if i could give a book 0 stars, i would.
i have so many issues with this book, but i’d like to start with the fact that there were several elements not on the content warnings page, that probably should’ve been listed. they didn’t all bother me, but they could’ve bothered others and yet they weren’t listed.
now, onto my other issues— what the hell was with Nicklas constantly referring to his cum as “jizz”? that’s such a teenage boy word and seriously made me gag. like, he’s over here trying to be stern and sexy, but then he says stuff like “all my jizz is for your cunt” and i almost gave up on this book right there. he also unironically refers to his balls as his “nuts” during a spicy scene. i understand there’s some words that authors don’t love, and “cum” or “balls” could be some of them, but sometimes, THOSE WORDS ARE NOT CHANGEABLE. having your grown mafia mmc saying “jizz” and “nuts” is just….. no.
also, i’ve read a lot of fast paced romance but… this entire book is supposed to take place over the course of only 25 days?! you’re telling me that in less than 25 days, this man went from only wanting her to carry his child and then get out of his life, to carving her initials into his chest while they have sex to show much he loves her???? and it’s not even her real initials yet!
oh, and let’s talk about him sticking period blood soaked fingers into her mouth! or the fact that when she does get pregnant, she gives him a positive pregnancy test and a bottle of lube, then tells him word-for-word: “now that i’m pregnant, i want you to fuck my ass.”
finally, within the first few chapters, when he captures her and takes her to his penthouse, he undresses her unconscious body, gropes her, and eats her out. all before knowing who she is, or even knowing her for more than an hour. and she had no idea any of this ever happens. and though “somnophilia (light!)” is on the content warnings page, i’d like to remind everyone that this particular instance does not count as just somnophilia, but also as NON-CON. which should be in the content warnings, but was not. when reading “somnophilia” on a content warnings page, if it’s not accompanied by a “non-con” or “dub-con” warning, then many people, including myself, assume it’s consensual. not having that non-con warning opens a very wide possibility for people who get triggered by that, to think this book is safe for them to read.
i LOVE myself some dark romance, it’s literally my favorite genre. there’s very little that i can’t look past or deal with in a dark romance; but this has by far been the worst one i’ve ever read.