Some books hit you at the right moment. I'm a big fan of Arvin's writing when he writes these kinds of books. The beauty of this story stunned me. It awed me; it made me want to crawl into the mind who wrote it and dream that I could know these characters as intimately as the author did.
It's surreal and this author often questions life and death, morality, the state of the in betweens, and the choices we make.
Charlie is a runaway, a hustler with no one in his mind because he doesn't see fully the few people he has are all he needs. There is a long established gay couple, a witch that helps along the way, and the trapped "greys".
It's a story of passion, lost love, continuous love, redemption, payback, how a person who wrongs might do so because they can't let go of pain and anger.
I don't consider myself a mean person. I don't consider myself an angry person. But I am someone when I feel wronged or not listened to or hurt, and not given an opportunity to have closure one way or the other, I can't let it go. No matter how hard I try. I know that it's toxic to myself and only hurting myself, but it eats at me. Having someone leave you when you feel there is unfinished business is a hard thing to take for anyone. Whether someone is murdered, dies unexpectedly, ends a friendship or relationship, a career is over, etc. those things can eat at your soul if you feel things aren't finished. Nothing is more frustrating than holding on to things inside you that hurt because you can't talk about them.
And in a way that was part of this book. You have an angry sister who is so set on slowly plotted vengeance that she makes a descison that hurts many people. You have a man who never got to say the things he wanted to say to someone before they were gone. You have another man who doesn't understand why someone isn't in his life and his so angry and hurt that he refuses to face the other person and listen to any explanation. There is a man who lost someone horribly who has let that anger make him do horrible things to others.
But there is hope, too. There are the people who let go of the things and move on. There are bonds so strong and a fight in people so passionate that nearly nothing can break it. There is the energy of desire and life that lights up an entire carnival. There is energy that makes objects move.
This book is a journey, full of visual pieces and prose so beautiful I didn't know whether to cry or smile. It's a book that makes you think. It shows that simple actions can have dramatic outcomes. It's a cautionary tale, a story that it's never too late, a story that shows there is good in almost everyone, there is bad in almost everyone, and that life can and will always change and you just have to want some things bad enough for the good to follow.
Well done, Arvin. Excellent work.