i had real high expectations for this book, but it just didn’t deliver. up until about 40% of the way through, I was ready to hand 4 stars maybe even 5 if things turned around but that never happened.
for starters I want to mention that I skipped Off Campus, Brair U, and the first two Campus Diaries books altogether and jumped right into this one as a standalone because I received an arc. you won’t feel lost at all. a quick Google search on the family tree and character connections was all I needed so props to the author for keeping the world accessible even to newcomers. didn’t feel lost for a second.
and dw i know off campus is basically a classic now and i am planing to go back and read everything 😭
now, onto the heart of the story: we meet charlotte, a 21 years old woman with a mountain of personal issues. She feels like she’s constantly hiding her true self behind a mask of perfectionism, trying to meet her parents’, sorority’s, and society’s expectations. deep down, though, she’s a free spirit who craves adrenaline, loves fast cars, and one of her other secrets is her very strong libido so much so that her ex once called her a sex addict (I hate mitch)
enter Charlie—Charlotte’s alter ego, the side of her she keeps under wraps. one day, she matches with two guys on an app, she had a fantasy of a threesome. these two guys turn out to be Will and Beckett, both students at Brair U (where charlotte studies) she ends up meeting them regularly: Beckett shows up in her classes, and Will is her lab partner in STEM. little did she know, these encounters were with the very guys she’d already matched with online so we also had this hidden identity trope as well which i loved.
the book was going nicely until it suddenly wasn’t, and that really stung because I had genuinely gotten into it. It felt like the author lost her way and started throwing in random spicy elements just to keep things interesting. One minute, we’re deep in Charlotte’s tangled, conflicted personality filled with self-doubt, shame, and the need to please everyone and the next, we flip to her bold, uninhibited alter ego, Charlie. I’m all for multi-dimensional characters, but it seemed like Charlotte’s inner turmoil was more of a plot device than a genuine exploration of who she is. the family drama, too, sometimes felt forced. I get that being adopted can leave someone feeling out of place (even if I haven’t experienced it myself, I can sympathize), but the way it was written here felt more like dramatic filler than an authentic struggle. that said, I really loved the scene where she finally opened up to her parents about her doubts. they cleared the air in a way that felt real. and speaking of her parents, that last dinner scene was an absolute riot 😭 Oliver dropping the divorce bomb, her sister coming out as lesbian, and char revealing she’s in a polyamorous relationship. I just laughed so hard at how it went. loved it! and then another is used is Harrison because what’s his deal? His constant shaming of Charlie over things beyond her control just pissed me the fuck off. I’m glad she found him, really. but I couldn’t bring myself to like him at all after acting that way.
so for me while Charlie had her fun moments, but her many complexities often came off as mere plot mechanics rather than genuine parts of her personality to me… sorry 🫣
beckett and will were truly fun and hot in the beginning, but after about halfway through, their spark fizzled out, and they turned bland. It seemed like every encounter with Charlie was reduced to just hookups, with no real emotional depth. I was hoping for moments where they’d actually unpack their emotional baggage and connect on a deeper level but every time one of them had an issue where I wished it will get talked about between them it turns to the same old “take your pants off, let’s fuck it out” routine. even as someone who enjoy spice, that made me feeling so disappointed because this book felt reduced to just sex!!
now, speaking of spice… let me backtrack a bit. although I hadn’t read the first two books in the series, I did some homework and read a few reviews. apparently, in the Graham effect and the Dixon rule, many readers were expecting this book to be a mm because will & Beckett had some hot cameos (this is what I saw from reviews!!) Instead, it turned out to be mfm with both guys laser focused on Charlie from start to finish. That really let me down. I was craving some serious sword crossing. I wanted to see Will and Beckett share some hot moments together. there was even a line where will hinted that if Beckett touched him, he wouldn’t brush it off, and I was totally ready for a steamy scene between them. But it never happened, and I was left frustrated. also giving the they are a throuple you’ll naturally expect a wild threesome, but you’re in for a letdown if you thought that. the guys just take turns with Charlie, which felt flat and boring and lame. it should’ve been an mm. sue me 😑
when it comes to the throuple dynamic, I expected way more bonding and emotional depth especially since poly relationships aren’t exactly very normalised in the world I wanted a deeper genuine emotional connection so they can face people’s judgment stronger. It would have made their union so much more deeper. what I got from the character monologues and actions, it felt like Beckett ultimately wanted a traditional couple relationship with Charlie, which I wasn’t cool with at all. i want to add that I did appreciate that Will didn’t join them on their Sydney trip from the start. I really wanted to see him grow and avoid future regrets by at least trying out that path but his comeback scene was utterly sad to me. It seemed like Charlie was the only one truly happy with it, while Beckett suddenly wanted to lock things down exclusively with her.
now this is how I personably felt so don’t attack me 😭 but throughout the book, on top of that it felt like Charlie was much closer to Will than to Beckett. In a poly setup, I was hoping for equal attention for all parties. till 60% It seemed to me that Beckett was all about the physical, using sex as a way to move past his ex until he actually fell for her and then he eventually tried to force exclusivity with Charlie. and another major gripe was Will barely got his fair share of chapters. That really bothered me since he’s my absolute favorite character.
so yeah I go back to the point that the book leaned heavily on using sex as an escape from personal struggles, but it never captured the feel of an emotionally authentic relationship. That’s just how I felt. If the author kept it as a purely smut book with no relationship it would’ve been better than this closure.
I also have issue with the scene on page 408, where Charlotte demands that Beckett open up emotionally. until about 60% of the book, she was the one dodging vulnerability and wallowing in shame. It’s totally normal, and I’m not blaming her, but you can’t expect him to share his feelings when you haven’t been willing to do the same just a few chapters earlier. It came off like she was only ready to be open on her own terms, expecting him to catch up at her pace. this is a three way road now char!!
but OH MY GOD the most infuriating moment was the departure scene when Will announced he was going to Sydney, and then Beckett punched him! when will authors stop using this tired stereotype of violence? I’ve seen this in some books books, and it really gets on my nerves. Just because both characters are guys doesn’t give a free pass for throwing punches. If one of them hit Charlie, it’d be labeled as abuse so why is it acceptable here? It reminded of that scene in god of fury…
on a brighter note, I absolutely loved the coach! He’s hilarious, and his relationship with his wife is what i aspire to have. When he said his daughter is off-limits to the players? now I want his daughter with one of them!! (also please add hollis to the dad chat 😭) I absolutely adored Diana, so I’m pumped to go back and read her book, god she seem like an angel and I heard her book is painful. and also, I’m begging for a book for Blake and Isaac! I need to see the notorious fuckboy transform into a down bad boyfriend for her. and it’s gonna be fun because her dad don’t approve of him. I caught elle’s Instagram stories today, and apparently, this is the final book in the Campus Diaries trilogy. but it’s not the end of the Brair Universe. Since I’m planning on going back and reading the earlier books, I’m excited that there’s a chance she might give us more books focusing on the characters I mentioned. all in all, this book had so much potential, but it was ultimately let down by its flaws. But I’m glad I read it because I got to read about the sweetest angel will. I love him so much and yes it should’ve been an MM.
***ARC provided by the publisher—Little, Brown Book Group—in exchange for an honest Review.***