Well now, this went a thousand times better than my first book by this author. Zack (H) and Hannah (h) are heartwarming, occasionally heart aching, tender, sometimes comical, and engaging. Starting off with a reformed manwhore who’s instantly fascinated with a prim librarian’s ankles, I knew from early on that their story wasn’t just going to make me smile stupidly, it was going to dig into my heart. Though as it delved into the secret pain each character carried, I also suspected it would squeeze that same heart at times. It sure enough did, but these two fit together despite their seemingly incongruous pieces and they make each other better. Mind the author’s trigger warnings though - I didn’t read it and found myself shocked at one of the turns.
Written in first person, dual POV. No ow/om drama and both are experienced, though very differently. The H was a manwhore rodeo rider who didn’t go more than a week or so without sleeping with someone. Sex is very casually enjoyable to him. He was injured and then not interested in anyone for almost a year before the h sparked him right up. References to his experience are plentiful throughout the book, through his thoughts, her thoughts, and the comments of others. He has zero interest in anyone besides the h in this book and her reaction to his experience was exactly right to keep it from pushing me into dislike. Sex was not fun or easy for the h, because of past trauma, and she’s unable to orgasm with a partner. This isn’t glossed over and the H supports her needs.
Some tropes/themes:
☆ Floundering cowboy x assertive librarian
☆ She needs his help to stage a rodeo fundraiser
☆ Golden retriever hiding secret emotional struggles
☆ She has hidden pain too
☆ He’s obsessed with flashes of her skin
☆ SHE propositions HIM
☆ “Good boy”
☆ Magic dick - this is actually really great
☆ He believes in her
☆ She encourages him
☆ They go on a quest to save a horse
☆ Positive therapy rep
☆ Meaningful side characters
☆ Important animal supporting characters
☆ Small town
☆ Third act breakup
☆ Grand gesture
I’d classify this as relationship-driven. The rodeo fundraiser is the plot point that initially drives the characters in each other’s orbits, but it then takes a backseat to all that they have going on establishing their connection. Loved their chemistry together! Zack was a force of personality and Hannah held her own next to him. They both were dynamic and there’s interesting growth that occurs, because of their relationship. I did wish that their friendship was slightly more established before the steam started, her propositioning him came out of left field imo. The book could have been a smidge longer too given the heavier themes that do pop in and out. The story wasn’t perfect for me and there were places that I wanted more or I felt like the energy of the characters was carrying a weaker element, this was one of those times.
Zack has some fantastic lines in the book and Hannah has wonderful dry wit that gets served up. Their lighter conversations had me grinning. Even though it happens quickly, the bond that springs up between them didn't feel forced. Best of all, the emotional intimacy had space to breathe and grow naturally through their interactions and this physical relationship that was being pursued. Steam-wise, whew it was good. Sometimes the scenes are playful, some are intense, others are soft. Hannah’s PTSD preventing her from orgasming was treated in a relatable way I thought. The spicy scenes also didn’t become hyper focused on her trauma, they felt intimate without constantly being weighed down. Zack’s personality traits certainly helped with that.
The side characters here were delightful and offered additional insight into the main characters. Zack’s brothers were usually frustrating, but also clearly loved their younger brother. The scene where Hannah is spending time with them for family dinner and then looking at photos made my heart swell. Hannah’s friend group were wonderful, but her brother and the group that he lived with on his ranch took the cake for support for her. I’d absolutely read a book about her brother. Hannah’s cats (who are named for the Wallflowers series by Lisa Kleypas, one of my favorites) and the horse that sparked the road trip, are also important.
Even though this is a low stakes story, it felt ramped up because of the emotional weight that the characters carry. I did wish that Hannah sought additional therapy during the book’s timeline. Loved that Zack does, at her prompting, but I felt that she could have benefited from a refresher as well. Esp once the third act breakup hit. At least Hannah had her friend group that offered support, which she acknowledged. Zack's overall mental health could have also done with a smidge more fleshing out, despite the therapy mention. His options for the future do get touched on, but for most of the book, he's wrapped up in Hannah or focused on saving the horse.
I cried at the third act and then the author put the pieces back together without it being contrived. The "grand" gesture was both sweet and funny, fitting for this book. The epilogue is a year later and left me feeling more emotional, but slightly unfulfilled even though it also felt like a HEA. I did download the bonus epilogue that’s five years after and man, that was where all the satisfaction and beauty came in. The last line of that bonus, with Zack getting misty-eyed, made ME misty-eyed too.
I didn't have a good place to fit this but this was once again a book that talked a good bit about romance books. I don't know why this inclusion is niggling at my brain, but it is lately.