I’ve always adored J.J. Mulder’s characters, and now we get a Latino MMC? Yes, please! I loved having a character who speaks my native language—something I haven’t encountered very often in other books (or at least not that I remember). Seeing Latino representation in an MM romance made me so happy, and it only deepened my love for this author.
“Descansa, amor,” he says on a sigh, shifting a touch closer. Even when we’re fighting, he says the same thing every night. I wait, knowing there’s more. “Te veo al amanecer.”
“This time, not even biting my lip can hold back my groan. “Mierda,” I mutter helplessly, as he does it again. I can feel his lips curve up in a smile from where they’re pressed against me. Nobody touching my skin has ever felt this good.”
When Marcos was introduced in Max and Luke’s book, I had a completely different impression of who he was and that changed entirely in his own story. At first, I saw him as a broody, confident, sporty, and protective guy. But after reading his book, I realized that’s not all there is to him. And there’s nothing wrong with that—actually, I loved him even more. His more reserved, insecure, slightly shy, and introverted personality made him even more endearing and, honestly, so much cuter in my eyes. My heart broke for him so many times. From Max’s book, I already sensed his trauma, I even mentioned it in my review of that one. You could feel the pain and guilt he carried. I’ve never read a book before with a character who hated being touched to this extent, and it was truly heartbreaking. It made me feel so frustrated for him—reading how much he wanted Nate’s touch but how his body simply wouldn’t let him have it. The way he was constantly aware of other people’s movements around him—it was devastating to experience that secondhand.
“There’s something wrong with me, and if I don’t figure it out, I’ll never have again what I had tonight with Nate. And I want that. I want someone to talk to, and be with. Someone who wants me to spend the night with them, and kisses me just because they feel like it. I want to be someone who can receive that without feeling sick.”
I’ve honestly never encountered a situation like this in any book before, and it left a deep impression on me.
“Falling in love with Nate was a little like stumbling while walking down a hill. I tried to catch myself, but eventually gravity won.”
“He was handsome the other night, but he’s breathtaking in the daylight. It’s terrifying.”
I adore Nate. He’s such a fun, extroverted person—and so good-looking that you might assume he’d be a bit of an asshole, but in reality, he’s incredibly kind and a genuinely good friend. I loved his relationship with Micky (who I absolutely adore—I just know he’s going to be the shyest, cutest man in the series). Nate is so caring toward every single one of his friends, and really, toward people in general. I love how loudly he loves, and how unashamed he is about it. The way he respected Marcos’s boundaries, even when he didn’t fully understand them, was beautiful to see. I also loved that he’s a true cowboy, and how the simplest things brought him happiness and a sense of fulfillment.
“Marcos doesn’t really smile the same way other people do, with their full mouth and teeth participating. He smiles like he’s not really sure he wants to commit. Like smiles are precious and he can’t give them away to just anyone. The trick is to look at his eyes. His mouth might lie, but the smile will be in the warm, deep brown of his eyes.”
“I remind myself that it’s probably not personal, and that last year he specifically told me he wasn’t big on contact. Let him come to you, I reproach myself firmly, even though my fingers itch for him.”
I truly like them as a couple, and I think they’re perfect for each other. Nate is definitely the kind of partner Marcos needs, and vice versa. Given Marcos’s personality, I think he needed someone who’s a little obsessed with him, someone who loves him loudly and unapologetically, so that he can actually believe he’s worthy of it. And Nate? He just needed someone who loves him back and is willing to live a quiet life on a ranch with him, because let’s be real, that’s not a life for everyone. It honestly felt like I was reading the autobiography of two regular people falling in love. Their story was so... normal, and it unfolded so naturally that it made everything feel real and possible. I really did enjoy that. Though I’ll admit, there were a few moments where it bored me just a tiny bit—like, the smallest bit—but at the same time, I loved how grounded it felt because of that realism.
“What should we do tonight? Do you like cards? I could teach you how to play Peanuts.”
“Sure.”
He glances at me. “Unless you’ve got another idea?”
“I was sort of hoping you might want to fuck me,” I offer.
“Your idea,” he says swiftly. “Definitely your idea.”
“Nah, let’s play cards,” I tease, and earn myself Nate’s approximation of a glare.
I do wish we had seen more character development with Marcos, maybe more focus on his journey with everything he was going through. I know his trauma, especially related to what happened with Max, was touched upon, but it felt incomplete to me. If I’m being honest, the whole book felt a bit unfinished. I think the author tried to incorporate too much into Marcos’s character, and because of that, there wasn’t enough space to fully explore those layers or show his growth by the end. Similarly, I wish we had seen more depth to Nate’s character as well. We caught a brief glimpse of his struggle with his sexuality, but beyond that, the story shifted more toward his growing obsession with Marcos rather than diving into anything deeper or more personal about him.
It made me so happy that my favorite boys were included in this book! I loved the little moments where Max and Henri appeared, and I especially appreciated getting glimpses of Max’s healing and how his relationship with Luke is growing. I do wish Henri had shown up more, but even the small moments we got of him made me so, so happy. I loved seeing them through Nate’s perspective, his friendship with both Max and Henri and also witnessing Marcos’s friendship and healing journey with Max. God, how I love these two. They’re my favorites in the series, so getting those little moments with them made me so happy!
The only word I can use to describe this book is cute. It had me giggling, and I probably said the word “cute” hundreds of times while reading. I love this series so much, and I find myself genuinely invested in every single one of the characters. I also really appreciate how the author includes such a diverse range of people—each with unique backstories, struggles, sexualities, and ways of being. There’s no character in this series that feels like a copy of another, and I absolutely love that. The stories in this series tackle serious, uncomfortable, and sometimes heartbreaking topics. They also shine a light on different types of sexuality that aren’t often talked about or widely known. It’s truly a wonderful thing—to enjoy an entertaining romance while also becoming more informed and aware of these important issues and types of love.
I struggled with rating this book because I really did like it, and the simple fact that there’s a Latino MMC makes me want to rate it higher. But, like I mentioned earlier, it felt incomplete to me. Even though I liked the romance between Nate and Marcos, I was left wishing the author had made the book longer. I wanted more time for Marcos’s trauma and struggles to be fully explored and to feel like he was truly on a path toward healing and more time to connect with them as a couple on a deeper level. So, while there were many things I genuinely enjoyed, I’ll have to give it 3.6 stars. Can’t wait for Micky book!
“If you still want me to, by then.” […] He half turns around, just enough that he can look at me. Backlit by the fire, I can hardly see his face. Not that it particularly matters. I’d know him blind.
“I’ll want you to. I love you, and that’s not going to change.”
“Even when I don’t want you to touch me? Or cuddle?” I trail my fingertips up his side, drawing attention to how close we’re sitting.
“Even then.”
“Even when I take long trips to visit Max?”
“Especially then,” he agrees firmly. “Because I’ll miss you so bad, it’ll be incredible once you return.”
“Well, good. Because I love you, too.”