So. Fuck Carson.
Seriously, fuck that asshole. He's the kind of jerkoff that would insist that the A in lgbtiqa stands for ally. He's the kind of douche who would be upset that there was no space saved for him in a feminist space. He's gross. His inner thoughts (and boners) for his friend are fucking gross.
I suffered through this book to see if the text ever dealt with the fact that the protagonist was fucking gross. And. It did not. At the very end (the last fifty pages?) when Carson's grandfather's boyfriend showed up, things got a little better? But mostly, his grandfather fell into the same tropes you often see with cis white gay men.
So basically, fuck this book if you aren't a white cis boy.
Okay, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get some blowback on my hatred of this book, so let me break down what made me uncomfortable.
A) The way Carson thinks about Aisha. Aisha is a lesbian, yes. So all of Carson's creepy "Ooh, but we could be boning if only she wasn't into giiiiiiiirls", was fucking gross. Even if Aisha was bisexual, just being interested in men doesn't mean that she'd be into Carson. So basically, he was five seconds away from whining about being friendzoned. But also, every time he thought about Aisha sexually, without any accompanying guilt, or weird feelings made me feel physically nauseous. He seriously thought if Aisha was made straight, he could date her, and wished for it without anything in the text stating that wasn't okay.
B) Carson is incredibly self centered. He does all sorts of things without ever thinking about how that could make another person feel, and again, the text does not punish him for it, nor does it made any sort of expression that is wrong. He fucking makes a joke about Aisha having to put out to have a place to sleep. I guess the audience is suppose to laugh at that, but FUCKING POOR TASTE YOU FUCKING DICK. Rape jokes aren't fucking funny. And if Aisha has been sleeping on the street, she's probably been raped, or threatened with it before. It was gross, and again, not addressed in the text.
C) I'm not arguing that teenage boys aren't fucking gross. However, that doesn't mean you have to normalize it. I could handle Carson being a fuckboy, but only if the text didn't give it tacit approval.
Basically, if this book had been mostly about the end, dealing with new family members, and changing beliefs, I could have been into. Instead, I felt miserable and ill and did not want to finish.
Two stars because I liked the ending.
Though, to be honest, subject to change. Depends on how I feel in the morning.