Ok I have a lot to say about this one. First and foremost, Caitlin Kinnunen did a great job narrating the audiobook, and I look forward to her next credit.
As for the story itself, I thought the plot was just ok; however, I appreciated that the queer exile was not the only focus of the hypocrisy of the Church, but I also felt that the church environment was a little too much like a caricature of itself. Perhaps this is because I grew up in a Methodist church rather than a Baptist one, but I felt that the fire-and-brimstone aspect was a little heavy-handed.
That being said, I really did feel like I could relate to Riley's feelings of *knowing* these people and their habits and having positive memories with them and suddenly being an outsider. Being good or even best friends with others under the same religious umbrella who are aware of the hurt you've been dealt and manage to ignore it/look past it/not talk about it/contribute to it felt extremely real. And while I wanted some sort of absolute resolution to that type of ignorance (for my own healing), a part of me appreciates that it wasn't directly or magically resolved, because that's not how life happens.
Finally, I sincerely cannot tell if the author chose Shrek: the Musical to be the school's show just because it sounds silly or if she made that choice specifically to highlight the parallels between the stories. Yes, I will elaborate:
Riley is Shrek and Julia is Fiona. Riley, like Shrek comes off as being comfortable with her outcast status, but secretly longs for a normal life within society where she doesn't feel like she has to explain herself to everyone else. She's just living her life and can't change who she is, just as Shrek cannot change the fact that he's an ogre. Julia, on the other hand, understands her role as "the princess" and hides her true self in service of the narrative she has been told to follow. Now, all of this is clearly true to the movie, but the *musical* parallels are really what get me.
In the act 1 finale "Who I'd Be," we hear of Shrek's longing to adhere to the narrative: "So yes I'd be a hero, and if my wish were granted/life would be enchanted, or so the stories say./Of course I'd be a hero." This exemplifies Riley's desire to continue to create memories with her congregation and feel the sense of belonging and normalcy "but we all learn/an ogre always hides/ an ogre's fate is known" and she will never truly be accepted by her congregation.
Meanwhile, countering Shrek's melody, Fiona also sings of her loneliness in hiding, and sings "I believe the storybooks I read by candlelight" just as Julia believes the Bible that she has been taught and understands she can never stray from that narrative.
The celebratory climax of the show is "Freak Flag" where everyone comes together to air their own secrets in a beautiful display of how different everyone is and how no one should be judged for anything, and that entire song is basically the thesis of the story. It was stuck in my head the entire time I was reading, and I hope the author knows they made a good choice.