alright time to do what I do best and leave a terrible review on a seemingly harmless book.
*sigh*
this book was actually super interesting in the beginning and had me invested to the point where i refused to sleep in order to get far enough into it. the fact that the main character is trans/nonbinary was what initially caught my eye, followed by the description of the "other woods" and this MC who could see them and talk to them—like that was so cool. if i had read a middle-grade book like this one back when I was in middle school, i would've been elated as a kid who was still figuring out their gender identity. so im glad that representation in media like this exists right now so others get that sort of opportunity. sadly, though, this book really sucked.
maybe it's because middle-grade is just not the genre for me or maybe it's the author's clunky writing, unnecessary descriptions, and their lack of consistency. the plot felt linear right at the beginning but soon delved into a pot of ideas that the author seemingly didn't know what to do about. it's like they had way too many ideas, but not enough time or space to develop them. they introduce us to this super cool magic system with various worlds and creatures and then they leave it at nothing. like straight up nothing. no explanations, no meeting these other creatures, no nothing. we dont even get to see river's magic, only at the very freaking end. there was also a line in the book that was never explained about river's magic and the author just left it as a loose-end. and i dont know, it feels like the author is really underestimating their own target audience.
anyway, aside from that, the author tried wayyyy too hard to make this "realistic" and there was an uncomfortable amount of times where the MC's body fluids and excrement were...everywhere. let's be honest, nobody rlly cares abt that. if the MC is fighting monsters and trying to save their friends, trust me, nobody cares or wants to read a description of them going to a tree in the woods and taking a shit on the ground. like sorry, this is a fantasy book, let's keep the fantasy element that nobody actually goes to the bathroom or gets scared shitless during a fight to the point where they piss themselves.
this book had a lot of potential, but the author was weird and tried too hard. if this had gotten fleshed out into several books, maybe it would have been better, but since this is a standalone...well, yeah. 2/5 stars.
oh also, that was the most underwhelming and predictable plot-twist of the century. everybody saw it coming from the very beginning. again, i feel like the author is just underestimating their target audience at this point.