3.5 stars
I was fooled by the marketing.
I added this book instantly to my TBR a few months ago, when FSG advertised this book on their instagram as "sally rooney-esque," and, as a wh*re for sally rooney, of course I had to read this book.
but there really wasn't much going on in this book in the first place. most of the "action" in this book occurs inside the tortured minds of these poor millennials, and at a certain point, I just kind of got . . . bored?
this story is told in 3 different POVs, and I definitely liked more POVs than others. for instance, I really didn't care for Antonia at all. Actually, I pretty much wanted to skip her chapters every time they came up, but I powered through them anyway. but another thing that made the POVs so unappealing to me was that they barely overlapped at all; it was like reading three different novels/stories in one. Yes, all of them are friends and yes, they do see each other a handful of times, but it's incredibly rare, and they're all dealing with their own stuff that they just don't meet up with each other. i don't know—I guess I wanted this book to feel a bit more cohesive; I wanted the characters to feel more connected.
I did like reading about Aaron, Cassandra, and Malcolm, though (for the most part). Aaron and Cassandra actually quite interested me the most in the beginning, then towards the middle, I liked reading Malcolm's POV, then towards the end, I slowly stopped caring about all three. meh.
I didn't think it was all bad. I actually really enjoyed the beginning. It's just a bunch of complex characters and complex relationships, and I eat that stuff up. And then COVID hits, and its descriptions of life during COVID are really realistic. But I just hate reading about COVID, to be completely honest (save for a few exceptions). I already lived through it, I don't need to relive it again through these books.
I also took a break from this book for a while. I got too caught up with schoolwork, then I got tons of anxiety, and my anxiety definitely affected my enjoyment of this book. Curse you, anxiety! I think I would've definitely enjoyed this book more if I was at a more peaceful time in my life right now. Perhaps I'll revisit this book again in the future.
Listen, I love a book where nothing happens, but these characters are incredibly introspective and are so stuck in their minds all the time that genuinely they're only torturing themselves (and me). It's still not the worst book I've ever read, though. Maybe I'll enjoy it during a reread, who knows. Ok bye!!!!!