Alas! I've been sitting on my notes for this one, struggling for the motivation to type them up. Nikki's wonderful review cleanly listed off all my objections before I got there; I would very much recommend you read her thoughts before buying this book.
Still here though? Right then -
Liza Hawke is a former collegiate-level basketball player, who leapt at the opportunity to leave the quiet town where she grew up. She immediately fell into bad company, and was left carrying the can (in the form of receiving stolen goods) for a scumbag boyfriend. Now she's out of jail and out of options, reluctantly (so reluctantly) heading back to her tiny town in the hope the residents will take her back in.
Honestly, this book is grey and joyless. Almost aggressively so. Everything the light touches is painfully serious and dour. The relationships – which are key in a story of this type, which is honestly better described as a character study without much plot – those relationships fail in every significant way. Liza is arrogant and alienating. She broods constantly, finding fault with everyone and everything while ignoring their acts of welcome and kindness. This is the symptom of a broader problem - the narrative suffers from an excess of 'telling' rather than showing' - ie there is a severe disconnect between what the author is simply telling me as a thought-dump and what I am “seeing” as the character moves through the world. Nikki suggests that this book as a work of ascended fanfiction, and truly this explains a lot. It would suggest the author has learned to rely on character relationships she can assume are already built in a audience's mind; unfortunately when marketing a work as an original, without that context then “fresh” readers like myself simply don't give a flying fuck about the people described.
I say again, this book is reliant on its characters – the relationships are vital to layering and nuancing the world. Once we've gone through the montage of newspaper clippings and Liza is safely placed in the town, the action effectively stops. From then forward, literally the only things outside of relationships to receive any serious attention are that Liza gets a job and that she finds a lawyer. So the plot is negligible, but the relationships relied on instead are not enough. For example, theoretically the most central relationship is the romance. Alas for the reader, Sofia – the love interest – and Liza have no chemistry. Or rather, we are told they have chemistry, at odds with what we are actually seeing. Frankly, if anything, the main character should have abandoned Sofia as a lost cause and pursued her best friend, whom she had the advantage of actually talking with occasionally and liking somewhat.
But then again, Liza was deeply unlikable – so maybe the best-friend is well clear. Anti-heroes are supposed to be flawed in ways we can relate to – needless to say I felt the main character was contemptuous in the same way a narcissist is, in that she barely considered the impact of her current actions on other people even as the author told us she had “really changed” from the selfish teenager she had once been. Liza was problematic in ways I don't believe the author even noticed.
So there is the rub; certain promising developmental leads we were told as author-exposition never bore fruit; certain characters just showed up without explanation or exposition; the main character is unlikable in terminal ways; the relationships are cold and lifeless; everyone takes themselves too seriously.
The irony is that the author is technically competent, and had a good editor. That's why it gets a star above the floor from me. Musing on my reading experience of this as a whole, I suppose if this had been approached differently, it could have been a good book – not a yarn, because character studies don't really make good yarns. What it needed was a sense of humour, a self-aware protagonist capable of finding joy, secondary characters treated with respect, and a gentle approach to the romance. No amount of technical competance will compensate for those flaws.
I cannot recommend this novel.