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On his twentieth birthday, immortal seer Echo is preparing to meet the mortal woman he has been having visions of for four years, Sira. He knows she is his soulmate, and he can't bear to wait another second - so he breaks through the barrier between the worlds illegally, ready to bring her back home with him. She is instantly as infatuated with him as he is with her, and leaves willingly. But their happiness is short-lived when Echo's parents intervene, sending Sira back to Earth with the advice that they can meet again when they are 30. But their decision condemns Echo and Sira to six years of horror and pain. Will they ever find each other again? Can they both heal from the trauma they've suffered?
Toxic is a book that leaves you frenetically turning pages, and upon reaching the end, wishing you'd savoured it for a little longer. I wish it had been a longer book, as there was so much opportunity for further drama and intrigue - but I loved it nonetheless. It is fated mates meets meddling gods, two lots of differently toxic parents, mythical creatures, the destruction of a tyrannical regime and spice.
Echo is a geeky 20 year old when we first meet him, utterly obsessed by this woman on Earth he has seen visions of, incredibly frustrated (if you get my drift 😉) and prepared to break all the rules of his world to get to her. His family unit is unusual in that he has a Dad, a Father and a Mum, as well as his younger sister, who until this point has been the one everyone would have expected to do something illegal. The moment he sets eyes on Sira, he knows he's done the right thing. He takes her back to his home on Uru, but as passion spills over, his Dad and Father arrive, intending to send Sira back home without her memories. What they aren't aware of is that the psychic tether between Echo and Sira has already been formed. They can each feel the other's pain, hear their thoughts and be aware of what they are dreaming of. Echo has to face the punishment for breaking the laws of his Immortal universe, and ends up sacrificing two years of his time in service to Dread, a horrific Titan who hopes to see him die. His rage and fury towards anyone who gets in between him and Sira are absolute - even family members are not exempt, particularly his Dad and Father.
Sira lives in a post WW3 era (caused by an "orange dictator") America, where a once rich nation is destroyed and life is once again segregated between white and people of colour. She is an Iranian immigrant, daughter of a mother and father who treat her appallingly. She spends her time reading, restoring books, volunteering at a hospice, desperately dreaming of escaping Atlanta and heading for one of the free states, and watching spicy things on the internet. She attends her prom at the insistence of her sister, the only person she feels any sense of closeness to, but she is prepared to hate every second. When Echo knocks on her window, her life immediately looks up. Despite her "sad girl" life so far, she is sparky and has the awareness that this is something she deserves, and an opportunity for a far better life. The incredible bond between them has her agreeing to go with him despite her awareness of the things he is saying seeming unrealistic. But when she is returned to Atlanta after her brief trip to Uru, she goes through absolute hell. For six years, she endures some of the most horrendous circumstances (please be aware of SA trigger warnings), along with her desperation to be reunited with Echo.
The ability of parents to be toxic to their children is visited repeatedly in this book. Sira's parents beat her, and when she is in the depth of depression following her separation from Echo, they claim she is drug addicted in order to shunt her to a therapy facility (where she endures SA and actual addiction to medication force fed to her). When she is returned to them after the facility runs out of funds, they have zero care for her. Echo's parents, whilst better meaning than Sira's, are unable to prevent themselves from intervening in what fate intends for Echo or Sira - a pattern that repeats several times before they understand that what they are doing is wrong and they need to step away. It almost feels like this could be a project of catharsis for Gigi Zarbi - it feels like a sense of understanding has been poured into the pages.
I adored how absolute the bond was between Echo and Sira. Even after six years apart with zero communication (just what they heard of each other's thoughts), there was no resentment or anger between them - just towards their respective parents. Their instant connection never wavered, even in the face of such adversity. Their recognition of each other's torment and suffering, and their abilities to make the other feel better gave me a lump in my throat. I'm an absolute sucker for fated mates, and this was a different yet no less beautiful version of that trope - and I love that.
This is open door spice, with kinks explored from the start, but it still feels like a 3🌶️ read to me.
I really enjoyed Toxic - it hooked me from the first chapter, with Echo so intent on finding the woman he's been having visions of. From that point on the story felt like it flew by - never any less exciting, through thick and thin. And that is the only reason I can't give it five stars - it was too short. It could have been developed more, built up more and been an absolute gut puncher of a novel. I absolutely loved it, it just felt like a missed opportunity to fully flesh out an incredible premise.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to review this book!