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The Saints of Westmont U #2
Cost of Redemption
He was my forbidden craving. My biggest regret. And now, he’s my only weakness.
Elio
Some mistakes you bury. Others crawl under your skin and never let go.
Jaxon Mercer was supposed to be my past. The stolen kiss. The fist that followed. The silence after.
But now? He’s here—cocky, dangerous, and looking at me like he already knows how this ends.
I should shut him out. I should forget the way he used to make me feel.
But when he’s this close, breathing is hard enough, let alone thinking straight.
Enemies. Ex-best friends. Rivals. Obsessions.
I don’t know what we are anymore.
But I know I want him.
Jaxon
He’s scared to want me. I want him desperate.
Elio Castelli pretends he has it all under control.
I know the desperate way he kissed me two years ago. I know the fear in his eyes when he shoved me away.
And now that I’m standing in front of him again, I know one thing for sure—he’s still mine, whether he admits it or not.
I’m done playing it safe. I’m done waiting.
I’ll have him.
Even if I have to break him first.
Cost of Redemption is the second novel in The Saints of Westmont U series. It is a largely standalone novel, but some threads continue from Edge of Temptation. Reading in order is not mandatory, but will enhance your enjoyment of the series. This is a college hockey romance depicting sexual awakening, toxic love, animosity, and has a guaranteed HEA. Content warnings are located inside the book.
Elio
Some mistakes you bury. Others crawl under your skin and never let go.
Jaxon Mercer was supposed to be my past. The stolen kiss. The fist that followed. The silence after.
But now? He’s here—cocky, dangerous, and looking at me like he already knows how this ends.
I should shut him out. I should forget the way he used to make me feel.
But when he’s this close, breathing is hard enough, let alone thinking straight.
Enemies. Ex-best friends. Rivals. Obsessions.
I don’t know what we are anymore.
But I know I want him.
Jaxon
He’s scared to want me. I want him desperate.
Elio Castelli pretends he has it all under control.
I know the desperate way he kissed me two years ago. I know the fear in his eyes when he shoved me away.
And now that I’m standing in front of him again, I know one thing for sure—he’s still mine, whether he admits it or not.
I’m done playing it safe. I’m done waiting.
I’ll have him.
Even if I have to break him first.
Cost of Redemption is the second novel in The Saints of Westmont U series. It is a largely standalone novel, but some threads continue from Edge of Temptation. Reading in order is not mandatory, but will enhance your enjoyment of the series. This is a college hockey romance depicting sexual awakening, toxic love, animosity, and has a guaranteed HEA. Content warnings are located inside the book.
272 pages, Kindle Edition
Published May 1, 2025
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Hayden Hall
72 books772 followersGay. Sweet. Steamy.
Hayden Hall writes MM romance novels. He is a boyfriend, a globetrotter, and an avid romance reader.
Hayden's mission is to author a catalog of captivating and steamy MM romance novels which gather a devoted community around the Happily Ever Afters.
His stories are sweet with just the right amount of naughty.
You can get in touch with Hayden on Facebook or through his website at haydenhallwrites.com
Hayden Hall writes MM romance novels. He is a boyfriend, a globetrotter, and an avid romance reader.
Hayden's mission is to author a catalog of captivating and steamy MM romance novels which gather a devoted community around the Happily Ever Afters.
His stories are sweet with just the right amount of naughty.
You can get in touch with Hayden on Facebook or through his website at haydenhallwrites.com
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May 4, 2025
"And maybe that was the problem. I loved him anyway. I loved him despite the wreckage he left in his wake, despite the bruises on my pride, despite the shame he threw at me like he was trying to infect me with it. Every time he hurt me, I swallowed it down like it was the cost of doing business with him. Like I deserved it somehow for coming back. For staying. For wanting."
Cost of Redemption is book 2 in Hayden Hall's linked The Saints of Westmont U series, set around the life and loves of a college ice hockey team, and whilst they don't necessarily have to be read in order, I would recommend you do so for context and because there are some overarching themes that carry through from book 1 Edge of Temptation. You will also get to know the back story to the teams's captain, Easton in that story (loved Easton and Jace!)
This is Elio and Jaxon's story.
What To Expect:
🖤MM college romance
🖤Ice hockey/football players
🖤Gay awakening
🖤Best friends to enemies to lovers
🖤Second chances
🖤Found family
🖤Steamy first times
🖤HEA
The best friends and second chances trope isn't my fave (I loved book 1's stepbrother trope!) but I always enjoy Hayden's books and particularly this series, where the writing and themes are a little darker than his usual cute/sweet reads.
4 stars
Cost of Redemption is book 2 in Hayden Hall's linked The Saints of Westmont U series, set around the life and loves of a college ice hockey team, and whilst they don't necessarily have to be read in order, I would recommend you do so for context and because there are some overarching themes that carry through from book 1 Edge of Temptation. You will also get to know the back story to the teams's captain, Easton in that story (loved Easton and Jace!)
This is Elio and Jaxon's story.
What To Expect:
🖤MM college romance
🖤Ice hockey/football players
🖤Gay awakening
🖤Best friends to enemies to lovers
🖤Second chances
🖤Found family
🖤Steamy first times
🖤HEA
The best friends and second chances trope isn't my fave (I loved book 1's stepbrother trope!) but I always enjoy Hayden's books and particularly this series, where the writing and themes are a little darker than his usual cute/sweet reads.
4 stars
September 17, 2025
This wasn’t bad. Like the previous book, the plot and the relationship between the MMCs had a lot of potential. But, as with the earlier book in this series, the story felt rushed. It honestly read more like a short story than a full-length novel, because everything happened so fast and I couldn’t really see much depth in the characters’ personalities or growth.
I also wish the tension between the MMCs had been stronger. Best friends to enemies to lovers with a second-chance arc could have created such powerful tension, but for me, it just wasn’t there. Even the anger Jaxon felt toward Elio when they saw each other again fell flat.
Elio’s character started off with deep internalized homophobia and shame, and his growth could have been such a powerful part of the story. But it felt like it happened almost overnight. I know everyone’s journey is different, but with the amount of shame he carried, I expected his process of accepting himself to be more drawn out and layered. Instead, it was quick and lacked depth.
It also felt like the story wasn’t just about Elio and Jaxon, but about Elio, Jaxon, and Ronan. I get that much of Jaxon’s storyline is tied to the shame and struggles he feels because of his brother’s choices, so of course that had to be part of his journey. But almost every single thought in his inner monologue mentioned his brother. I just wish it had been less about that and more about Jaxon himself, because by the end, I still didn’t feel like I really knew him.
I liked that we got closure on the whole captaincy competition with Easton, and I’m glad they were able to stay friends. Even though it lacked depth in… well, pretty much everything, this book was still better than the first. For me, it’s a 2.5-star read.
“And maybe that was the problem. I loved him anyway. I loved him despite the wreckage he left in his wake, despite the bruises on my pride, despite the shame he threw at me like he was trying to infect me with it. Every time he hurt me, I swallowed it down like it was the cost of doing business with him. Like I deserved it somehow for coming back. For staying. For wanting.”
I also wish the tension between the MMCs had been stronger. Best friends to enemies to lovers with a second-chance arc could have created such powerful tension, but for me, it just wasn’t there. Even the anger Jaxon felt toward Elio when they saw each other again fell flat.
Elio’s character started off with deep internalized homophobia and shame, and his growth could have been such a powerful part of the story. But it felt like it happened almost overnight. I know everyone’s journey is different, but with the amount of shame he carried, I expected his process of accepting himself to be more drawn out and layered. Instead, it was quick and lacked depth.
It also felt like the story wasn’t just about Elio and Jaxon, but about Elio, Jaxon, and Ronan. I get that much of Jaxon’s storyline is tied to the shame and struggles he feels because of his brother’s choices, so of course that had to be part of his journey. But almost every single thought in his inner monologue mentioned his brother. I just wish it had been less about that and more about Jaxon himself, because by the end, I still didn’t feel like I really knew him.
I liked that we got closure on the whole captaincy competition with Easton, and I’m glad they were able to stay friends. Even though it lacked depth in… well, pretty much everything, this book was still better than the first. For me, it’s a 2.5-star read.
“And maybe that was the problem. I loved him anyway. I loved him despite the wreckage he left in his wake, despite the bruises on my pride, despite the shame he threw at me like he was trying to infect me with it. Every time he hurt me, I swallowed it down like it was the cost of doing business with him. Like I deserved it somehow for coming back. For staying. For wanting.”
June 29, 2025
Cost of Redemption
3 ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
‘Cost of Redemption’ Book 2 in The Saints of Westmont U series, is Elio and Jaxon’s story.
Happily, it straight away fills us in on what happened to the obnoxious Kyle Hobbs and also picks up where Elio has the fateful falling out with his best friend Easton an MC in Book 1, ‘Edge of Temptation’. I already had a hunch in Book 1 as to why he did that.
Now, some months later Elio, still in denial, is shocked to come face to face with Jaxon, his EX BFF from his hometown in Pennsylvania. The guy whose nose he broke because he kissed him at their farewell party before going away to college in separate States.
Things aren’t going well for Elio, pressure is mounting due to the battle between Easton and him for the role of Team Captain, also the prospect of bumping into Football player Jaxon on campus and elsewhere. He also misses the company of his old friend Easton and regrets how he let him down when he needed support.
Elio was a difficult character for me to like in all his interactions both on and off the Ice with his team and with his old friend Jaxon. He does garner some sympathy from me when I see how he struggles to come out of the closet, or even admit that he was in it in the first place.
Jaxon Mercer has his own baggage to carry as a result of his older brother’s bad track record at his college in New Haven and this is why he has transferred to Westmont U. to get away from the constant reminder of his families shame.
Facing Elio again for the first time since arriving at Westmont, they were like two hissing snakes, full of venom.
Author Hayden Hall always likes to deliver HEA for his MC’s and that’s exactly what he delivers here with all the usual sparks and fireworks.
Book 3 in this authors series, Is ‘Rules of Play’ and features Patrick Callahan a prominent player on for Westmont Saints hockey team. He appears in both book 1 and 2 also. ‘Rules of Play’ is where I’m going next.
3 ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
‘Cost of Redemption’ Book 2 in The Saints of Westmont U series, is Elio and Jaxon’s story.
Happily, it straight away fills us in on what happened to the obnoxious Kyle Hobbs and also picks up where Elio has the fateful falling out with his best friend Easton an MC in Book 1, ‘Edge of Temptation’. I already had a hunch in Book 1 as to why he did that.
Now, some months later Elio, still in denial, is shocked to come face to face with Jaxon, his EX BFF from his hometown in Pennsylvania. The guy whose nose he broke because he kissed him at their farewell party before going away to college in separate States.
Things aren’t going well for Elio, pressure is mounting due to the battle between Easton and him for the role of Team Captain, also the prospect of bumping into Football player Jaxon on campus and elsewhere. He also misses the company of his old friend Easton and regrets how he let him down when he needed support.
Elio was a difficult character for me to like in all his interactions both on and off the Ice with his team and with his old friend Jaxon. He does garner some sympathy from me when I see how he struggles to come out of the closet, or even admit that he was in it in the first place.
Jaxon Mercer has his own baggage to carry as a result of his older brother’s bad track record at his college in New Haven and this is why he has transferred to Westmont U. to get away from the constant reminder of his families shame.
Facing Elio again for the first time since arriving at Westmont, they were like two hissing snakes, full of venom.
Author Hayden Hall always likes to deliver HEA for his MC’s and that’s exactly what he delivers here with all the usual sparks and fireworks.
Book 3 in this authors series, Is ‘Rules of Play’ and features Patrick Callahan a prominent player on for Westmont Saints hockey team. He appears in both book 1 and 2 also. ‘Rules of Play’ is where I’m going next.
May 25, 2025
Cost Of Redemption is book two in The Saints of Westmont U series. This MM college hockey romance story is about Elio and Jaxon.
We first met Elio in book one as Easton’s best friend, and we saw how their friendship takes a turn for the worse. In this book, we get a better understanding of why Elio acts the way he does. Elio and Jaxon were best friends in high school. But at a party the summer before they left for college, one night ruins everything between them.
A couple years later, Jaxon transfers to the same college as Elio. These two are definitely not happy to see each other again. But despite their anger and confusing feelings, it isn’t long before they give in to their attraction to each other. They were so incredibly hot together. But Elio wanted to hide what they had together, and it hurt my heart when he ignored Jaxon in public. And although Jaxon was patient and understanding, it came to a point where he couldn’t continue being Elio’s secret anymore.
I do admit that I got a bit frustrated at times with Elio. His self-hatred was tough to read, but I am glad he was able to work through his issues and finally accept who he was. I was happy he was able to work things out with Easton. And although I feel like Jaxon might have forgiven Elio a little too easily, I was happy to see them get their HEA.
I received an advanced copy of this book, and this is my honest review.
We first met Elio in book one as Easton’s best friend, and we saw how their friendship takes a turn for the worse. In this book, we get a better understanding of why Elio acts the way he does. Elio and Jaxon were best friends in high school. But at a party the summer before they left for college, one night ruins everything between them.
A couple years later, Jaxon transfers to the same college as Elio. These two are definitely not happy to see each other again. But despite their anger and confusing feelings, it isn’t long before they give in to their attraction to each other. They were so incredibly hot together. But Elio wanted to hide what they had together, and it hurt my heart when he ignored Jaxon in public. And although Jaxon was patient and understanding, it came to a point where he couldn’t continue being Elio’s secret anymore.
I do admit that I got a bit frustrated at times with Elio. His self-hatred was tough to read, but I am glad he was able to work through his issues and finally accept who he was. I was happy he was able to work things out with Easton. And although I feel like Jaxon might have forgiven Elio a little too easily, I was happy to see them get their HEA.
I received an advanced copy of this book, and this is my honest review.
May 28, 2025
I called off work to keep reading this… Elio and Jaxon you are my LIFE now.
May 9, 2025
Another enjoyable read by Hayden Hall.
I would have liked more communication between Elio and Jaxon, I didn't fully feel the emotional connection between them only the pull of attraction they felt and couldn't seem to fight. After so long apart and with such an emotional gulf that was left between them when they last met, I wanted more from their reconnection.
I felt for Elio with his feelings about his own sexuality and was happy he was able to work through it and come to terms with his feelings. I was happy that Elio and Jaxon finally got a HEA that the two former best friends deserved.
I liked seeing how things played out with Elio and Easton and the rest of the team after everything that happened in Edge of Temptation. I really liked that they were able to sort things out and can work on building the friendship they had.
I'm looking forward to more from Westmont U.
I would have liked more communication between Elio and Jaxon, I didn't fully feel the emotional connection between them only the pull of attraction they felt and couldn't seem to fight. After so long apart and with such an emotional gulf that was left between them when they last met, I wanted more from their reconnection.
I felt for Elio with his feelings about his own sexuality and was happy he was able to work through it and come to terms with his feelings. I was happy that Elio and Jaxon finally got a HEA that the two former best friends deserved.
I liked seeing how things played out with Elio and Easton and the rest of the team after everything that happened in Edge of Temptation. I really liked that they were able to sort things out and can work on building the friendship they had.
I'm looking forward to more from Westmont U.
April 26, 2025
⭐️ARC REVIEW ⭐️
Hayden is pulling no punches when in comes to emotions in The Saints of Westmont U series.The second book is about Elio and Jaxon, two former best friends from high school whose friendship fell apart after a life-altering kiss.
Now, two years later, Jaxon transfers to Elio’s university. The tension between them is fueled by remaining hurt, unresolved feelings, and chemistry. Hayden captures the pain of a lost friendship,self-loathing,destructive behaviour, and Elio’s journey of denial and acceptance of himself.
I found this book emotional at times, as the push and pull between Elio and Jaxon is hard to read. Jaxon’s love for Elio, even when only receiving scraps of affection, is heartbreaking.
This book explores sexual awakening and self-acceptance in an emotional but beautiful way.Hayden is out doing himself with this series.🩵
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Hayden is pulling no punches when in comes to emotions in The Saints of Westmont U series.The second book is about Elio and Jaxon, two former best friends from high school whose friendship fell apart after a life-altering kiss.
Now, two years later, Jaxon transfers to Elio’s university. The tension between them is fueled by remaining hurt, unresolved feelings, and chemistry. Hayden captures the pain of a lost friendship,self-loathing,destructive behaviour, and Elio’s journey of denial and acceptance of himself.
I found this book emotional at times, as the push and pull between Elio and Jaxon is hard to read. Jaxon’s love for Elio, even when only receiving scraps of affection, is heartbreaking.
This book explores sexual awakening and self-acceptance in an emotional but beautiful way.Hayden is out doing himself with this series.🩵
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May 1, 2025
Cost of Redemption by Hayden Hall is book 2 in the Saints of Westmount U series. I am not going to lie…..I was dying for Elio and Jaxon’s story. The chapter at the end of book 1 let me know that this was not going to be an easy story.
Elio Castelli has been friends with Jaxon Mercer for a very long time. They spend a lot of time together and understand each other. Before leaving for college, Jaxon decides to take a chance and kiss Elio and let him know that he has feelings for him. Elio does not respond well and the friendship soon turns into hatred.
Elio was really hard to like. He had a lot of internalized homophobia that made him act out with his teammates as well as Jaxon. I really loved Jaxon and there were times that I thought he deserved better than what Elio was giving him. I was happy when he stood up for himself.
I am really enjoying this series and I cannot wait for the next one!
I received an ARC from the author for my honest review
Elio Castelli has been friends with Jaxon Mercer for a very long time. They spend a lot of time together and understand each other. Before leaving for college, Jaxon decides to take a chance and kiss Elio and let him know that he has feelings for him. Elio does not respond well and the friendship soon turns into hatred.
Elio was really hard to like. He had a lot of internalized homophobia that made him act out with his teammates as well as Jaxon. I really loved Jaxon and there were times that I thought he deserved better than what Elio was giving him. I was happy when he stood up for himself.
I am really enjoying this series and I cannot wait for the next one!
I received an ARC from the author for my honest review
April 27, 2025
Cost of Redemption is the second book in The Saints of Westmont U series. This book can be read as a standalone but some threads continue from Edge of Temptation the first book in the series. Please read the trigger warnings before starting especially if homophobia is a trigger. This is the story of Elio and Jaxon. Elio and Jaxon were best friends in highschool but a kiss ended that. Now two years later Jaxon is back and still wants Elio. This was an emotional story about coming to accept yourself. Elio had to overcome his internalized homophobia and self hatred. I love this darker series by Hayden Hall. I can't wait for the next book in the series. I would definitely recommend this book and series.
May 3, 2025
This was a fun read.
Getting to know Jaxon and Elio along with their shaky relationship that turns not so shaky because Elio got a taste and now can't get enough regardless of his inner turmoil was a blast.
I am a sucker for friends-to-enemies-to-lovers because yes, I love angst. There is nothing like a height difference, mutual hate with spicy tension and equally spicy hate-talk on a quiet afternoon with a cup of tea.
Getting to know Jaxon and Elio along with their shaky relationship that turns not so shaky because Elio got a taste and now can't get enough regardless of his inner turmoil was a blast.
I am a sucker for friends-to-enemies-to-lovers because yes, I love angst. There is nothing like a height difference, mutual hate with spicy tension and equally spicy hate-talk on a quiet afternoon with a cup of tea.
May 8, 2025
All the stars.
✨✨✨✨✨🪄✨✨✨✨✨
Jeez, that prologue was brutal. Hayden Hall brings all the drama right at the start.😰
This feels like a punch in the gut and the way it mimics and intertwines with the theme of book one is perfect.
Self doubt, self pity, self loathing, guilt, pain, all the pain. This is an emotional read that just punches you in the gut.
Hayden Hall, I could feel you through this even before reading the author's note. The authenticity in the writing was so strong.
All the feels. I loved it.
*Favorites
*bought the paperback.
✨✨✨✨✨🪄✨✨✨✨✨
Jeez, that prologue was brutal. Hayden Hall brings all the drama right at the start.😰
This feels like a punch in the gut and the way it mimics and intertwines with the theme of book one is perfect.
Self doubt, self pity, self loathing, guilt, pain, all the pain. This is an emotional read that just punches you in the gut.
Hayden Hall, I could feel you through this even before reading the author's note. The authenticity in the writing was so strong.
All the feels. I loved it.
*Favorites
*bought the paperback.
tbr-i-own
May 18, 2025Excited to read this!
July 30, 2025
Really enjoyed this story. Elio was a bit of a dick, but he was struggling hard at times.
May 1, 2025
This author is one of my favourite and this book is really amazing.
This is a tough book to read because the strugle from theses MCs is tough and we can feel it.
I wanted to hug Elio and tell him that everything was going to be allright
Highly recomended both the author and the book
This is a tough book to read because the strugle from theses MCs is tough and we can feel it.
I wanted to hug Elio and tell him that everything was going to be allright
Highly recomended both the author and the book
May 9, 2025
4.5 stars
I enjoyed Elio and Jaxon’s story a lot, I appreciated the backstory of them at the end of their senior year of high school and the explanation of what went wrong between them. When the book had Elio started the beginning of his junior year of college and what happened with Easton, I was totally lost for a bit. I had read book 1, but only had a vague memory of what had occurred so had to go back to refresh my memory (had read many books since then) until it made sense and I could move on in book 2. Basically, Elio was a mess. His reaction to Easton was unexpected, he missed Easton and regretted what he had done, but wasn’t able to get past the feelings he couldn’t really understand. When Jaxon showed up, having transferred to Westmont U, all of the anger and mixed feelings of two years ago came back, throwing El in turmoil, his feelings all over the place. When Jaxon helped him when he was drunk, it started more reactions and feelings El couldn’t figure out for quite awhile, he just knew he was drawn to Jax and wanted more. When the two got together, El was deeply closeted any time they were out in public, as he tried to accept his feelings for Jax and reconcile them with his altered understanding of his sexuality. It might have been easier if the rest of his life wasn’t so chaotic, with the competition for captaincy of the hockey team, his continuing estrangement from Easton and tense relationship with his roommate and teammate Patrick, and the desire to have his time with Jax without exposing himself to the uncertainty of coming out. When Jax finally couldn’t handle being El’s dirty secret, El had to do some deep soul searching and self evaluation to decide what he wanted and what, if anything, he could do to fix it. It was good to see the growth he made, to understand the impact his thoughtless actions had on others, his realization of the importance of his relationship with Jaxon and his willingness to try to rectify what he had wrecked in his life.
Jaxon had his own problems aside from Elio. He is trying to move forward after his older brother had caused a scandal in his professional football career, and Jax was bearing some of the fallout just because of his last name and relationship with his brother. He was quarterback of the Westmont U football team and felt he always had the weight of his brother’s actions overshadowing his accomplishments on the team, longing for recognition without the connection to his brother. The feelings he had for Elio were strong, but complicated, and when he realized he couldn’t deal with Elio deeply in the closet, it created stresses for himself in addition to the others in his life. Neither were faring well.
It was good to catch up with Easton and Jace and see how they were faring after the Kyle debacle. Patrick was still a steady point in El’s life, although firmly on the side of Easton in that situation, but there for El if needed.
I am always impressed with the description of the hockey action in these books, and even though I’ve never been to or seen a hockey game, I think I could follow one now and have a good idea of what was going on.
There was humor and sadness, recrimination and reconciliation, gay awakening and coming out, steamy encounters, enemies to friends and lovers, quite a bit of angst on Elio’s side, team rivalries, and a HEA, at least for now. Looking forward to Patrick’s story next. If you read book 1, I think you would enjoy this one, too, and would definitely recommend it.
I received an ARC from the author, and this is my voluntary review.
I enjoyed Elio and Jaxon’s story a lot, I appreciated the backstory of them at the end of their senior year of high school and the explanation of what went wrong between them. When the book had Elio started the beginning of his junior year of college and what happened with Easton, I was totally lost for a bit. I had read book 1, but only had a vague memory of what had occurred so had to go back to refresh my memory (had read many books since then) until it made sense and I could move on in book 2. Basically, Elio was a mess. His reaction to Easton was unexpected, he missed Easton and regretted what he had done, but wasn’t able to get past the feelings he couldn’t really understand. When Jaxon showed up, having transferred to Westmont U, all of the anger and mixed feelings of two years ago came back, throwing El in turmoil, his feelings all over the place. When Jaxon helped him when he was drunk, it started more reactions and feelings El couldn’t figure out for quite awhile, he just knew he was drawn to Jax and wanted more. When the two got together, El was deeply closeted any time they were out in public, as he tried to accept his feelings for Jax and reconcile them with his altered understanding of his sexuality. It might have been easier if the rest of his life wasn’t so chaotic, with the competition for captaincy of the hockey team, his continuing estrangement from Easton and tense relationship with his roommate and teammate Patrick, and the desire to have his time with Jax without exposing himself to the uncertainty of coming out. When Jax finally couldn’t handle being El’s dirty secret, El had to do some deep soul searching and self evaluation to decide what he wanted and what, if anything, he could do to fix it. It was good to see the growth he made, to understand the impact his thoughtless actions had on others, his realization of the importance of his relationship with Jaxon and his willingness to try to rectify what he had wrecked in his life.
Jaxon had his own problems aside from Elio. He is trying to move forward after his older brother had caused a scandal in his professional football career, and Jax was bearing some of the fallout just because of his last name and relationship with his brother. He was quarterback of the Westmont U football team and felt he always had the weight of his brother’s actions overshadowing his accomplishments on the team, longing for recognition without the connection to his brother. The feelings he had for Elio were strong, but complicated, and when he realized he couldn’t deal with Elio deeply in the closet, it created stresses for himself in addition to the others in his life. Neither were faring well.
It was good to catch up with Easton and Jace and see how they were faring after the Kyle debacle. Patrick was still a steady point in El’s life, although firmly on the side of Easton in that situation, but there for El if needed.
I am always impressed with the description of the hockey action in these books, and even though I’ve never been to or seen a hockey game, I think I could follow one now and have a good idea of what was going on.
There was humor and sadness, recrimination and reconciliation, gay awakening and coming out, steamy encounters, enemies to friends and lovers, quite a bit of angst on Elio’s side, team rivalries, and a HEA, at least for now. Looking forward to Patrick’s story next. If you read book 1, I think you would enjoy this one, too, and would definitely recommend it.
I received an ARC from the author, and this is my voluntary review.
April 27, 2025
I received a free advance. This review is submitted voluntarily.
Two years before, Jaxon threw a party in his own and Elio’s honour since would soon be going their separate ways, Elio to Westmont U in Illinois for hockey and Jaxon to New Haven for football. Unbeknownst by Elio, Jaxon had a substantial crush on him. When he attempted to kiss Elio, the latter broke Jaxon’s nose and stormed off, protesting to all party attendees that Jaxon had him (not the other way around), notwithstanding the fact that Elio had actually gotten excited by the kiss. Fast forward to the present day, and Elio is yelling at his good friend and team captain Easton because Easton was outed by a team member and Elio was in terror that he would be found guilty by association. This, of course, was a clear manifestation of his internalized homophobia. Unbeknownst to him, Jaxon had transferred to Westmont after his teammates had hounded him over his brother Ronan’s spectacular fall from glory. When he and Elio finally meet, sparks fly. After a confrontation, they finally get together, though Elio continues to keep the relationship on the downlow. This results in tension between them. After a number of struggles, they eventually attain their happy ending.
The problem I had with this book was the fact that it bore little relation to what was described in the blurb, and I almost turned it down. Luckily, I didn’t because the story was much more interesting. Many of us have been through some form of internalized homophobia and can sympathize with Elio. We can also empathize with Jaxon since many of us have had to face feelings for someone who denies being gay. In that sense, the MCs are very realistic, though their reactions to the situation tend to be a bit on the dramatic side, necessary for the plot of the book. The interplay between Elio and some of the secondary characters is equally realistic in the circumstances. There aren’t a lot of secondary characters (not counting minor ones), but they are all important to plot development. In my view, the plot is much more interesting that the one described in the blurb, and for that reason I can happily recommend this book.
Two years before, Jaxon threw a party in his own and Elio’s honour since would soon be going their separate ways, Elio to Westmont U in Illinois for hockey and Jaxon to New Haven for football. Unbeknownst by Elio, Jaxon had a substantial crush on him. When he attempted to kiss Elio, the latter broke Jaxon’s nose and stormed off, protesting to all party attendees that Jaxon had him (not the other way around), notwithstanding the fact that Elio had actually gotten excited by the kiss. Fast forward to the present day, and Elio is yelling at his good friend and team captain Easton because Easton was outed by a team member and Elio was in terror that he would be found guilty by association. This, of course, was a clear manifestation of his internalized homophobia. Unbeknownst to him, Jaxon had transferred to Westmont after his teammates had hounded him over his brother Ronan’s spectacular fall from glory. When he and Elio finally meet, sparks fly. After a confrontation, they finally get together, though Elio continues to keep the relationship on the downlow. This results in tension between them. After a number of struggles, they eventually attain their happy ending.
The problem I had with this book was the fact that it bore little relation to what was described in the blurb, and I almost turned it down. Luckily, I didn’t because the story was much more interesting. Many of us have been through some form of internalized homophobia and can sympathize with Elio. We can also empathize with Jaxon since many of us have had to face feelings for someone who denies being gay. In that sense, the MCs are very realistic, though their reactions to the situation tend to be a bit on the dramatic side, necessary for the plot of the book. The interplay between Elio and some of the secondary characters is equally realistic in the circumstances. There aren’t a lot of secondary characters (not counting minor ones), but they are all important to plot development. In my view, the plot is much more interesting that the one described in the blurb, and for that reason I can happily recommend this book.
April 28, 2025
Here's Hayden Hall's "Cost of Redemption." It's the Second novel in his new Saints of Westmont U series.
["He was my forbidden craving. My biggest regret. And now, he’s my only weakness.
Elio
Some mistakes you bury. Others crawl under your skin and never let go.
Jaxon Mercer was supposed to be my past. The stolen kiss. The fist that followed. The silence after.
But now? He’s here—cocky, dangerous, and looking at me like he already knows how this ends.
I should shut him out. I should forget the way he used to make me feel.
But when he’s this close, breathing is hard enough, let alone thinking straight.
Enemies. Ex-best friends. Rivals. Obsessions.
I don’t know what we are anymore.
But I know I want him.
Jaxon
He’s scared to want me. I want him desperate.
Elio Castelli pretends he has it all under control.
I know the desperate way he kissed me two years ago. I know the fear in his eyes when he shoved me away.
And now that I’m standing in front of him again, I know one thing for sure—he’s still mine, whether he admits it or not.
I’m done playing it safe. I’m done waiting.
I’ll have him.
Even if I have to break him first."]
This book was bitter sweet. It was filled with friendship and a feeling of rightness so strong, you feel it deep in your bones. But it was also filled with fear and loneliness so deep, so isolating. Their love story was something to be jealous of, and yet, a looming dread hung around it, around them. Fear and self-doubt broke their hearts (they broke their own hearts). But being brave and having people behind you, supporting you through all of your shit, can help you face anything.
I canNOT wait for the next book! Patrick and his nerd!!
Trigger Warnings: toxic love, internalized homophobia, homophobia, mentions of drug use, physical violence, and more.
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["He was my forbidden craving. My biggest regret. And now, he’s my only weakness.
Elio
Some mistakes you bury. Others crawl under your skin and never let go.
Jaxon Mercer was supposed to be my past. The stolen kiss. The fist that followed. The silence after.
But now? He’s here—cocky, dangerous, and looking at me like he already knows how this ends.
I should shut him out. I should forget the way he used to make me feel.
But when he’s this close, breathing is hard enough, let alone thinking straight.
Enemies. Ex-best friends. Rivals. Obsessions.
I don’t know what we are anymore.
But I know I want him.
Jaxon
He’s scared to want me. I want him desperate.
Elio Castelli pretends he has it all under control.
I know the desperate way he kissed me two years ago. I know the fear in his eyes when he shoved me away.
And now that I’m standing in front of him again, I know one thing for sure—he’s still mine, whether he admits it or not.
I’m done playing it safe. I’m done waiting.
I’ll have him.
Even if I have to break him first."]
This book was bitter sweet. It was filled with friendship and a feeling of rightness so strong, you feel it deep in your bones. But it was also filled with fear and loneliness so deep, so isolating. Their love story was something to be jealous of, and yet, a looming dread hung around it, around them. Fear and self-doubt broke their hearts (they broke their own hearts). But being brave and having people behind you, supporting you through all of your shit, can help you face anything.
I canNOT wait for the next book! Patrick and his nerd!!
Trigger Warnings: toxic love, internalized homophobia, homophobia, mentions of drug use, physical violence, and more.
#gayromancereviews #grr #arcs #arcteammember
#edgeoftemptation #costofredemption #rulesofplay #haydenhall #thesaintsofwestmontu #thesaintsofwestmontuseries #books #queerbooks #queererotica #bodicerippers #bookstagram #bookphotography #ilovebooks
April 25, 2025
3.5 stars
Elio and Jaxon had been best friends through high school, but there was a blow up after graduation between them that was completely Elio's fault. Two years later, Elio has tried to move on, but when Easton, his best friend in uni is exposed as being gay, Elio turns his back on him (events from book 1). As we come to learn, this is due to internalized homophobia on Elio's part. When Jaxon joins the same university, there is a confrontation and Elio soon learns that the sweet boy he knew has become a rage filled young man, and that Jaxon's presense is stirring up feelings he thought he'd gotten over and that he's determined to ignore.
Jaxon tried to move on from Elio and from the backlash from events caused by his older brother and being compared to said brother. This created a bit of a downward spiral for him and made him decide to switch universities - to the one where Elio is, knowing that at some point they will come face to face.
There is a lot of anger between these two, but at some point Elio gives in to his desires - but only on his terms. Jaxon is fine with that - until he isn't, and he realizes he deserves more. After some time apart, they again reconnect when Elio makes a grand gesture. This is a really sweet moment and leads to much happiness and acceptance for them.
My issue with this book is that I felt that there were only bits and pieces of information scattered throughout the book, and some of it was just vague. There should have been more quality time spent on Elio redeeming himself for what happened between him and Jaxon, and Elio coming to terms with his sexuality. Jaxon was way too quickly forgiving, and it seemed intimate times were the answer to their problems rather than talking. I did like that Elio apologized to Easton for the events in book one, but Easton is another one that was quickly forgiving.
This book didn't feel up to the standards of a Hayden Hall book.
I received an ARC, this is my honest opinion.
Elio and Jaxon had been best friends through high school, but there was a blow up after graduation between them that was completely Elio's fault. Two years later, Elio has tried to move on, but when Easton, his best friend in uni is exposed as being gay, Elio turns his back on him (events from book 1). As we come to learn, this is due to internalized homophobia on Elio's part. When Jaxon joins the same university, there is a confrontation and Elio soon learns that the sweet boy he knew has become a rage filled young man, and that Jaxon's presense is stirring up feelings he thought he'd gotten over and that he's determined to ignore.
Jaxon tried to move on from Elio and from the backlash from events caused by his older brother and being compared to said brother. This created a bit of a downward spiral for him and made him decide to switch universities - to the one where Elio is, knowing that at some point they will come face to face.
There is a lot of anger between these two, but at some point Elio gives in to his desires - but only on his terms. Jaxon is fine with that - until he isn't, and he realizes he deserves more. After some time apart, they again reconnect when Elio makes a grand gesture. This is a really sweet moment and leads to much happiness and acceptance for them.
My issue with this book is that I felt that there were only bits and pieces of information scattered throughout the book, and some of it was just vague. There should have been more quality time spent on Elio redeeming himself for what happened between him and Jaxon, and Elio coming to terms with his sexuality. Jaxon was way too quickly forgiving, and it seemed intimate times were the answer to their problems rather than talking. I did like that Elio apologized to Easton for the events in book one, but Easton is another one that was quickly forgiving.
This book didn't feel up to the standards of a Hayden Hall book.
I received an ARC, this is my honest opinion.
May 1, 2025
Elio & Jaxon
An intense second chance, ex-best friends to lovers story between two athletes who spent two years "hating" one another before they work out their issues.
Before they head off to college, Jaxon takes a brave step and tries to express his feelings to Elio. Unfortunately, Elio reacts badly and it tears their great friendship apart. The prologue of this story was hard to stomach, but it does connect you with each of the MCs very well. We get the chance to get into their heads enough to start to anticipate how their story will unfold.
Jaxon is a football player stuck in the shadow of his older brother's NFL downfall, and he has chosen to be transferred to Westmont U to join their team, even though the shadow--and its taunts--lingers. He knows he'll run into Elio eventually, but their reunion is definitely NOT a new "meet-cute". Elio is a powerful hockey player with the Saints and believes he's shoved his memory of Jaxon into his past, even though he vaguely knows that Jaxon actually unlocked a piece of himself that he didn't understand existed. Elio's journey in this story is eye-opening for him, and while much of the book is an endeavor to read because of the warring emotions the story draws out of the reader, Elio's eventual redemption is sweet and well-thought out. He knows where he made his catastrophic mistakes, and wants to fix everything he can, including his new friendship and love with Jaxon.
Cost of Redemption was another wonderful story in this series, and I was happy to see the bits of update we got about Easton & Jace from book one as well. I'm really excited about Patrick's story up next, and I'm really curious to see the level of drama Hayden adds into his HEA. The sneak peak we get at the end of this book is only enough to whet our appetites, and doesn't seem too dramatic...yet.
I received an authorized copy of this book and am volunteering my honest review.
An intense second chance, ex-best friends to lovers story between two athletes who spent two years "hating" one another before they work out their issues.
Before they head off to college, Jaxon takes a brave step and tries to express his feelings to Elio. Unfortunately, Elio reacts badly and it tears their great friendship apart. The prologue of this story was hard to stomach, but it does connect you with each of the MCs very well. We get the chance to get into their heads enough to start to anticipate how their story will unfold.
Jaxon is a football player stuck in the shadow of his older brother's NFL downfall, and he has chosen to be transferred to Westmont U to join their team, even though the shadow--and its taunts--lingers. He knows he'll run into Elio eventually, but their reunion is definitely NOT a new "meet-cute". Elio is a powerful hockey player with the Saints and believes he's shoved his memory of Jaxon into his past, even though he vaguely knows that Jaxon actually unlocked a piece of himself that he didn't understand existed. Elio's journey in this story is eye-opening for him, and while much of the book is an endeavor to read because of the warring emotions the story draws out of the reader, Elio's eventual redemption is sweet and well-thought out. He knows where he made his catastrophic mistakes, and wants to fix everything he can, including his new friendship and love with Jaxon.
Cost of Redemption was another wonderful story in this series, and I was happy to see the bits of update we got about Easton & Jace from book one as well. I'm really excited about Patrick's story up next, and I'm really curious to see the level of drama Hayden adds into his HEA. The sneak peak we get at the end of this book is only enough to whet our appetites, and doesn't seem too dramatic...yet.
I received an authorized copy of this book and am volunteering my honest review.
May 3, 2025
COST OF REDEMPTION is the second book in The Saints of Westmont U series. It can be read as a stand alone but reads much better if you read in order that the author intended. There is a continuing storyline from books one and two.
Jaxon and Elio were best friends all through high school. They were headed in different directions for college and spent most of that last summer together. At the last party Jaxon did something that would change their friendship forever. After what he thought were signs and interest Jaxon kissed Elio. Elio was shocked and when someone opened the door he was scared and embarrassed so he punched Jaxon. Jaxon was never afraid of his sexuality but Elio was terrified.
Once he got to college he thought things would be different. When his best friend was outed before he was ready instead of Elio stepping up and standing by his friend, Elio walked away. He couldn't be there for him and have people think he was gay too? When Jaxon transferred schools and ended up on the same campus Elio was angry. Angry he was there, angry his passed and present were crashing together and angry he couldn't keep his mind off Jaxon. Jaxon knew the truth about Elio, knew that he was scared but Jaxon needed Elio to admit it out out he wanted Jaxon just as much as he always did.
Jaxon had fallen in love with Elio years ago and now he was angry but willing to take anything Elio was going to give him. Elio was so afraid to admit he was gay. To admit he loved Jaxon but when Jaxon walked away Elio finally realized what mattered most.
I am so invested into this series. I love these characters and watching their stories unfold. I thoroughly enjoyed getting the conclusion to the Kyle story. I now understand why it carried over but boy was I frustrated at the end of book one! I can't wait for what's next!
I was given a free copy of this book to read and review by the author.
Jaxon and Elio were best friends all through high school. They were headed in different directions for college and spent most of that last summer together. At the last party Jaxon did something that would change their friendship forever. After what he thought were signs and interest Jaxon kissed Elio. Elio was shocked and when someone opened the door he was scared and embarrassed so he punched Jaxon. Jaxon was never afraid of his sexuality but Elio was terrified.
Once he got to college he thought things would be different. When his best friend was outed before he was ready instead of Elio stepping up and standing by his friend, Elio walked away. He couldn't be there for him and have people think he was gay too? When Jaxon transferred schools and ended up on the same campus Elio was angry. Angry he was there, angry his passed and present were crashing together and angry he couldn't keep his mind off Jaxon. Jaxon knew the truth about Elio, knew that he was scared but Jaxon needed Elio to admit it out out he wanted Jaxon just as much as he always did.
Jaxon had fallen in love with Elio years ago and now he was angry but willing to take anything Elio was going to give him. Elio was so afraid to admit he was gay. To admit he loved Jaxon but when Jaxon walked away Elio finally realized what mattered most.
I am so invested into this series. I love these characters and watching their stories unfold. I thoroughly enjoyed getting the conclusion to the Kyle story. I now understand why it carried over but boy was I frustrated at the end of book one! I can't wait for what's next!
I was given a free copy of this book to read and review by the author.
May 27, 2025
4.25 stars!
This is book two of the author’s Saints of Westmont U series and features Elio, (former best friend to Easton who was featured in Edge of Temptation) and Jaxon, his ex best friend from high school.
Elio’s book runs concurrently with EOT so several things that were just mentioned in passing there were explained more fully here, which I really enjoyed, making this one feel more complete and a continuation of the previous book.
I’m not really sure if this qualifies as a dark romance or not but it dang sure ain’t light! There was so much angst and drama here…I swear! I WANTED Elio to have to pay for the way he treated Jaxon (in particular, and all for a kiss that Elio had been unknowingly provoking) and Easton but at the same time, being able to read his thoughts, I bad for him too. He suffered, yes, but it was all self inflicted and well deserved based on how he treated others but my sweet Jaxon had paid enough for something that wasn’t his to have to pay. (Can you tell who I favored?)
I really struggled with this one, both books in the series, really—not that they aren’t good, but they’re too REAL! I know there are a lot of readers who love all the angst and realism but personally, I prefer a softer, sweeter read with more tenderness and caring but poor Elio had so much shame and self loathing that he was almost physically incapable of showing any kind of emotion that could be seen as gay and that really broke my heart because he seemed to need someone to care so desperately. Both Elio AND Jaxon did!
It took me much longer than I’d like to admit to finish this book because I kept finding reasons to have to lay it down but I did finish it and I’m glad I did but I REALLY hope that Patrick doesn’t tear my heart out like Elio and Easton, I NEED some sweetness from the Steel Saints! For fans of angst and drama, you can’t go wrong; for me, 4.25 stars!
I received a copy of this book for free but am voluntarily leaving a review.
This is book two of the author’s Saints of Westmont U series and features Elio, (former best friend to Easton who was featured in Edge of Temptation) and Jaxon, his ex best friend from high school.
Elio’s book runs concurrently with EOT so several things that were just mentioned in passing there were explained more fully here, which I really enjoyed, making this one feel more complete and a continuation of the previous book.
I’m not really sure if this qualifies as a dark romance or not but it dang sure ain’t light! There was so much angst and drama here…I swear! I WANTED Elio to have to pay for the way he treated Jaxon (in particular, and all for a kiss that Elio had been unknowingly provoking) and Easton but at the same time, being able to read his thoughts, I bad for him too. He suffered, yes, but it was all self inflicted and well deserved based on how he treated others but my sweet Jaxon had paid enough for something that wasn’t his to have to pay. (Can you tell who I favored?)
I really struggled with this one, both books in the series, really—not that they aren’t good, but they’re too REAL! I know there are a lot of readers who love all the angst and realism but personally, I prefer a softer, sweeter read with more tenderness and caring but poor Elio had so much shame and self loathing that he was almost physically incapable of showing any kind of emotion that could be seen as gay and that really broke my heart because he seemed to need someone to care so desperately. Both Elio AND Jaxon did!
It took me much longer than I’d like to admit to finish this book because I kept finding reasons to have to lay it down but I did finish it and I’m glad I did but I REALLY hope that Patrick doesn’t tear my heart out like Elio and Easton, I NEED some sweetness from the Steel Saints! For fans of angst and drama, you can’t go wrong; for me, 4.25 stars!
I received a copy of this book for free but am voluntarily leaving a review.
July 23, 2025
"A sadness I didn’t know where to place. Too many battles, too many defeats."
Oof the emotions in this one right out the gate in the first pages alone had me hooked.
Elio is the tortured guy who won't let anyone in or see past his walls that guard everything he is.
Jaxon is the only one who once upon a time was allowed beyond said walls until he was thrown back to the other side and left there, bleeding.
I was curious about Elio in Book 1 and that curiosity turned into something else by the time the book ended. Getting his story next was just what was needed to answer questions I had.
All of the emotions ran high throughout and kept me captivated and wanting more, that unexpected emotional rollercoaster though.. I was not prepared.
Elio & Jaxon are the embodiment of second chances but also friends/enemies then eventually lovers. You have to get through the breakdown to understand the how and the why of this relationship and when it call comes together it is so cute and thoughtful.
Elio's journey is not easy or nice for that matter, he is a downright asshole and I understand why. Acceptance is after all the hardest pill to swallow. Going after what you want in spite of what others say is wrong is also a huge factor here too. Outside perception to some is everything but it could make you lose everything too, Elio lands here.
Jaxon is the type of friend you want in your corner but also, when everything happens and he is left to accept it on his own, that part got me. It hurt.
Forgiveness over revenge sometimes is the best path to take and while a part of Jaxon wants to stay on that path, he can't. He wants what he has always wanted.
Hayden once again captured me with these real world situations he puts into his books. It makes the book more impactful to me and I enjoyed every second I was with Elio & Jaxon.
Oof the emotions in this one right out the gate in the first pages alone had me hooked.
Elio is the tortured guy who won't let anyone in or see past his walls that guard everything he is.
Jaxon is the only one who once upon a time was allowed beyond said walls until he was thrown back to the other side and left there, bleeding.
I was curious about Elio in Book 1 and that curiosity turned into something else by the time the book ended. Getting his story next was just what was needed to answer questions I had.
All of the emotions ran high throughout and kept me captivated and wanting more, that unexpected emotional rollercoaster though.. I was not prepared.
Elio & Jaxon are the embodiment of second chances but also friends/enemies then eventually lovers. You have to get through the breakdown to understand the how and the why of this relationship and when it call comes together it is so cute and thoughtful.
Elio's journey is not easy or nice for that matter, he is a downright asshole and I understand why. Acceptance is after all the hardest pill to swallow. Going after what you want in spite of what others say is wrong is also a huge factor here too. Outside perception to some is everything but it could make you lose everything too, Elio lands here.
Jaxon is the type of friend you want in your corner but also, when everything happens and he is left to accept it on his own, that part got me. It hurt.
Forgiveness over revenge sometimes is the best path to take and while a part of Jaxon wants to stay on that path, he can't. He wants what he has always wanted.
Hayden once again captured me with these real world situations he puts into his books. It makes the book more impactful to me and I enjoyed every second I was with Elio & Jaxon.
May 12, 2025
I knew Elio's book was going to twist me up into knots, but the closeted college boy angst was on a whole other level in this one. As Elio himself admitted, he wasn't always a good guy, and nothing made that more clear than the way he reacted when his high school best friend, Jaxon, kissed him. I think I hated Elio a little bit myself in the beginning, and it was a struggle watching him self-destruct friendships and team camaraderie in the aftermath of Easton's outing. For a while, I was convinced Elio was headed on a downward spiral that nothing could pull him out of, but then Jaxon re-entered Elio's life and turned everything on its head. Cost of Redemption is a fitting name for this book, because Elio had to fight his inner demons every step of the way to salvage something with Jaxon without self-sabotaging. I was torn between wanting to love the idea of two best friends getting a second shot at love and biting my nails with anxiety that Elio would fall back into toxic habits again. Much to my delight, things with Jaxon were good, sweet and heated and intimate every night they spent together. It was Elio's fear of others finding out that created the biggest wrench in his and Jaxon's happiness, and overcoming that did not come easy. I do feel as though Elio's character went through a transformation in this book, and seeing how hard the fight was made his eventually happy ending with Jaxon feel even more rewarding. These two are only just getting started on their relationship journey, but with the pain from their pasts fully behind them they're off on a promising, much happier path.
**I voluntarily read an ARC of this book. This review expresses my honest thoughts and opinions.
**I voluntarily read an ARC of this book. This review expresses my honest thoughts and opinions.
May 22, 2025
Hayden Hall has the ability to completely wreck my heart with the smallest thing. With the 'Cost of Redemption,' it was the bracelet that did it. There was so much heartbreak and self-hatred in that moment that I'm tearing up trying to write this review.
Elio is so far in the closet, he doesn't even realize he's in it. When his best friend, Jaxon, kisses him, he basically sets up camp and declares it a new country. Then Elio runs, and when he's finished running physically, he keeps running mentally; away from Jaxon, himself, and his true self. The way Elio hides from himself costs him friends and any earned respect from both teammates and his ex-best friend.
Jaxon is living in the shadow of his brother. He's also living in the shadow of what he wanted with Elio and lost. And with Elio, Jaxon lost part of what made him who he was. When he's finally reunited with Elio, he's angry. He's VERY angry initially. But anger is a strong emotion, and it often hides love. Jaxon still loved Elio just as much as he hates him for ruining what they had and what could have been.
The cost of Elio's redemption comes at a much lower price than I thought he deserved—initially. However, with a beautiful song, a second/third chance, and love, you realize Elio deserves every bit of forgiveness he was given.
This review is a mess, but I blubbered my way through it, so it is what it is.
Cost of Redemption
Hayden Hall
Elio is so far in the closet, he doesn't even realize he's in it. When his best friend, Jaxon, kisses him, he basically sets up camp and declares it a new country. Then Elio runs, and when he's finished running physically, he keeps running mentally; away from Jaxon, himself, and his true self. The way Elio hides from himself costs him friends and any earned respect from both teammates and his ex-best friend.
Jaxon is living in the shadow of his brother. He's also living in the shadow of what he wanted with Elio and lost. And with Elio, Jaxon lost part of what made him who he was. When he's finally reunited with Elio, he's angry. He's VERY angry initially. But anger is a strong emotion, and it often hides love. Jaxon still loved Elio just as much as he hates him for ruining what they had and what could have been.
The cost of Elio's redemption comes at a much lower price than I thought he deserved—initially. However, with a beautiful song, a second/third chance, and love, you realize Elio deserves every bit of forgiveness he was given.
This review is a mess, but I blubbered my way through it, so it is what it is.
Cost of Redemption
Hayden Hall
May 11, 2025
Firstly, let me say I got this book from gay romance reviews and this is me leaving my honest review.
Wow, I was totally hooked with this one. We have got best friends inseparable Elio and Jaxon. When they were getting ready to go to separate colleges, it really hit Jaxson hard because he had had feelings for Elio for years, but he didn’t know that Jaxson was gay. So when Jaxson kissed him when they were sharing a private moment, he totally flipped out. And it didn’t help that a couple of friends walked in to see their kiss. It ruined their friendship and they didn’t speak again. But now years later Jaxson has moved to the same college as Elio. And it’s fair to say that sparks flew.
Elio was very confused about his sexuality. He was on the hockey team at the Saints of Westmont U and still reeling from what had happened on the team with Easton. Then he’s seen Jaxson in the gym and his feelings are all over the place but what he can’t ignore is the way that Jaxson makes him feel. But can he admit his sexuality or just use Jaxson as an experiment??
Their story is quite heartbreaking at times to lose your best friend and move away to a college to start a new life. They both had heartache for a totally different reason reasons Jaxson was heartbroken at losing the man he loved and Elio was just so confused about his feelings and his sexuality and he really struggled with being accepted if he was gay. It’s fair to say these two have chemistry connection and passion that is off the chart. It was great to see Easton and Jace again. And I really look forward to the next book in this series and easy 5 Star read.
April 27, 2025
Cost of Redemption is book 2 in the Saints of Westmont U series and this one gives us Elio and Jaxon's story.
We met Elio in the previous book Edge of Temptation where he turned his back on his best friend Easton after finding out he was gay. In this book we learn more about the reason behind it and man was it hard to read sometimes.
Elio and Jaxon used to be best friends but it all changed when on their last day together before each going off to different colleges, Jaxon who'd secretly's had a crush on Elio for a while, kissed him. The consequences were so grave it made Jaxon hate Elio.
Fast forward two years and Jaxon has transferred to Elio's college. When they meet up again the tension between both men is super high and feelings get stired up again. It was so hard to see Elio struggle with self hatred and denial about who he really was. Jaxon from his side wanted to keep on hating Elio but couldn't and would rather take whatever Elio was willing to give him than go without him. Until he's had enough of being hidden and breaks up everything which finally opens Elio eyes.
This series is a bit darker then Hayden other books, there's a lot of angst. While it's not necessary to read book 1, it might be helpfull because part of the book is overlapping the events of Edge of Temptation. This was again a great entry in a series I'm becoming addicted to and I can't wait to get my hands on Patrick's story which will be next.
*ARC kindly received from the author via Bookfunnel. This is my honest opinion.*
We met Elio in the previous book Edge of Temptation where he turned his back on his best friend Easton after finding out he was gay. In this book we learn more about the reason behind it and man was it hard to read sometimes.
Elio and Jaxon used to be best friends but it all changed when on their last day together before each going off to different colleges, Jaxon who'd secretly's had a crush on Elio for a while, kissed him. The consequences were so grave it made Jaxon hate Elio.
Fast forward two years and Jaxon has transferred to Elio's college. When they meet up again the tension between both men is super high and feelings get stired up again. It was so hard to see Elio struggle with self hatred and denial about who he really was. Jaxon from his side wanted to keep on hating Elio but couldn't and would rather take whatever Elio was willing to give him than go without him. Until he's had enough of being hidden and breaks up everything which finally opens Elio eyes.
This series is a bit darker then Hayden other books, there's a lot of angst. While it's not necessary to read book 1, it might be helpfull because part of the book is overlapping the events of Edge of Temptation. This was again a great entry in a series I'm becoming addicted to and I can't wait to get my hands on Patrick's story which will be next.
*ARC kindly received from the author via Bookfunnel. This is my honest opinion.*
May 2, 2025
Cost of Redemption is book two in Hayden Hall’s The Saints if Westmont U series. It focuses on Elio and his former best friend, Jaxon. Like book one, this story is a bit more serious and intense than some of Hayden’s other books, but it still contains his signature writing style and excellent storytelling.
Elio…is very hard to like. After book one, I knew it would be a hard sell to redeem him. For most of this book, he’s still a jerk. Yes, he has his reasons. But he didn’t grow on me like I hoped. Elio is unsure of himself. He’s selfish. He’s suppressed a part of himself for so long that it’s made him bitter. Jaxon was his best friend in high school. But after taking a chance and kissing him, Elio doesn’t react well. So, they part ways and don’t speak again until Jaxon shows up two years later at Westmont. But…nothing has changed. Elio is still denying his feelings. Jaxon still knows they exist and can’t move on. That struggle of Jaxon’s is what really pulls the reader in. I was torn between wanting to yell at him that he deserved better, and crossing my fingers that all the pain he went through would be worth it in the end.
It was nice seeing them both grow and acknowledge mistakes that were made along the way. The conversation between Elio and Easton was heartwarming. I loved the epilogue showing how their relationship was growing into something beautiful. I did think they had great chemistry, and the writing was well done as always.
Looking forward to Patrick’s story! I can already tell it’s gonna be a fun one.
Elio…is very hard to like. After book one, I knew it would be a hard sell to redeem him. For most of this book, he’s still a jerk. Yes, he has his reasons. But he didn’t grow on me like I hoped. Elio is unsure of himself. He’s selfish. He’s suppressed a part of himself for so long that it’s made him bitter. Jaxon was his best friend in high school. But after taking a chance and kissing him, Elio doesn’t react well. So, they part ways and don’t speak again until Jaxon shows up two years later at Westmont. But…nothing has changed. Elio is still denying his feelings. Jaxon still knows they exist and can’t move on. That struggle of Jaxon’s is what really pulls the reader in. I was torn between wanting to yell at him that he deserved better, and crossing my fingers that all the pain he went through would be worth it in the end.
It was nice seeing them both grow and acknowledge mistakes that were made along the way. The conversation between Elio and Easton was heartwarming. I loved the epilogue showing how their relationship was growing into something beautiful. I did think they had great chemistry, and the writing was well done as always.
Looking forward to Patrick’s story! I can already tell it’s gonna be a fun one.
May 9, 2025
ARC Review
I have read a previous series from Hayden Hall and loved it, so I was really excited for this one! It was just as good as the others. While it can be read as a standalone, I wouldn’t recommend doing that. I did and felt vaguely confused for a good chunk of it. Eventually things are explained but it took a bit to get there.
The story starts a few years before the main part of the book. Elio Castelli and Jaxon Mercer are best friends. They’re at their going away party before they go to different colleges. The two sneak off together and Jaxon decides to take a chance. It backfires with Elio leaving Jaxon with a broken nose. Two years later when they see each other again for the first time, that incident has led them to hating each other.
Throughout the book, the two have to contend with their past, the events currently happening in their life, and all the swirling feelings in their heads. Slowly, their feelings change towards each other but that may not be enough. Their history, both together and separately, may be too much to overcome.
I really liked this book! The conflict felt very real and relatable. The only thing that threw me was one of the characters did a 180 on some feelings but I feel like I missed it? Like he said one thing and then did the exact opposite with nothing in between. It’s entirely possible that I did miss it from accidentally turning pages or not paying attention while reading or falling asleep with my Kindle on. Overall, really good book and I can’t wait to read more of the series (including book one)!
I have read a previous series from Hayden Hall and loved it, so I was really excited for this one! It was just as good as the others. While it can be read as a standalone, I wouldn’t recommend doing that. I did and felt vaguely confused for a good chunk of it. Eventually things are explained but it took a bit to get there.
The story starts a few years before the main part of the book. Elio Castelli and Jaxon Mercer are best friends. They’re at their going away party before they go to different colleges. The two sneak off together and Jaxon decides to take a chance. It backfires with Elio leaving Jaxon with a broken nose. Two years later when they see each other again for the first time, that incident has led them to hating each other.
Throughout the book, the two have to contend with their past, the events currently happening in their life, and all the swirling feelings in their heads. Slowly, their feelings change towards each other but that may not be enough. Their history, both together and separately, may be too much to overcome.
I really liked this book! The conflict felt very real and relatable. The only thing that threw me was one of the characters did a 180 on some feelings but I feel like I missed it? Like he said one thing and then did the exact opposite with nothing in between. It’s entirely possible that I did miss it from accidentally turning pages or not paying attention while reading or falling asleep with my Kindle on. Overall, really good book and I can’t wait to read more of the series (including book one)!
July 31, 2025
Wow. Just wow. Another fantastic romance packed with angst, emotional baggage, and unconditional love.
I’m really falling for the way Hayden Hall writes his stories. They pack a punch—they’re hot, they’re sad, and they’re so satisfying to follow. And look, I’m a notorious hater of third-act breakups… but somehow, in this series? They actually make sense. And I don’t hate them here. At all.
This book is all about uncovering why Elio was such an idiot in the first book. I’m not trying to downplay homophobia, so I should definitely say that he was more than an idiot...
I was dying to see who he really is underneath all of that, and the journey was gut-wrenching, frustrating, and ultimately so satisfying.
Jax? A total sweetheart. I’ll admit, I wasn’t sure about him at first—he came off too cocky, too volatile, just... too much. But he won me over fast. I do wish we’d gotten a little more showing when it came to his family and backstory. Compared to Elio, a lot of Jax’s story felt more like we were being told rather than seeing it unfold. But honestly? I get it. The book’s pacing was perfect so additional scenes may've made it feel a bit off.
The spice? 🥵 There’s not a ton, but what we do get is absolutely scorching. Hayden Hall just knows how to flip the script and raise the bar every single time. The rooftop scene? *chef’s kiss*
I'm in love with how naturally and realistically the characters behave.
I cannot wait for more books in this series. *grabby hands*
I’m really falling for the way Hayden Hall writes his stories. They pack a punch—they’re hot, they’re sad, and they’re so satisfying to follow. And look, I’m a notorious hater of third-act breakups… but somehow, in this series? They actually make sense. And I don’t hate them here. At all.
This book is all about uncovering why Elio was such an idiot in the first book. I’m not trying to downplay homophobia, so I should definitely say that he was more than an idiot...
I was dying to see who he really is underneath all of that, and the journey was gut-wrenching, frustrating, and ultimately so satisfying.
Jax? A total sweetheart. I’ll admit, I wasn’t sure about him at first—he came off too cocky, too volatile, just... too much. But he won me over fast. I do wish we’d gotten a little more showing when it came to his family and backstory. Compared to Elio, a lot of Jax’s story felt more like we were being told rather than seeing it unfold. But honestly? I get it. The book’s pacing was perfect so additional scenes may've made it feel a bit off.
The spice? 🥵 There’s not a ton, but what we do get is absolutely scorching. Hayden Hall just knows how to flip the script and raise the bar every single time. The rooftop scene? *chef’s kiss*
I'm in love with how naturally and realistically the characters behave.
I cannot wait for more books in this series. *grabby hands*
May 7, 2025
At the end of Edge of Temptation , I was not Elio's biggest fan due to how he treated Easton, it was hurtful. So I was curious how his story would play out.
Jaxon had transferred to Westmont to escape the family's scandal, knowing there was a possibility he would bump into Elio, it was a chance he would take.
Elio and Jaxon had been best friends since they were young teens, they had planned to be friends forever until Jaxon kissed Elio and then there was hate.
As I said I was not Elio's biggest fan when I started this book, however the more I read I grew to like him and was willing him to be the person he wanted to be. Hearing what he went through resulting in him hating himself for loving the wrong person had me wanting to give him a hug. Elio being with Jaxon was right for him and there was times you could see what they were like at school. But things do not go Elio's way and whilst it was sad I was glad Jaxon stood up for himself
When they are together the scenes are fiery as they get consumed with passion, as Elio looses himself in Jaxon.
Reading about Easton's troubles and the captaincy from Elio's POV, added to Easton's story and also showed why Elio was determined to win the captaincy and that scene in the bar had me welling up.
The return of Patrick being the friend he was and his teaser with a nerd has made me excited to read his story.
A good addition to the series
Jaxon had transferred to Westmont to escape the family's scandal, knowing there was a possibility he would bump into Elio, it was a chance he would take.
Elio and Jaxon had been best friends since they were young teens, they had planned to be friends forever until Jaxon kissed Elio and then there was hate.
As I said I was not Elio's biggest fan when I started this book, however the more I read I grew to like him and was willing him to be the person he wanted to be. Hearing what he went through resulting in him hating himself for loving the wrong person had me wanting to give him a hug. Elio being with Jaxon was right for him and there was times you could see what they were like at school. But things do not go Elio's way and whilst it was sad I was glad Jaxon stood up for himself
When they are together the scenes are fiery as they get consumed with passion, as Elio looses himself in Jaxon.
Reading about Easton's troubles and the captaincy from Elio's POV, added to Easton's story and also showed why Elio was determined to win the captaincy and that scene in the bar had me welling up.
The return of Patrick being the friend he was and his teaser with a nerd has made me excited to read his story.
A good addition to the series
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