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832 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 2025
I write my diary last thing before I go to sleep or first thing in the morning, sitting up in bed. I’ll write down an interesting dream, or what happened that day, or something that one of my grandkids said to me. I don’t think of the diaries as work. That’s why I like them. I like the way I write them, because it’s not anxious. I might be describing something I’m anxious about, but the actual writing process isn’t anxious, because there’s no one breathing down my neck. I don’t have to finish it by a particular time or show it to anyone or get anyone’s approval or permission. I’m trying to write as well as I can—it’s not sloppy, I’m not just dashing it off—but I’m free and not constrained by anything else. I found that when I was editing my diaries for publication, I didn’t need to revise or polish them that much. That made me see that the diaries are how I turned myself into a writer—there’s my ten thousand hours.
A handyman’s here, putting up curtain rod brackets for me, when two young blokes from [the furniture store] stagger in, lugging the sofa wrapped in thick white plastic. They heave it across the spartan living room and dump it with its back to the big window. I’ve only ever seen it in dim artificial light. They strip off the first sheet of wrapping, and the second. Somebody gasps, somebody sighs. It’s a dusty, silvery, ethereal blue-grey, shading into pale lavender. The spring morning pours into the room, bathing it in purity, a light in which the sofa levitates, as insubstantial as a cloudbank. The three men and I stand in a line, breathing together, in wordless rapture.
“At dinner the surgeon asked me why I write with a pen rather than using a dictaphone or a word processor. ‘Why would I?’ ‘Because it’s faster and more efficient.’ ‘But it’s my life’s work. I’m not in a hurry.’ I was surprised to hear myself make that answer.”