A Beginner's Guide to Why I Killed Myself

by Charles Z. Doilain

You can read it in the way it was written--from the first chapter to the last--or you can read it in reverse, but the ending will not change. This is a story of a gay man who cannot seem to catch a break. From losing a job to closing a business to a cheating lover, all these things push him to a kind of darkness that becomes inescapable.

Why does one want to kill himself? For those on the outside looking in, we want to find one particular reason that pushes a person to the edge. But for those living with darkness and depression, it is never just one thing. It's an accumulation of failures and shortcomings, a lifetime of continuously being broken into pieces until the only escape is death.

100 pages, Kindle Edition

First published November 3, 2014

About the author

Charles Z Doilain is a tech professional by day and writer by night (or all the time, in the head). He has a degree in engineering and a minor in philosophy. After traveling around the world, a few years in the American Midwest and stints as a systems analyst, freelance writer, and chocolate connoisseur, he decided to set down roots in the country of his birth and write the stories that have been sitting in his head for years.

In his spare time, he reads all manner of books and graphic novels, writes some more, and does household chores.

You can visit his website for news and updates: http://www.charlesdoilain.com

Reviews

[Sunshine · Rating 4 out of 5]

A bit strange

...but I think I liked it. The font of the books tells that one can read the story from front to back OR back to front. The story will end the same.

....so true