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Kindle Edition
First published February 17, 2015

We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes .. ►♫
I was lost to this man.
In this moment, I was forever his.
My heart, my soul, my body --
His .."

Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around .. ►♫
I'm sorry I broke your heart,
but I swear i'll spend the rest of my life
putting it back together .."

I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel .. ►♫
“Are you still seeing Liberty?” My smile faded a bit. “No. We’re over.” Lifting an eyebrow, I could tell she was holding back a smile. “How come? You get bored with her and pick up another girl on the side?” Ouch. That hurt.
“Why did you bring me to your parents’ for Christmas? Why didn’t you just bring Liberty if she was the one you wanted to be with?”
“Pretty much, Tristan. You were fucking another girl when you were with me. Forgive me for thinking we were in an exclusive relationship.”
“No! It wasn’t anything like that at all. I couldn’t decide between the two of you.” He did not just say that. Motherfucker.
Dodge had Ryn up against the island, fucking the shit out of her. Closing my eyes, I started to step down.
Liberty was right; I liked to play in the bedroom. A lot. Liberty was as vanilla as they came. Me on top, her on the bottom, and if she was feeling frisky she would ride me, but that was a once a month treat for her . . . and me.
Closing my eyes, I felt my tears fall. I was doing exactly what Dodge said I was doing—using him as a means to push Tristan away. I needed to decide once and for all what I was going to do. Was I moving on with Dodge or would I allow Tristan to keep a hold of my heart?
Silence. “Ryn, I’m falling for you. You have to see that.”
Fuck me. Why do I have the wrong guy wanting to make a future together?
Dodge was just supposed to be my rebound fuck buddy.
Then, of course, there were my sexual hobbies. I never took Ryn to my condo in Austin. A part of me was scared to death that the moment I opened the door to my playroom, Ryn would turn and never look back. Liberty on the other hand, I knew she wouldn’t get into my playroom. A part of me knew by bringing her there, I was hoping it would push her away. Unfortunately, it hadn’t worked. If anything, Liberty tried harder to show me how amazing vanilla sex was.
Dodge took my hand in his. “I don’t want any other women, I want you. I’m falling in love with you, Ryn.”
I ended up with Renee one night when I couldn’t find anyone I wanted on the other side of the club. I sat at the bar and talked to her all night. Before I knew it, I was in her bed fucking the hell out of her.
“You want to be fucked, honey?” Turning to me, she ran her tongue along her top teeth. “You like to play?” Grinning from ear to ear, I nodded my head. “Fuck yeah, I do.” “My place or yours?”
...saw Ryn dancing with a guy. His hands were moving up and down her body as she grinded up against him.
I didn’t want to tell Ryn the only people who had ever been here were Lark and women I brought here to fuck. The last thought caused me to feel sick. How would Ryn feel knowing I had brought women here just to fuck them?
My smile faded as I thought back to Michelle being here one night after I first moved in. She had wanted to see my playroom and be the first to try it out. Try it out we did. Then we moved into here. We had watched porn on the large screen and fucked each other senseless in one of the beanbags
I had never had anyone in my room. Not even Liberty when I brought her here.
I started having strange feelings for you that I’d never had for anyone before in my life. That’s when I met Liberty and started seeing her as well. I gave up the club scene as soon as I began dating you and then the whole mess last year and well . . . you know.”
Angela and I had been each other’s firsts. I took her virginity and she took mine. In the back of one of her daddy’s nineteen fifty-five Chevys.
“I’ve grown to really enjoy your company and if we hadn’t done it now, we would have sooner or later, Sierra.”
“You weren’t lying when you said you were good in bed. Holy shit, I’ve never been so thoroughly fucked. And how in the hell do you manage to give a girl three . . . no wait, I’m pretty sure I tipped four, orgasms?”
Laughing, I eased up on my hold of her.
“I can’t imagine what you’d be like making love to someone you truly loved, Tristan.”
The image of Ryn and me in the hunters cabin popped into my head. Closing my eyes, for the first time in my life, I fought to hold back my tears.
Smiling, I kissed the back of her head. “Do you want me to make love to you, Sierra?”
Turning in my arms, she looked at me for a good twenty seconds or so. Shaking her head she whispered, “No. The next time you make love to a woman, Tristan, it should be with the woman you love with all your heart.”
“Before opening the door, she turned and looked at me. “I am faced with two serious problems now though.”
My smile faded. “What?”
She took in a deep breath and quickly exhaled. “My vibrator will never be able to compete with those orgasms. And, I’m pretty sure my next boyfriend’s performance in bed will be measured up to the amazing fucking I just got.”