(2.5 ⭐️) this is a collection of short stories that i had high hopes for, given the premise i saw, that this book is about people who have "the self-knowledge needed to change their lives, but finding themselves unwilling to doing so", which is super relatable 🫠🫠. thus i went into this book thinking it would be a cathartic read, with my messy thoughts being strung together into words for me. however i felt that was not really the case? while certain bits resonated, many didn't - i found myself enjoying the short stories to very different degrees. i have to say the first few stories hooked my attention, and my rating would be higher for those (3.25-3.5 perhaps, more on those below!), but the second half of the collection kinda fell short for me.
also, i think i might prefer a long, connected book, rather than separate short stories... i love a good character arc and resolution which can't be fleshed out as well in a chapter (especially with the themes in this collection?)
anyway i shan't talk about the stories that i didn't particularly like because i frankly don't really remember them, but my favourite stories would have to be "push and pull", "free therapy", and "work and charity".
the first one follows a toxic competition between a pair of teenage friends. there was an insidious undercurrent through the whole thing, as if i kinda knew that the whole weight thing wasn't all there was to the story. the angle of this story is quite unique, exploring jealousy, a girl's desire to "look good" from a young age, and how this possibly permeates into other parts of her life (relationships, as well as the odd craving yet distaste for attention?)
"free therapy" is about a woman, who joins a free therapy group after her relationship (actually a situationship) ends. i found parts of this relatable, particularly the bits about wanting to self-improve, but realising you're not actually happier from the self improvement because no one seems to be watching. the main character goes through ebbs and flows in her sense of self, even after becoming "more accomplished". the ending might seem hair-pulling and head-scratching, but i guess it shows how ingrained some of our issues are. seriously, that guy was living in the crevices of her brain...
besides "free therapy", i found myself relating the most to "work and charity". admittedly i read these short stories awhile back before i paused for a long while and finally completed the second half, so my memory is a little muddled, but i think this one touched upon the mundane nature of life, a lack of ambition and passivity? which is kinda me in a nutshell 😬
so if anyone reads this, i recommend those 3 stories!!! but maybe the other stories might resonate with different kinds of people! i guess the good thing about standalones is that there might be something for everyone in here, even if it's just a sole chapter