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this is a quiet, emotionally rich book that's at its best when it leans into the intimacy and awkward volatility of girlhood, especially the deeply strange experience of idolizing someone older, more magnetic, more worldly, and not yet realizing how quickly that imbalance can curdle into something painful.
i found the coming-of-age elements compelling and tenderly drawn: ida's neurodivergence is handled with care and her loneliness, rigidity, and emotional fixations feel entirely believable. there's a distinct ache to her desire, not just for elna, but for closeness, for being understood, for becoming something more than the small, solitary life she's always known. i loved how the book captures that initial thrill of someone seeing you, not as you've always been treated, but as something new, someone worth paying attention to.
that said, i didn't think the darker turn the book takes - the sudden crime, the aftermath, the epilogue - meshed well with the story it had been telling up to that point. the tone shift was jarring. it moved the narrative into thriller-lite territory in a way that felt disjointed from the slower, quieter interiority of the first half. it's not that the idea of something dark happening doesn't fit, but the execution didn't land for me. the result was a novel that started strong and slowly lost its footing and ultimately, one that didn't leave a lasting impression.
still, champine's prose is observant and controlled, and the tension between admiration and unease, between being seen and being used, is captured well. i just wish the novel had stuck with that thread instead of pivoting to something more plot-driven in its final act.