DNF @ 39%
I am having a tough run of books right now, and so I'm clearing the shelf and starting over. Which means several DNFs in a row. This is the first.
I have been struggling with this book for 5 days already. ON AUDIO. I didn't even make it to the 40% mark. Libby has provided me with some handy stats:
I have spent 2 hours and 38 minutes reading this book, over 5 days.
I am "on track" to finish in another 4 hours and 4 minutes... which might take me another 8 days.
NO THANK YOU.
This book is marketed as a "The Lottery" meets "Hunger Games" crossover, with race issues. Sounds great, even though I will admit to not being a big fan of The Lottery by Shirley Jackson when I read it years ago. I liked the CONCEPT of it, but didn't really enjoy the execution (heh, see what I did there?).
There's a solar system's worth of daylight between the marketing promise of this book, and the actual contents of this book.
I am nearly 40% into this, and I have zero understanding of what any of these rituals and practices actually mean or are for. Osira knows how to talk in circles around something, but never actually provide any useful info on it. Except when she's describing literally EVERY OTHER SINGLE USELESS AND MUNDANE DETAIL THAT EXISTS.
The narration is my real problem with this book. Osira is a maddening narrator lens. This is written in first person present tense. Which means that we, the reader, are "treated" to a description of every single thought, action, event, discovery, emotion, etc... as it happens. In detail. Osira won't tell us what the Running of the Widows IS or why it is important (other than being a tradition and Mama's expectation), but she will certainly regales us with every single thing there's no possible way she had time to notice as she was running it.
And this made me contemplate the nature of narrative. How are we supposed to understand first person present narratives? And I admit that I'm stumped. This book, with its painfully tedious narrative, has stumped me for how I'm supposed to understand the perspective of this narrative.
Is Osira TELLING me all of this? Because that's never going to work. Nobody would ever TELL a story like this. (Not if they wanted to keep their friends... friends.) Nobody COULD tell a story with this much detail. There's no way that you could be running a race, with apparently dire consequences if lost, and track and record and relate not only every step you take, but the conditions around you, obstacles, hazards, etc, PLUS the actions of every one of your competitors, AND your thoughts and emotions. All at the same time.
Maybe you could track the big things - Mary Sue grabbed at you and you tripped, but righted yourself - but not every minute detail of how Mary Sue grabbed your shoulder, her fingers tugging against the fabric of your white wedding dress, getting caught on the lace trim, which caused enough sideways force to cause a stutter in your next step, your foot catching on a tuft of grass that hadn't yet been trampled down by other feet, causing you to stumble forward and nearly fall, but you managed to lift your dress up a bit, to free your legs for better movement, and that allowed you to get your feet back under you, and continue running. And that's just describing the ACTIONS - I didn't even include the emotions or racing thoughts.
It was just so much DETAIL.
Nah, she couldn't TELL us this. So then, are we supposed to be in her head? But even that doesn't quite fit or work for me, because 1) the question still remains: WHO NOTICES this level of detail? And 2) If we're in her head, we should know what she knows, and we don't. The info around these rituals, her history, her family's secrets, etc are all… hinted at, obliquely referenced, but never examined with the clarity and directness with which she describes everything (AND I DO MEAN EVERYTHING) else.
Maybe THIS is why people hate first person present POV so much. I get it now.
UGH, and on top of this, the audiobook reader made me want to stick a couple of icepicks in my ears.
Every. Single. Sentence. Was read with this overwrought dramatic voice, like she was on the verge of tears, or a mental breakdown. Even the "background" stuff, things like "The Running of the Widows is coming up in 3 days and I've been practicing."
That's a straightforward sentence. I read that with my eyeballs, and it's a statement of fact. I listen to this reader read it, and it's a soap opera "secret twin in a coma" storyline drama.
Just… why? Every choice this book makes is too much. And apparently I didn't even get to the TIME TRAVEL??? MULTIDIMENSIONAL TRAVEL???
WHAT.
I can't even. We're done here.