How the f*** did I end up here?

by Chloe M Kent

“ROOM ELEVEN!” she screams as half a dozen staff members rush towards it, including one of the head doctors; he is usually upstairs on the adult ward, but he appears at the double doors, frantic and desperate to quickly get to whoever needs his help.
I am so taken aback by all the commotion that it doesn’t even register which patient belongs to room eleven at first. But then I it’s me. That emergency alarm is coming from my room.

This book is about seventeen-year-old me, navigating anxiety and a panic disorder whilst trying to be a normal teenager. I tell you all about what life was like inside a mental health unit as an in-patient, all the highs, lows and honest accounts.

This is the most open and personal story of my life that I have ever shared and I truly hope you enjoy reading and learning about this side of me.

Chloe x

170 pages, Kindle Edition

Published March 31, 2025

Reviews

[Donna B · Rating 5 out of 5]

I've followed Chloe on social media for a while, & always enjoy her posts. Reading this felt like having a conversation with a friend. I laughed, I teared up a couple of times.

[Emma Howlett · Rating 4 out of 5]

really enjoyed this, I didn't want it to end. I've followed chloe on social media for a good while so while I was reading it was like I could hear her, and like a chat with a good mate. one minute I felt sadness and the next I was laughing. I feel like I need to know how Jim has done in life xxxx
well done chloe 👏

[Christine Freeburn · Rating 5 out of 5]

I don't really know how to write this review. The story of Chloe is heartbreaking, sad, happy, and joyous all at the same time. Her time in the hospital shows her great strength and determination, even with a few wobbles along the way. I found a lot of this relatable, some for myself, but also seeing a loved one crippled with health anxiety. I am happy Chlo got the help she needed and deserved, I just wish that could happen today, with so many people struggling to get the help they need, or not being believed. Being told go for a walk to sort the anxiety, like it's the magic cure. It's ridiculous and laughable.

I do want to know more about Kiki and Bow. Those two are seriously horrible girls. I would love to know what happened for them to switch the way they did, but by the sound of it Chloe doesn't even know why. I am so glad that it didn't knock you Chloe, even though it did result in you speaking fluent Spanish 😉🤣

A great tale or sheer determination, strength and courage. I am so glad you were able to find ways to cope. Like you say, you are never alone and those bad days will pass at some point and we all have to look for those good days and savour and cherish them.

[Mrs_rice_reads · Rating 5 out of 5]

this. I find it so hard to rate autobiographical stories as it’s not like you can say things like oh I don’t like the ending or there wasn’t enough twists… as this is someone’s life but I can tell you what I loved about this book and that is: it was raw, funny and sad. I really think you should narrate your own audiobooks in the future.
There were some laugh out loud moments and moments that made me shed a tear. I think you have a gift for writing in a comedic way even through the not so funny events. A unique and fantastic way to look at life. Looking forward to the next instalment and all I can say is when you got out I hope one of the first things you did was catch up on Katie Prices life 🤣

[Erika · Rating 4 out of 5]

adored this book wish it didn't end so quickly nearer the end , was lovely reading how your mum managed to turn things around and be there for you and her grandchildren to make them last memories the trauma she must of gone through when younger to put her in those dark places must of been so hard and to be able to get the help she needed in the end was lovely to read, hope jim is living his best life he sounded so endearing, the first book of chloe kents I have read but have seen there's different books chloe has wrote so I'd definitely recommend this book and will definitely be getting some of her other books now too

[Natasha sebuwufu · Rating 5 out of 5]

I don’t usually pick up many memoirs, but after following Chloe online I was so intrigued to read her story. This book had me tearing up one moment and laughing out loud the next—it’s raw, honest, and so full of heart. I especially loved the character of Jim, and I know I’ll always wonder how life turned out for him.

It takes such courage to put your mental health journey on paper, and Chloe has done it beautifully. How the F Did I End Up Here? is an inspiring, unfiltered account of her seventeen-year-old self navigating life in a mental health inpatient unit while living with anxiety and panic disorder. A brave and moving read that definitely deserves 5 stars ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[Laura Stanaway · Rating 3 out of 5]

I don’t feel it’s right to say that I enjoyed a book that is somebody’s experience of poor mental health. However, it didn’t realy feel like a biography or true story which was a positive for me as they are not the sort of books I have ever read. It was very easy reading and gave an insight into anxiety. My only negative was at how uncomfortable a sent made me feel, and how innapropiate I thought it was- one regarding jimmy Saville. I think this part of the book could have been expressed in a number of different ways.

[Danielle Firth · Rating 4 out of 5]

I have followed Chloe on social media for a while, mainly for the bants, but this book goes to prove you don’t know anything behind someone’s sense of humour. It’s as relatable as it’s not, it’s such a niche lived experience but the emotions that it invokes are universal.

I thoroughly enjoyed this book, so much so I read it within the day and even though it deals with such heavy topics I felt lighter after I’d finished it.

I can’t wait to read more of her work, until then see you on TikTok!

[Gary Collins · Rating 5 out of 5]

Chloe Kent is my favourite person on TikTok so when I heard she was releasing a book about her time in a mental health hospital I knew I had to read it.
This book is heartbreaking but also has Chloe’s amazing sense of humour through the book so I also found myself smiling and laughing as well as a few tears whilst reading it.
I would love to know what happened to Jim he seemed like the sweetest person in the world ❤️💙💜💚🧡

[Megan Porteus · Rating 4 out of 5]

A real page turner! I loved the insight into hospitals for the mentally ill. It made me laugh and relate in some ways and cry and feel hope for her and root for her in the world. I’m intrigued to see how it would change in today’s world so I may have to be on the hunt for a book similar in the coming weeks.
Also Chloe is fantastic on Tik Tok and I hope she continues to write.

[X · Rating 5 out of 5]

One of the best books I’ve read this year!

A heavy subject matter that oddly felt so easy to read due to the narration of the story being so real that it genuinely felt like being curled up on the sofa with a cup of tea whilst your friend tells you a story or two! Would definitely recommend!

[Fay · Rating 5 out of 5]

I follow Chloe on social media and reading this book you could actually hear Chloe’s voice in the phrases and expressions she uses. I haven’t read a book so quickly in ages. Was a fab book, very honest and funny at the same time! Recommending it to everyone! If Chloe wrote another book like this based on what happened when the book ended I’d defo buy it!

[Nikki Bellamy · Rating 5 out of 5]

an intriguing read

A read I wasn’t expecting because despite being a tiktok follower - none of this has been mentioned.
A really good read to get a much better insight into a lovely lady who is so admired and appreciated.
Especially loved the last chapter ❤️

[Tammie Goddard · Rating 5 out of 5]

Funny and thought provoking. It’s refreshing to find a book honest about mental health but still have humour to get you through! Well done Chloe you should be proud of yourself!

*few little editing errors esp the dr name (Paul,pope,pipe) doesn’t distract from the story x

[Jessica Meade · Rating 5 out of 5]

this book deserves all the stars in the world! anyone who suffers with thier mental health can relate to this book it had Me laughing out loud the one liners is litreally like listening to chloe on tick tock and I feel happy after reading it I feel I know more about chloe and I feel happy for her!

[Adrienne · Rating 5 out of 5]

I really enjoyed this book! It was laugh out loud funny while also heartbreaking at the same time. There’s so much more I want to know…

[Evie Aplin · Rating 5 out of 5]

Absolutely loved reading this. I read it solidly within one evening I couldn't put it down! So raw, parts made me laugh and so much is relatable. I've read so many books but this tops all.

[Sabrina · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was funny but true book, that kept you wanting to know more , made me under stand her more

[Emily · Rating 5 out of 5]

Amazing, funny and heartwarming
Brilliantly written