Find Him!: A Novel

by Elaine Kraf

An uncanny novel which provides keen insight on patriarchal violence and female identity by the author of feminist cult classic The Princess of 72nd Street

Understand my beginning with Oliver. You will see that my love for him is not a romantic fantasy. Every bit of this love was formed from the reality of primary needs—ingestion, excretion, simple pleasure and pain.

Our narrator’s name and origins are unknown. The man she lives with, Oliver, who serves as both her caregiver and her captor, told her she came to him from another star. Though she arrived a grown woman, she did not yet have the ability to speak or count. Oliver had to teach her how to properly chew her food and clean herself. Though isolated from our world, he did his best to care for his charge and, she insists, always felt the need to develop her into more than she was.

Now, she blends into our society, though she is different, wearing a blue blouse and gray suit and reading incessantly. The problem is, she can’t find Oliver. She goes back to their beginning to examine their relationship, a strange mix of father, lover, abuser, teacher. And then there is the question of Edith, a mysterious woman who has been writing to Oliver, and whose presence seems to haunt them both.

Originally published in 1977 and woven from fragments of nightmare and fantasy alike, Find Him! is a paragon of Elaine Kraf’s iconoclastic style.

Genres: Fiction, Classics, Literary Fiction, Feminism, Literature

240 pages, Paperback

First published January 1, 1977

About the author

Elaine Kraf is the author of four books: The Princess of 72nd Street, Find Him!, I Am Clarence, and The House of Madelaine.

Reviews

[Katie T]

Dnf 21% I’m not invested but it does seem interesting.

[Eddie Watkins · Rating 4 out of 5]

Loopy and slightly (intentionally) bewildering - with its separate threads spun from separate mental states - but still an authentic inside account of a wildly fragile (yet strangely grounded) psyche. I particularly like her perspective on male sexuality: a selfish tyrannical lover with a big drippy lower lip and Dumbo ears (she adores his hideous features!) who eats and masturbates simultaneously, but who still knows how to find the clitoris. Why does she stay with him? Is she a captive or an agoraphobic homebody who willingly submits due to an excess of compassion? Don't ask me, and don't ask me if she murders him in the end, or if she was lobotomized at the beginning. This is one warped and engaging (and perilously funny) take on Pygmalion. With music! Actual music interspersed. And I suspect the whole thing is structured as a four movement symphony. Elaine Kraf: fragility and control (and open-hearted insight) endlessly intertwined.

[MJ Nicholls]

I bought this on a whim since it was £0.22 on Amazon and the other two copies were £20 and upwards. Seemed a steal. Upon reading a dozen or so pages I can see my enthusiasm for this out-of-print curio was misplaced. But no one was ever going to purchase an Elaine Kraf novel anyway, so if I release it into the wilds of the charity shop, it may find a second life among curious weegies anxious to read dated seventies postmodern noodling. Or not. I hate the cover and the title. I also can’t tell if Fiction Collective (the publisher) is an early version of Curtis White’s FC2 press. But the author is rad: a musician and painter and all-round feminist magus. Her best book: The Princess of 72nd Street.

[Rebecca · Rating 4 out of 5]

My Shelf Awareness review: This third novel by the late Elaine Kraf explores her trademark themes of women's mental health and sexual freedom through a case of Stockholm syndrome.

The unnamed narrator arrives at Oliver's home an unformed adult in need of schooling in numerous subjects, including toileting and speech. As Henry Higgins to her Eliza Doolittle, he teaches her with much ingenuity and patience. Yet he is also capable of violence. She always feels like an intruder, or a replacement for Oliver's departed love, Edith, whose violet dress he likes her to wear. As the woman's naïveté cedes to precocity, their relationship turns sexual--but he only rapes her once, she insists. "He was the prince of men and nothing can change my mind," she declares, despite repellent descriptions: "You would think Oliver loathsome with his huge stomach, urine odor and... brown-clawed toenails." His project is an "Encyclopedia of Great Men" who typify the "frenzied idealist" (perhaps he counted himself one?); he claims to have met Adolf Hitler and corresponded with Vincent van Gogh.

The 1977 novel is obsessed with vision and language. The experimental mixture of forms--poetry, sheet music, letters from Edith--is typical for Kraf and gives temporary relief from a claustrophobic, repetitive narrative. Readers are kept guessing: Was the protagonist kidnapped? Amnesiac? Where is Oliver now? And what do these "evil investigators" want with her? Disturbing but intriguing, Find Him! would be an ideal follow-up read for fans of Liz Nugent's Strange Sally Diamond.

(Posted with permission from Shelf Awareness.) (3.5)

[Jolanta (knygupė) · Rating 4 out of 5]

Labai keistas romanas ir mano jausmai jam šiek tiek sumišę.
Trečias autorės romanas pirmą kart buvo išleistas 1977-iais ir pakartotas šiemet. Elaine Kraf (1946-2013) - rašytoja, poetė, dailininkė, o šiam romanui dar ir sukūrusi muzikinius intarpus. Klausant audio variantą, juos girdim, o spausdintame yra natos. Eksperimentinis romanas išleistas tais 77-ais eksperimentinę literatūrą leidžiančios leidyklos. Čia panašiai kaip mūsų Rara leidykla. Beje, manau, jei tiktu ši knyga. Autorė labai primygtinai traukia skaitytoją dalyvauti. Ne tik pavadinimu - Surask jį!, bet ir klausimais mums:
1. Who do you like better, Oliver or me? ________
2. Do you believe my story? (yes, or No)________
3. Why did Edith leave Oliver?__________
4. Why did Oliver teach me things? ________
5. Who was most at fault? __________
6. Why did Oliver leave? ________
7. Where do you think he is? __________
Ir apačioje palikta tuščią vietą nupiešti Oliverį.
Į klausimus atsakiau ir nupiešiau ant popieriaus skiautės Oliverį. Patiko. Kažkaip suveikia tas įsitraukimas.

Naratorės vardo, amžiaus, iš kur ji atsirado Oliverio name mes nežinom. Oliveris jai pasakė, kad iš žvaigždės. Pasakojimui įgaunant pagreitį pradedi įtarti (čia grynai mano įtarimas), jog ji gali būti jo žmona Edith, sugrįžusi iš ligoninės po lobotomijos operacijos. Turint minty knygos gimimo metus, ta mintis man atrodo logiška ;) Oliveris ją moko kalbėti, valgyti, eiti į tualetą...ir užsiiminėti seksu, aprenkdamas ją mergaitiškais rūbais. Bevardukei jis visas pasaulis iki kol...

Man šis romanas buvo apie patriarchalinį troškimą paversti moterį visiškai valdomu mechanizmu ir apie aukos sumanipuliuotą jauseną. Jūs gal jį perskaitysit kitaip.
Kad ir šiek tiek komplikuotas skaitinys, bet žavus ir žaismingas. Drįstu rekomenduoti.

Beje, man labai jautėsi Rachel Ingalls vaibas. Ne tiek Raros išlestos "Ponia Kaliban", bet jos apysakos "In the Act". Abi gyveno tuo pačiu laiku ir neabejoju, jog Ingalls patiko Kraf kūryba.

[Desirae Smith · Rating 4 out of 5]

Bought this on a whim at The Strand because the story sounded interesting and the cover was beautiful. I couldn’t find basically zero reviews of it. I finished this last night and, well, I thought it was great. There was a point in time where I thought I was losing faith or interesting in the story, but a few pages later it took another weird twist and I read until 1:30AM with the must-finish feeling. It’s all the absurdity and feminism of Poor Things, but with more, I don’t know, psychoanalysis vibes, more rage, more subtleness, more sick. Like one of the best SVU episodes of told from the victims perspective. I’ll read more of this author after reading this book and reading more about her.

[Ruby · Rating 4 out of 5]

forever grateful for these reprints