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Am I Having Fun Now?
A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious.' - Romesh Ranganathan
Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?
Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)
And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart?
Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.
In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.
From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.
Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sarah Pascoe and Tom Allen.
Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?
Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)
And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart?
Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.
In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.
From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.
Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sarah Pascoe and Tom Allen.
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September 6, 2025
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Brilliant book to listen to!
Brilliant book to listen to!
June 23, 2025
Reflections and lessons learned/the content of this book made me feel…
…entertained, amused and understanding of the various of life! Lovely voice and tales…
…entertained, amused and understanding of the various of life! Lovely voice and tales…
June 21, 2025
Amazing would recommend you reading this book, well I actually listened to it and it was so much better. Bonus, you get extra interviews at the end. I really hope Suzi Ruffell writes some more books.
April 20, 2025
This is the memoir of Suzi Ruffell, a 38 year old British comedian.
I have been a fan of Suzi Ruffell for a long time and have enjoyed all her appearances on television. I love the content of her humour and think that she is in the top league of stand-up comedians here in the UK.
I do enjoy reading books, generally in the crime/mystery/thriller genres but every now and again, a memoir. I was very interested to read about her life. Like Suzi, I am also a fan of Doc Martens, those very comfortable, hard wearing, sensible shoes.
However, I found Am I having fun now? To be an OKAY 3 star read. I was disappointed by the format of her memoir which was padded out by interviews with a total of 10 contributors - Dr Kirren Schnack, Natasha Devon, Owen O’Kane, Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Ellen Jones, Dr Martha Deiros Collado and Sara Pascoe - who added their opinions on the topics Suzi was exploring. I believe that readers want to know just what Suzi thinks about issues affecting her life, rather than content from these contributors which you could get from their chosen media platforms.
Suzi does however explain in her own words issues that affect her life. There is not an awful lot about her day job of being a stand-up comedian but tonnes about her lifestyle. The best bit about stand-up comedy was when she was heckled…
About three minutes in, a man shouted: ‘What you need is a big cock,’ I responded: ‘Then I doubt you can help.’
…I enjoyed reading about her coping with anxiety and her coming out as a lesbian…
Nan called me straight after and said: ‘I know now and I love you just as much as yesterday.’ It was one of the great phone calls of my life.
…Suzi explained the lesbian lifestyle and why Pride events are so important. I enjoyed learning about how Suzi and her wife Alice became a family by adopting a baby girl they have nicknamed Peach and was touched when Suzi wrote…
The week we moved into our Brighton house the other double-mum family on our street left home-made cupcakes on the doorstep, with a card to welcome us.
…this wonderfully illustrates the inclusion Suzi and Alice were seeking in London but because of homophobia, was unable to find.
Am I having fun now? Is not a hilarious, funny and entertaining read. It is a pleasant read though and written in a humorous style. Here are two snippets that nicely illustrate Suzi’s stand-up personality…
The time on the bus when I kindly offered to move so that the two older East Asian ladies could sit together, only to be told they didn’t know each other.
More than a year after our cancelled wedding, we popped to the multistorey Sainsbury’s one afternoon, because we know how to have a good time. It was still deep enough into the pandemic that a wander around the homeware section felt like a European city break.
…Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher Pan Macmillan for passing me an ARC on the understanding that I post a review.
I have been a fan of Suzi Ruffell for a long time and have enjoyed all her appearances on television. I love the content of her humour and think that she is in the top league of stand-up comedians here in the UK.
I do enjoy reading books, generally in the crime/mystery/thriller genres but every now and again, a memoir. I was very interested to read about her life. Like Suzi, I am also a fan of Doc Martens, those very comfortable, hard wearing, sensible shoes.
However, I found Am I having fun now? To be an OKAY 3 star read. I was disappointed by the format of her memoir which was padded out by interviews with a total of 10 contributors - Dr Kirren Schnack, Natasha Devon, Owen O’Kane, Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Ellen Jones, Dr Martha Deiros Collado and Sara Pascoe - who added their opinions on the topics Suzi was exploring. I believe that readers want to know just what Suzi thinks about issues affecting her life, rather than content from these contributors which you could get from their chosen media platforms.
Suzi does however explain in her own words issues that affect her life. There is not an awful lot about her day job of being a stand-up comedian but tonnes about her lifestyle. The best bit about stand-up comedy was when she was heckled…
About three minutes in, a man shouted: ‘What you need is a big cock,’ I responded: ‘Then I doubt you can help.’
…I enjoyed reading about her coping with anxiety and her coming out as a lesbian…
Nan called me straight after and said: ‘I know now and I love you just as much as yesterday.’ It was one of the great phone calls of my life.
…Suzi explained the lesbian lifestyle and why Pride events are so important. I enjoyed learning about how Suzi and her wife Alice became a family by adopting a baby girl they have nicknamed Peach and was touched when Suzi wrote…
The week we moved into our Brighton house the other double-mum family on our street left home-made cupcakes on the doorstep, with a card to welcome us.
…this wonderfully illustrates the inclusion Suzi and Alice were seeking in London but because of homophobia, was unable to find.
Am I having fun now? Is not a hilarious, funny and entertaining read. It is a pleasant read though and written in a humorous style. Here are two snippets that nicely illustrate Suzi’s stand-up personality…
The time on the bus when I kindly offered to move so that the two older East Asian ladies could sit together, only to be told they didn’t know each other.
More than a year after our cancelled wedding, we popped to the multistorey Sainsbury’s one afternoon, because we know how to have a good time. It was still deep enough into the pandemic that a wander around the homeware section felt like a European city break.
…Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher Pan Macmillan for passing me an ARC on the understanding that I post a review.
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