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Make Me Weak
**18+ Intended for MATURE AUDIENCES Due to Sexual Content & Certain Topics**
Alexandria 'Andie' Hawkins, is in control. She knows what she wants and never lets anyone make decisions for her. With no family and no friends, Andie doesn’t really have anyone she can count on for support. But that’s fine. She is used to the silence now. Working as a high-class pole dancer was never one of her dreams but now, it is the only thing she cares about. Alexandria has learned one very important thing—never let anyone see who you truly are. That is why her alter ego Kandi, is the one that steps on stage every night leaving the men craving more.
Kandi becomes their dream—their fantasy. And at the end of the night when Kandi leaves the club, Andie isn’t left with a broken heart.
Until one dance changes everything. That’s when she sees him. From that moment desire, lust, and insatiable passion take over. Despite all of Andie’s warnings to stay away—she can’t. There are just a few problems.
She doesn’t trust a single soul.
He doesn’t believe in love.
And he’s twice her age.
Onyx is a mystery to her—a mystery she has to solve. Andie has spent the last few years believing the only person who knew the real her—was herself. Now she is realizing that the only time she feels like herself is when she is with a man that should be off limits.
Losing control is something Andie promised would never happen again. After years building up the walls she hides behind, she realizes she can’t resist peeking over the top.
Truths will always be revealed, leaving pain and confusion in their wake. Alexandria will be left wondering if the one person that can save her is the one person she can’t have.
Alexandria 'Andie' Hawkins, is in control. She knows what she wants and never lets anyone make decisions for her. With no family and no friends, Andie doesn’t really have anyone she can count on for support. But that’s fine. She is used to the silence now. Working as a high-class pole dancer was never one of her dreams but now, it is the only thing she cares about. Alexandria has learned one very important thing—never let anyone see who you truly are. That is why her alter ego Kandi, is the one that steps on stage every night leaving the men craving more.
Kandi becomes their dream—their fantasy. And at the end of the night when Kandi leaves the club, Andie isn’t left with a broken heart.
Until one dance changes everything. That’s when she sees him. From that moment desire, lust, and insatiable passion take over. Despite all of Andie’s warnings to stay away—she can’t. There are just a few problems.
She doesn’t trust a single soul.
He doesn’t believe in love.
And he’s twice her age.
Onyx is a mystery to her—a mystery she has to solve. Andie has spent the last few years believing the only person who knew the real her—was herself. Now she is realizing that the only time she feels like herself is when she is with a man that should be off limits.
Losing control is something Andie promised would never happen again. After years building up the walls she hides behind, she realizes she can’t resist peeking over the top.
Truths will always be revealed, leaving pain and confusion in their wake. Alexandria will be left wondering if the one person that can save her is the one person she can’t have.
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First published September 11, 2014
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September 15, 2014
Oh God SO BAD.
I did not finish this book. This is a groundbreaking moment, folks. I normally have a perverse inability to stop in the middle of the book. I HAVE to know what is going to happen. But I hit the 40% mark and literally threw my hands in the air and this book across the room.
The first hint I had that this book was going to be problematic was a typo on the first page. I even made a note of it, just like I made a note of the numerous typos throughout the book. How hard is it for an author to re-read their own work? If they think it's good enough to publish, then they should think it good enough to re-read, right?
The second problem I had with this book is that the hero's name was Onyx. Though, to be fair, he says that "people just call me, Onyx" (typo with comma included). So, maybe it's a nickname?
My favourite thing about Onyx is that he has a British accent, yet no one else in his family does. I find that all levels of hilarious. Maybe (I doubt it), maybe (let's be honest, there probably won't be) there's an explanation in the 60% of it I didn't read.
So after the first time Andie meets Onyx, she immediately goes home (after giving her boss crazy amounts of grief that he just accepts? I've never heard of a boss letting his employees talk back to him, but hey, it's fiction.) and paints "an endless array of onyx stones."
Because of course our ~special flower~ heroine is a misunderstood artist. Of-fucking-course she is.
Here are some other gems I highlighted:
"I don't need your mouth to answer my question. I will just ask your other lips."
(Do people seriously talk like that? SERIOUSLY?!)
Something made me believe that if Onyx wanted to keep me here as his prisoner, with chains, and cuffs that no part of me object." (All typos author's own)
(No part of you? Not, say, your common sense or sense of self-preservation?)
Good God.
But what finally made me give up is the scene where Onyx takes Andie to his place and guess what? Our hero is also a ~unique snowflake~ and is:
1. a pianist
2. a photographer
3. a guitarist
Jesus. Ever heard of less is more?
I couldn't even bring myself to read the obvious sex scene that would follow that. And if you're like "...so?" just know that I have NEVER. IN MY LIFE. skipped a sex scene.
I did not finish this book. This is a groundbreaking moment, folks. I normally have a perverse inability to stop in the middle of the book. I HAVE to know what is going to happen. But I hit the 40% mark and literally threw my hands in the air and this book across the room.
The first hint I had that this book was going to be problematic was a typo on the first page. I even made a note of it, just like I made a note of the numerous typos throughout the book. How hard is it for an author to re-read their own work? If they think it's good enough to publish, then they should think it good enough to re-read, right?
The second problem I had with this book is that the hero's name was Onyx. Though, to be fair, he says that "people just call me, Onyx" (typo with comma included). So, maybe it's a nickname?
My favourite thing about Onyx is that he has a British accent, yet no one else in his family does. I find that all levels of hilarious. Maybe (I doubt it), maybe (let's be honest, there probably won't be) there's an explanation in the 60% of it I didn't read.
So after the first time Andie meets Onyx, she immediately goes home (after giving her boss crazy amounts of grief that he just accepts? I've never heard of a boss letting his employees talk back to him, but hey, it's fiction.) and paints "an endless array of onyx stones."
Because of course our ~special flower~ heroine is a misunderstood artist. Of-fucking-course she is.
Here are some other gems I highlighted:
"I don't need your mouth to answer my question. I will just ask your other lips."
(Do people seriously talk like that? SERIOUSLY?!)
Something made me believe that if Onyx wanted to keep me here as his prisoner, with chains, and cuffs that no part of me object." (All typos author's own)
(No part of you? Not, say, your common sense or sense of self-preservation?)
Good God.
But what finally made me give up is the scene where Onyx takes Andie to his place and guess what? Our hero is also a ~unique snowflake~ and is:
1. a pianist
2. a photographer
3. a guitarist
Jesus. Ever heard of less is more?
I couldn't even bring myself to read the obvious sex scene that would follow that. And if you're like "...so?" just know that I have NEVER. IN MY LIFE. skipped a sex scene.
September 13, 2014
Alexandria (Andi) is a beautiful and talented young woman, but she's broken, damaged by a terrible past and haunted by soul destroying demons. The one thing she has learned is that she can trust no one. She's struggling with life and working under the name of Kandi as a pole dancer for the soul purpose of earning enough money to get back the most precious thing in her life.
A normal night dancing and she finds herself entranced by a mysterious man Onyx, and also meets up with an old school friend, Kayne who happens to be his nephew but can she let down her guard to let either of them into her life?
This is more than a just a story, its a young woman's journey, of learning to trust, learning how to get past her demons, passion, friendships, fears and emotional heart wrenching, and finally love!
Onyx is older and he's incredible, sexy as hell and he slowly works his way into her heart and she realises that before him she's just been existing and not living.
This amazing author writes straight into your heart and emotions, and you feel every part of Andi's struggles, and her fears of Onyx finding out her past and them being too much, can she finally find acceptance and love? Will she find the happiness she deserves?
I thoroughly enjoyed this story and love how this author drags you into each and every character,and makes you feel and puts you through every emotion, I couldn't put this book down till i got to the end,
I really can't wait for the next part of Andi and Onyx's journey !!!!!
A normal night dancing and she finds herself entranced by a mysterious man Onyx, and also meets up with an old school friend, Kayne who happens to be his nephew but can she let down her guard to let either of them into her life?
This is more than a just a story, its a young woman's journey, of learning to trust, learning how to get past her demons, passion, friendships, fears and emotional heart wrenching, and finally love!
Onyx is older and he's incredible, sexy as hell and he slowly works his way into her heart and she realises that before him she's just been existing and not living.
This amazing author writes straight into your heart and emotions, and you feel every part of Andi's struggles, and her fears of Onyx finding out her past and them being too much, can she finally find acceptance and love? Will she find the happiness she deserves?
I thoroughly enjoyed this story and love how this author drags you into each and every character,and makes you feel and puts you through every emotion, I couldn't put this book down till i got to the end,
I really can't wait for the next part of Andi and Onyx's journey !!!!!
September 14, 2014
Megan Noelle has hit it out of the park with the first book in this series.
Andie aka Kandi is a girl with a sorted past. She's a strong, independent woman who takes care of herself and trusts no one. She lives a simple life. Until she meets Kayne. Andie doesn't realize that she knows Kayne because it's been several years. She meets Onyx and there's just something about him that she can't shake.
I most definitely recommend this book for anyone looking for a great book. However, I've not read a book by Megan Noelle that I haven't fallen in love with. This is a MUST READ!!!!!
I love you Boobear!!!!
Andie aka Kandi is a girl with a sorted past. She's a strong, independent woman who takes care of herself and trusts no one. She lives a simple life. Until she meets Kayne. Andie doesn't realize that she knows Kayne because it's been several years. She meets Onyx and there's just something about him that she can't shake.
I most definitely recommend this book for anyone looking for a great book. However, I've not read a book by Megan Noelle that I haven't fallen in love with. This is a MUST READ!!!!!
I love you Boobear!!!!
September 14, 2014
I really enjoyed this book from start to finish loved Onyx and Alexandria he was older than her by a lot but it didn't even feel like he was and what Alex went through my god I cried I need the next book ASAP so good well done Megan!!!
September 22, 2014
"I believe it to be true that life is darkest just before the dawn and sometimes you need to be at your weakest in order to be strong. You need to feel pain and hurt before you can feel love. You need to have faith before you can have forever."
Megan Noelle has a way with words, it's hard finding the words to express how her writing effects us. She has an incredible way of drawing you in and keeping you hooked. The way she writes with so much raw emotion for her characters leaves us speechless. Prepare yourself for the agonisingly beautiful story that is Kandi aka Andie aka Alexandria.
Alexandria or Andie for short is known as Kandi at the club. She has men drooling at her feet, always leaving them wanting more but never giving them that something extra. She is the best dancer the club has to offer and she knows it. With the occasional quick nod or few words with one of the girls at the club that's far enough with friendship as she goes. She's not close to anyone and at the end of the day she's not there to make friends, she's there to make money.
Giving yet another rich kid a dance for his birthday, Kandi is memorised by the smouldering stranger in the corner. Soon realising this rich kid Kayne, is a guy from her past, she is about to turn her life upside down in more way than one...
This smouldering sexy as sin older man has her 'feeling', there is something about this older guy she just can't seem to take her eyes off. No man has ever affected her like this, no man has ever had this type of power over her. This man is Onyx....
Andie is a very closed off person, never sharing her life or getting close to anyone. That is until Kayne makes another appearance when she least expects it. Wanting to rekindle their friendship Andie shocking herself and accepts his invitation to lunch. Lunch proves to be very interesting, Kayne's family are not her kind of people, they are unwelcoming and cold. Lunch does however have surprising perks. ONYX, what is it with this man that has her walls starting to crack... Oh that's right have you seen him, heard him? Surely she could be with him once and get him out of her system right?
One question, one dance, one night, to hand over all control, one night with Onyx... One night and she can get this man out of her system, out of her head, no longer consuming too many thoughts. Can she give over the control she has fought so hard to keep ahold of?
“Oh no. That is not how this works, love. You come when I say. You are under my control.”
The sexual chemistry between Andie and Onyx is HOT!
"I get so fucking hard just watching you but if I wanted to fuck a stripper, I would have done it against that brick wall. When I brought you here I told you it was Alexandria I wanted. This is me reminding you that you were human and that whenever you are near me I need to see you."
Being with Onyx is explosive! Once again he shocks her when their conversation takes an unexpected route. Can she open up to this man, let some of her secrets out?
One night was all it took for Onyx to get further under her skin, to still consume her thoughts. Some time away from him will help clear her head, right? WRONG
Andie is opening up to actually having Kayne as a friend. Friendship isn't the only thing Kayne wants with Andie... Going out together as 'friends' Andie can't help but squirm when she finds the eyes of a man that is under her skin. One look from that man and she she finds herself wet.
Getting some insight into who Onyx 'is' Kandie questions herself in more ways than one. How could she be so stupid? How could she let Andie take over? Surely her past has taught her something. Having her feelings hurts, she's been through enough and that hard exterior is back in place. How could she let a man really get to her like that.... Finding comfort the only way she knows how, she finds herself back at the one place where her heart truly lies.
Will Andie's secrets hold her from finding and having happiness, having a happy ever after that she truly deserves? Will these secrets be to much for Onyx to handle?
Congratulations to Megan once again you never cease to amaze us. One women's journey of pain, heartache, self discovery and knowing what is is like to 'feel' will have you flipping the pages wanting to know more. You had us wrapped up in this amazing story from the first chapter.
We can't wait to get our hands on Make Me Stronger!
Megan Noelle has a way with words, it's hard finding the words to express how her writing effects us. She has an incredible way of drawing you in and keeping you hooked. The way she writes with so much raw emotion for her characters leaves us speechless. Prepare yourself for the agonisingly beautiful story that is Kandi aka Andie aka Alexandria.
Alexandria or Andie for short is known as Kandi at the club. She has men drooling at her feet, always leaving them wanting more but never giving them that something extra. She is the best dancer the club has to offer and she knows it. With the occasional quick nod or few words with one of the girls at the club that's far enough with friendship as she goes. She's not close to anyone and at the end of the day she's not there to make friends, she's there to make money.
Giving yet another rich kid a dance for his birthday, Kandi is memorised by the smouldering stranger in the corner. Soon realising this rich kid Kayne, is a guy from her past, she is about to turn her life upside down in more way than one...
This smouldering sexy as sin older man has her 'feeling', there is something about this older guy she just can't seem to take her eyes off. No man has ever affected her like this, no man has ever had this type of power over her. This man is Onyx....
Andie is a very closed off person, never sharing her life or getting close to anyone. That is until Kayne makes another appearance when she least expects it. Wanting to rekindle their friendship Andie shocking herself and accepts his invitation to lunch. Lunch proves to be very interesting, Kayne's family are not her kind of people, they are unwelcoming and cold. Lunch does however have surprising perks. ONYX, what is it with this man that has her walls starting to crack... Oh that's right have you seen him, heard him? Surely she could be with him once and get him out of her system right?
One question, one dance, one night, to hand over all control, one night with Onyx... One night and she can get this man out of her system, out of her head, no longer consuming too many thoughts. Can she give over the control she has fought so hard to keep ahold of?
“Oh no. That is not how this works, love. You come when I say. You are under my control.”
The sexual chemistry between Andie and Onyx is HOT!
"I get so fucking hard just watching you but if I wanted to fuck a stripper, I would have done it against that brick wall. When I brought you here I told you it was Alexandria I wanted. This is me reminding you that you were human and that whenever you are near me I need to see you."
Being with Onyx is explosive! Once again he shocks her when their conversation takes an unexpected route. Can she open up to this man, let some of her secrets out?
One night was all it took for Onyx to get further under her skin, to still consume her thoughts. Some time away from him will help clear her head, right? WRONG
Andie is opening up to actually having Kayne as a friend. Friendship isn't the only thing Kayne wants with Andie... Going out together as 'friends' Andie can't help but squirm when she finds the eyes of a man that is under her skin. One look from that man and she she finds herself wet.
Getting some insight into who Onyx 'is' Kandie questions herself in more ways than one. How could she be so stupid? How could she let Andie take over? Surely her past has taught her something. Having her feelings hurts, she's been through enough and that hard exterior is back in place. How could she let a man really get to her like that.... Finding comfort the only way she knows how, she finds herself back at the one place where her heart truly lies.
Will Andie's secrets hold her from finding and having happiness, having a happy ever after that she truly deserves? Will these secrets be to much for Onyx to handle?
Congratulations to Megan once again you never cease to amaze us. One women's journey of pain, heartache, self discovery and knowing what is is like to 'feel' will have you flipping the pages wanting to know more. You had us wrapped up in this amazing story from the first chapter.
We can't wait to get our hands on Make Me Stronger!
September 13, 2014
I am in awww every time I pick up a book from Megan Noelle. I always get so lost in her characters and I think noway she could get any better. Honestly this story is about Andi finding herself after many years of nightmares and demons coming back to her. She is amazingly talented and gorgeous above all but she has one goal in life and she has no time for friends or boyfriend for that matter. She has learned to trust no one because in the end its only yourself that will be there. But she reunites with someone from her past and also meets Onyx. when you meet Onyx he will literally take you're breath away the things he pulls out of Andi are amazing he will stop at nothing to prove he is loyal and wants to battle all her demons away. Can Andi let him do this can she learn to give the ultimate price by allowing these two people in her life. As you take this journey with Andi you learn about the deep levels of pain this girl has been through. And never had anybody by her side she has made choices and doesn't regret anything but there is one thing she will finish.
OK so Megan my sweets I am so proud of you I love you to the heavens above everything you have been through while finishing this book. And still you gave me perfection can't wait to continue this story.
OK so Megan my sweets I am so proud of you I love you to the heavens above everything you have been through while finishing this book. And still you gave me perfection can't wait to continue this story.
September 14, 2014
What an amazing story! Megan Noelle has the ability to make you feel every emotion her characters do. She draws you in with every single word she writes!
Kandi aka Andie is a beautiful, strong woman who is fighting demons of her past. She is doing everything she can to take care of the one thing she loves the most. Kandi dances at night to earn as much money, as fast as she can. While dancing at the club she runs into a face from the past, a past she is running from. Kayne is so intrigued by Kandi after she gives him the best show of his life. However the handsome Onyx steals her breathe away. Can Onyx be the one person Andie can be her true self with? Will Onyx bring Andie the happily ever after she deserves?
I highly recommended this book. I absolutely love every book Megan has written. <3 <3 <3
Kandi aka Andie is a beautiful, strong woman who is fighting demons of her past. She is doing everything she can to take care of the one thing she loves the most. Kandi dances at night to earn as much money, as fast as she can. While dancing at the club she runs into a face from the past, a past she is running from. Kayne is so intrigued by Kandi after she gives him the best show of his life. However the handsome Onyx steals her breathe away. Can Onyx be the one person Andie can be her true self with? Will Onyx bring Andie the happily ever after she deserves?
I highly recommended this book. I absolutely love every book Megan has written. <3 <3 <3
September 14, 2014
looking forward to make me strong.
March 7, 2017
I am desperate for the next book! I would have given five star but it did not have that strong of a plot. I enjoyed the main character and her guy, but I will not really love it until I can read the next book.
October 6, 2014
Where do I start? I have never been a fan of exotic dancers or of the older man, younger woman story lines, BUT Megan Noelle wrote this story so well that I fell in love with Andie and Onyx! Onyx is so unbelievably H-O-T and sweet and everything every woman could every ask for. He's dominant when needed and loving when needed and just there at the right moments. He knows that a woman needs to feel beautiful and appreciated. He is understanding and just GAH!
I love Andie because she doesn't try to cover her flaws. She puts them out there for you to see. Take her for what she is or walk the hell away. I love that she is tough as nails and weak at the same time. Her dueling personalities are so intricately written that you can't put the book down. Everything about her is intriguing. You can't help but route for her life to work out.
And the supporting characters are fantastic too. I fell for Kayne. His sweetness went straight to my heart. I just wanted to hug him for being that guy that got Andie to start coming out of her shell more.
I enjoyed this book so much. One of my favorites of this year and highly recommend it to anyone looking for something different from their normal romance. This books is amazing! It's easy to give it five stars.
Can't wait for Make Me Stronger!
I love Andie because she doesn't try to cover her flaws. She puts them out there for you to see. Take her for what she is or walk the hell away. I love that she is tough as nails and weak at the same time. Her dueling personalities are so intricately written that you can't put the book down. Everything about her is intriguing. You can't help but route for her life to work out.
And the supporting characters are fantastic too. I fell for Kayne. His sweetness went straight to my heart. I just wanted to hug him for being that guy that got Andie to start coming out of her shell more.
I enjoyed this book so much. One of my favorites of this year and highly recommend it to anyone looking for something different from their normal romance. This books is amazing! It's easy to give it five stars.
Can't wait for Make Me Stronger!
January 26, 2016
very emotional
I love this book. I feel so bad for Andie to go through something like that was heart wrenching to read. I absolutely love Onyx I don't care how old he is he is godsend. That disgusting Dustin should eat poop and died! I hate him with everything inside me. ( I never hated this mush until him) I hope Kayne find what he's looking for i really felt bad for him. One thing that I couldn't get was what was Andie nationality? The cover picture is giving me a West Indies look. Over all I am very satisfied with this book I don't mind the cliffhanger too much. I purchase it this morning at 6:30a on my way out for work and finished it @ 8:14p. I just couldn't put it down. Very happy looking forward to book 2
I love this book. I feel so bad for Andie to go through something like that was heart wrenching to read. I absolutely love Onyx I don't care how old he is he is godsend. That disgusting Dustin should eat poop and died! I hate him with everything inside me. ( I never hated this mush until him) I hope Kayne find what he's looking for i really felt bad for him. One thing that I couldn't get was what was Andie nationality? The cover picture is giving me a West Indies look. Over all I am very satisfied with this book I don't mind the cliffhanger too much. I purchase it this morning at 6:30a on my way out for work and finished it @ 8:14p. I just couldn't put it down. Very happy looking forward to book 2
December 20, 2014
Andie is broken and Onyx may be just the thing to fix her or will she fix him. I loved this story, it was such a different read and I really enjoyed it. I love everything that Megan writes and this one was no different. Andie needed someone older than her and Onyx was perfect. This was a great story and I cant wait to read more!
October 10, 2014
Amazing
I had no idea what to expect going into this read. I was blown away. I was immediately drawn in and I could not put it down. This has a lot of mystery and intrigue. The pull that is instantly there between Andie and Onyx is fascinating. I look forward to reading Make Me Strong to get more of this couple and storyline. I definitely recommend this book as a must read.
I had no idea what to expect going into this read. I was blown away. I was immediately drawn in and I could not put it down. This has a lot of mystery and intrigue. The pull that is instantly there between Andie and Onyx is fascinating. I look forward to reading Make Me Strong to get more of this couple and storyline. I definitely recommend this book as a must read.
October 31, 2014
All I can say OMG, Frickin amazing. Megan has brought into a world that is amazing, heart wrenching, emotional....
HOT HOT HOT. Megan I have watched your grow into an incredible Author. So congratulations and I am counting down until to the next book.
HOT HOT HOT. Megan I have watched your grow into an incredible Author. So congratulations and I am counting down until to the next book.
January 20, 2015
She did broken me. With this ending k can't wait for book two, she's got a gift to just hurt my heart with her writing Author Megan Noelle grabs your heart and makes it bleed. Hope in book two she makes the pain go away
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May 1, 2015
Captivating Story
I couldn't put this book down. The characters and story just draw you in and keep you hooked. Cliffhanger of sorts so now I have to read the next book in the series.
I couldn't put this book down. The characters and story just draw you in and keep you hooked. Cliffhanger of sorts so now I have to read the next book in the series.
October 2, 2014
I cannot explain how much I ❤️'d this book!!! I absolutely love this author and I cannot wait for the next in the series.. I loved Andie & Onyx!!
October 11, 2014
This was an interesting read. Alexandria and Onyx have an undeniable connection throughout. I can't wait to read the next book Make Me Stronger!
April 22, 2015
Great book with a fantastic storyline but the last chapter left me with a blah feeling. Very strange ending that doesn't excite me to read the next.
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