I am devastated to write I had to DNF this book. The MFC changed and was someone I couldn't tolerate any longer. I am sad about this because she was awesome in book 1. When she said she would follow the MMC in book 1 (as long as he didn't take over Kelvadan) and then proceeded to save him from his jailer, I thought this was some good stuff. Well, she does a 180 and the MMC becomes her dirty little secret and she won't sacrifice anything for him; yet, he gave up everything for her. I read other reviews to see if others felt the same way and they did. Bummer.
Book 1 was AMAZING and ended in a way I wrote a huge review about. I love when a book ends and the MCs are loyal to each other and believe in each other, no matter what others are saying. So, I thought entering this book we would see them continue to fight for each other, despite the rumors.
NOPE! The MFC immediately started playing the victim and became manipulative. She asked ZERO questions and made a ton of assumptions about the MMC. Book 1 set up a relationship where this should not have happened, so for the plot to shift immediately into this in book 2 was incredibly disappointing to me. What was the whole point of book 1 and building all that love, connection, and trust for her to just believe he left her. UGH.
The way book 1 ended and how this book was pitched, I thought this would be about the MFC showing her face in public as 100% for Kelvadan and the MMC showing his face in public as 100% for the Clans, but secretly they were aligning together behind closed doors making plans and deeply loving each other; yet, they were unsure of how to present a united front to the two very polarized groups of people they were with. I thought this was going to be a beautiful love story with intense complexities, but I was wrong 😭
Why I quit this book:
1. The MFC used the word "abandoned" so many times. Her parents and people abandoned her, they had power and status and could abandoned a child. However, an adult partner with equal status and power cannot abandon you. They can leave you, but not abandon. Also, why not assume good intention? Why not ask more questions about why he had not sent a message or come for you yet? Why not assume something bad happened to him and he couldn't reach you? Why not assume you needed to save him? Why not go talk to the person who typically receives messages? Why not seek him out (once you were healed)? Why not give him an inch of faith?
Then, she uses the word abandoned in attempt to manipulate the MMC to not follow his path 🤮 and stay in line with her expectations for him 🤢 🤮 This was double ick because she acknowledged in the jail that he had tried to get to her (didn’t abandon her) and he also felt abandoned by her. For her to later change the narrative to manipulate him… WHY!! I LOVED that the MMC called her out for all the BS she put him through and how much he sacrificed for her. She really didn’t get it and needed to be slapped on the face with this information, she SUCKED!
2. As I got further into the book I became even more disappointed. The MFC was an extremely hypocritical woman, this was the turning point for me to know this book was not for me. The MFC was mad the MMC brought her back to his Lord and she saw that as a betrayal, yet she can go back to Kelvadan and agree to be the heir and future queen? Her man was traumatized by the queen and her husband, so he left to not be the heir. She then falls in love with him and, behind his back, agrees to be the heir, taking his place? Yikes? Are you f**king kidding me? Talk about being a crappy person (if taking the lens of this love story. If looking at it from the Kelvadan lens only, then sure, she was doing the right thing, but this whole series was about NOT taking Kelvadan's lens only). Agreeing to be the heir and future queen was such a major betrayal to the MMC. They supposedly had this incredibly strong bond and she loved him, but she took on HIS role without even talking to him or truly even considering him in this decision. The direction of this was so gross to me and I immediately lost interest.
Of note, I thought the queen's rationale for making the MFC the heir was alright (not strong), but the hypocrisy of the MFC is what irritated me. She's mad the MMC was sticking to his agenda, but doesn't see anything wrong with her sticking to hers, even advancing her status? She's asking him to stop his cause for her but she wouldn't do the same for him? She became manipulative, only loving him because he gave into her. She got to be in control and make whatever choices she wanted, keeping moving forward with her goals, all at the sacrifice of his well-being. If he did what he wanted, she would have threatened that he didn’t love their bond enough (her internal dialogue at the beginning).
As I write this, I am so frustrated with how this story changed. The book proceeded and the MMC gave up everything for her, only to become the man she slept with in the night and no one could know. He was this fierce clan warlord and left all of it for their love/bond. She asked him to do that, and he did! He gave her everything she wanted and became half the person he was. What did she do: treated him like trash, took his inheritance without talking to him, AND accepted a marriage proposal from someone else (number 4 in this list). He gave up everything for their love and she gave up nothing, just took and took and took and manipulated. She could have said no sooooo many times, yet she didn’t. She literally wanted him to give up everything for her because of their bond (complained about that for the first 25% of the book), but she could not give a damn inch for him and their bond. What a hypocrite. Could you imagine if he took back his rights as the heir, got engaged to someone else for "political" reasons, and continued to be with the MFC, but only behind closed doors? She would feel betrayed and throw a tantrum, and so would us readers, we would be so angry! Well guess what, having the roles reversed where she is in power and treating him this way enraged me just as much.
I thought this story was supposed to be an epic love story and them being loyal to each other. Nope, the MFC "abandoned" him real f**king quick for power, justifying it as needing to save the people. Although her thoughts showed she cared for the MMC, her behavior did not. She, in many ways, just mimicked what his parents did to him (hiding him away, making decisions that hurt him, not willing to put him first, being mad at him for wanting his own path, expecting him to give himself, not caring how their behavior impacted his well-being). Her not having insight into her crappy behavior just made it so much worse because she was so mad at his parents. Wake up MFC, you were WORSE because you knew his history and did the same thing anyway!
I think why all of this bothered me so much was because the story is written like she was this thoughtful, selfless, and kind woman, but she wasn’t. She was a hypocritical, judgmental, manipulative woman holding onto a victim mentality, not truly caring about the impact of her actions on the MMC, who clearly was devoted to her; yet, she was deeply wounded when he did anything good for himself that didn’t align with her. 🙄
3. HE SURRENDERS TO HER and what does she do? PUTS HIM IN PRISON without talking to him. This was it for me. SHOCKER- she goes down to the prison, he tells her about how HER behavior demonstrated she "abandoned" him, yet he still fought for her because he loved her, and how he did try to get to her. IF SHE JUST WOULD HAVE BELIEVED IN HIM and asked some questions, she would have gotten information, preventing all the drama. The MMC's behavior and love was the LOVE STORY I WANTED. But, the MFC ruined that with her immature approach.
4. THEN the MFC chose to marry someone other than the MMC. The MMC literally leaves everything he stood for FOR HER, but she accepts another man's marriage proposal. She even considers how she can marry this other man, but be intimate with the MMC. Gross, so he gets to be her seconds/side piece after everything he gave up for her? DNF bye bye.
Using her rationale: when he was doing something she didn’t like that he thought was for the good of everyone, she thought that he loved her and their bond, but not enough to stop what he was doing and put her first. Therefore, when she chose to marry someone else for the good of the people and not for the MMC, clearly she loved him and their bond, but not enough. Obviously this isn’t true, but she can use that rationale against him, but never even considered to use it against herself? Therefore, back to point 2. Hypocrite!
If the MMC was in power and had gotten a marriage proposal, he would have denied it immediately. He would have been loyal to her. The MMC deserved so much better than the MFC. This won't happen because of the ending (I skimmed through it), but I wished the MMC got fed up with the MFC, left her, and found someone worthy of his love and devotion.