2023 Reread -- "Whale talk is the truth, and in a very short period of time, if you're a whale, you know exactly what it is to be you."
Damn Chris Crutcher...he can break my heart faster and more completely than most other authors. I knew how it would end, so I avoided finishing it Saturday night...I started to read a bonus essay, "More Whale Talk," in this paperback edition. Nope. Nope. Had to put that away also, as Crutcher writes about meeting a speech and debate group at a bookstore. You'll have to read it yourself to know how it dissolved me in tears, too.
So, I finished it Sunday morning, knowing I'd be wiping tears off my face for an hour.
TJ Jones is painfully honest, with a strong sense of justice. He's mixed-race in a vanilla school and community. Adopted, carrying so much trauma, but getting on with life. His adoptive parents are fierce advocates...Mom's a lawyer; Dad is carrying his own crushing trauma that he's spent TJ's life trying to correct...make amends for...
TJ's a natural athlete who hates organized sports in a town and school where athletes in letter jackets run the world. He stands up for a vulnerable boy carrying his own grief and hatches a scheme to collect misfits together, mold a swim team, and earn letter jackets for all his misfits.
TJ collects the vulnerable, the needy. He tries to protect them all and often makes big mistakes in his quest to save the world...or his little corner of the world. TJ collects people and creates a family built on love and support, not necessarily blood. He learns to listen, to be patient. To learn his truth, even when it breaks his heart. And breaks mine. Is he perfect? NO. He's cocky, impatient. His temper is monumental, and will always be his weakness. But he's learning. He's growing. He's seeing the world through other people's truths.
Crutcher was a teacher, a swimmer, a counselor. His characters come from all those young people whose stories he listened to, watched. The young people who touched his heart. He makes us love TJ, Heidi, Chris...his teammates. Because he loves them.
I'm so grateful I spent some time with TJ again and his hilarious team, and his wise parents, and little Heidi, whose life he probably saved. I'm picking up the broken pieces of my heart, knowing TJ has a towering future in front of him. I think he's ready to grab it.
As with all of Crutcher's books, this one is a target of book-banners. Which is exactly WHY young people need this book. Some will recognize themselves in TJ, or maybe in Barbour, or Heidi, or Chris. They will see we can survive the worst moments and build our futures. That we're not the worst moment of our lives, our worst mistake, our biggest tragedies. We are free to build a future, made richer by opening our lives to others who may need us.
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Tao Jones (yes, say it out loud!) is one of my favorite Crutcher characters. His sense of justice allows him to fight for others who are unable to fight for themselves...His efforts to secure a letter jacket for Chris, a mentally disabled student at school result in the funniest swim team I've ever read about.