לא ראויה

Unperfect #2

by Susie Tate, סוזי טייט (Author's Hebrew Name), ליז גרין (Translator)

לא צפויה. לא אחראית. לא שגרתית.
יאז תמיד ידעה מה המשפחה שלה חושבת עליה.
היא מעולם לא הייתה טובה מספיק, רצינית מספיק או משכילה בהתאם לסטנדרטים המצופים.
אבל הוא היה שונה.
הית' היה זה שהגן על יאז כשהייתה ילדה, ובתור החבר הכי הטוב של אחיה, הוא היה הגיבור שלה – הוא תמיד ראה את הטוב שבה, ובזכותו תמיד הרגישה ראויה.
אבל כשתחושת ההערצה הילדותית של יאז התעצמה והפכה להתאהבות חסרת פשרות באליל נעוריה, והית' הפך מהילד הנאה והמוכר לרופא חתיך להחריד שעובד בחדר המיון, נראה שגישתו השתנתה.
משום מה, המוזרויות שלה הפסיקו להיות מקסימות והתחילו לעצבן אותו, והשקפת עולמה השונה הפכה ממרעננת למגוחכת.
למעשה, נראה שרוב הדברים בה התחילו לעצבן את הית'.
לאחר שהפכה ללא ראויה בעיניו של הית', יאז משכנעת את עצמה שהתנהגותו המרושעת הצליחה להשמיד את התאהבותה הילדותית. ולאחר השפלה אחת יותר מדי, היא מחליטה להתנתק ממנו.
עד שהית' מתחיל להבין מה הוא עלול לאבד, ייתכן שכבר מאוחר מדי.
אולי אחרי הכול, לא יאז היא זאת שלא ראויה?

לא ראויה מאת סופרת רבי־המכר סוזי טייט הינו רומן רומנטי עכשווי על התאהבות חשאית ואהבה נכזבת.
זהו הספר השני בסדרת השברים, שבה כל סיפור מסתיים בסוף סגור וניתן לקרוא אותו בפני עצמו. הספר הראשון, לא מושלמת, זכה לשבחים רבים.

Genres: Romance, Enemies To Lovers, Contemporary, Contemporary Romance, Second Chance, Friends To Lovers, Slow Burn

304 pages, ebook

First published November 5, 2022

About the author

Susie is a top 2 Amazon bestselling author who writes addictive, feel-good contemporary romance with heroes who may make you a little ragey, but who always redeem themselves in the end! She’s been a doctor in the NHS for over twenty years and lives in beautiful Dorset with her wonderful husband, three gorgeous boys and an even more wonderful dog.

Reviews

[Nikki ღ Navareus]

DNF at 30%.
I know I am just being a fickle bitch, but I am just not getting into this story. I love asshole heroes, and this Hero is definitely an asshole, but he's acting like one for no reason at all. Just to be a douche. I hate him the way I'm supposed to, but I also don't care what happens to him at the same time. And I don't care enough to keep investing my time in this story.

[Vintage · Rating 4 out of 5]

I read this out of order as Unperfect comes before this.

Doesn't matter because "Aaaaargh!" The same things drove me crazy in both books.

Yaz is a manic-pixie mermaid as she LOVES the sea and alternative healing etc. She's diminished by her practical parents and loving brother. They mean well, I guess, but put her down constantly then laugh it off.

The H is just out and out mean as he denigrates her whole lifestyle and belief system. Silently adoring heroine + Mean hero = Standard Susie Tate fare. I'm not complaining because it's very well done. The H and his twin sister have a horrific backstory to explain why the H is so ridiculous about Yaz's so called scattiness. It's believable and Tate has the heroine do a 180 as she decides she simply can't trust the hero, and she actually lays into her family for a well deserved scolding. The hero has some serious digging to do to get his girl.

I kind of bought it, but I'm now reading Unperfect and I'm mad at the parents and Heath all over again.

Still a 3 star Susie Tate is still better than most of the dribble out there.

[Claire · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars. This is a brother’s best friend trope with good grovel and angst. The only reason I rated it lower than 4 stars is that it doesn't have that extra special something that makes me obsessed with a story or characters enough to give it 4 or 5 stars. But, it’s not bad at all.

Yaz, who’s in her mid 20s, has a 10 year age gap with her brother’s best friend, Heath. She grew up in love with him. He was always nice to her as a kid, but when she was a teenager, he grew distant (out of guilt for feeling attracted to her). He’s a doctor, and due to an unstable upbringing, he literally has a checklist of what he’s looking for in a woman (reliable, college educated, career oriented, etc). Yoga and crystal loving surfer Yaz doesn’t fit his criteria. He’s a dick to her for a while, sneering at her interests, and he even puts her down in front of other people. One night, they sleep together and he’s like, “Well, I guess we might as well be a couple now." This is obviously very insulting to her. So, she shuts him out of her life.

It had never occurred to me that she would turn me down. I was beginning to see that the way I’d acted, not just today but over the last few years, had probably killed her feelings for me. Just as I was coming round to the fact that she was the woman meant for me, she was concluding that I was the last man on earth she would want to be with.

From there, this is a grovel book. The grovel is mostly him apologizing for his past behavior and also standing up to her parents on her behalf (since they’re also condescending about her interests) plus doing actions like showing up for her, being there for her, and helping her at various points.

We also learn more about his past to explain his behavior (he and his sister grew up wealthy, but their parents were alcoholic partiers who neglected them so badly they literally didn’t have food in their mansion. And, he and his sister slept in a cold shed behind their mansion to avoid their parent’s drunk friends, who wandered into their rooms). This book ALMOST took a detour into using his past trauma to let him off the hook. But it just managed to avoid doing that, since he really DID own up to his shit.

The steam could have been better. That's another reason this is 3.5 stars, it's nearly "fade to black." But otherwise, if you just want an angsty read with decent characters, grovel, and an interesting setting (the world of windsurfing and also medicine in England), this hits the spot.

[Mairi Swan · Rating 5 out of 5]

The power of words can make people miserable. This story was so good and emotional that I may have teared a bit (ok a lot).

[Alex · Rating 1 out of 5]

DNF at 60%

Not for me, I really disliked Heath and the heroines whole family. They were terrible to the heroine and even after being reprimanded and told they were being terrible they kept putting their foot in their mouth and I got tired of it.

I actually liked when it looked like the heroine was ready to stand up for herself. Honestly, I wish she went no contact and left them behind, but I knew that was not going to be the case which is why I stopped. I also did not like the direction it was possibly going Heath has said terrible things to her and destroyed her self-esteem, but shes going to learn about his abusive childhood and shes going to comfort and forgive him during his difficult time. Maybe I am wrong, but I do not care enough about the couple to see if I am right. I do not think his terrible upbringing negates how he treated her for YEARS.

[Snow · Rating 5 out of 5]

ha, I usually have a "hit or miss" case with this author's books, meaning I either very much like them or don't...
This one I loved, or very much liked...the H is a bastardly prick-ish at first towards the heroine (whom I adored, simply bravo! - cause this author has a tendency of portraying the heroines as weak actually disguising them as shy and introvert BUT they don't look like that to me while reading, so, there's gotta be a big issue with the actual portrayal and use of the words in their description)

BUT this one, I loved, Yazmin/Yaz aka Midge is a free spirit, wild and unbound and to everyone around her she seems reckless, loose and unreliable...when she's all BUT that...and it will take time for everyone to see, to open their eyes and look beyond the conventional....especially the H - Heath, who had his share of bad childhood experiences and is looking for everything that Yaz isn't...

And yet again, the heart wants what the heart wants, you just need to let the brain catch up...*wink*

[Jen · Rating 5 out of 5]

Reread March 31, 2023.

I forgot how much I love Susie Tate's books. I've read all of her earlier works and, though I loved them all, I can really see how her writing has grown. She's just superb!

5 Shiny Stars

[girlwithhearteyes · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 stars

I wanted an angsty romance where the FMC emotionally withdraws after the MMC treats her like shit, and well… I forgot that meant I’d probably need to hate the MMC for a while. Every time free spirited Yaz was misjudged and hurt again and again by Heath… ugh. I’m glad she stood her ground when he started to grovel. I’m not sure if he fully redeemed himself by the end, but I liked that he knew how lucky he was to be with her.

I guess that’s the long way of saying this made me feel things.

[Rhea · Rating 1 out of 5]

The MMC is a condescending asshole throughout the entirety of the book. I mean, apparently, his reason for being an asshole was that he started liking her too much when she was 16. He's 10 years older people. Why is a 26 year old looking at a 16 year old like that?!?! And the only way to stop feeling those feelings were to constantly put her down and make her cry? Weird ass man.

I was also promised grovelling booktok, where is it !!!!!

[Inna · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars.

So frustrating because I read that this book had really good grovel. I personally found it to be super lacking. He groveled intermittently, but it felt like he barely put effort into it, and he was an asshole to her for wayyyy too long for such easy forgiveness.

Can anyone suggest an actually good grovel book? I feel like what most readers consider a good grovel is just meh to me… I need a full book of grovel. I need the hero to grovel for so long that I eventually start to feel bad for him. 🤣🤣 He needs to WORK for his forgiveness.

Safety is fine, hero tries to get into a relationship with a woman in the beginning - she checks all his boxes - but he ends up not really being into her and they part ways quickly. Hero is something like 10 years older than heroine, she’s always had a huge crush on him, he’s been attracted but pushed her away. They were both with other people while knowing each other, but it’s not discussed much.

[Shelley · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 ⭐️
Ok hear me out
This was bad… I just can’t get over the amount of times Heath put his foot in his mouth with horrible words towards Yaz. Even after he realises his feelings Add to that the way her family treats her this poor chick cops a bashing. BUT she is strong and there’s no BBS in sight which was what gave it that extra 1/2 star.

[Margo · Rating 3 out of 5]

This one had so much potential to be a real grovel fest. The H misjudges the h and it is fun to watch him be proven wrong. I’m not quite sure why, but all of the elements didn’t fall into place. 2 3/4 stars.

[Hillary · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.25/5 ⭐️
1.25/5 🌶️

After seeing Yaz and Heath interact in Unperfect, I was worried about their dynamic in this one. Brother’s best friend tropes aren’t normally my favorite because they tend to come with a very emotionally whipped heroine that lets the guy get away with way too much.

Enter Yaz and Heath. I loved Yaz. Her free spirit and kind heart had me concerned she would give Heath all the excuses for the way he’d treated her, but instead she had a steel spine and stood up for herself. I loved how her family slowly grew to appreciate and value Yaz’s lifestyle.

Heath’s backstory was such a great way to humanize him as well, even if it was heart-wrenching to learn about. It was another opportunity to him to discovery how reliable Yaz was, and their love shining through despite their differences held this book together for me.

Side note: Mia finding her voice after her past and standing up for Yaz against Max and Heath’s relentless teasing was SO SWEET. I adore hers and Yaz’s friendship.

[Lin · Rating 4 out of 5]

Yazmin Hardcastle has been in love with Heath Markham all her life. Heath is her brothers best friend, and has the been pretty rude and downright mean to her the last couple of years.
Heath is a doctor, born into a family of aristocrats, suffused with history, money and land. He is twin brother to Verity (Max business-partner) and struggles with severe abandonment issues. Heath has a list of qualities expected in his future wife, and Yaz does not fit these anywhere. Yaz on the other hand struggles with her family’s and Heath’s image of her as a irresponsible, alternative, slightly crazy, and exhibitionist.

I have tried that before and honestly it’s much, much worse than just laughing along as they take the piss. When I put myself out there and they dismiss me, I can literally feel my self-worth sliding away. And I need to believe in myself[…]

My heart broke for Yaz, she was truly a remarkable young lady who believed in herself when nobody else would. She made a name of herself, took chances, didn’t depend on anyone - always being there for everyone, wearing her heart on her sleeve. When Heath made mistake by mistake towards her, she put him in place and demanded respect. She did it with integrity and love. I loved Yaz!

I used to think you were such a gentleman. Dead posh, charming, perfect. Well, I can see now that you’re anything but a gentleman. A real gentleman would never have spoken to me the way you just did.

I liked “Unworthy” better than “Unperfect”, there was just something more to this story.

- No cheating
- OW/OM drama: H has a girlfriend at the beginning (this was totally drama-free and fitted his character)
- Triggers: child neglect (off page)
- HEA with epilogue 6 months later

[harbinger of death · Rating 1 out of 5]

DNF @ 46%

I just couldn’t relate to the leads at all. And I found Yaz hippy personality kinda pick me. Heath was a huge douche but yeah he was more tolerable in my opinion.
I literally stopped bc I couldn’t stay the dynamic from her partners and everyone around her with her issue of surfing but I guess in a real life kinda situation she would be considered a bum. Would not recommend

[Books123 · Rating 2 out of 5]

2.5

DNF@75%.

I like the theme of unrequited to requited love and this started strong then it just fizzled out. I didn’t connect to Heath and Yaz and started skimming so decided to give up.

[dahlia · Rating 4 out of 5]

Another great book. I loved how Yas grew into herself and her family and her love interest finally step-up. This is what I loved to see.

[Pinky · Rating 2 out of 5]

Trigger Warnings: Pedophilia (MMC attracted to FMC when she was 16, and he was 26), cheating? (MMC casually dates OW, but they weren’t official. He kissed FMC and then the OW the next day), sexist comments, abusive parent side character, child abuse, parent domestic violence relationship, panic attacks, death of parent, death of loved ones, alcoholism, child exposure (drugs, sex, alcohol), parental infidelity, parental neglect, pet neglect, starvation, stress vomiting, anxiety, attempted assault, death of character from stroke, finance fraud

“I’ve never been into younger women, but you at sixteen – it was insane how beautiful you were. It made me uncomfortable, especially as you were Max’s little sister. Your family meant so much to me. So, then I tried to avoid you as much as possible.”
Excuse me, what the fuck?


The MMC Heath, is 10 years older than the FMC, Yaz. Meaning, when Yaz was 16, Heath was 26. What the fuck do you mean you were attracted to her at 16? He’s more bothered that she is his friend’s sister than her age?! In this book, Yaz is 25, and her brother Max has a stepson named Teddy who is 19. EVERYONE treats Teddy like a kid, even in the previous book when he was 17. So how the fuck was this okay? ESPECIALLY when the MMC knew the FMC when they were kids. If it was a one-sided crush from Yaz, fine. But not this. Regardless, I didn’t enjoy this story as much as the first one. This is part of the Unperfect series, the first book being Unperfect. Yaz is Max’s half-sister, and Heath is Max’s best friend. Heath was a major asshole. There is grovelling, for a lot of the book, but it felt meh to me. The FMC has a backbone, but she has BBS. We learn more about Heath and Verity’s past (his twin sister), so I recommend it for that.


Yaz has been in love with Heath since she was a kid. Ever since she grew up, Heath continues to insult her and Yaz has had enough. Heath doesn’t want to like Yaz, but he can’t get her out of his head. Now it might be too late, Yaz wants nothing to do with him.

Now for spoilers


Everyone calls Yaz “Midge,” she is 25 and the half-sister of Max. Yaz just left a party in a forest where there were weirdos tryna force drugs on her. She travelled barefoot in the forest for 5 hours, lost her bike, and is lost. She loves crystals, doing yoga, and windsurfing. Her whole family saw her as a joke, but she is secretly running a wellness centre. When she calls Max for help, Heath shows up. Heath is 10 years older than her and is Max’s best friend. Heath used to treat Yaz sweetly when she was a kid. He has a twin sister named Verity, who has an architecture company with Max. Max met his wife, Mia, who is now pregnant, two years ago (read the previous book). Heath has a girl named Penny in his passenger seat. He is a doctor in the emergency department. Yaz has mud all over her, and her feet were shredded. Heath puts Yaz into his driver’s seat. He checks on her feet, saying that she was ridiculous for being out this late. Yaz hated being around him since she liked him, but he saw her as an annoying kid.

“When are you going to grow up, Midge? You’re not sixteen anymore. You can’t just keep getting into scrapes and calling out your big brother to save you at the drop of a hat.”

Heath tells Yaz they need to go to the hospital, but Yaz says she wants to go home. When he notices Yaz is crying, he takes Yaz home and carries her to her flat. Once she closes the door, Heath tells her to soak her feet. Yaz sleeps because her feet are in pain. She wakes up to Heath knocking on her door. She wore shorts and a loose shirt that revealed her skin. Heath can’t stop checking her out, asking why she is answering her door like this. He fusses over her door since it doesn’t have a proper lock. He glues her feet together, telling her she needs to be more careful. Heath found the bike she left behind, and Yaz is grateful. Then Heath notices that she has scars all over her legs and arms. Yaz says that she gets into accidents while she windsurfs. She hit her head on a reef once. Heath hates this, but Yaz says she can do whatever she wants. Then he sees a pamphlet of Yaz and her business partner, Bodhi. It’s about a business they plan to do in Brazil. When he grabs the pamphlet, Yaz doesn’t want him to see it. She climbs him to get it back, and he lands on top of her. Flustered, Heath leaves the apartment.


Heath goes to Max’s office to tell him about Yaz’s plans for Brazil. When he gets there, he finds Yaz doing yoga. Some guys are just there to check her out. This pisses Heath off, so he makes rude comments about Yaz. Yaz ignores him, but Mia overhears him. Heath is soft with Mia since she got out of an abusive relationship; she is happy with Max and pregnant. Mia yells at Heath for talking to Yaz like that. Max and Heath are proud of Mia for standing up to them. When Verity says that Yaz is part of her team, Yaz says she asked to be taken off payroll. She only had the job to make the staff comfortable around Max. Yaz hasn’t told anyone about her business since she thinks they will think she is flaky, especially if she decides to go to Brazil. When Heath tells Max that Yaz might go to Brazil, Max says that Yaz does whatever she wants. When he mentions that Yaz’s door isn’t secure, Max asks why Heath knows. Heath says he was there to help Yaz with her feet. Then, everyone meets for rugby, and Heath brings Penny. He tries to act like he’s into Penny, but his mind is focused on Yaz. Heath can’t take his eyes off Yaz, who is windsurfing. Yaz comes over and ignores Heath. Every time he speaks to her, he insults her, and she is tired of it. Yaz brings her friends Dee and Bodhi, who work with her in her wellness studio. Dee keeps glaring at Bodhi while he cockily puts his arm around Yaz’s chair. Penny and Yaz bond, and Penny agrees with Yaz that they can’t rely on just science for health. Yaz takes preventative measures to make sure people are healthy. Heath is insulted and says Yaz doesn’t know what she is talking about. Dee says that Yaz is doing a good job teaching. Heath says people are only going to Yaz’s classes to check out Yaz’s body. It was such a gross thing to say, and Yaz is upset.

“Tits and arse, that’s what’s selling your lessons and you know it. I’m sure pretty boy here draws in some birds as well, but don’t delude yourself that your reputation is based on talent alone.”

Yaz stands up for herself and leaves. Mia tells Heath to stop hurting Yaz
“Fuck you and your judgemental superiority. I don’t need your shit, Heath Markham-hashtag-NHS-hero. Go save some lives after they’ve nearly popped their clogs and I’ll try to make sure they never end up there in the first place.”

Heath finds out about Yaz’s wellness centre and visits to apologize. Yaz is doing yoga with moms and babies, so Heath joins in. When the lesson is over, Heath apologizes for how he spoke to Yaz. Yaz says that he always puts her down. He is impressed by her studio and says he was wrong. He knows Yaz has a crush on him. While they are in a heated argument, they kiss. They are interrupted by Yaz’s clients, so Yaz tells Heath to leave. When Heath goes to work, he asks Penny out again. Penny says she doesn’t know why he keeps asking her out when he isn’t into her. Heath has a checklist and thinks Penny is the ideal woman. He says he is into Penny, so Penny says to prove it by kissing her. So Heath kisses her, and while Penny melts into him, he isn’t into it. I hated that he kissed Penny after Yaz. I also hated that Yaz made out with Heath when she thought he was with Penny. And Heath making out with Yaz when he was casually dating Penny. Even if they weren’t official, the whole thing was icky. Penny says she knows Heath is in love with someone else. Yaz lives on the top floor of a flat, the bottom flat is owned by Bryn, an old man. She buys him groceries and checks on him, so he is protective of her. When he gets hurt, she takes him to the hospital. Heath’s coworker Josh is stressed out with Bryn. Bryn insists on leaving, but Josh won’t let him. Heath says they can’t keep patients without their consent. Heath helps take them home, and he takes Bryn to his flat. Then he follows Yaz to her apartment. He found her attractive and knows she feels the same. I hate how he thought that she turned beautiful at 16, so gross. He left to study and came back years later for Verity, Max, and Yaz. He says they should talk about the kiss. Yaz is shocked that he finds her attractive, and they have sex. Heath says he guesses they have to get together now. He can’t just fuck Max’s sister and move on. It’s like he’s doing it cuz he has to, not cuz he wants to.

“That’s really the only decision I can make. But I’m willing to make the best of it.”
Like bruh, how can you say that to a girl you like?

Yaz gets upset and says they don’t have to get together
“Did you imagine I would be happy that you liked me despite yourself and your intentions to find a suitable woman? That I obviously don’t measure up to your ideal, but that you’re willing to make the best of a bad job? I used to think you were such a gentleman. Dead posh, charming, perfect. Well, I can see now that you’re anything but a gentleman.”

Heath realizes he fucked up and says he didn’t mean that. But Yaz kept going.
“Nothing you could say will make me forget what you’ve just said to me. I won’t ever forget it. I’ll carry this with me for the rest of my life. What will never ever happen is us becoming a couple. You can shove that idea and your unbelievable arrogance where the sun doesn’t shine.”


She kicks Heath out and starts avoiding him. When he visits her place, Bryn scares him away. So Heath visits Yaz while she is working, and loves seeing her teach kids. 15 years ago, we see Yaz as a kid. Heath, Verity, and Max are gonna go out and Yaz wants to go with them. Heath cancels plans so that Yaz can hang out with them. I’m sorry, but all this was weird to me, especially since he knew Yaz as a kid. In present, Bodhi asks Heath if he wants to fuck Yaz. He says that Yaz isn’t interested, since she wouldn’t get with Bodhi. That Yaz is only good for making money, and Heath is shocked. Then, Bodhi abandons Yaz even though he is also working, cuz he wants to surf. He says Yaz can bring the stuff back herself. Dee says that Bodhi normally abandons Yaz, but Yaz isn’t confident in running the business. So Heath helps Yaz while she asks him to leave. When they are putting equipment away, Heath begs Yaz for another chance. They makeout, but Yaz tells Heath to stay away. They avoid each other, but Yaz’s parents invite her for dinner. When she goes over, Heath is there. Over dinner, her parents make comments about Yaz’s career while praising others, so Heath stands up for her.

“I don’t know if you are aware, but Yaz is actually a qualified windsurfing and yoga instructor and a certified reiki practitioner.”

Her parents say she never told them and Yaz says they showed interest. They gave Max money for his studies but never encouraged her. They say they would’ve supported her if she had studied. She yells at them for not taking her seriously and runs out. Yaz loves the sea, so she runs to a cliff and jumps in. Heath followed her and thinks she is hurt. He jumps in with her and holds Yaz while she calms him down. She knows the water better than him, so she tells him to follow her. Once they’re out, Heath checks for injuries and hugs her; he has tears since he thinks she could’ve died. Yaz says she knows the water well, but he jumped in with his clothes and shoes, which is more dangerous. Heath begs to hold her, and Yaz reassures him that she is alive. He kisses her and they makeout. Heath begs Yaz not to do it again, but she tells him that he has no control over her. Even though he wants to get together, Yaz doesn’t trust him. Max says there’s something wrong with Verity and Heath. Yaz’s parents mentioned that Verity was working with a company and was dealing with her past. The twins got drunk, and Yaz holds Heath. Heath wouldn’t let go of Yaz’s hand, so she took him to his room, and Verity took over.

Yaz visits her parents, and they beg for forgiveness. They try to be more understanding of her career. They give us background on Verity and Heath, whose parents neglected them. Yaz’s parents let Verity and Heath come over cuz of it. Max met them in boarding school and had a scholarship; no one bothered Max cuz of the twins. When there was a break, Verity and Heath’s parents didn’t pick them up, so Yaz’s parents stayed. Heath’s mom said she had no idea school was over, calling Heath and Verity “little shits.” When Yaz’s dad went to visit them, Heath’s mom hit on him. We find out that Heath’s dad died, and neither Verity nor Heath cared. They had to go back to their home to empty their mansion and donate everything, money and valuables. So everyone agrees to go with them. Verity already had a panic attack, and Heath vomited. They find a dog that hasn’t been fed, Heath takes it and names it Winnie. Since Heath and Verity are unwell, they head to a shed. Yaz cuddles Heath and finds out that Verity and Heath grew up in the shed. Despite them being rich, their parents barely fed them. Their parents had parties in their home with drugs and alcohol. At 6-7 years old, when Heath and Verity were asleep, someone broke into their room. They tried to touch Verity, so Heath attacked them. They hit Heath, but the twins got away. They hid in the shed, and their parents didn’t give a shit. Then, Verity got sick, so Heath snuck into the house to get food. His mom was cheating on his dad while there were other people fucking, and drugs on the table. Heath called his grandma, who took them in. When their grandparents died, their parents had the funeral without telling them. Verity and Heath were heartbroken. Yaz cries for Heath and hugs him, while Heath comforts her. Yaz remembers when they were over at Heath and Verity’s place, their mom showed up drunk. She vomited on Heath and called both twins leeches. Yaz realized Heath was worried about getting with her, since he was scared to get with someone like his mom. That’s why he has a list of what he wants in a woman.


Once they return home, Heath doesn’t want to lose Yaz. Since she doesn’t trust him, Heath is determined to earn her trust. The twins hold a funeral for their dad, and their mom shows up. She ignores Verity, asking Heath for money. Then she starts insulting the twins. Yaz and her parents stand up for the twins, and Verity hugs Yaz. When Yaz comes to an event for Verity and Max, she is all dressed up. Everyone is hitting on Yaz, and Heath is jealous. Max can sense that Heath is into Yaz and tells him to back off. When Max gets possessive, Yaz tells him to back off. He says it’s different seeing her all dressed up since she’s usually in a bikini or wetsuit. So Yaz says he assumed she wouldn’t fit in. Heath feels bad, so he dresses up like Yaz’s friends and joins her. But Bodhi makes nasty comments about Yaz. Yaz is filming for a sponsorship, but Bodhi wants to take her to Brazil. Bodhi was in charge of expenses and used the profit for himself. Since Yaz isn’t good at math, she trusts Bodhi. Despite Dee constantly warning Yaz that Bodhi isn’t trustworthy, she doesn’t listen, even after he slacks off. It was so fucking annoying, especially since Yaz noticed he bought new things for himself while saying they made no profits. Yaz barely had enough money for herself. Bodhi tells Heath that Yaz should sleep with a director to get money. He says that none of them will fuck her, so she might as well do something useful. He is annoyed Yaz wants to teach kids since he wants to profit off of Yaz, it was so gross. Heath punches Bodhi, and he tries to tell Yaz what Bodhi said. But Yaz tells Heath to leave, so he does.

Then, Bryn has a stroke, and Yaz brings him to the hospital. Heath tells Yaz that Bryn isn’t going to make it while she cries. He comforts her, and when Bryn dies, Heath takes Yaz home. They have sex, and Heath thinks he took advantage of her. In the morning, Yaz says she is going to work when Heath says she should take the day off. He says that her job isn’t life or death, and Yaz is pissed. She says that her job is still important and leaves, while Heath feels bad. Then we see Bodhi showing Yaz their financial sheets. When Yaz needs equipment, he says they don’t have enough money. Yaz noticed Bodhi withdrew money and bought himself stuff. It’s crazy that this guy scammed her for so long. Yaz says that they need to make this money back and pay rent. Bodhi says he made a deal with some people that if she can wear a bikini, they will pay money. It was so fucking gross, but Yaz was desperate to do this without her parents, Max or Heath’s help. She wears a wetsuit, and two guys show up are drunk. When Yaz notices the weather is bad, she tells Bodhi they can’t go in the water. Bodhi doesn’t listen and takes the guys in, so Yaz calls Max for help. Bodhi calls her a bitch, and Yaz is shocked. Max calls Heath since he is the closer to Yaz. Heath came in time to see Yaz crash into a wall. Heath grabs Yaz, and Dee joins in to help. Yaz dislocated her shoulder, so Heath helps crack it back in place. Yaz is bleeding, and they take her to the hospital. Yaz’s parents say they will send her the same amount of money they spent on Max for studies. Dee told the drunk guys they could get in serious trouble for what they did, so they paid a large amount. Yaz asks Dee to be her business partner. I don’t know why she didn’t ask sooner. There were no consequences to Bodhi. Heath says that Yaz is moving in with him. Max punches Heath for kissing Yaz, but they say they love each other. They plan to go to Brazil for a coupla months. In the epilogue, Max and Mia have a kid named Sophie. Heath proposes to Yaz in the water, and they get married by the seaside. Yaz’s family is more supportive of her career. Verity has gotten quiet, so I’m curious about her story next.

Stay safe folks!

[Soph · Rating 4 out of 5]

★★★★.5. I loved this book. I loved Yaz. Her free spirit, her wanting to be her own person. I love the plot of the self-esteem being taken away by people she loves only for her to realize it and starting to stand up for herself. My favorite thing? SHE DIDN’T FORGIVE HEATH RIGHT AWAY. She made that man grovel for the WHOLE BOOK. I don’t think she should’ve forgave her parents that quickly when they were HORRIBLE to her. And that’s the reason for the 4.5 along with the fact that we didn’t get much scenes with Max and Yaz.

Heath. So pathetic. When he realized his feelings for Yaz, he messed up horribly and told her he pretty much settled for her now. Once he realizes his screw up, he grovels completely by not only immediately apologizing; but his whole demeanor changes and he realizes how important Yaz’s job/lifestyle is. I liked how the author didn’t use his trauma from childhood to be the reason for his actions and instead still made Yaz not forgive him. His relationship with Verity was the best. I can’t wait for her book.

[Soma · Rating 5 out of 5]

Reread: Dec, 8


This was my first book of Susie Tate, but will not be the last.

This story was great. The writing conveyed the emotions so well, my heart twinged and squeezed so often because I was really feeling it all.
The characters were well developed, and felt genuine. Even the dialog had a sense of realism to it, as if pulled from actual conversations.
I liked the heroine, she doesn't just forgive everyone immediatly like it usually happens in this type of books. For a supposed flake, she is actually a mature person.
I liked the hero in the end, too, even though at first i wanted nothing but to punch him.
They struggle through, and even though they get their happy ending, they continue to work on their issues.

[Pure · Rating 1 out of 5]

DISCLAIMER: EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHT TO THEIR OWN OPINION. LET ME LOVE WHAT I LOVE AND HATE WHAT I HATE ON PEACE!!!


I HATED THIS BOOK!! You know what scratch that I HATE THIS BOOK!!! I cannot even begin to tell you the rage I feel when I think about this book. TBH I didn't finish it 🙃. I didn't even reach halfway. I DNF'ED this book at 15 percent. YES 15 FLIPPING PERCENT. I hated the MMC in the first chapter. He isn't 'grumpy' he's just a misogynistic arsehole who likes insulting the FMC. I thought (in the first chapter) that things would get better but NOPE. At chapter 3, I couldn't do it anymore.

Yes, if you like misogynistic MMC's who give off Andrew Tate vibes.
No, if you value your time, mental health and love for books.

I WOULD NOT RECOMMENDED THIS TO EVEN MY GRAVE ENEMY.

[Nefise · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 stars...

[Aou · Rating 3 out of 5]

Not angsty as I expected.

[Rose · Rating 4 out of 5]

I loved how protective and OTT Health was with Yaz. Man, that dude could really put his foot in his mouth though lol. On one hand I liked that she drove him to such hysteric verbal diarrhea on the other hand it was a little ridiculous that such an accomplished educated man was such as tool. When we really got into the why he is the way he is some of it made sense but still dude, think before you speak. Overall I felt more exasperation than angst with this one. It was still an enjoyable read but I just never really loved either character. The ending and the epilogues were so so so sweet though and that’s why I’m rounding my rating up.

Overall: 3.5

[Mo ♡ · Rating 4 out of 5]

So I had actually read the first book in this series like a long time ago. Which means that I remember nothing much from the first book, only a few bits. I actually enjoyed this book because the H did some grovelling and I love it when men grovel. 💖🤷🏻‍♀️
I felt for the heroine and how she was treated by her family and the H for so many years. But she did annoy me in some parts of the story. 🙄
However I can't complain. This was a Mediocre story for me with some Angst. A 3.5/3.75 🌟 🤩 for me. Did love the H though, towards the end. 💟

[Elizabeth · Rating 5 out of 5]

Yazmin and Heathe

Another fantastic read from Susie Tate.
A loved Yazmin, a free spirited surfer that lives her life on her on terms despite the disapproval of her family.
They think of her as flaky and irresponsible, but she is everything but despise it all, she's still tries to maintain a close bond with them despite their hurtful remarks.
Heath is an idiot. He keeps hurting her at every turn, and to be honest, I would have let him go long ago with the disrespectful way he often talked to Yasmin.
Nonetheless, a great read. Highly recommended

[Gayane♡ · Rating 3 out of 5]

It was good but not great, I thought the story got boring as it went on. The book had really good potential and I loved Yaz but I just didn’t see the connection with her and Heath and I wasn’t sure if she actually really loved him or if she finally got to be with her long life crush. I am still excited to read the book about Verity. 🩷

[Christine · Rating 5 out of 5]

Amazing

What a GREAT book! Susie Tate is a new to me author but she is definitely an author I will read again!

This was a story of live, loss, growth and rather than a coming of age but a coming into you’re self story.

Full of laughs, romance, love and saucy talk it’s a great book on all levels!

[Mary Lytle · Rating 4 out of 5]

I feel like this book showed just how powerful the words we say can be and how they can affect people even if they are just meant as a joke.

[Kamelia Vasilieva · Rating 4 out of 5]

Също като първата книга, много добре написана. Нищо не и липсваше по мое мнение. Мацката беше топ мъжа не толкова ма едното за другото😂