before reading: three queer girls by the sea fueled by emotions?!? GIVE IT TO ME NOW AND MY LIFE IS YOURS 😭😭😭
ARC review (thank you netgalley!)
from page one, the reader is equally lost as the main character, willa childs. she wakes up in a van, headed for house dorsey, where she arrives to two oddly intertwined girls who may or may not know her, and an older couple who are undeniably suspicious. willa is here to work on herself after a fire incident at home. the catch? she can’t leave, the other girls have tried.
we spend most of the novel following willa along her journey to uncover her memories, which seem shrouded in a fog that she cannot dispel. then there’s the whole puzzle of the dorsey house, it’s eerie existence along the sea and haunted halls. and the two other girls there with her… caroline and ivy, or as willa so aptly names them, carolivy—bonded at the hip. they exist as much on their own as they exist as a single person.
“they make friendship a verb, an active performance, one i have been so desperate to experience i would crush my own rib cage if i thought it would help me fit in.”
this book is strange and weird in all the right ways. from memories that seem to exist just out of reach, to fish eyeballs and wet footsteps. i am in awe of tooley’s atmospheric writing, and the way she is able to put you right into her main character’s head so effortlessly. this book is on the shorter end with roughly 200 pages, but it’s immersive and full of depth. and the end… oh, my soft heart was not expecting that. i was not prepared for that final twist, which was both emotionally devastating and somehow healing.
i think i speak for most people when i say tooley’s books always hit different as someone who struggles with depression and anxiety. she writes it so seemlessly, making it real, relatable, and never smaller than it actually is.
if you have ever felt like a burden, if you have ever felt afraid of asking for help, or being rejected and alone, if you are doing your best to survive - this book was written for you.
content warnings: grief, depression, suicide, loss of a sibling, loss of a parent, teenage pregnancy, abortion, and parental neglect.