I'm the first person to leave a one star review for this book and I think I'm losing my mind.
DID WE ALL READ THE SAME BOOK OR HAVE I READ IT ALL WRONG?
I want to preface this to say that I'm not giving this book a 1* rating becuase it was bad - honestly the writing was compelling and gripping. No I'm giving a 1* becuase this book is NOT a genuine love story and I don't know why the author and consequentialy readers too, are making it out to be that it is.
To put it bluntly, Ahmad has narcissistic traits and is straight up controlling and manipulative , and not in a "ooh that's spicy" sorta way but that he genuinely is a character that should be extremely disliked.
Here's why
- I know Ahmad and the FMC were meant to have this mean playful banter thing going on, but looking back at it, he was actually quite condescending. He nitpicked on her behaviours and then gave her shit for the type of guys she attracted, and even though yes the guys she went on dates with were assholes, Ahmad put her down for it each time through jokes as if she isn't a grown ass 29 year old women who can take responsibility for her own life choices. He never gave her the space to be confident in trusting herself, and the author didn't give the FMC space to have self-developement through the dates and learn about herself instead the FMC was chasing love.
- it kept bugging me how Ahmad repeatedly wanted the FMC to express her interest in him, when he gave the perception that he was married and literally called her one of the homies, like what was the poor girl meant to think. Like he shouldve stepped up and just threw the that stupid ring away and pursued her head on instead he sent an ambiguous note saying "you don't know how much I appreciate you" like yes that FMC was right - that man belongs to the streets!
- the cupboard/storage room scene is what tipped me off. First of all, that sardonic laugh or bark he did that was out of character and even the FMC didn't see this side of him before, yeah that was straight up unsettling. Like I genuinely thougt the author was going to pull a IEWU and do a turn of events, bc I was getting creeped out by his behaviour.
- "by any means necessary" why was this line repeated if it wasn't mean to sound a bit controlling and dark?? Bc it's sure not romantic! The FMC recognised that he acted out of jealousy like that was her gut feeling. What she failed to recognise is that it was sign of a dangerous male ego too.
- The audacity he had to waltz into her bday party and then interrogate her about her cold behaviour towards him, was the nail on the coffin that this man had Narcissistic traits. She said to him repeatedly that she didn't want to talk about that subject rn bc it was her birthday, but he kept pushing and overstepping the boundaries bc he's wormed his way into her life by giving her the safe space to feel vulnerable abt her dating life, so now he felt like he could be overbearing and disregard her feelings bc the emotional tether they both have with each other at this point.
Final point...SHE SHOULDVE ENDED UP WITH MARCUS!!
Marcus gave her space to be herself, he was assertive and noticed things abt her without being judgmental instead was simply observant and empathetic. He had that quiet masculine confidence and wasn't overbearing at all, but yet he gave clear signals that he was interested in her. He didn't steal her limelight on her bday at all, instead was very charming. I think there was room for the FMC to be physically attracted him too despite being off put by his supposed "baby face".