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Dreamseller: An Addiction Memoir

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Skateboarder and Jackass star Brandon Novak comes clean about his crazy rise to fame, tailspin into addiction, and other death-defying stunts on the road to recovery …

At seven, Brandon was a skateboard prodigy. By the time he was fourteen, he was living the dream. Discovered by skate legends Bucky Lasek and Tony Hawk. Touring the US with the elite Powell-Peralta team. Signing autographs and appearing in films and magazines. Brandon had it all. Then he got hooked on heroin.

Soon the up-and-coming star was living a down-and-out life in a garage, begging for change, and hustling to score his next fix. He stole from his family and friends. He pushed the fantasy that everything was okay, that he was going to rehab, getting help, and getting better. But it was all a lie.

This is the story of an addict—a dreamseller who stopped believing the lies he was selling and started believing in himself. With the help of his celebrity buddy Bam Margera of Jackass fame, Brandon joined the cast of MTV’s Viva La Bam and made an honest reach for sobriety. The road was hard, and he had some falls. But like any great skateboarder, Brandon Novak was always determined to get up again.

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Profile Image for Joseph Frantz.
Author 1 book41 followers
October 24, 2015
We all have addicts in their lives: family members, friends, and coworkers, and this book has provided inspiration and insight to thousands of addicts and their loved ones worldwide. If you want to understand what addiction is really about, and if you seek to gain knowledge about this dark disease, you'll want to read Dreamseller.

But maybe I'm just biased, I'm the coauthor :)

Every day I get mail from children, parents, and loved ones of addicts, thanking me for writing this book, and describing the scenarios where this book has helped them. It's helped children understand their addicted parents. It's helped salvage marriages torn apart by teen addiction. And it has saved lives and facilitated recovery.

Thank you to the people who have supported this book.

And I am currently writing several sequels.

Love,
Frantz
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2 reviews
May 13, 2012
Brilliant, if you're not keen on reading because it takes ages to get into a book then read this because by the 18th page he's getting a blowjob from a middle-aged man so he can get money for drugs.
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8 reviews3 followers
February 15, 2011

Right off the bat Novak talks about how he let his nasty dick get sucked by some pervy dude just to score $40 to get some shitty drugs and damn I was hooked. Quick and easy which I am sure is exactly how Novak would be in the sack if he was even interesting in actually having intercourse like a normal human being. This dude talks about his junkie days so hard that you can physically smell how putrid his balls and socks must be. This book can be read in a day and it was a score of my list o’ reading books. A classic if you mess up then you fess up memoir.

Teenage kids into skating must read this novel, your life will be much better for it.
Profile Image for Tracy.
5 reviews9 followers
November 2, 2015
I agree that everyone has an addict in their lives. With that being said, Dreamseller is one of those books that is so shocking and compelling, none of it could possibly have been made up! Fiction just isn't this good! From the moment I started reading, I was fascinated and drawn into the web of Brandon Novak's cautionary, poignant life story of a person who had the world in his hands yet threw it all away for the love of his addiction.

If you are an addict, recovering addict, or have a loved one who is an addict, this book should be not only on your must-read list, but re-read periodically and shared far and wide. Dreamseller delivers a powerful message that cannot and should not be ignored.

I am greatly anticipating the sequels!

Tracy Valo
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498 reviews40 followers
August 1, 2015
This review was taken directly off of my blog, A Reader's Diary!

Brandon Novak, dreamseller, heroin addict.
This addiction memoir is on of the best memoirs I've read. Instead of telling us about how he wants to get clean but can't, he tells us about how terrible it was when he needed a fix. Within the first 20 pages, he's selling his body to an old, married man just so he can get a little bit of heroin. The reoccurring theme in the book is that he threw away his life. He was a professional skateboarded on the Powell Peralta team! He was given that opportunity by his idol, Bucky Lasek. His childhood friend Bam Margera gave him countless opportunities to clean up and get back to skating but he threw it all away for a quick fix. What I loved about this memoir was the way we learned about Brandon. We hear all of these stories when he begins meeting with his rehabilitation counselor. We know his fears, we know his ambitions, we want him to recover.
Brandon Novak, at 29 years old was finally clean.
But July 31, 2015 Novak had a message for recovering addicts: https://youtu.be/LzQkDByXa5A
1 review2 followers
October 26, 2015
Overcoming any kind of addiction is one of the most difficult challenges, so when your contemplating rehabilitation, it is best to seek advice from someone who's been there. Brandon Novak has not only achieved sobriety but has also written a compelling book about his life and the difficulties he faced giving up Heroin.

So what makes Brandon Novak's "Dreamseller" highly recommended to anyone facing addiction or the general audience is that Brandon tells it like it is, straight forward and candid.
I personally cannot wait to purchase my copy.

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Profile Image for Alice Smith.
2 reviews
February 25, 2014
The whole way through this I had to keep reminding myself that it was all real, as for a non-drug-user it's sometimes so hard to believe that someone could get into that state, and go through all that. The style of the book makes it clear that the writer isn't familiar with writing, but it's generally good, and occasionally there are sentences and paragraphs that hold some sort of unexpected beauty.
A must read for any Novak fan, and for anyone who wants an insight into the unsettling mind of a drug addict.
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1 review5 followers
October 25, 2015
I absolutely love this book! Being from a family that is full of addictions trying to understand what addicts thought process is, this book in a amazing insight to just that. Not only do you understand the troubles of addictions Brandon Novak is a testament to whatever life struggles you face especially addiction you can fight to rise above it all and show the world what you're really made off. This book and indeed Brandon himself are inspirations to overcome your addictions. Literally can't wait for the sequels and to read how a brilliant man fought one of the hardest battles you can.
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21 reviews1 follower
April 17, 2018
I absolutely loved this book! Brandon was so honest about things that are definitely not easy to be honest about. The book furthermore shows just how addiction can control a person to the very last pages. I had the privilege of attending a book signing by Novak which was amazing, he is a wonderful speaker and he along with the group atTAcK addiction had everyone's attention from beginning to end. Novak has been sober for 3 years now and is part of the Banyan treatment center where he helps fellow addicts work towards recovery.
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202 reviews7 followers
November 14, 2019
I actually started this book when I was in rehab. It gave me hope as I had watched an interview with Brandon in 2015 prior. I thought if he can get sober and straighten out his life so can I. While reading, it seems that Brandon’s addiction comes from genetics, but also fate (like meeting Dwight). I also loved the ending with Brandon observing the girl currently in heroin withdrawal. I also remind myself of the pains of withdrawal in order to not go back. Great read for those that are addicts themselves or who know someone that is, as Brandon describes an addicts thinking perfectly.
Profile Image for Noah Kagan.
Author 9 books598 followers
September 9, 2022
wow. this reads INSANE. not some super life changing how to live a great life but story could be fictional. happy he seemed to come out of alive. great reminder about dangers of drugs / drinking and the slippery slope it can be.
2 reviews1 follower
October 31, 2012
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DREAMSELLER
The title of my book is Dreamseller. The author of Dreamseller is Brandon Novak. This book is a biography about Brandon Novak himself. It’s about his life as a kid, adult, skateboarder, friend, and addict. It goes from the highlights of his life to the very lowest he’s ever been. It’s a book that confronts you about what life can turn into and the struggles you can face. It’s an emotional rollercoaster of a book.

Brandon Novak is the main character of the book. He is also the author of it. Brandon Novak was a popular kid. He had a ton of friends and was very social. He was an amazing skateboarder and close to his family. But then he gets addicted to heroin and becomes a totally different person. He pretty much loses his mind, and himself.

As a kid Brandon got noticed as a skateboarder by Tony Hawk. He was only 14 but was already starting to struggle with addiction, so they didn’t hire him. As Brandon gets older his addiction gets worse. He was once being one of the best skateboarders in the world and all of the sudden he had then turned into being homeless and addicted to heroin. His high school sweetheart leaves him and his family pretty much wants nothing to do with him. He has many struggles while homeless trying to stay alive and trying to stay high. Then one day he finally realizes that he’s going to be dead if he doesn’t change his ways. So he makes a phone call with the only 50 cents he has and contacts a friend who takes him to rehab where he makes a full recovery. Brandon has been clean and is now married with a child.

I really enjoyed this book. I thought it was very real and honest. Brandon completely just put everything out on the table in this book. There were moments where it made me laugh and there were moments when it made me cry. I think it really teaches you a lesson about life too. It has real issues in it that people face every day if it’s with fighting with your family, losing someone you love, or struggling with addiction. It shows you what should really matter in life.

In Dreamseller you learn about Brandon Novak and his life. You start with him as a kid only living for skateboarding and almost going far in life. Then you see him struggle and fight with addiction, he loses everyone and almost loses himself to drugs. Then in the end he finally gets clean and now has a beautiful family. It really taught me a lesson about life and really touched me. This book is about as real as it gets and was written very well.

Profile Image for Desiree Oleson.
11 reviews
April 3, 2013
I read Dreamseller over 2 years ago, because I was very much into Bam Margera and his lifestyle. I watched all of his movies, t.v. shows, and I have even listened to every last radio show that he has ever recorded through out the years. I grew up a Jackass fan at a young age (being the tomboy-princess that I was)therefore I was very much involved in the characters from the show/movies.

I was listening to Bam's old radio shows and realized that they began mentioning Brandon Novak writing a book about his (at that time) 7 year battle with heroin addiction. And because of his hilarious antics and tendency to fall down drunk with his pants down, and the way he would "kick game" to bar flies that would - for whatever reason - go home with him for the night, I thought wow! I need to get my hands on that book.

I looked up the book, and ordered it online through Amazon - I read the sucker within a week, loving every bit of it and adoring how in depth and descriptive he would explain the antics he used to get himself into.

Every chapter was an "oh no" war story that left you wondering how ON EARTH could he do what he did and live his life that way for so long. He gives the best perspective of how a dope-head junkie really lives if he were balls to the wall, had nothing to lose except the ever necessary pull to cop another pill or rock.

The very best part was knowing Novak well enough (as a fan of course) to know that none of it was a lie. Knowing that every story was an honest to God account of how things went for him. He has no reason to lie, and it did nothing but make the memoir even more read worthy. Yet because of that, it is hard to not feel a trigger coming on while reading this book.

I still listen to Bam's radio show, and Novak is planning on yet another book, and I'm looking forward to it. I will most likely be rereading this book for years to come. It will remind me of the summer when I was 17 and looking for trouble in literature, films and music because it was when I discovered rebel art was the way to go.
1 review
June 27, 2014
Book review- Dreamseller

Author - Brandon Novak

Genre- autobiography

The auto biography is all about a famous skateboarder and tv start that threw it all away for drugs. Mainly heroin.

When brandon novak was about 14 years of age, he got his first sponsor from Powell skateboards and was progressing fast in his career. He was even going on tours with the greatest skateboards like tony hawk. He was also in a number of tv shows and movies like jackass, viva la bam, haggard and even a radio show. One day a drug dealer approached him and soon enough he was an international drug smuggler. This turned into drug taker then addict. He lost his sponsors and then eventually he was living in a car garage doing anything to get his daily job.

The book is mainly about his withdraw and stories about the drug. He talked about how the actual withdraw and getting the drug out of his system isn't the hardest part, but its the everyday routines that is the hardest part to change. Ie. having a cigaret after dinner. He also talks about going in to rehab is pointless unless you are determined to change. Because if you aren't you are just going to get right back on it as soon as you walk out.

The thing i like about this book is that it shows what its actually like to be a junkie. Most people just tell you to not do them but this shows you why to not do them. The thing I didn't like was that he didn't speak enough about his career. And didn't explain enough about his experiences doing drugs when he was still doing skate demos and competitions.

In conclusion "Dreamseller" shows you about how easy it is to get addicted to a drug, what its like doing them, what the withdraw is like and what its,like after you are off the drug. Sadly Brandon Novaks doctor gave him sleeping pills but now to this day brandon is addicted to pills.
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1 review2 followers
November 13, 2015
I read this book twice already. About to start reading it again for the third time. It's so hard for myself to imagine on all the twist and turns an addict can go through all everyone's life, now I know.

My sister (Melissa) that is 40 years old is an addict and still suffering with stuff she did in the past and recently. Heroin, pain killers, crack and etc. And its hard for myself, my family and her 5 year old child to deal with this shit everyday.

The reason why I bought this book is I love Novak hes a great guy and hes human just like the rest of us in all of are crazy lives and that he needs all the help and support from all of his fans out there.

When I first bought this book, I thought it was going to be bad. My thoughts were wrong that I couldn't put it down. I'm not going to say this book helped me but I will say it helped me see the point of view of an addict and what goes on in their head everyday.

So like Jared Padalecki says in his campaign "Always Keep Fighting" Novak

Thanks to Frantz and Novak to get me too read again and everyone else that inspired this book


-Hanna Culgan
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156 reviews9 followers
January 27, 2015
Dreamseller was one of those books that I pick up and can't put down.
It is quite well written and Novak can sure spin a tale.

I know of the author from his appearances with Bam Margera, so thought it would be interesting to learn more about him.
I had no idea things had gotten this bad for him.

Dreamseller is definitely a cautionary tale, this guy threw away a promising career as a pro skater, to shoot heroin, beg for change and live in squalor on the streets.
But it also manages to avoid the, all to common, recovery speils in the last half of the book.
It does go into one of his rehab stints, but this is written more in story than NA speak.

Dreamseller surprised me with the intelligence of the writer, Novak.
This guy is smarter than he comes across on TV.
Such a waste of talent and opportunity, but he can certainly tell a story.
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14 reviews3 followers
April 4, 2018
This is by far the best book I have ever read. I literally teared up at the end and I can promise you, a book has never done that for me before. Brandon Novak is so raw and real about his addiction, at one point his words and storytelling even had me fooled that he was sincere about getting clean only to find out he had not, after reading all of that, gotten clean. Of course, that was back when the book was first published and I read the epilogue where we find out he eventually got clean six years later and has been for the past two. Seriously amazing, I think everyone can learn something from this.
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1 review
November 2, 2015
If you want to read a book that will put you on an emotional rollercoaster this is it! From laughter, tears, shock, to are you freaking serious!

Brandon Novak will definitely take you on a unbelievable adventure through the eyes of a heroin addict. Joe Frantz once again will blow you away with this interview.

If you, family, friends, or anyone you know is struggling with an addiction problem this is a must read. Not only do you see through Brandon's eyes; you will also see through the eyes of his family and friends.

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Profile Image for Jessica McKenney.
407 reviews3 followers
June 15, 2025
3.5

I really adore Novak, so this has been on my TBR for so long!! The writing and pacing was a little chaotic. This really focused on his addiction, but I felt like it didn’t paint a complete picture of his life before, during, and after his heroin addiction. Also, the Bam stuff really bummed me out considering where he’s at now. I’m glad I read this though and I’m happy that Brandon is doing so good now!
67 reviews5 followers
November 3, 2014
iv always been a fan of cky/jackass, and Brandon novak was always the one everyone laughs at etc, but this book really makes you see the serious side of drug addiction, and i actually found this book to be very sad. Obviously not the best writing style in the world, but it made me think, and i will probably remember this book for a very long time.
1 review
November 2, 2015
Gave me a new look into the horrors of drug addiction and knowing addicts myself, its given me more understanding of how far and how deep people sink into addiction. Never thought Novak had a real problem until this. Now I see the reality of it.

Chris Slaughter
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155 reviews4 followers
December 24, 2022
This was absolutely everything I could have wanted it to be. Growing up and being super interested in Jackass and all of that, I knew this was a must-read. Brandon takes us on a journey in this memoir. I knew Novak had struggled with addiction for years. This gave me such a good look at it all. The book doesn't end with a happy ending. The book ends, and he is still deep in the dope hole. This edition had an update that came in 2017. In the update, it gave us what we all hoped for reading this. Brandon is sober and living his best life possible yet again. This man had so much going for him. He was a signed skateboarder and hanging out with other famous skaters. It just shows you that even those with so much can fall into the path of addiction. I love the style in how Novak wrote this as well. Extremely engaging and kept me turning the pages. The streets of baltimore is another book he wrote. It becomes available on Kindle in March. I will totally be reading this next one by him. Keep up the sobriety Brandon, you got this.
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102 reviews
October 30, 2025
As a recovering heroin addict, this book captures addiction perfectly. I loved it, I could relate on so many levels.
I loved watching Viva la Bam growing up, so I'm glad that was mentioned a lot in the book.
1 review1 follower
November 3, 2015
I had been quite intrigued by Novak and his back story for a while, and then my friend gave me Dreamseller to read.
I'm usually fussy with books - Unless it interests me within the first chapter, I usually give up. Dreamseller had me completely hooked!
This book is all at once entertaining, harrowing, hilarious and interesting. I have never read something that's so insanely gripping. The tales of Novak's past - his addiction, his recovery, his struggles, are all so hooking. I couldn't put Dreamseller down.
Although it's a story of a junkie who threw his life away, the way Novak (and the co-author Joe Frantz) have written this book completely takes over your emotions and makes you feel ridiculous compassion for his poor soul. Throughout the book, you just really want Novak to come out the other side clean. You root for him.
This is my favourite book in the entire world. I have a hard back copy (so hard to find), and I've read it 9 or 10 times on the past four years or so. Each time it's just as intense and interesting as the previous one.

If you haven't read this book, then please please pick up a copy. You will not regret it! Plus, I NEED all the interest Novak's story can get so him and Joe Frantz can release more shit and I can read the hell out of it! These guys are awesome and so very genuine. I can't wait for the next steps in this story!
Ayesha Marie Scott x
1 review11 followers
November 2, 2015
What do I think about this book.. WOW.. that is what I think. This book is just truly amazing. I have a friend(s) that are going through some hard times dealing with additions and its not fun to be the one going through it or the one on the other end. This book opens the eyes of how hard something can be to beat and how low it will bring you down with out you really noticing its a problem. I had gave a friend my book to read while he was detoxing and he said it scared him as well as made him cry. Its crazy how a book like this can open your eyes,mind and heart so wide and make you think a million different things all at once. I rate this book more then a 5 if i could and to go out get a copy and read it but REALLY READ IT. Put yourself in Novaks shoes become Novak and see just how the feelings and reality hit you. This book will make you see that no one is invisible and that addition can happen to anyone, I cant wait to read the next book! Thank you so much for making a book so amazing and TRUTH!

Aleena Logan
https://www.facebook.com/aleena.logan
1 review
December 14, 2018
I enjoyed reading this memoir; Novak took me through the difficulties of becoming a addict. He shows me that drugs are my joke. Drugs will consume you until there is nothing left of you. They will make you lose everything you love. Before reading this book I was ignorant. I would always judge addicts for not quitting. Novak showed me that it isn't that they don't want to it is just nearly impossible. They have no money to pay for rehab and they have no one to help them. But worst of all is actually being sober. Its though to see what your addiction made you become. "Dreamseller" helped em see the life of an addict. I also liked how the author made this book easy to read. He wasn't using complicated words. He had on point; to convince people that drugs are not worth it.
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