"He said he loved her. He said he’d never leave. He lied"
When Olivia Reed comes home to find her boyfriend Callum gone — not just missing, but vanished without a trace — her life begins to unravel. His clothes, his photos, every sign he ever existed… wiped clean. It’s as if Callum was never real at all.
But Olivia remembers. She remembers his touch, his voice, the way he made her feel safe. So why can’t anyone else remember him the same way? And why do the fragments of his past seem to crumble under scrutiny?
As Olivia digs deeper, determined to uncover the truth, the lines between memory and her own past begin to blur. And what she finds isn’t just about Callum — it’s about her. About the secrets she’s buried. The things she’s tried to forget.
Because the most dangerous lies are the ones we tell ourselves.
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A deeply troubling psychological thriller, narrated almost exclusively in a single voice, that of Olivia herself. The timeline is multi-layered, switching between the 'now' and 'then' (beginning three months previously, before dovetailing into the present moment), in well marked segments. Interspersed throughout are flashbacks to Olivia's past, which although not quite so clearly marked, are easily recognisable by the consistent use of an alternative font.
This is a slow-burning storyline, with a small cast of characters, where many of the highly detailed past events, together with the passion and emotions they evoke, are repeated, although with varying emphasis, as Olivia tries to remember long buried details and often blurred edges, in an attempt to piece her life back together, especially when it looks as though the police may be set to revisit her history, in an effort to solve the present mystery of Callum's disappearance.
An only child, a psychologically damaged Olivia carries some deep resentments, many of which she is all too aware and others she has buried at the back of her mind, in an effort to forget and move on with a life she has been forced to accept, after having her childhood passion and dreams for the future shattered by those whom she thought and indeed should have expected, to care, nurture and encourage her the most. It becomes clear early on in the story that even some eight years later, Olivia is living on a knife-edge and barely holding her mental health in check, so the last thing she needs is a new boyfriend who has clearly spun her a line, messed with her head, then left her, without anyone in her small circle of acquaintances having met him, to even so much as verify his existence.
She is lucky enough to have at least one close confidante in Lucy, who has been there for her, since the day she arrived in the town as a teenager, having been forced to flee, with her parents, from the good life they had hitherto enjoyed. Trapped in an unwanted existence and long ago abandoned by one parent, who laid the blame for the family misfortunes squarely at Olivia's feet, she has since endured the unspoken rebuke of her remaining family member, whom she has sought to silently, although it would appear unsuccessfully, appease until that person's recent death. However, even Lucy doesn't know the full details of events which brought Olivia into her life and although she realises that Olivia has secrets, she has and is still, willing to give her the time and space to make her feel comfortable enough to be able to open up and confide in her.
Quite early on I had worked out in my own mind, several different reasons about how Callum might have linked Olivia's past with the present. However, there were so many tiny subtle twists and turns in the plot, that I never had the finer details all buttoned down until almost the very last page or two, although it was clear that there was only ever one person who was going to walk away as a completely innocent party.
Location was never really of any consequence in this character driven storyline, which is a bit of a shame, as both Portsmouth and Christchurch, on the south coast of England, I know quite well. However, it was still good to be able to add context to events and locations, as Olivia struggled to make sense of what at first appeared to be a senseless situation.
This being the second book I have read and enjoyed by author Alex Stone, hers is definitely a name which is firmly on my radar for the future.