This little volume represents, very precisely, the diary William Soutar, the Perth poet, kept under his pillow during the last four months of his life.
It is presented as the poet himself presented his pages, with summary headings in the left-hand margin flagging the topics.
There are some facsimile pages too, recording the poet's own meticulously neat handwriting.
A week before he died:
"I find that quite unconsciously -- & seemingly incongruously -- I am personifying parts of myself, clothing etc: The end of my undervest for example is American -- probably a young millionaire who is rather careless about himself. Sometimes there are little pieces of loose skin on my under-lip inside a little way: these I consider horses on a plain. In certain positions the ridge of my spine near the waist is pressed directly by the compressed pillow & I have hurriedly to knuckle a hollow for the bones. I think of bones here as a set of rather shoddy young fellows who have a tendency to act vindictively."
This is not a fiction. It's real. So it doesn't end. It just stops.
But it is beautifully put together and very moving. It brings you closer, in some ways, although it only covers four months, than the whole of Scott's selection. Joy Hendry, the editor, records a hope in her introduction that the volume may be the forerunner of "a coherent strategy for publishing Soutar's diaries comprehensively" as well as a "volume of his selected letters". That was in 1991. Now, nearly twenty years later that hope remains unfulfilled. Why?