Once you Really begin to wake up, there’s no stopping you. Oh, the Massed Forces of Hades will do everything possible to make you do just that - and direct you into a heavy diagnostic Pit Stop for rebooting.
But our strength is in our weakness, as Paul says.
And by failing and failing, again and again, to undo the Knots mean folks keep tying up again - and getting up again from the dust of our defeated rebooting each time, knowing there IS a way through it all - we WILL succeed.
And we WILL get to the End - which is our Beginning.
It’s not pleasant.
But once we’ve heard that distant call of Hope, we won’t mind.
Sure, we’ll be battered. Sure, we’ll be beaten within inches of our lives.
But once we’ve heard that Call - and understand that we’re saved by Hope - we’ll gain the humility to continue.
When I was young, the Knots overwhelmed me. But I had had an ‘intuition of Being’, a vision of a Clear Space where ALL the Knots would be loosened.
Fanatical? Just a dumb, childish, feeling? Weakness, as the world says?
I disagree, with ALL my heart.
I could never give up.
The truly great thinkers have started Right There. Even dour Hegel insisted from the outset on a clear, intuitive grasp of Being.
You may not realize it, but to start with such an intuition of the pure goodness of Being, we have to come to it as basically good people. Like I was as a kid, before my teen years.
In fact, I retained the whole armour of primordial goodness up until I was 20. But permissive society didn’t share my enthusiasm. In fact, permissiveness decided to put the boots to me.
Some facets of our world’s legal framework are grasped only by sophisticates. Be that as it may, when I ended my bitter tenure under much more experienced and cynical arbiters of law than I, I still would not recant.
And I had no logical reason offered to me for renouncing my innocent “apostasy.” Might doesn’t always make right. And somehow my faith and hope endured.
And if you’ve never seen how Weakness Loosens Knots, you will when the crunch comes.
For sure, they will throw EVERYTHING at you. But whole cities have fallen to the weakness of a good soul, as they fell like dominoes to little King David.
If you take it humbly and try to muddle through, you will see the Light of Morning - as long as you have Hope, and Love.
Back in 1971, on an emergency run that New Year’s Eve, I chatted with a couple of psychiatric medical interns about RD Laing’s books. I rather sophomorically dissected The Politics of Experience as a variant on the Quest Archetype.
They may have been impressed that a liberal arts dabbler and then-English Major was reading abstruse psychological books like Laing’s, I don’t know. But they saved my sophomore uni year from disaster as a result.
I do know that Laing, in his all-to-brief life, was a bit like hopeful little me... and my idol, William Blake.
Like Blake, he had an awfully warm and fuzzy feeling that EMPATHIZING with folks instead of just giving a diagnosis, prescription and pill was one end of a Golden Thread... that when followed, would lead to a Healing of Mind, Body and Soul.
You HAD to read Laing in those years. The awakening that invigorated young people around the world in the late sixties was now bearing fruit in the staid adult world of traditional disciplines.
And things were gonna change...
Laing died as he would like to have died - in motion.
He suffered a massive coronary while playing a vigorous game of tennis. Like Custer, he died with his boots on.
We still miss him.
The door of Hades has since been barred in retreat from empaths like him. But the infernal powers are simply retrenching...
You know, liberation isn’t one battle. It’s the little skirmishes of an Entire Life - of a life that REFUSES TO QUIT.
So yes, you CAN untie your Knots. All of ‘em. Not overnight, not in five or ten years, but Eventually.
And you know what else?
Eternity is Endless. So relax and just continue doing the right thing.
What knots we don’t untie God WILL.
And He’ll make us all NEW again because of it.
ALL the time, without fail.