2.5 stars
Audio Review
I’ve loved this series and have always been one to recommend it when anyone was looking for BDSM books. I’ve just completed listening to the series back to back. Being as I enjoyed Bradford and Nikki in the books I was really excited to have their story and find out how they got to be who they were, but I had some major issues with this one.
I love Nikki, he never shied away from where he came from and was happy doing any job he could to get some money and get off the streets. He wasn’t abrasive or bitter just took life as it came. My reservations came from the fact that Nikki wasn’t curious or even aware of the BDSM club. He never came looking for it. He wasn’t a sub wanting to learn and get himself a dom. He met Bradford at a coffee shop and Bradford offered him a job in the kitchens. He worked in the kitchens and still didn’t register it was a BDSM club. He had no interest in what went on behind the doors, so when Bradford moved him upstairs and into club atmosphere, it felt more like grooming, and immersing him in the club so that he would want to be included than actually doing what Nikki needed. This feeling stayed with me the entire way through the book and only was accentuated in some of the scenes.
Bradford himself was worried about manipulating him into the lifestyle and both questioned himself and asked Levi to let him know if he thought he was doing it. The guy took a homeless man off the streets offered him a job and a place to stay, Yes I can see he wouldn’t think anything of it with his history and how it worked out for him, it’s like history repeating itself, but he was also already dominant in his own sexual encounters, so already had an interest in the lifestyle. Nikki didn’t have many options or friends at this point that he could turn to. I felt Bradford was pushing Nikki into the lifestyle and moulding him into what he wanted him to be. He was attracted to Nikki as he was in the start and yet then proceeded to turn him into a subservient man instead, who was totally different than the man he met at the start, I still don’t get that part, as it takes away the personality of the man he was attracted to. I did like that we found out more about his history, it was different than I was expecting, but I enjoyed that we found out about where his speech patterns came from as they always struck me as different.
Nikki to me never came across as a natural Sub. Noah and Phan were both already well into the lifestyle when we were introduced, and I loved the parts where we saw Noah before he met Tobias, so they acted very natural in their submission, but with Nikki, at one point we were in his head and he was constantly reminding himself to keep in the moment. It just didn’t come naturally to him.
This did make some of the scenes in the previous books, far more powerful for me, as I very much understood Nikki taking off when the other sub was hurt at the club and I now feel that having Phan share Master Bradford while he needed help was cruel to Nikki. Bradford was the only Dom he ever knew and yet he had to share his time with Phan. Regardless of if there was no sexual relationship between Bradford and Phan it wasn’t fair on Nikki.