1.5 ⭐️
I literally don’t have the proper words to easily summarize how much I hated this.
Which is suprising. Because I loved the first chapter, and even thought to myself that ‘wow, this has the potential of being a 4-5 stars book’. How quickly it proved me wrong.
My biggest issue is that neither of them act or speak like real people.
Let me paint you the scene: the female lead was hunted, starved, beaten, burned, almost raped, and dragged away by the male lead who kills a camp full of men only to keep abusing her in different ways. He literally treats her like a worthless ragdoll—purposefully drops her, pulls her by the hair, throws and ties her over the back of a horse for several days at a time, lets her lie in her own filth when she gets sick, and doesn't even take off the iron cuffs that are literally burning her skin off every second, every hour, every day. I wouldn’t have been suprised if the male lead punched her in the face if she failed to respond to him.
And then when she finally gets a scrap of food and water, and a clean shirt, she calls it a "considerate gesture." Are you joking? No, seriously. IS THIS A JOKE? Is this satire? Because no sane person would think, “Wow, what a kind and thoughtful gesture from my kidnapper who's physically abused me for days and clearly only needs me alive for his own selfish purposes”.
This girl has been abused for weeks straight, and instead of crawling out of her skin with fear and rage and desperation, she purses her lips sweetly and throws out sarcastic comebacks like she’s in a modern YA enemies-to-lovers romcom. What the actual hell?
Guess what! There are fates worse than death! And being kidnapped and degraded by someone who clearly sees you as sub-human should be one of them! But I bet you that if the “kidnapper” had been ugly 60 year old man, these exact scenes would have been treated like a horror novel! Atleast maybe then the female lead would’ve reacted accordingly.
Cause girl, be so fucking for real right now. I don’t care if he has a jawline sharp enough to cut diamonds—he threatened to drag her behind his horse in a noose, with a “cruel smile” on his face. That’s not misunderstood. That’s not morally grey. That’s straight up pitch-black, irredeemable levels of evil.
And the female lead? I wanted to root for her. I really did. But she is written with all the emotional depth and self-preservation instincts of a wet paper towel. She's not traumatized. She's not filled with of dread and anger and hatred and fear. She's not calculating her escape. She’s just passively...there. Sarcastic. Pouty. Throwing shade at the man who might very well sell her into slavery.
Also, about the“well, maybe he’s not so bad” because he left a shirt out for her. Let’s not pretend the shirt thing was some act of kindness. It’s not. It wasn’t for her comfort. It was because he didn’t want to keep smelling the stench of waste after he let her soil herself multiple times while she was too sick and weak to move.
And while we’re at it, why is she wearing nothing but a thin male tunic in the middle of winter?! It’s literally sub zero temperatures and snowing! People die in those conditions inside tents, clothes, and warm sleeping bags. Like what?
It’s just so unfortunate because I wanted to like this going into it. That first chapter gave me a glimpse of another reality where the female lead had grown bitter and jaded after the week she’d endured. But instead of delivering a compelling adult fantasy, it gave me a deeply uncomfortable power imbalance with a side of tone-deaf character reactions.
And worst part of all of it? The male lead doesn’t even have a reason for abusing her and treating her like she was filth stuck on his shoe. He’s just casually an extremely awful person. He abuses her because he can. He calls her a child in one breath, and then in the next breath spits that he should’ve just left her behind to be tortured, burned alive, and possibly raped because she’s being an inconvenience to him. And yet, he apparently needs her to help him. How about… no, go fuck yourself?
So it’s an enemies-to-lovers romance, except they’re not actually enemies, the male lead is just the worst human alive and likes inflicting her physical pain for no reason, and the female lead never actually hates him for his actions or makes him face any consequences, she just lets him treat her like shit and falls in love with him anyway 👍🏻
So yeah. 1.5 stars. The 0.5 is for the opening chapter. It’s been a long time since a book got me raging this bad. I guess it’s because I had too high expectations.
Sorry if my review upsets someone, but reading this book was also upsetting.
DNF 20%