3.5 stars
This book was not bad, but it not what I was expecting either. I was just expecting so much more when I read the back synopsis. I thought there would be a lot more sexual tension and angst and all that jazz, but for me there just wasn't enough of it. I was expecting more raw energy and more raw emotion than I was getting, which caused it for me not to like this book so much, which was a shame because it had so much potential from the synopsis.
The premise was good and had been done in other Presents before not that I mind because I like Presents formulas which is the reason I read so many of them, but I just thought the emotion and the angst could have been enacted better. I wanted to feel more essential and feel it in my bones not being told it where it felt a tad unrealistic and unbelievable. Though I do have to say that the ending did get better emotionally where I actually felt it.
The story began with Emily being Kadir's PA for four years, and she did everything for him between his business life and his personal life. She even escorted his lovers out of his room when his night of fun was over and he was done with the woman. So she had seen it all and was disgusted by his playboy ways, but she didn't utter a word because she liked the job and the money he paid her, but most of all, even though in the beginning she didn't want to admit and just label him as a typical playboy who would break any woman's heart even her if she got involved with him, the reason she stayed was because she liked him and cared about him. She was even jealous of his lovers, though she never admitted that until later on in the book, and she always found him very attractive, and couldn't stop staring at him. He was the first guy she desired in a long time and she wanted, but she vowed to keep her distance from him and not be one of those women who fell in love with him.
Anyway Kadir's father, the king, was dying and ordered both of his sons back to their homeland with the issue hanging over them about him choosing his successor to the throne. Now despite Kadir's brother being the oldest, he wasn't the ideal choice of their father because he considered Kadir his favorite son as favorite as he could be because Kadir's father was cruel and cold man and never really loved his sons like he should have. Kadir, who never wanted to be king in the first place had to come up with a plan so he wouldn't be chosen as the next king. Kadir was willing to do anything. Even marry an unsuitable woman in order to show his country that he was not in his right mind since he wasn't choosing a Kyrian woman to be his wife.
This was where Emily came in, and he asked her to be his wife because since she was an American she would be seen as a unsuitable wife for him. And the journey began there once Emily agreed to his proposition and would treat it as a job not a relationship with the playboy prince. Now I have to say that this was where it should have gotten good with the conflict between her dealing with his whole playboy image as well as dealing with her attraction/slash feelings him and just see her struggling to make this decision of whether to marry him or not. But I was disappointed to say that she didn't put up much of a fight and pretty much said yes to his propostion right away. Granted yes she was doing it for money for her father and his medical bills as well as Kadir because she really did care about him even if she didn't want to admit it, but still I would have like to see more of an internal conflict and the struggle that she was going through at the time. I wanted to see more of her emotional struggle. Now there was a struggle within her, but it was kind of wishy washy and I wasn't believing she was having as hard of a time with it. It was like more she was trying to convince herself that she was struggle than she actually was if that makes any sense to you. I wanted to feel and I just didn't. I just wanted more of the angst associated with all she was going through as well as dealing with her attraction to him.
Speaking of sexual attraction/tension, I wasn't feeling that either. Yes, it was told that they both wanted each other and were dying for a piece of each other, but I didn't feel it. Again it felt flat. I didn't feel the tension oozing from the pages and just that raw emotion associated with it, but it just wasn't there. Also I think another thing that bothered me was that Kadir pretty much changed his tune at the drop of a hat especially after her makeover, which I get men are visual creatures and all but I would like to see that attraction to the heroine before the makeover happens then it becomes amplified with it, which makes the hero practically drooling and panting after the heroine. There might have been a slight attraction on Kadir's part before the makeover when they got married, but for me that just felt trivial and not real and kind of a throw away. Again wasn't feeling his feelings or attraction during that time and then he seemed to go from 0 to 60, and it was almost too quick and too unbelievable for me.
I kind of wished to since this was a boss and secretary type relationship that there would have been this kind of tension between them all along and they were fighting their attraction for years and years and finally exploded and they gave into their passions. I love those kinds of stories. Plus there would be history between the characters where emotions were built upon as well as the sexual tension in the air that was denied for many years. The whole boss and secretary thing where they are close and have kind become friends over the years, but don't want to screw up what they had or they don't know how attracted they are to one another and they finally gave in. I love those types stories and it just adds an edge to them as well as angst and just raw emotions.
But this book was not anywhere like that. In fact he just saw her as his sensible PA and practically thought her invisible while he banged a bunch of beautiful woman for the years that she had been employeed by him and Emily saw it all while her feelings went a little deeper than his did. In fact he had no romantic feelings for her at all until they were put into the situation of their marriage and then it kind of felt that he had feelings for her just because she was there and his wife and it was convenient for him. Or just because he wanted to laid either or. But it didn't feel real then with the quick change of heart he had it felt even more unreal. Then with whole makeover thing just didn't make me happy at all.
In fact the whole romance I just didn't really like until slightly towards the end when the raw emotions were coming into play. But for me there was no relationship building or development there and just felt like they fell into a relationship because they were just there and handy and convenient especially on his part. I felt no emotions coming off of him aside he wanted her in his bed, and I don't like that especially when he knew her for all those years and now he suddenly wanted. No, even though he said he wanted her the entire time near the end, but I don't know about that either. Just I wasn't into their relationship and again didn't feel the emotions instead I was just told them and expected to believe that was what they were exactly feeling at the time and that they were actually heading for this relationship. Again not a lot of angst or tension or not as much as I would have liked where I would have been more into the story and their story that I actually believe it. Again potential was there to make this an angst story especially with her emotions flying all over the place as well as dealing with the playboy image, but I just didn't get that. I want angst! and I didn't get that. I just wanted to feel that love and passion and just all those raw emotions that's what makes a good love story in my view.
The love scenes were hot, I will admit that, and by that time the book and the story was getting better in the last third of the book, and I enjoyed reading them. They were a highlight, and that was where I felt the emotion starting to come into play and felt that it was more than physical. They had been denying their attraction to each other for the whole book and to finally give into their passions just made it that much more sweeter and hotter. That's where I felt the emotions coming from both of them.
With that being said, I don't know I believe that Kadir was in love with Emily. I believed she was in love with him, but maybe not the other way around. Again think it was too quick on his part much like he admitted he was attracted to her after her makeover. Just it didn't feel realistic. It was like he had the revelation that he loved her out of the blue. Now I could more get behind the idea that he realized her cared about her and missed her, but not that he loved her. That just didn't feel right to me. Though the way he did reveal his feelings to her was sweet and touching and I did like seeing that scene and I liked how they came together in the end, but I was still a little unsure about his feelings for her since it happened so quickly and I didn't feel he was there quite yet. So I was a bit disappointed with that.
Also I think a lot more could have came into play that would have added to the conflict as well as the angst in the story. Number one Kadir's ex Lenore could have come into it and caused trouble for the couple or did something that caused Emily to keep Kadir at arm's length. But aside from the beginning, she didn't come into play when she could have so easily. She was in the beginning and that was it, and it was kind of what was the point of her being in the story. His lover could have been nameless face and not introduced at all because when she was introduced I thought she would come more into play then she did. Also I could have seen Lenore play on Emily's insecurities of her not being Kadir's usually type beautiful and skinny while Emily considered herself anything but and just plain normal. Two, I think Emily had the issue of being as shallow as her mother and leaving the man she loved, and even though she said she got over it once he revealed his love for her, again it was almost two quick and two easily dealt with. She struggled with this issue all of her life so for it to be tied up in a couple pages didn't seem right. Also I wish she told Kadir earlier on in the book about her history and her mother so he would know what issues were going on. He barely got to know her on a personal level while she got to know him more on personal as the book progressed. So I think that was another reason I didn't like the whole love story aspect there was no really getting to know each other and dealing with her issues. His were taken care of and kind of addressed. Hers not so much. Three I wish there was a bit more with the father and just his interaction with Kadir and possibly his disapproval of Emily being Kadir's wife, which was what Kadir was counting on, and just the tension that could have ensued there. But it wasn't there. Again more potential that wasn't utilized in my opinion.
I will say that I did like seeing the interaction between Kadir and his brother and just all the issues between them and just how that was dealt with. It was kind of endearing to see them together and again was another highlight of the story for me. I just really liked seeing them together and I am curious to read Rashid's story which comes out in a couple of months. He has some demons he definitely has to deal with like the hatred of his father.
Like I said Kadir's issues were dealt with more than Emily's, and I liked to see when both hero and heroine conquer their demons throughout the book and this change was brought forth because of love or falling love. That's what I like seeing in a love story as well besides the love and emotions and passions and just how love changes them for the better and makes them stronger as people as well as a couple. Love being this strong force. But again in this story I didn't feel that because one I didn't believe they were madly in love and two I didn't think she dealt with her demons until it the end and then it was kind of brushed off like it was no big deal when for the longest time for her it was.
This book was just very surface and didn't go as deep and emotional as I would have liked. Was this worst book I have read? No. There were definitely highlights to the story that had bright spots here and there, but the entire story didn't shine. At least for me, which is a shame since I was so looking forward to reading this book and just expected so much more than I got. Maybe that was my problem was my expectations were two high and then when I didn't those expectation met then I was disappointed and didn't love the book as much as I thought I would. I think I was expecting the emotions and passion to be there right away since they had a history and had known each other for four years and I believed that this sexual tension was building up over the years until it finally exploded and hit me. Also like I said I was expecting it to be more angst because of this supposed denied sexual attraction which would have lead to heightened emotions and feelings between the two. I just get the emotional payoff that I was expecting.
But again even though I am saying all these things that can be construed as negative, I will say that it wasn't a bad book. It quick read and the last third of the book was definitely worth getting to because that's when it got good and those raw emotions were there.
I have definitely have read worse books than this. Some even being Presents. So again this wasn't horrible book, but it just didn't turn out to be what I was expecting which has colored my view and resulted in this review. I'm sure there are others that will love this book while I just liked it. I'm still going to read Lynn Raye Harris's books in the future especially Rashid story and just hope that I can keep my expectations down so that it won't color my judgment to the story like it did this one.