Hagedorn

by N. C. Stroup

After losing my mother to pancreatic cancer, I found myself drowning in sorrow—only to be met with another traumatic a birth trauma with our son. Nightmares, relentless negative self-talk, and the overwhelming weight of PTSD symptoms became my reality. Within my mind, I encountered a formidable character who fought to maintain control at all costs.



This is the story of how I faced the darkness, unraveled the grip of trauma, and ultimately found a path to healing.



Through pain and resilience, I learned that survival isn’t just about enduring—it’s about reclaiming life.

164 pages, Kindle Edition

Published May 2, 2025

Reviews

[Derrrick Williams · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was a powerful and emotional read. Stroup's story is both chilling and heartbreaking, shedding light on the deep impact of PTSD and the isolation it can create. It's hard to imagine the pain she endured, especially facing it all alone, but her vulnerability in sharing her journey is nothing short of courageous.

What stands out most is how raw and honest Stroup is about her experiences. Her words don’t just tell a story—they offer comfort and connection to anyone who might be dealing with similar struggles. It’s a reminder that no one is truly alone in what they’re feeling.

This book is not only a testament to Stroup’s strength but also an important read for those looking to understand PTSD or find solace in shared experiences. Thank you, Stroup, for your bravery in telling your truth.

[Nicole · Rating 5 out of 5]

Stroup characterizes her inner voice through the intersection of vivid language and visual art to capture the emotional anguish of her experiences with PTSD. Nicole’s profound account of her silent daily battles are sure to resonate with those who have endured trauma or mental health struggles. Her honesty, strength, and resiliency portrayed throughout Hagedorn resonate with the reader well beyond the last page and instill hope and inspiration to all who strive to begin their own healing journey.

[Kacy❁ · Rating 5 out of 5]

Heart-wrenching, raw, and deeply relatable. I found myself needing to pause often—my own emotions, so closely tied to certain parts of the story, were almost too overwhelming to face all at once.

Mental health continues to carry an unnecessary stigma, and it's heartbreaking how many of us, myself included, endure silently for far too long before reaching out for help.

Thank you for shedding light on such a dark subject—your words remind others they’re not alone.

[Paige · Rating 5 out of 5]

N. C. Stroup’s story is heart wrenching and powerful. The details pull you into the intensity of the story and show you her pain and resilience, which makes the story resonate with those of us who have had similar thoughts. It’s a moving story that hopefully encourages others to seek a similar path if they find themselves feeling this way. It is a story that lingers long after the final page.