Samuel “Sin” Taylor doesn’t know the difference between sex and intimacy, but maybe that’s not his fault. He grew up in a world where it was easier to get physical pleasure than to find love. But as a prostitute working the streets, Sin thinks he’s finally found his true calling. After all sex is the one thing he’s good at, right? But when Isaac enters his life through mere coincidence, Sin finds it a relief to be someone other than Sin.
“The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame.” ― Oscar Wilde
If you're into the fluffier side of life, you have my blessing but will you please take the next exit. For the rest of you depraved pervs, enjoy your stay ;)
'I had my first taste of sin when I was thirteen'....so says Samuel 'Sin' Taylor, right at the start of this new story from Kol. 3.25 stars from me.
Sam was introduced to sex by his mother's boyfriend, rejected by that 'wonderful' woman when she discovered he was gay, the father he'd been told was dead... wasn't of course, and his indifference after their initial meeting meant that Sam certainly didn't look to him for any guidance. Drugs and drinking, dancing/stripping in a club led to Sam being taken to a hotel by Aiden, his first lover and the first of many men to pay for the privilege of Sam's 'time'. Yes, a hustler he may have been, but he was careful and faithful in his own way, his only two regulars being Aiden and Alex, and that stopped for a while after Alex raped him. 'I went to sit on the couch, and he sat with me and took out an envelope. "Take this please," he said. "I don't want it, Alex." "Why not?" "Because that would imply that I took money for letting you rape me."TRUST is everything!!
Sam/Sin is a complicated character. Alex is a arsehole, cheating on his wife and kids with Sam, but he makes Sam feel a little guilty when he meets someone (Isaac) whom he can actually be Sam with, NOT Sin. The two halves of Sam begin to blur, and confusion reigns. Does he want a regular life with Isaac, or does he carry on doing the only thing he knows and continue to be Sin?? 'Give me anyone to f**k, and I'll do it. I can do it kinky, the way they like it. But the minute someone brings in this sensitive crap, I don't know how to handle it.'
I'm going to leave this review here. Is there a shock ending?? Well, you'll have to read the story to find out, and I'll finish with a quote from the story....
'We only get this one life to live. What's the point of life if you're constantly living it to serve other people's ideas of normal??'
**edit 16/10/14. Having read some of the other reviews for this story (in particular Deb and Sandra), I agree with their comments. I read the story through again and there is absolutely no mention whatsoever of repressed memories or any flashbacks. Surely Sam's memory would have been jogged by the incident with his mum's boyfriend?? Too many stretches of the imagination combined with other little editing niggles have combined to make me downgrade my review accordingly. Sorry.**
I can't help it. Lord help me, but I can't. Every goddamn time, Kol. You kill me in all the best ways.
This is without a doubt one of Kol Anderson's greatest achievements. The words flow lyrically, it reads like poetry. The narrative voice of Sin Taylor is so well developed, beautifully crisp and completely unique. You're guided through a story where the MC starts recounting his life from age thirteen straight through to mid twenties, and you can't look away.
Every page I turned I was waiting for the penny to drop. I was waiting for the train wreck to pitch up, and by god did we get it. However there was no melodrama. Instead you get the full Kol Anderson treatment of rich emotions and intense dialogue that propels the story forward and keeps you on the edge of your seat until the last friggin page.
I love the character arc, from the obvious innocence of Sam to the evolution of Sin and his battle to not let Sam succumb and die to Sin. One of Kol's all time best, and that is saying a lot.
I will be surprised the day that I am not surprised by a Kol Anderson ending.
“We only get this one life to live. What’s the point if you’re constantly living it to serve other people’s ideas of normal?”
In Sin we get another book in which Kol does what he is very good at doing: showing us the other side of the coin, situations that maybe you never thought possible are the reality for others. And in this case, it would be Samuel 'Sin' Taylor.
We are first introduced to Samuel as a young teenager. Where his first bold statement to us is, "I had my first taste of sin when I was 13."From there we witness his journey through life and tribulations. And yes, we are our own person, but sometimes the road we end up taking is determine by others. If we weren't shown disappointment would we be constantly seeking approval? If we have had love would we be jumping at the first sign of "affection"? If we didn't experience abuse would we value ourselves more? So it makes me wonder if we didn't experience and go through such things would Sam be a different person? Would we?
There is so many thoughts and feels Kol provokes in his writes. And it goes with out saying that in Sin we also get our dose of dark reality and signature WTF moments we all seem to have a love/hate thing for :) And you'll be able to experience them again come October 1, 2014!
This book like most of Kol’s work is a roller coaster of emotions. Sammie (Sin) Taylor was broken right from the start. With so many things working against you ( family, so called friends, his mind) how can you not be? But this story left me staring at my kindle searching for a few more pages as there was no end.. Like at all! And not just the lack of an ending Thank you Amy for the mini BR.
I know I must sound like a broken record when it comes to reviewing Kol’s books, but seriously, time and time again, I can count on them to wring out a plethora of emotions. Whether part of an ongoing story, or stand alone stories, each one contains similar attributes that put Kol’s writing in a class of its own. Often taboo in nature, they leave you feeling almost bad about how much you liked and enjoyed reading them.
Here, we meet Sam, or Sin, as he is called. He has created the two separate personas to separate the different aspects of his life. My heart immediately fell for both of them as they each struggled to understand the other, albeit unsuccessfully as the lines began to blur. As more and more crumbs are told, Sam/Sin’s story becomes clearer to us, while becoming less so to Sam/Sin. Every time Sin sees a tiny chance of carrying on his life as Sam and being able to finally give up his life as Sin, something happens to pull him back.
Sam/Sin goes through so much in this short span of a story. I was cheering him on, wanting to save and hug him and punish him all at the same time. Sometimes a character pulls you in so much that you spend time trying to understand and comprehend what you just read about them, long after you have closed the book. This was one of those instances, and that is one of the reasons why I am such a huge fan of Kol’s work.
He is a master manipulator when it comes to weaving a story. As with every Kol book I have read, nothing is totally as it seems – right.to.the.very.end. Yes, the books are all on the shorter side, but they are packed with intensity. If you have not done so already, I urge you to read the free story, Daddy. What is told in just a few pages there completely sets the tone for Sam/Sin’s life and might give you just a little better of an understanding into his mind.
A good lord. Where do I begin?! Every time I pick up Kol's work, I know I'm in for a treat. And this doesn't disappoint. His narrative voice is sublime. His words flow with an ease I can only admire and wish others to emulate. I fell in love with Sam/Sin and felt his conflict at every turn. Secondary characters, flaws and all provide you with a glimpse into human compassion as well as deviancy. This goes down as one of my favourite of Kol's offerings and that's a bold statement as quite frankly I love all his work. As any Kol stalker, I mean, fan knows, Kol's endings are always the unexpected and boy, what a left field. Stunned! Again!! Fabulous darling. Blessed to be able to read your genius.
Please don't take this as a bad review...because it's not. It's not a glowing wonderful review...but I can't say that I hated this book. Or that I wouldn't read more, if there was a follow up I wouldn't read it, because I would, without hesitation.
The book starts off well, and kinda just stays in the set up mode. You know, where you're thinking, oh yeah, this is gonna be good. But then it just lingers in that mode.
90% This is it, the turning point. This is were it's going to get good, or wrap up with a quick HEA right?
not exactly
WTF'edy! WHY IS IT OVER!!!! NO!! NO!! NOT OVER, get back over here and finish this!
Every once in a wile, I like the wtf'edy reaction to a book...and I think, that might have been the goal.
Once again, Kol has done it! He’s delivered a brilliant read that I didn’t want to end. I wait with anticipation for each new book, and then treat them like special little gifts. I’m such a fan…there are no words!
Thanks for another great read, Kol (AKA The Master of Depravity)!
Hmmm. *scratches head* I think my copy of the book is missing the last 10 pages or so. There was no ending. No conclusion. No closure. It just ended in the middle of a scene. I’m confused :(
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Oh wow....I think i've found my all time fav Kol book.....This may be a short book but Sam "Sin" Taylor sure does have a rough time of it...His time with Alex I think is precious....I kind of liked Alex...Fare enough he was married with kids but Sam knew that and I think Alex treated him really well...(Apart from that one time)....I hated Aiden and what he let happen to Sam I could never forgive him for....Isaac I kind of liked but I just didn't think he was suited for Sam as much as Alex was.....Sam's father well,....I can see why people thought it was a follow on to 'Daddy'.....In all I think Sam is better off with Alex...A brilliant book and no it doesn't have a cliffhanger ending as most people think....I think the ending was perfect x
My first thoughts after reading this were sadness Could be the mood I'm in but I just feel so sad for Sammie The situation he was born into is just sad I thought for a second that Isaac would "save" him but it didn't happen And the ending was just crazy I wanted more But kudos to the author for invoking those feelings in me Sadness, despair The urge to take care of Sammie For a short book this one really makes you feel
Someone who does not Realize how special you are probably does not deserve to be with you anyway. but this is not the case, fortunately for us. Thank you for another GREAT story !!!
Once again a book that leaves a big impression. I won't lie I love Kol Anderson's books and their unique dark atmosphere. You just have to read it to get it...
I know I sound like a broken record, but Kol Anderson slays me every single time I read one of his stories. This was no exception.
I don’t know where the author comes up with his characters and story ideas; my only hope is he never stops sharing with us. His stories are unforgettably amazing and just when I thought I’ve read the best one yet, he comes out with something even better. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Kol Anderson is a talented, rock solid writer who makes the words flow flawlessly off the page. I admit I get giddy when I start reading his books.
Thrown out of his home by his mother and left to fend for himself, Sam does what he needs to do to survive. Out of this he becomes Sin, a male prostitute and dancer. Now, as storylines go you may be thinking, “I’ve read this story before.” Not so. While the premise may be familiar, this is Kol Anderson’s world, and nothing is ever what it seems to be.
I loved how we got to see Sam/Sin’s POV. We see him being Sam, just wanting to be loved, doubting the decisions he’s making, but still going forward. We see Sin, the character who needs to do what he does to make the money, and just gets on with it. We see the inner battle for wanting to find true love and have that happily ever after, but not wanting to lose who he has become.
As with all of Mr. Anderson’s stories, he makes us cheer for the underdog, gives us hope that everything will be okay, but deep down inside we know the other shoe is going to drop, we just don’t know where, when or how. And then it happens, that zinger of an ending. All of what you thought up until that moment hasn’t been what you thought it was. It’s that kind of ending when, after you’ve finished you’re thinking, “How did I not see that?” Thinking back, the signs were there, the little nuggets of what was to come were all there, we just didn’t want to believe it.
Once again, Kol Anderson rocks my world. And it’s all good.
So here's Kol, fucking with my mind again. The Kol Anderson library is like walking down a dark passageway never knowing what's waiting inside each room you pass. Kol loves to test the boundaries of readers' comfort zones. From what I've read, he only writes in either dark or taboo. This story falls under taboo.
Poor Sam just can't seem to catch a break. He feels no love for himself from any direction so he starts using his body as a means to make his way.
"Why is fucking the answer to everything for you?"
His drug use and prostitution are hard enough crosses for him to carry, but they most likely stem from his confusing childhood. Through all of his "adventures" in this short story, I couldn't decide if I wanted to enjoy the depravity or cry over his self-hate. The scenes flipped from sexy to sad often.
People don't care about broken people the way they care about broken legs.
If you're looking for a sweet romance this is not your book. That being said, I liked it, as I always do like everything he writes. This is one author I definitely plan to continue following.
This is Kol Anderson at full throttle! For just the smallest amount of time towards the end I thought maybe it could happen but then in true Kol style it was snatched away. It was such a WTF moment but then I realised it was also a true Kol moment.
We are introduced to Sam when he is thirteen years old where he learns some very harsh lessons very quickly that have a huge impact on who he will become as an adult. That one moment in time, that dropped bag of groceries will change everything for this innocent young boy.
Sam is just so unprepared for the world in so many ways. When he is kicked out of him home he lands a job as a dancer. His dancing persona needs a stage name and SIN is born. When a customer asks him home for the night he has no idea what that means. His romanticised version the next morning is knocked out of him when he is handed an envelope for his ‘services’.
Sin quickly embraces the world of prostitution and realises it is a way to make enough money to fund his ever growing drug habit. He has a couple of regular customers who each demand different things from him and then go onto hurt him very badly but Sin is addicted and cannot walk away.
When he meets Isaac his two personalities collide for the first time. Sam yearns for happiness and wonders whether anyone could actually love him. Sin is distrustful and almost addicted to his way of life.
Almost up until the very end this book will break your heart and keep you guessing.....then WHAM!
This is my second Kol Anderson book, which was much better than the first. I cringe saying that because this is not a book you want to like, but it's good nonetheless. It's a front row seat to Samuel "Sin" Taylor's downward spiral from his "first taste of sin at age 13." We see his innocence in Sam, his transformation into Sin, and his struggle living between the two.
Reading this was like trying to watch a horror flick through your fingers. You know it's coming, you just don't know when. The subtle clues Kol gives you throughout are leading you there all along, but you don't even realize it until it smacks you in the head like a two by four at the end.
As I gather from the reviews, this is true Kol Anderson style.
I used to love dark fiction. One of the reasons I got into psychology is my fascination with people's behavior, human nature, however you want to look at it; trying to figure out what makes people tick. After spending the past year in a psych ward, I've found I don't enjoy these books as much anymore because I see it in real life on a weekly basis. Instead of the characters, I see patients. It's creepy.
That's not to say this book isn't good or well written, I just don't want to read it again. If you like dark and disturbing, Kol is your man. He packs quite a punch in just a few pages. I wish I'd found him sooner when I could enjoy his writing more.
Now, I need fluff. Lots and lots of fluff. Give it to me. ;)
Sin feels like a breaking point for me. I have made no secret of the fact that i just adore Kol Anderson's writing. I would read anything he has written. Sin is like opening my mind and wondering which decision I made, that meant that I arrived here instead of where Sin is. It is a short story that, as is usual for me and Kol's books enough to rip my heart out and have him holding me in a virtual hug and telling me everything will be OK, eventually. Although I don't know how many will see the ending that way. Sin is dark and the ending is not really an ending more like an affirmation of clinging on to life. I don't want to say more in case it gives away spoilers, but fans of Kol's work will know to expect the unexpected. Sin resounded for me, because of who I am and where I am in my life at the moment, I cannot say the same for anyone else but this is an amazingly told story, that glows with honesty,pathos and an understanding of the place people can get to when they think they are broken and not worth anything, its a narrative of how a innocent boy got there. So worth the read.
It was difficult for me to rate this book. For about 98 percent of the story it had everything I’ve come to expect from Kol Anderson's story telling and I was ready to rate it at least 4 stars. It was dark and I felt for Sin/Sam. His struggles and the story kept me reading and hoping.
Unfortunately, for me, it fell apart on the last pages. I love Kol’s twists and shocks, especially when I realize he was leading me there all along, but this one left me with more questions as it came a bit out of left field. Because of that, unless I missed something big somewhere in the story, the whole thing seemed unfinished.
Man, This story certainly threw me for a loop. In a good way! lol.. It was so great though.
A warning though....
But if you're willing to give it a try anyways, GO FOR IT!
Oh man, that one last chapter? OMFG!! that ... OMG! I fucking almost flipped a bitch. LOL! That was such a fucking surprise. Dare I ask... is this a sequel of sorts to Daddy?? In any case, It was such a fun read.
I find Kol's writing compelling. Once I start I can't stop. He takes his stories to another level...and these stories aren't for the weak...they're some pretty heavy subjects. Kol has definitely become one of my favorite "dark" authors.
I felt so bad for Sammie, I literally had tears in my eyes the entire time. This story is unique and sad and mind blowing. Again, not for the faint, as their are certain "situations". My mind is still reeling and I can't even comprehend to give you any more details than I've already said. I'm not sure if I wish there would be another part to this. You kind of hope for some sort of HEA, but in his world, that might be the best it gets...so sad
What a mind f***! Kol does it again. His writing is talented and the plots are brilliant. Sin is emotional and heartbreaking. Although it's a novella, Anderson finds a way to get the reader vested in the character. I found myself rooting for Sam's character as the plot took twists and turns. All I can say is, it's a "sin" the way the book ended. As usual, great work.
This was a whole ride, and I meant it in every way because I had no idea where it was taking me. I cannot rate this lower than 4 stars despite the abrupt ending and a twist which could've been better left out since it felt out of nowhere and only intended for shock value. It really made me care a lot for MC within a few pages, that's something not all authors are able to even with long books.
It was hard reading about Sam's life going downhill the more I turned the pages. It had sort of a haunting feeling of watching a car crash and not being able to do anything to stop it. I couldn't help but think of how awful it is that while this is fiction, the truth is that this happens in reality, and that makes it even more difficult to sit through.
Uuuuuuuh what was that? What.... whaaaaaat ok if it's there's a second book fine but if there's not it is a fucked up book with no clear ending. what was that ending anyway? ugh I can't rate.
This book was well written and compelling from beginning to end. I began this book with no expectations as Kol Anderson is a new author to me. I was quickly impressed with his frank and straightforward writing style, and I felt it was particularly effective in the POV of Sam, the book's main character. I had that flicker of expectant hope in my gut that I get when I start a book that I know I will savor to the end. I pressed on and read it straight through the night.
Unfortunately, as the number of pages dwindled away to nothing, so did that expectant hope. With a queasy feeling I realized that hope was slowly turning into dread...and I was not happy about it.
This book was powerful and gripping, but it left an unpleasant taste in my mouth. Unfortunately, I can't bring myself to give a higher rating to such a highly anticipated book that actually wound up being a low point in my day for having read it.