An unhinged romp through fame, obsession, and fandom
Everyone knows Marina, the A-list movie star. But very few know Marina, the absolute monster.
Years at the top have proved that whatever Marina wants, she gets. But when she meets bartender Anna, Marina discovers something that can't be Anna's affection. As Anna remains unmoved, Marina's advances become more desperate, and her obsession more dangerous.
The price of fame is heavy—and someone will have to pay for it …
Marina is one of the world’s most beloved movie stars. She’s perfectly polished and SO likeable…which she wields to her advantage. The real Marina is nothing like the image she shows the public. She is borderline sociopathic and does chaotic little side quests to keep herself entertained, like breaking into cars, catfishing people on dating apps, and starting rumours about her famous “friends.” Marina doesn’t care about anyone other than herself…until she meets Anna.
Anna is a server at an exclusive restaurant, a few years Marina’s junior. Marina seduces her, thinking it’ll be a one-night stand, but she can’t get Anna out of her head. She becomes determined to win her over, going to hilarious and horrific lengths to try to win her love. Anna might be the only person in the world who isn’t fascinated by Marina…and Marina finds this intoxicating.
I loved this book. It’s weird girl lit in its most villainous era. Marina is monstrous and also an absolute delight to read about. I enjoyed watching her spiral out as she tried to win Anna’s affections. This book is deliberately heightened and satirical, but I was totally invested in the plot. I look forward to reading more from this author!
Thank you to the publisher for gifting me a copy of this book!
I started it before making dinner, and found myself waking up early the next morning to finish it before my day began. It was impossible to put down.
A mega-superstar named Marina is at the top of her game. There's nothing she can't do or have, but her days pass in a very superficial way. Nobody truly knows her—which is intentional! She lets people see what she wants them to see. No more, no less.
Until she meets a bartender named Anna. Captivated, she becomes intent on "having' her.
Except Anna, it seems, is the one thing she can't have.
I love books where a woman unravels, and thought that this was an excellent addition into the ~genre.
Marina, an A+ list movie star is the actress everyone loves. But beneath her public persona…she’s truly awful. She’s set her sights on Anna, a London bartender and Marina will do anything to get what she wants.
This was a little fun, a little silly (Marina has five Oscars and she’s not yet thirty? That’s just dumb.) It’s always a joy to read about bad people doing terrible things. I’m not sure what that says about me but you got to dance with them that brung you.
Well this was dark and unhinged in the best way. When a (probably psychotic? narcissistic?) A-list actor becomes infatuated with a bartender and thinks she's playing hard to get (lol, she's just not that into you), things go ... well, badly for someone who is used to automatically getting what she wants.
Very smart critique of celebrity worship culture and a bisexual villain to root against. Beer has an excellent eye for an unreliable narrator. Most the main characters here are bi, so we're not all villains you know?
Marina is Hollywood's darling with a dedicated fan base, a swoon worthy boyfriend, a career that started off with a meteoric rise and hasn't slowed down to boot. Truly, it's hard to hate her, and she knows it. Behind closed doors, she is the ultimate definition of a diva - demanding, ill-tempered, unforgiving, judgmental, the list goes on. She's bored of her celeb, it's tiring having everybody love you so much so when she meets a bartender, Anna, who's playing hard to get, Marina's obsession only grows.
I was raised on E! News and "Wendy", so naturally, this was an extremely fun read for me! Hilarious, fast-paced, deranged, and ridiculous at times. This is a stellar debut and I would love to read more of Hannah Beer's work.
If you like unhinged, messy female characters, consider picking this up!
Thank you to the publishers and NetGalley for providing me with an eARC
I couldn’t put this debut novel down. It’s about A-list celebrity movie star Marina who becomes obsessed with a bartender she meets named Anna. Marina is extremely unlikeable as she descends further into her madness and uses her fame, wealth, privilege and power to her advantage. The contrast of her life with basically everyone else is stark. I really enjoyed the short chapters, articles, forum threads and texts in the writing. There were definitely some shocking moments and I liked how this thriller pushed it right to the edge.
really hate when i can tell an author has clocked in serious time in gaylor spaces online
boring, sad, tired Woman Psychopath take where everything is cartoonishly evil but somehow nothing ever happens. found this deeply lesbophobic - like yeah our closeted lesbian celebrity MC in a PR lavender relationship would stalk and harass a woman who rejected her bc she’s into a man. right…. Right . and of course the author isn’t a lesbian … right….. right . idk maybe i can forgive incidental homophobia if the book is like, even somewhat interesting
It hurts so severely when something has SO much potential. When something is right up my alley, and I am convinced that it is destined to be my next 5 star read. and then it flops.
I am aways a bit of a sucker for a thriller that has something to do with obsession. They just feel realistic. In a way that both terrifies, and intrigues me. So, this was set up to be everything! Very much like a Joe Goldberg “You” situation.
Marina is a celebtrity that is used to everyone fawning over her, and giving her anything she wants, whenever she wants it. That is, until she finally can’t have it. Anna doesn’t seem to be infatuated with her, at all. This basically makes her lose her mind, because she simply cannot fathom it.
This missed the mark for me, pretty severely. For starters, It came out a bit bland I think. But not in a nice, interesting, thrilling "morally gray" bland kind of way. More of like monotoned, soulless, "i just want to get this over with" kind of way.
It also felt so disorganized. I want to give it some credit, and say that perhaps it was done on purpose to mimic psychotic disorganized and strange behavior. But that honestly might be me being generous.
The ending? Rushed. So rushed. Like this was THE moment, and it just happened in like 5 sentences and then me moved on and the book ended.
I suppose one thing I did like about it, was the call out of celebrity and influencer culture. Pointing out how so many of them lie to make a “brand” for themselves, pretend to care about certain movements and causes just to gain public support, and the belief that they are “elite”. That is the best part. It is also a nice show of how insane the media is, when they act like women are suddenly washed-up and useless the second they turn 30.
I don’t really have much else to say. It just felt a little bit low effort. I am annoyed by of the amount of potential it had, and how much could have been done with this!
A twisted journey inside the mind of a psychopathic Hollywood star…
Alright, let’s get into this. When I first picked up ‘I Make My Own Fun,’ I was expecting one thing and one thing only: a female serial killer. Like, I think of all those dark, feminist revenge stories that I have devoured lately — where the woman takes control and dishes out some well-deserved punishment. But nope, Hannah Beer didn’t give me that. Instead, I got Marina, who is, through and through, a psychopath. Not a feminist antihero, not a misunderstood character who’s been wronged. No, Marina is a full-on narcissistic and sadistic psychopath. The moment I realized that, I knew I wasn’t supposed to look for any redemption. She’s just… bad. Like, really bad!!
I mean, this isn’t like Villanelle from ‘Killing Eve,’ where there's a bit of an unpredictable charm to her madness. Think back to that scene where Villanelle pours ice cream on the little girl's lap just because she can? Yeah, Marina is exactly like that. She causes chaos, harm, and inconvenience “just for fun.” And spoiler, she doesn’t care about your feelings while she does it. So, no, I wasn’t exactly rooting for her. But I’ll be honest, I couldn't stop reading. And here's why:
- the premise of the book is wildly interesting. A woman committing crimes for her own amusement? Like, that’s a concept I’m here for.
- it’s refreshing to actually get a glimpse into a psychopathic woman’s brain. Normally, it’s all male psychopaths in these types of stories, and I’m usually repulsed, terrified, and downright angry. But here, Marina was just… different. And not in a “good” way, obviously, but in a way that kept me curious.
- also, let’s talk about how the book makes you feel paranoid about the “do-gooder” celebrities. I’m not even gonna lie, it made me second-guess some of the actresses I admire. You know, those women who campaigns about feminism or get involved in charity work to “raise awareness”? Yeah, this book really makes me question their true motivations. Is it genuine or are they just doing it for the press? Yikess!
But don’t get me wrong, even though I was all in for the concept, the book did fall short in a couple of key areas:
- let me start with the marketing; on Twitter, the book was advertised as Marina being this queer Miranda Priestly-type who might literally kill people just for fun. That hooked me! I mean, who wouldn’t want a psychopathic, ice-queen middle-aged woman in charge of Hollywood? Sounds amazing, right? I was picturing this icy boss lady who’s got a sharp tongue and a sharp knife. But no. No, no, no! Turns out, Marina is barely in her thirties. I mean, she’s supposed to be an A-list actress, and yes, she has that Miranda Priestly vibe where she’s disgusted by incompetence, but I was let down by the lack of the classic icy queen energy. Honestly, she just came off like a spoiled, over-privileged, unhinged teenager to me. Big letdown, seriously.
- and then, the writing style… whew! So, there’s a lot of long, winding sentences in here, which at first I thought I could get behind. But then it felt like Hannah Beer was cramming three thoughts into one sentence, and that made it hard to follow at times. Plus, don’t even get me started on the misplaced commas and quotation marks. It was a bit of a mess. It was so distracting that I found myself zoning out a few times — especially during the first 20% of the book. The whole Hollywood film promotion section was just dragging on and on, and I was like, “Okay, cool, but can we move this along?”
Final thoughts: Honestly, this was a decent debut novel, but it wasn’t the rollercoaster I was hoping for. It didn’t thrill me the way I thought it would, especially with the whole “queer psychopathic Miranda Priestly” hype! 😔 But it was still a solid read. It kept me hooked just enough to get through the WTF moments, and the deeper commentary on the darker side of fame made me appreciate it more than I initially thought. So, yeah, not a perfect read, but definitely an interesting one. I’d say give it a try if you’re curious about the mind of a woman who literally causes chaos for fun. But, fair warning, don’t expect a polished, mind-blowing thriller. That’s all.
3.5 This was basically like She's a Lamb and Pearl if Jessamyn and Pearl actually achieved their dreams of being a star.
I find parasocial relationships incredibly fascinating, they all require at bare minimum a mild amount of delusion after all. So I did really enjoy the media aspects of this book (gossip mags, internet forums) which showed just how different people's perception of Marina was from reality. A lot of people waste their time speculating things about celebrities when they are never going to actually no the truth because they don't know them and that was definitely highlighted in this book.
Marina, an "aging" (she's turning 30) actress, has the world eating out of palm. Everyone loves her, everyone wants to either be her or be with her. But the truth is that she is a nasty, spiteful, and incredibly self centered individual in real life. One night she sleeps with Anna, a bartender who has played more hard to get than Marina is used to which seems to really excite her. She starts to become obsessed with Anna, unable to understand that someone would be uninterested in her. She finds "hidden" meaning in Anna's texts, thinks she post things on Instagram as messages to her, that kind of delulu stuff. It was interesting seeing this from a celebrity as opposed to an obsessed fan.
I do wish there was a bit more substance/development for Marina as she becomes more and more unhinged. It didnt feel like the escalation of events was matched with any desperation to make her more unhinged. She was kind of super sociopathic from the start. This one wasn't super surprising that it was a debut but Im definitely interested in the authors next novel.
Thank you to Netgalley and House of Anansi Press INC for the ARC.
This would go so hard has a limited series! An actually successful psycho white woman lit fic is an allusive beast but I’d say that this really hits! There is usually a sense that there is a missed opportunity for more chaos within these types of stories, but I make my own fun. Does a really good job of taking every opportunity to make its main character seem like the absolute worst person in the world. it also begs the question, “ is your favourite celebrity actually secretly a terrible person?”
thanks to netgalley, house of anansi press, and hannah beer for the arc in exchange for an honest review of this book! ✨
i would rate this a 3.5, but rounding up to 4 for how quickly i tore through it, and reading from my phone no less.
i make my own fun follows a-list actress marina, famous and beloved by many. underneath her facade is a true monster, conceited, calculating, and darkly obsessed with stranger anna after one night together.
i’ll be the first to admit i love and delusional and unhinged female protagonist. marina is truly self-centered and evil, her deluded self-confidence is almost admirable in the way it never wavers. the pace of this book was fast, i was always dying to know what happened next. while i hated marina, i couldn’t help but be fascinated by what her next trick was. reminded me of american psycho’s patrick bateman.
i would have liked to see more exploration of her motivations. i felt the root of her obsession was clear (ego), but would have loved more background on why she is the way she is and if was she always this way. i would read about past marina to answer my burning questions.
highly recommended if you like queer and/or gossipy reads. i can’t wait to read what hannah beer writes next 🍸
This was such a wild ride in the best way! The FMC Marina is so disturbed, truly just vile. But I could not look away. I seriously couldn't stop reading this book; it was so good. Not what I had in mind in the beginning. I was immediately captivated by Marina's self-perception and her self-assuredness, which only intensified as her life began to unravel in three months right before her eyes. She was somehow always a few steps ahead, but also not entirely a part of the equation, the entire time. I think the pacing of the book was superb! Easy to read, enjoyable, and simple to get wrapped up in this insane movie star's world. I was not expecting that ending though...holy shit! Thank you, NetGalley and House of Anansi Press, for access to the ARC in exchange for a review.
Soulless rich celebrities are equally interesting and annoying to read. (Especially at the moment.) ‘I make my own fun’ is a witty and entertaining story that achieves what I believe it set out to do. But ultimately it suffers from formulaic stalker story syndrome by the climax and ending. The main character didn’t have the depth to distract from it.
What does it say about me that I love reading about unhinged women so much? I loved watching the FMC Mariana perfectly made facade deteriorate. An entertaining read.
it’s giving killing eve in all the best ways but somehow marina is even less likeable than an assassin ?!
an interesting portrayal of a celebrity who has reached icon status but still wants more and will do anything to get it.
spoiler: none of the terrible things marina does in this novel are excusable but why is this the second book I’ve read this year with really odd violence against a cat ??
a debut that bites back, hannah beer’s scandalous novel 𝗜 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗳𝘂𝗻 takes celebrity relationships to the next level in an utterly wild ride that leaves you reeling and still wanting more 🎢
𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭: everyone loves marina. beautiful, charming, adored by the public, she’s the A-list celeb you love to watch. except for one thing, marina is a terrible, evil person. when she meets anna one night in a bar, her deep + dark obsession begins as she spirals out of control.
like a queer + female version of american psycho, 𝗜 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗳𝘂𝗻 also plays with the concept of parasocial interactions and the gossip-heavy sections of the book are super fun to read, with tweets and tabloids covering marina’s every move, except the reader gets the real scoop🍦
I absolutely hated marina and it was so much fun to get inside her head and wreak havoc. I will say that she felt a little underdeveloped as a character, fairly two-dimensional and surface-level. I would’ve loved some backstory to her, like more about her family, childhood, and past life before she was famous.
for a debut, this absolutely slaps and I look forward to reading beer’s next novel 📖
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*thank you atlantic books + laura o’donnell for the proof copy! 𝗜 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗳𝘂𝗻 will be available at all your favourite bookshops + online retailers from 6th march 2025 🚀
A wickedly fun and unhinged ride. Told from the perspective of Marina: a Hollywood elite grappling with turning 30 and no longer being the hot new “it” girl this book dives into her increasingly psychotic hobbies and her desperate quest for relevance. When Marina sets her sights on Anna, a bartender who finally stirs something deeper than her usual one night flings, she spirals into a darkly hilarious obsession, using her wealth and unusual methods to win her over.
Marina is like if Demi Moore’s character in The Substance had a baby with Joe Goldberg from You: glamorous, deranged, and disturbingly compelling. If you loved You or A Certain Hunger, this one will be right up your alley.
Oh, this is simply diabolical. This felt like some twisted version of “Killing Eve” meets “BoJack Horseman” and I devoured it. Read this if you want a juicy, dark story about an unhinged sapphic Hollywood star being an absolute menace in ways you never imagined. The main character is beyond irredeemable and you aren’t ready for her.