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322 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 10, 2025
“But you’re only here now because of your dad. If he didn’t have a heart attack, you’d still be in Harborview.”
“I don’t know if I ever would’ve come back in any other circumstance.”
“Abbey,” Jude says gently. I hear him move closer, his heat hitting my back as he rests his forehead against the back of my head. “I know I had a really shitty reaction earlier outside your apartment, but I always expected and wanted you to move on. I never wanted you to be alone, but I couldn’t watch you move on with someone else. I couldn’t stand the idea of watching you build the life we always planned without me.”
“Jude,” she whispers. “You can’t seriously tell me you thought I’d never be with someone else for the rest of my life.”
“Why not? I haven’t been.”
“What?” She stumbles back, shocked by my words. Honestly, so am I.
It’s another unfair statement to make. I may have been celibate for the last seventeen years, but I never thought or wanted Abbey to be alone. I always wished and hoped she found someone else to be happy with. Abbey deserves to spend her life with someone. To have a family with someone. I just never wanted to witness it.
“There’s been no one. I’ve only ever been with you,” I whisper.
Her mouth opens and closes, her head moving back and forth so minutely it’d be easy to miss. “What do you mean?” she breathes out. “That can’t be right.” Her eyes fill with tears, and all the fight and anger falls away.”
“I haven’t exactly been celibate over the last seventeen years, but I wouldn’t call what I’ve been doing dating either. There were no outings around town or shared anecdotes, just a couple of men I’d let close enough to feel comfortable allowing them into my home for a few hours. It was safer that way—no chance of getting close or getting hurt again.”