at the golden Buddha statue above the hall. A solemn treasure, looking down at all beings.
Lu Wancheng thought about it for a while, and said with a low smile, "Then... I hope he will always be happy." 😫
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇The cold air invaded his body and Lu Wancheng was overcome with a heart-rending coughing fit. As if he could no longer keep standing, he slowly slipped against the wall. Lin Qingyu quickly walked out of the study and shielded him from the wind and rain with his body. "Stop talking and get in the room first."
(...)Lin Qingyu grew silent. He had never seen such a Lu Wancheng before: it was as though he were tied down by shackles he couldn't break free of. He was completely different from the young man who was leisurely whistling on the porch that day.
He had always disdained Lu Wancheng for being too lazy, too big-hearted to care about anything. But now, instead, he hoped that Lu Wancheng could spend what little time he had left as simple and unthinking as before. 🥺😫
After an unknown length of time, Lu Wancheng's grip suddenly tightened, breaking the silence, "Qingyu."
Lin Qingyu said. "I'm here."
"I think," a darkness flashed Lu Wancheng's eyes, sharp and deep, but in the end, he was ill after all and his face remained pale, his mouth reeked of blood and his lips were as red as blood, "... I want Xiao Cheng's life."
Lin Qingyu's chest grew slightly hot. He turned his hand over and held Lu Wancheng's trembling wrist. He said warmly. "En, you need help?"
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇"By the way, is Doctor Lin preparing for my funeral?" Lu Wancheng said with a smile, "The other details don't matter but can I choose the coffin myself?"
"...Why?"
Lu Wancheng joked, "I want to pick one that's comfortable to sleep in." 🫠
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇Okay, alright. Just a friend and confidant.
But the passing of a close friend would still hurt and make one sad.
"I don't want to be even be a close friend anymore." Lu Wancheng was a little anxious, "Just treat me as... a tool."
A tool... a tool to be thrown away after use? A tool without any emotional involvement?
Lu Wancheng wanted him to do this?
Lin Qingyu sneered. "Lu Wancheng, who do you take me for?"
Lu Wancheng was stunned: "...Qingyu?"
"Do you think that after you die, I will be like other widowers, washing my face with tears all day, seeking death, tiring of living?" Lin Qingyu's voice was cold, like a snowy winter day, "You think I will abandon myself to despair, remain at a standstill, live my life missing you? You are wrong. Lu Wancheng. If I was so vulnerable and indecisive, when I married you, I would have smashed my head to my death on our bridal bed." Lin Qingyu looked at Lu Wancheng. his Adam's apple bobbed up and down. He said calmly. "Don't worry. I will watch you go, and then...I will live well." 💔🥺
Lu Wancheng stared at him for a long time, his eyes seemed filled with limpid autumn waters. He said, almost like a sigh. "What should I do, Qingyu? You have really... completely grown on my sexuality." 😆
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇Anyway... Lin Qingyu will never ever know what he wanted to express.
Lu Wancheng shook his head. "Not 'gege'. Call me 'Lao Gong'." (Husband)
Lin Qingyu was stunned and asked helplessly, "Do you know what the word "Lao Gong' means in Dayu?"
"I know, it means "eunuch'. right?" Lu Wancheng wanted to talk to Lin Qingyu in his usual teasing tone, but he was in so much pain that he was barely able to show a broken smile. "But the truth is, my lifelong dream has been to go to the palace and be a eunuch."
Lin Qingyu: "..." Lu Wancheng must have already lost all rationality from the pain and so he's able to spout such nonsense.
Lu Wancheng said with difficulty, "Can you let me take this advantage?"
How could he not?
Lin Qingyu gently wiped the cold sweat from his forehead with the hem of his sleeve and whispered, "Lao Gong."
Lu Wancheng smiled weakly, suppressing the groan that almost overflowed from his mouth because of the pain. He smiled. curving. "That sounds so nice. Thank you, Lao Po." (Wife) 😭😭
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇Lin Qingyu had a complete picture of the situation in the Eastern Palace, but when he talked to Lu Wancheng, he only told him the first half: Xiao Cheng had a headache, the imperial doctors were helpless. If this dragged on, medicines and treatments would be ineffective, even Hua Tuo would find him difficult to treat.
Hearing this, Lu Wancheng said. "Then does that mean I don't need to drink the medicine anymore? The poison is really painful." 💔😭
Lin Qingyu's chest clenched and he said, "If you don't want to drink, don't drink it."
Lu Wancheng looked at him for a while, then laughed, "This maneuver was truly well done. It is worthy of appreciation - (…)”
❤️❤️❤️❤️ ◇✨"I'm sorry, Qingyu. I don't think I can hold on anymore. But I've worked really hard. Don't be angry."
"I'm not." Lin Qingyu knelt in the snow, holding an umbrella in one hand and holding Lu Wancheng's cheek in the other. His voice was soft as water, "I'm not angry."
"Then, I'm going to sleep for a while. Remember to wake me up."
на жаль, сталося приблизно так, як й гадалося: обкладинка все ж виявилась найкращою частиною цієї книжки для мене. АЛЕ тепер я також тямлю за її шалено трагічний контекст (мені чесно давно так тяжко не доводилося продиратися крізь текст... ця їбуча 37 глава змушувала мене щокілька рядків робити тривалі паузи, бо мені кожнісіньке слово фізично зчавлювало горло настільки сильно, що я окрім як відчайдушно метатись з боку на бік в ліжку, захлинаючись сльозами, нічого не могла. pure torture, а не кінцівка, я вам, блять, кажу)
книжка в цілому — 3.25 зірочки, переважна більшість тексту — 2.75 останні глави — 4.5
мої улюблені моменти:
• будь-які згадки неминучої смерті лу ваньчена
• їхня з лінь цінюйєм — неочікувана — моральна сірість
• сяо чен (так, він доволі sleezy, але ж прикольний)
• оті проблиски змін у ставленні лінь цінюйя до лу ваньчена, які все частіше почали з'являтись наприкінці (delicious)
загалом, історія дуже навіть не погана. мені водночас подобається, як її поділили на тома (чітка окресленість арки та дуже емоційне завершення разом грають об'єктивно доладно), а з іншого — ні (якби я читала це цілісним файлом, без передишок та будь-якої дьорганості, я впевнена, що прикипіла б до персонажів дужче, а моя подальша прихильність замилила б перші хирлявенькі враження). as it is, though, я все ж поки не в захваті. останні глави — знов-таки — силувались перетягнути весь фокус на себе, і я ледь не вліпила тут 5 зірок, але мусила себе стримати.
більшість часу мені не надто подобалась тутешня динаміка між головними героями та їхні взаємодії. також я просто терпіти не можу (!!) всю ту єрунду з мільйонними запереченнями "i'm not gay, i like girls", навіть якщо один з персів ще щиро не усвідомлює своєї орієнтації/потім буде квір евейкенінг/про закоханість й мови (ще) просто нема — вотевер. не люблю і все, мене це дратує. стосовно сюжету як такого, то це теж було доволі посередньо. прикольні моменти, звісно, присутні, але виконання в цілому якесь надто uninspired. атмосфера з антуражем так само провисають, а до повного щастя й арти всередині були дуже tacky та просто негарні — вони без жартів дуже псували досвід. чого не можна було взяти художни_цю хоч трохи ближче рівня з міо, камон?
насправді я весь час думала, що після цієї частини далі братись за продовження не буду і без жодних задніх думок цю історію закину, але — зноввв-таки — останні глави взяли своє, тому з часом читатиму далі ✋😔
Upon learning of Lu Qiaosong’s sudden death, Lady Liang’s insanity, and the marquess’s illness, Lu Wancheng wasn’t surprised at all. On the contrary, he looked at Lin Qingyu appreciatively. “You seem to have grown even prettier, Qingyu.”
He was like an extremely poisonous flower that had hidden itself for a long time but finally had a chance to bloom. He was beautiful yet terrifying, causing heart palpitations after a single glance.
Lin Qingyu lowered his head to look at his pristine, flawless hands. When he spoke, his voice seemed a bit accusatory. “You were the one who turned me into this.”
This was a really unusual danmei, in that it read so smoothly that I could almost forget that it was translated. But it also does the typical danmei thing of being multiple volumes long and finishing one book out of three leaves you more or less in the middle of nowhere.
The plot of this novel is pretty glacial; by the end of the book it's hard to say if much of anything has happened beyond a bit of household politicking and internal family drama, and a bit of a hook that there's probably going to be external drama occurring in the future since the Crown Prince has shown up to be a villain. The slow-moving first half of the book is really my only complaint with it.
The two main characters are interesting and have a very fun, dynamic- the chemistry leaps off the page because of their personalities and the fact that the story gives them room to get to know one another and become friends. Lin Qingyu is great; I love how treacherous and petty he is, whilst also being intelligent and cunning. Similarly, Lu Wancheng as an indolent layabout who is nevertheless omniscient and secretly very intelligent as well is a very fun character. It comes out pretty early that he's a transmigrator of some kind, but you don't really get many details about that in the book. It's just a fun nod to the audience since we understand, but Lin Qingyu doesn't; at least, not at first. The idea that these two have recognised each other as kindred spirits and soulmates despite all odds and the insane circumstances of their meeting is really sweet. Lin Qingyu has every reason to despise Lu Wancheng, and yet he can't bring himself to, and instead can't help actually liking him with all his irresponsible charm.
The setting is consistent and drawn loosely so you can envision it without being beaten over the head with details, and the side characters are sufficient without being overwhelming. Maybe because Lu Wancheng is so sick, they don't really interact much with the wider political sphere, so the world can afford to be a little intimate.
Overall, I really enjoyed this. The pace was slow, but the story unfolded very naturally and read easily. I'm genuinely invested in the plot and the romance. The final scene of the book was heart-wrenching, and so well done. I'm really annoyed that I have to wait months before the next volume is out, and then I'll have to wait months again for the 3rd. If they were already released, I would have started the second one immediately and not stopped until I finished the series.