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Aubrey Wants to Die: A Darkly Comic Vampire Romance of Blood and Heartbreak
Love is hard. Being undead is harder ... Dolly Alderton meets True Blood in this dark, funny hell of a story
Aubrey is not what she seems. She's young, beautiful, romantic, obsessive and ... a vampire. All she wants is to be human again, and failing that, she wants to die. But the problem is, she can't. Not by stake through the heart or holy water or crucifix or garlic or fire. And she'd know, she's tried every method ... Twice.
So she's stuck here on this earth, all alone. Even the vampire who made her this way — an aristocratic douchebag called Oscar — has abandoned her.
But everything changes when one fateful night, she meets Jonathan. He's everything Aubrey's ever dreamed of, and what's more, he's her soulmate. Her Bella—Edward story. For the first time in 150 years, she has a reason to hope — eternal life might be bearable after all. So when Jonathan unexpectedly breaks up with her, she'll do anything to get him back.
But that's the exact moment Oscar swoops back into her life. And he has other plans for her. Soon, she's thrown into a world of glamour, glitter, blood and hedonism, a world that has her questioning everything she knows to be true—about life, but also about herself. A world where nothing is simple ... And no—one is safe, either.
Aubrey is not what she seems. She's young, beautiful, romantic, obsessive and ... a vampire. All she wants is to be human again, and failing that, she wants to die. But the problem is, she can't. Not by stake through the heart or holy water or crucifix or garlic or fire. And she'd know, she's tried every method ... Twice.
So she's stuck here on this earth, all alone. Even the vampire who made her this way — an aristocratic douchebag called Oscar — has abandoned her.
But everything changes when one fateful night, she meets Jonathan. He's everything Aubrey's ever dreamed of, and what's more, he's her soulmate. Her Bella—Edward story. For the first time in 150 years, she has a reason to hope — eternal life might be bearable after all. So when Jonathan unexpectedly breaks up with her, she'll do anything to get him back.
But that's the exact moment Oscar swoops back into her life. And he has other plans for her. Soon, she's thrown into a world of glamour, glitter, blood and hedonism, a world that has her questioning everything she knows to be true—about life, but also about herself. A world where nothing is simple ... And no—one is safe, either.
368 pages, Hardcover
First published March 3, 2026
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December 1, 2025
Thanks so much to NetGalley for the free Kindle book. My review is voluntarily given, and my opinions are my own.
This book was so amazing, and I can't recommend it enough. Aubrey is a 150-year depressed vampire who has tried everything she think of to kill herself over the last century and a half, but to no avail. Then, she finally found a man who started to make life seem a bit worth living, and he gave her the 'I think we need space' line. To top it all off, her sire appears and wants to be involved in her life, after turning her and not even staying waiting around for her to wake up.
I really hope this becomes a series, but no matter what, I will be looking for more books by this author. Loved this so much!
This book was so amazing, and I can't recommend it enough. Aubrey is a 150-year depressed vampire who has tried everything she think of to kill herself over the last century and a half, but to no avail. Then, she finally found a man who started to make life seem a bit worth living, and he gave her the 'I think we need space' line. To top it all off, her sire appears and wants to be involved in her life, after turning her and not even staying waiting around for her to wake up.
I really hope this becomes a series, but no matter what, I will be looking for more books by this author. Loved this so much!
November 13, 2025
Stop. I was actually obsessed with this from the first page to the last.
Highlights:
- vampire romance
- Fated mates
- Sire bonds
Aubrey is probably one of the most likable main characters I have ever experienced.
She’s sweet, self-doubting, and a little bit obsessive. (But like, in a cute way).
It’s rare to say that I would not have changed anything about the way she was written.
Aubrey’s niceness, in combination with our morally gray/perhaps morally corrupt leaning mmc Oscar.
My only complaint might be that they had so so much back and forth. I guess it’s necessary to the plot but please. I’m dying. Just adore each other already and put me out of my misery.
The plot? Vampire perfection.
I was way too invested in this entire situation?! And it just kept getting BETTER? Every new detail, every new twist brought it to a new level? Eeeeek.
I must have been starved the way I ate this up.
Thank you to Netgalley, Harlequin Trade Publishing and author Pip Knight, for providing me with the eARC of “Aubrey Wants to Die” in exchange for my honest review!
Publication date: march 03, 2026
Highlights:
- vampire romance
- Fated mates
- Sire bonds
Aubrey is probably one of the most likable main characters I have ever experienced.
She’s sweet, self-doubting, and a little bit obsessive. (But like, in a cute way).
It’s rare to say that I would not have changed anything about the way she was written.
Aubrey’s niceness, in combination with our morally gray/perhaps morally corrupt leaning mmc Oscar.
My only complaint might be that they had so so much back and forth. I guess it’s necessary to the plot but please. I’m dying. Just adore each other already and put me out of my misery.
The plot? Vampire perfection.
I was way too invested in this entire situation?! And it just kept getting BETTER? Every new detail, every new twist brought it to a new level? Eeeeek.
I must have been starved the way I ate this up.
Thank you to Netgalley, Harlequin Trade Publishing and author Pip Knight, for providing me with the eARC of “Aubrey Wants to Die” in exchange for my honest review!
Publication date: march 03, 2026
March 5, 2026
I apologize in advance for the profanity.
Are you fucking kidding me?????? Is this a joke? Did I just have a fever dream nightmare that this book existed?
I only finished this with the hopes of it SOMEHOW redeeming itself. But instead I got this bullshit????!?!
First off. This is not a fucking romance. Not in any shape or form.
Second, Oscar is a selfish piece of shit who can go fuck himself. He was truly the worst mmc I have ever read about in my life. He was literally having sex with other women throughout the entire book. He was an absolute asshole who abandoned the fmc and left her suicidal because he wanted to “protect” her. HOW ARE YOU PROTECTING HER BY MAKING HER SO LONELY AND HOPELESS SHE WANTS TO DIE?!?!
Third, Aubrey is completely insufferable. I truly wanted to like her because her anxiety and depression mirror my own. But her choices throughout the book were some of the worst I have ever seen. Her obsession with Jonathan was something I could excuse because to me it read more as an obsession she had with knowing who her human self was. He was her only connection to her human identity. But girl have some fucking pride.
I truly do not know how this book was traditionally published. And I wish I had just followed my gut and DNFd it. God I’m so fucking mad right now. UGH
Are you fucking kidding me?????? Is this a joke? Did I just have a fever dream nightmare that this book existed?
I only finished this with the hopes of it SOMEHOW redeeming itself. But instead I got this bullshit????!?!
First off. This is not a fucking romance. Not in any shape or form.
Second, Oscar is a selfish piece of shit who can go fuck himself. He was truly the worst mmc I have ever read about in my life. He was literally having sex with other women throughout the entire book. He was an absolute asshole who abandoned the fmc and left her suicidal because he wanted to “protect” her. HOW ARE YOU PROTECTING HER BY MAKING HER SO LONELY AND HOPELESS SHE WANTS TO DIE?!?!
Third, Aubrey is completely insufferable. I truly wanted to like her because her anxiety and depression mirror my own. But her choices throughout the book were some of the worst I have ever seen. Her obsession with Jonathan was something I could excuse because to me it read more as an obsession she had with knowing who her human self was. He was her only connection to her human identity. But girl have some fucking pride.
I truly do not know how this book was traditionally published. And I wish I had just followed my gut and DNFd it. God I’m so fucking mad right now. UGH
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 19, 2026
What’s this.. a vampire book? Not only that, a vampire romance book!! Yes, I jumped out of my comfort zone reading this one.. only for you Pip! When I heard about this book I was not sure, I am a crime and thriller girl though and through but I love Pip Drysdale and I wasn’t going to miss this . I was so happy when I received a copy from the lovely team at Harper Collins, thank you so much 😊
I absolutely adored Aubrey, I could not get enough of her. I need more of her! she is a 150 year old vampire who is so unhappy. She has tried every possible way to die and nothing has worked. She did ask for this and she feels so alone in the world. Her sire abandoned her and she can’t tell her friends or boyfriend what she is.
When her boyfriend dumps her she is heartbroken. She believes he is her soulmate and will do anything to get him back.
I loved the London setting, living a Bridget Jones lifestyle in the same area as the movie is set. Aubrey is obsessive, but sweet. She hates human blood and refuses to feed that way, knowing what it will do to her. She has a big heart, I loved her.
This is a book for everyone, no matter what your usual genres are, trust me. Get lost in Aubrey’s world like I did. Please Pip, I want some more of her!
Aubrey Wants to Die is out now.
I absolutely adored Aubrey, I could not get enough of her. I need more of her! she is a 150 year old vampire who is so unhappy. She has tried every possible way to die and nothing has worked. She did ask for this and she feels so alone in the world. Her sire abandoned her and she can’t tell her friends or boyfriend what she is.
When her boyfriend dumps her she is heartbroken. She believes he is her soulmate and will do anything to get him back.
I loved the London setting, living a Bridget Jones lifestyle in the same area as the movie is set. Aubrey is obsessive, but sweet. She hates human blood and refuses to feed that way, knowing what it will do to her. She has a big heart, I loved her.
This is a book for everyone, no matter what your usual genres are, trust me. Get lost in Aubrey’s world like I did. Please Pip, I want some more of her!
Aubrey Wants to Die is out now.
March 18, 2026
⭐️4 Stars⭐️
Pip Knight is best known for her twisty psychological thrillers under the name of Pip Drysdale.
Aubrey Wants To Die is so much fun and I absolutely loved the twist and the ending. If you want a modern, fast paced vampire tale this is for you.
Aubrey is not your usual vampire, she’s lonely, somewhat depressed and has tried to end her life many times but cannot die, she’s been a vampire now for 150 years in London and doesn’t want to be a monster. Aubrey doesn’t drink from the vein and never intends to.
When forever young Aubrey meets handsome Jonathan she thinks he’s her soulmate and has hope for a happy future but then he tells her he needs some space and they break up. She’ll do anything to get Jonathan back and she may even confess to him her secret.
Meanwhile her vampire sire Oscar turns up and suddenly wants to be involved in her life after having nothing to do with her. Life suddenly becomes very complicated and messy and it’s then the action begins.
I loved the atmosphere of London and the whimsical feel of Aubreys world. Aubrey Wants to Die delivers a delightfully fun and enjoyable read that you’ll drink up!
Publication Date 24 February 2026
Publisher Harper Collins AU
Thanks you so much Pip Drysdale & Harper Collins Australia for a copy of the book
Pip Knight is best known for her twisty psychological thrillers under the name of Pip Drysdale.
Aubrey Wants To Die is so much fun and I absolutely loved the twist and the ending. If you want a modern, fast paced vampire tale this is for you.
Aubrey is not your usual vampire, she’s lonely, somewhat depressed and has tried to end her life many times but cannot die, she’s been a vampire now for 150 years in London and doesn’t want to be a monster. Aubrey doesn’t drink from the vein and never intends to.
When forever young Aubrey meets handsome Jonathan she thinks he’s her soulmate and has hope for a happy future but then he tells her he needs some space and they break up. She’ll do anything to get Jonathan back and she may even confess to him her secret.
Meanwhile her vampire sire Oscar turns up and suddenly wants to be involved in her life after having nothing to do with her. Life suddenly becomes very complicated and messy and it’s then the action begins.
I loved the atmosphere of London and the whimsical feel of Aubreys world. Aubrey Wants to Die delivers a delightfully fun and enjoyable read that you’ll drink up!
Publication Date 24 February 2026
Publisher Harper Collins AU
Thanks you so much Pip Drysdale & Harper Collins Australia for a copy of the book
March 11, 2026
Big thanks for Harper Collins for sending us a copy to read and review.
The dark damp streets of a London winter become atmospheric and the perfect place for vampires to live among the population.
Aubrey has been alive for 150 years and adjusted to the time period as it moves along as she cannot succeed in dying.
Emotions and elements of humanity rub off as she lets her heart lead and eternity might not be so bad.
Meeting Jonathon and dating him briefly gave her hope and reminded her that love was possible again.
When he calls off the relationship she tries anything to get him back at all costs.
The reappearance of an egotistical vampire from her past challenges and corrupts her way of life.
Her two worlds collide.
Blood rejuvenates her strength and betrayal becomes a reality as she confronts predicaments and danger.
I bonded with Aubrey and felt her emotional spectrum.
I loved when she got her little fangs out and nourished herself.
As a reader I was transported to London and my imagination allowed me to enjoy the whimsical and fanciful world that vampires could be among us.
The dark damp streets of a London winter become atmospheric and the perfect place for vampires to live among the population.
Aubrey has been alive for 150 years and adjusted to the time period as it moves along as she cannot succeed in dying.
Emotions and elements of humanity rub off as she lets her heart lead and eternity might not be so bad.
Meeting Jonathon and dating him briefly gave her hope and reminded her that love was possible again.
When he calls off the relationship she tries anything to get him back at all costs.
The reappearance of an egotistical vampire from her past challenges and corrupts her way of life.
Her two worlds collide.
Blood rejuvenates her strength and betrayal becomes a reality as she confronts predicaments and danger.
I bonded with Aubrey and felt her emotional spectrum.
I loved when she got her little fangs out and nourished herself.
As a reader I was transported to London and my imagination allowed me to enjoy the whimsical and fanciful world that vampires could be among us.
March 8, 2026
3.5 // Aubrey's a vampire going through a break-up, having only learned vampire lore from books and media because she was abandoned by her sire, and really really wants to die but doesn't know how. And I really enjoyed her voice and character throughout the book and the pacing.
The ending was good if something I nearly entirely predicted by 30%. My biggest issue was sometimes Aubrey would make a decision that didn't feel aligned with her character or common sense but just contrived for plot reasons. I also thought the love interests "reasons" for not being with her were lacking but it seems like there could be a book 2 where those ends could be tied.
Overall- a fun enjoyable read!
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the opportunity to read and review this novel.
The ending was good if something I nearly entirely predicted by 30%. My biggest issue was sometimes Aubrey would make a decision that didn't feel aligned with her character or common sense but just contrived for plot reasons. I also thought the love interests "reasons" for not being with her were lacking but it seems like there could be a book 2 where those ends could be tied.
Overall- a fun enjoyable read!
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the opportunity to read and review this novel.
March 16, 2026
Aubrey Wants to Die by Pip Knight
This book completely fooled me…
The first 50% had me laughing out loud. Aubrey is dramatic, obsessive, wildly naive, and honestly? I thought she might be the most pathetic vampire ever written. And I mean that affectionately. Her endless (and creative) attempts to die had me shaking my head and cackling
“A flash of that time I went shark diving in Cape Town without a cage, but even the sharks could smell I was toxic and wouldn't go for me. Or the week I spent lying on a beach in Spain, certain that it was the shitty UK sun that was standing between me and oblivion…”
It’s absurd. It’s self-deprecating. It’s chaotic. And it works.
Then the second half shifts.
Aubrey is still naive. She still makes choices that had me whisper-yelling at the page. But the tone darkens. The humor sharpens into something more dangerous. The glamour, manipulation, and power dynamics creep in, and suddenly I was in a full chokehold, finishing the rest in one sitting.
What starts as a sarcastic, almost campy vampire rom-com morphs into something darker and more unsettling. It explores obsession, loneliness, self-worth, and what happens when your entire identity revolves around love.
If you enjoy:
* messy heroines
* unreliable emotions
* dark humor
* morally questionable vampires
* and books that flip the tone halfway through
…this one is worth picking up.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Thank you NetGalley, Harlequin Trade Publishing, and The Hive for the review copy, all opinions are my own.
This book completely fooled me…
The first 50% had me laughing out loud. Aubrey is dramatic, obsessive, wildly naive, and honestly? I thought she might be the most pathetic vampire ever written. And I mean that affectionately. Her endless (and creative) attempts to die had me shaking my head and cackling
“A flash of that time I went shark diving in Cape Town without a cage, but even the sharks could smell I was toxic and wouldn't go for me. Or the week I spent lying on a beach in Spain, certain that it was the shitty UK sun that was standing between me and oblivion…”
It’s absurd. It’s self-deprecating. It’s chaotic. And it works.
Then the second half shifts.
Aubrey is still naive. She still makes choices that had me whisper-yelling at the page. But the tone darkens. The humor sharpens into something more dangerous. The glamour, manipulation, and power dynamics creep in, and suddenly I was in a full chokehold, finishing the rest in one sitting.
What starts as a sarcastic, almost campy vampire rom-com morphs into something darker and more unsettling. It explores obsession, loneliness, self-worth, and what happens when your entire identity revolves around love.
If you enjoy:
* messy heroines
* unreliable emotions
* dark humor
* morally questionable vampires
* and books that flip the tone halfway through
…this one is worth picking up.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Thank you NetGalley, Harlequin Trade Publishing, and The Hive for the review copy, all opinions are my own.
March 3, 2026
3.75 stars I had mixed feelings about this one. Aubrey is 150 years old but often acts much younger, making choices in her search for love that got on my nerves. However, I liked the mystery about her past and the vampire-hunting subplot, and I’m interested to see where book two goes.
May 2, 2026
If youre a fan of twilight or vampire diaries then this wont disappoint!
A beautiful love story.
A beautiful love story.
March 6, 2026
bad!!! in new and confounding ways!
November 10, 2025
Thank you to HarperCollins for the ARC of Aubrey Wants to Die by Pip Knight, via Netgalley 🫶
Aubrey wants to die.
This might be easier, if she wasn’t already dead.. or really, undead.
Aubrey was turned into a vampire 150 years ago and her entire vampire existence has been lonely. She’s tried to die numerous times, but it never seems to take.
She’s given up on love and life, that is until she meets Jonathan, her soulmate, and now Aubrey is ready to live.. but it’s hard when she’s living a lie and can’t tell Jonathan the truth.
When he breaks up with her out of the blue, her life begins to spiral, and it gets even more out of control when her maker, Oscar, re-enters the scene.
Can she win Jonathan back, and what on earth does Oscar want?
Okay first things first, this was an easy read and was reasonably entertaining on my flight - the perfect kind of book for a quick palate cleanser / beach read / holiday read for sure.
The story and writing are simple and easy to follow, the plot has a few turns but nothing too surprising.
Overall though I was a bit letdown. It’s marketed as “True Blood meets Dolly Alderton.”
I can see the True Blood inspiration for sure, but nothing about the story or writing evoked Dolly Alderton for me.
Because the story is in first person from Aubrey’s perspective, her internal monologue gets a bit repetitive and I found it a bit tiresome at times.
The highlight scenes for me were any with other vampires + any with Oscar. He was probably the most interesting character.
It’s set up with a cliffhanger for a sequel and I’m intrigued to see where it goes next 🧛
Aubrey Wants to Die ⭐️⭐️⭐️
Aubrey wants to die.
This might be easier, if she wasn’t already dead.. or really, undead.
Aubrey was turned into a vampire 150 years ago and her entire vampire existence has been lonely. She’s tried to die numerous times, but it never seems to take.
She’s given up on love and life, that is until she meets Jonathan, her soulmate, and now Aubrey is ready to live.. but it’s hard when she’s living a lie and can’t tell Jonathan the truth.
When he breaks up with her out of the blue, her life begins to spiral, and it gets even more out of control when her maker, Oscar, re-enters the scene.
Can she win Jonathan back, and what on earth does Oscar want?
Okay first things first, this was an easy read and was reasonably entertaining on my flight - the perfect kind of book for a quick palate cleanser / beach read / holiday read for sure.
The story and writing are simple and easy to follow, the plot has a few turns but nothing too surprising.
Overall though I was a bit letdown. It’s marketed as “True Blood meets Dolly Alderton.”
I can see the True Blood inspiration for sure, but nothing about the story or writing evoked Dolly Alderton for me.
Because the story is in first person from Aubrey’s perspective, her internal monologue gets a bit repetitive and I found it a bit tiresome at times.
The highlight scenes for me were any with other vampires + any with Oscar. He was probably the most interesting character.
It’s set up with a cliffhanger for a sequel and I’m intrigued to see where it goes next 🧛
Aubrey Wants to Die ⭐️⭐️⭐️
January 13, 2026
I DEVOURED THIS BOOK! Started and finished in the same day, I could hardly put this down!
This is a fever dream alternative twilight for all us who are now adults, amazing really.
Aubrey is completely unashamed to admit she’d prefer to be dead, but does so in a way that isn’t super dark. I don’t believe she made the concept of suicide a joke, but Knight did find a balance of lightheartedness to make Aubrey’s many failed attempts humorous. This story felt like or easing a transcript of my own brain, with inner dialogue that’s accurate to my experience with depression and anxiety (excluding the fear of being found out as a vampire, I am definitely human).
The characters were intriguing, with mystery surrounding not only Aubrey’s past, but in the persona of her sire and his unpredictability.
The twist regarding Jonathan’s past life history with Aubrey was unexpected, but at the same time not surprising. It is a great example of how partners can portray themselves to be harmless and loving when glimpsed at from the outside, when in reality or an extended glance/memory, they are the opposite. His extravagant plan revealed at the end is also a fine example of how well some people can manipulate and burrow into their targets life.
It is hard not to compare every modern vampire plot to twilight (in this case character wise), Aubrey is Bella if she were a vamp from the get go, had been alone for 150 yrs, and has zero memories of life before being changed. Then imagine being hunted by humans instead of that scary tracker vamp; get framed for murder by a scarier Edward but still fall in love with him despite thinking he killed her when actually he just has a saviour complex vibe going on like a non vegetarian version of sire Carlisle. I picture that scene of Bella in the spinning chair and changing seasons when Edward abandons her, except it’s a 150yr long scene and she doesn’t even know the guy
This is a fever dream alternative twilight for all us who are now adults, amazing really.
Aubrey is completely unashamed to admit she’d prefer to be dead, but does so in a way that isn’t super dark. I don’t believe she made the concept of suicide a joke, but Knight did find a balance of lightheartedness to make Aubrey’s many failed attempts humorous. This story felt like or easing a transcript of my own brain, with inner dialogue that’s accurate to my experience with depression and anxiety (excluding the fear of being found out as a vampire, I am definitely human).
The characters were intriguing, with mystery surrounding not only Aubrey’s past, but in the persona of her sire and his unpredictability.
The twist regarding Jonathan’s past life history with Aubrey was unexpected, but at the same time not surprising. It is a great example of how partners can portray themselves to be harmless and loving when glimpsed at from the outside, when in reality or an extended glance/memory, they are the opposite. His extravagant plan revealed at the end is also a fine example of how well some people can manipulate and burrow into their targets life.
It is hard not to compare every modern vampire plot to twilight (in this case character wise), Aubrey is Bella if she were a vamp from the get go, had been alone for 150 yrs, and has zero memories of life before being changed. Then imagine being hunted by humans instead of that scary tracker vamp; get framed for murder by a scarier Edward but still fall in love with him despite thinking he killed her when actually he just has a saviour complex vibe going on like a non vegetarian version of sire Carlisle. I picture that scene of Bella in the spinning chair and changing seasons when Edward abandons her, except it’s a 150yr long scene and she doesn’t even know the guy
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 6, 2026
Aubrey is a 150-year-old train-wreck vampire, cocooned in the safe life she’s built, drinking from blood bags, failing at hypnotising, and wallowing in her inability to die, until her maker comes back into her life.
Told through Aubrey’s self-loathing voice, we can’t help but empathise with her cautious and measured choices but also kind of pity her isolating and lonely lifestyle.
The setting - London at Christmas time - feels like you’ve stepped into the film set of Love Actually (the good bits) and the references to vampire tv/movies and books (from classics like Carmilla all the way to True Blood) will make your little twi-hard heart flutter.
Recommended for readers who love fast-paced plots with a surprising twist, but I especially loved the historical parts - the flashbacks of Aubrey’s life throughout the 19th and 20th centuries, and the central mystery surrounding her human identity and how she was turned into a vampire.
Pip manages to explore the moral ambiguity of vampires as we are constantly wondering whether Aubrey will embrace her dark side or step back into the light. And, consequently, she poses the deeper question: humans or vampires, who are the real monsters?
Told through Aubrey’s self-loathing voice, we can’t help but empathise with her cautious and measured choices but also kind of pity her isolating and lonely lifestyle.
The setting - London at Christmas time - feels like you’ve stepped into the film set of Love Actually (the good bits) and the references to vampire tv/movies and books (from classics like Carmilla all the way to True Blood) will make your little twi-hard heart flutter.
Recommended for readers who love fast-paced plots with a surprising twist, but I especially loved the historical parts - the flashbacks of Aubrey’s life throughout the 19th and 20th centuries, and the central mystery surrounding her human identity and how she was turned into a vampire.
Pip manages to explore the moral ambiguity of vampires as we are constantly wondering whether Aubrey will embrace her dark side or step back into the light. And, consequently, she poses the deeper question: humans or vampires, who are the real monsters?
March 30, 2026
You know for someone who isn’t obsessively into vampires, I sure have read a lot of vampire novels over the years 🤣
This one was at my local library and I found the plot intriguing. Finally I checked it out and was pleasantly surprised.
Aubrey was hilarious and relatable. Even vampires just want to be loved and you know…men are garbage.
It was admirable that the only way she got blood was stealing from a blood bank but when her maker noticed she was being kind of a shit vampire, he took her under his wing to teach her some things.
All Aubrey wanted to do though was get back with Jonathan. That was probably the most cringeworthy part. Girl just let it go. He’s not that into you. However, I understand why she kept persisting which I won’t spoil for you.
The only thing that bothered me was if someone had loved you for hundreds of years then why flaunt a bunch of girls you are fucking in her face?? That pissed me off.
This one was at my local library and I found the plot intriguing. Finally I checked it out and was pleasantly surprised.
Aubrey was hilarious and relatable. Even vampires just want to be loved and you know…men are garbage.
It was admirable that the only way she got blood was stealing from a blood bank but when her maker noticed she was being kind of a shit vampire, he took her under his wing to teach her some things.
All Aubrey wanted to do though was get back with Jonathan. That was probably the most cringeworthy part. Girl just let it go. He’s not that into you. However, I understand why she kept persisting which I won’t spoil for you.
The only thing that bothered me was if someone had loved you for hundreds of years then why flaunt a bunch of girls you are fucking in her face?? That pissed me off.
November 17, 2025
What a ride! I devoured this book while on a night shift, and as I sit here with tears streaming, trying to hide that I'm crying over a book, I'd definitely say it's worth the read. Aubrey is a vampire, and in this version of vamps, they don't remember their past lives or should I say their human lives. Aubrey lives of bagged blood and doesn't want to hurt anyone. She's tried to kill herself many many times over the years, but she can't die. Aubrey's world really starts to crumble when her soulmate breaks up with her. Then the book really gets good. I don't want to spoil the plot, but you really start to feel for Aubrey. She is so lonely, and even though she's a vampire, she just wants love, and that's anyone who really wants, right? The worldbuilding is good, I can almost picture her little apartment and her keeping company with cat. When everything starts to come together, I freaked! I did not see that twist coming at all. But it was oh-so-good!! I think this author just made my auto-read list!
5 stars.
I received this ARC from netgalley, and all opinions are my own.
5 stars.
I received this ARC from netgalley, and all opinions are my own.
March 29, 2026
Thank you Edelweiss for the advance copy of this book.
Honestly, the main character was pretty insufferable. Besides that, it was a cute and witty little vampire book. But that's a pretty big thing to ignore. She seemed incredibly gullible and naive for a 150 year old vampire. Also, the fact that she hated herself and the fact that she was a vampire got pretty annoying after mentioning it a million times.
It seems like it might be set up for more than one book, so maybe she'll be less annoying in future books. But overall, it was a quick and decently entertaining book.
Honestly, the main character was pretty insufferable. Besides that, it was a cute and witty little vampire book. But that's a pretty big thing to ignore. She seemed incredibly gullible and naive for a 150 year old vampire. Also, the fact that she hated herself and the fact that she was a vampire got pretty annoying after mentioning it a million times.
It seems like it might be set up for more than one book, so maybe she'll be less annoying in future books. But overall, it was a quick and decently entertaining book.
February 16, 2026
Okay this was such a fun read! Vampires? Check. Laugh out loud funny moments? Check. Vibes? Immaculate. This was a super quick and easy read and a great book to pick up if you want something to just make you laugh. I love a good vampire story and this was a great modern take on it. The characters were very intriguing and you become invested from the very first page.
Thank you NetGalley for an eARC of this book!
Thank you NetGalley for an eARC of this book!
March 20, 2026
Aubrey Wants to Die by Pip Knight is not your typical vampire story—and that’s what makes it so fun!
You get all the classic vampire vibes, wrapped up in an offbeat, slightly unhinged romance that’s full of dark humour. It doesn’t take itself too seriously, but there’s just enough depth to keep it from feeling shallow. I loved it!
If you’re into vampires but want something fresh and a bit tongue-in-cheek, this one’s for you!
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You get all the classic vampire vibes, wrapped up in an offbeat, slightly unhinged romance that’s full of dark humour. It doesn’t take itself too seriously, but there’s just enough depth to keep it from feeling shallow. I loved it!
If you’re into vampires but want something fresh and a bit tongue-in-cheek, this one’s for you!
[gifted]
Did Not Finish
February 2, 2026DNFing. Not a fan of the voice, where the plot is moving, or the main character.
April 22, 2026
2.5 stars. Only redeeming factor was the bad scouse accent in the audiobook
May 5, 2026
"Immortal Life is Long, but This Book Feels Longer"
I really wanted to like Aubrey Wants to Die, but unfortunately, this one didn’t work for me.
My biggest struggle was the lack of emotional depth. Moments that should have carried real weight felt flat on the page. For example, I highlighted this line:
‘How dare you,’ he growled, his eyes flaming. ‘You’re on your own.’ With that, he turned and stormed out.
This scene marks yet another moment of abandonment for Aubrey—something that should feel particularly significant given her circumstances. Instead, the exchange reads more like a script prompt than a fully realized emotional interaction. The dialogue lacks nuance, and the moment doesn’t linger as it needs to, leaving the impact surprisingly muted.
The pacing is absolutely glacial. Six chapters in, and Aubrey is still banging on about the ex-boyfriend. We get to chapter eleven, and she is still banging on about the ex-boyfriend. For a book that promises a "dark, funny hell of a story," this is just a boring purgatory of whining.
I really wanted to like Aubrey Wants to Die, but unfortunately, this one didn’t work for me.
My biggest struggle was the lack of emotional depth. Moments that should have carried real weight felt flat on the page. For example, I highlighted this line:
‘How dare you,’ he growled, his eyes flaming. ‘You’re on your own.’ With that, he turned and stormed out.
This scene marks yet another moment of abandonment for Aubrey—something that should feel particularly significant given her circumstances. Instead, the exchange reads more like a script prompt than a fully realized emotional interaction. The dialogue lacks nuance, and the moment doesn’t linger as it needs to, leaving the impact surprisingly muted.
The pacing is absolutely glacial. Six chapters in, and Aubrey is still banging on about the ex-boyfriend. We get to chapter eleven, and she is still banging on about the ex-boyfriend. For a book that promises a "dark, funny hell of a story," this is just a boring purgatory of whining.
November 12, 2025
This is giving massive vibes of the Sookie Stackhouse book series while still being quite different. I hope Aubrey Wants to Die is the requisite back story introduction book before we get to the real stuff in book 2. Please let there be a book 2!!!! And I need more Cat, Aubrey, Oscar, Es, Daphne, Rupert, and Tina. Seriously, we need more fun books in the world!! Thoroughly enjoyed😺🐯❤
I also read 2 other of her books, published under the name of Pip Drysdale, The Next Girl and The Paris Affair, both 5 star reads for me.
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the opportunity to read and review this novel.
I also read 2 other of her books, published under the name of Pip Drysdale, The Next Girl and The Paris Affair, both 5 star reads for me.
Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for the opportunity to read and review this novel.
March 29, 2026
Ok, hear me out. This is one of those books that is so hard to write a review for because there are twists and turns and secrets and I HIGHLY recommend going into this blind!
⚠️This is not a romance book…exactly. Yes there is romance and dark humor, and chaos and yes there is a toxic AF morally gray, red flag Vamp MMC…yes there is a sarcastic Vamp FMC who is messy and flawed and has a cat named Cat. It’s complicated (in the best way possible) BUT, here is where it gets tricky. NOT everyone will agree we end on a HFN.
🌟I believe we get there…but proceed with caution.
All of that aside I really enjoyed the dark humor and allllll the vampire references. And THE TWISTS!! Never saw them coming!!!
Aubrey is flawed and messy and also feels relatable - she’s a 150 year old vampire who was dumped by her boyfriend (AKA her soulmate) and she is doing her best to get back together with him. Her sire Oscar (he’s….a lot) shows up - they haven’t spoken in a looong time and well, that’s all I can tell you!
I really enjoyed this story - it’s not what I expected but, I definitely recommend it.
✨What to Expect:
🩸Paranormal / Vampires
😈Dark Humor
🎭Hidden Identity
🌙Soulmates & Moonlight
🌪️Twists & Turns
🔍Mystery
🔪Vampire Hunters
🔥Chaos & Magic
🕯️Glitter & Darkness
⚠️This is not a romance book…exactly. Yes there is romance and dark humor, and chaos and yes there is a toxic AF morally gray, red flag Vamp MMC…yes there is a sarcastic Vamp FMC who is messy and flawed and has a cat named Cat. It’s complicated (in the best way possible) BUT, here is where it gets tricky. NOT everyone will agree we end on a HFN.
🌟I believe we get there…but proceed with caution.
All of that aside I really enjoyed the dark humor and allllll the vampire references. And THE TWISTS!! Never saw them coming!!!
Aubrey is flawed and messy and also feels relatable - she’s a 150 year old vampire who was dumped by her boyfriend (AKA her soulmate) and she is doing her best to get back together with him. Her sire Oscar (he’s….a lot) shows up - they haven’t spoken in a looong time and well, that’s all I can tell you!
I really enjoyed this story - it’s not what I expected but, I definitely recommend it.
✨What to Expect:
🩸Paranormal / Vampires
😈Dark Humor
🎭Hidden Identity
🌙Soulmates & Moonlight
🌪️Twists & Turns
🔍Mystery
🔪Vampire Hunters
🔥Chaos & Magic
🕯️Glitter & Darkness
April 18, 2026
Fun but also felt like the lore was built up in mentions but not altogether explained which kind of annoyed me.
May 3, 2026
Absolutely loved this book. Very gripping writing, all I wanted to do was read it!
I loved reading from a vampires pov, especially one as neurotic as Aubrey.
I enjoyed the gotcha at the end, revealing a good twist.
I would definitely read more books set in this world.
I loved reading from a vampires pov, especially one as neurotic as Aubrey.
I enjoyed the gotcha at the end, revealing a good twist.
I would definitely read more books set in this world.
November 9, 2025
Everything I wanted in a modern vampire book, I so badly want Aubrey’s story to continue. And thanks for giving Cat a happy ending too 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
October 16, 2025
I devoured this book (pun fully intended). Seriously — I picked it up and didn’t want to put it down.
Aubrey is the kind of character who makes you laugh and make questionable life choices. A vampire who just wants to die? Darkly hilarious and weirdly relatable.
The writing is sharp, the pacing is fast, and the drama is delicious. There’s love, betrayal, blood, and a whole lot of attitude. If you like your stories a little gothic, a little messy, and totally addictive, this is it.
Highly recommend 🖤🧛♀️
Aubrey is the kind of character who makes you laugh and make questionable life choices. A vampire who just wants to die? Darkly hilarious and weirdly relatable.
The writing is sharp, the pacing is fast, and the drama is delicious. There’s love, betrayal, blood, and a whole lot of attitude. If you like your stories a little gothic, a little messy, and totally addictive, this is it.
Highly recommend 🖤🧛♀️
March 4, 2026
Aubrey Wants to Die by Pip Knight is a darkly funny, emotionally sharp novel that made me laugh, wince, and quietly question my entire emotional support system.
Harlequin Trade Publishing | Hanover Square Press, thank you so much to the publisher and NetGalley for my gifted ARC.
I also had the chance to experience the audiobook edition of Aubrey Wants to Die, narrated by Karen Cass, and it added a whole extra layer of bite to an already sharp story. More on that in a minute, because this book deserves its moment first.
This story shows up wearing the disguise of a witty vampire romp and then calmly sits you down to unpack loneliness, obsession, toxic love, and the exhausting burden of existing when you never asked to be here in the first place. Aubrey has been undead for 150 years and has tried, very creatively, to end it more than once. The fact that this premise manages to be both hilarious and deeply sad tells you everything about the tone. It’s dark humor done right. Sharp, self-aware, and just uncomfortable enough to hit.
Aubrey’s voice is what makes this book sing. She’s sarcastic, dramatic, romantic, obsessive, and painfully honest. Her longing to be human again isn’t just about mortality. It’s about wanting to belong, to be chosen, to be loved in a way that feels permanent and safe. When Jonathan enters her life, he becomes that hope. That fantasy. That Bella-Edward, soulmate, eternal-love story she’s convinced will fix everything. And when it falls apart, the spiral feels real.
Then there’s Oscar. The aristocratic, manipulative vampire who made her this way and reappears with glitter, chaos, and very questionable intentions. Their dynamic is layered with power imbalance, resentment, attraction, and history. It’s messy in a way that feels intentional. Nothing here is clean. Love doesn’t magically redeem anyone. Immortality doesn’t make anyone wiser. It just gives you more time to make mistakes.
What surprised me most is how emotionally grounded this feels despite the blood and glamour. This is a story about self-worth. About recognizing when you’re accepting crumbs and calling it a feast. About realizing that maybe the person you need to choose you is yourself. Yes, it’s sexy. Yes, it’s dramatic. But it’s also thoughtful and unexpectedly moving.
“Love didn’t save me. But it did remind me why I wanted to keep trying.”
Now, the audiobook. Karen Cass absolutely nails Aubrey’s voice. She leans into the dry wit and emotional fragility in a way that makes the sarcasm land even harder. Her pacing during the darker, quieter moments adds weight without overdoing it, and the more chaotic scenes sparkle with just enough theatrical flair. Listening to Aubrey unravel in real time makes the experience even more intimate. I found myself lingering in the car just to hear one more chapter.
By the end, I felt wrung out in the best way. This book is funny, sad, sexy, dramatic, and strangely hopeful. It lingers. It pokes at your soft spots. It makes you laugh when you probably shouldn’t. And the audio version makes it even sharper.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 5 stars
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Harlequin Trade Publishing | Hanover Square Press, thank you so much to the publisher and NetGalley for my gifted ARC.
I also had the chance to experience the audiobook edition of Aubrey Wants to Die, narrated by Karen Cass, and it added a whole extra layer of bite to an already sharp story. More on that in a minute, because this book deserves its moment first.
This story shows up wearing the disguise of a witty vampire romp and then calmly sits you down to unpack loneliness, obsession, toxic love, and the exhausting burden of existing when you never asked to be here in the first place. Aubrey has been undead for 150 years and has tried, very creatively, to end it more than once. The fact that this premise manages to be both hilarious and deeply sad tells you everything about the tone. It’s dark humor done right. Sharp, self-aware, and just uncomfortable enough to hit.
Aubrey’s voice is what makes this book sing. She’s sarcastic, dramatic, romantic, obsessive, and painfully honest. Her longing to be human again isn’t just about mortality. It’s about wanting to belong, to be chosen, to be loved in a way that feels permanent and safe. When Jonathan enters her life, he becomes that hope. That fantasy. That Bella-Edward, soulmate, eternal-love story she’s convinced will fix everything. And when it falls apart, the spiral feels real.
Then there’s Oscar. The aristocratic, manipulative vampire who made her this way and reappears with glitter, chaos, and very questionable intentions. Their dynamic is layered with power imbalance, resentment, attraction, and history. It’s messy in a way that feels intentional. Nothing here is clean. Love doesn’t magically redeem anyone. Immortality doesn’t make anyone wiser. It just gives you more time to make mistakes.
What surprised me most is how emotionally grounded this feels despite the blood and glamour. This is a story about self-worth. About recognizing when you’re accepting crumbs and calling it a feast. About realizing that maybe the person you need to choose you is yourself. Yes, it’s sexy. Yes, it’s dramatic. But it’s also thoughtful and unexpectedly moving.
“Love didn’t save me. But it did remind me why I wanted to keep trying.”
Now, the audiobook. Karen Cass absolutely nails Aubrey’s voice. She leans into the dry wit and emotional fragility in a way that makes the sarcasm land even harder. Her pacing during the darker, quieter moments adds weight without overdoing it, and the more chaotic scenes sparkle with just enough theatrical flair. Listening to Aubrey unravel in real time makes the experience even more intimate. I found myself lingering in the car just to hear one more chapter.
By the end, I felt wrung out in the best way. This book is funny, sad, sexy, dramatic, and strangely hopeful. It lingers. It pokes at your soft spots. It makes you laugh when you probably shouldn’t. And the audio version makes it even sharper.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ 5 stars
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