To Burn in Rapture is a fast burn novella dark romance.
Janus, the Roman God of beginnings and endings, has never paid much attention to the humans as they die, but for some reason, Sabine catches his attention as she lays dying, and he decides to break an important rule of being a God, and gives her just 1 drop of his blood...
Sabine, now immortal due to having the God blood, is initially thankful to the God who saved her life, but as time goes on, she only lives for the times when she gets to glimpse Janus again, which only occur during deaths. She works in various fields and wars throughout the centuries that involve death, as that is the only way that Janus appears to her on earth. She has had many men, but all she wants is Janus, the one man she cannot have.
I personally know more about the Greek Gods vs Roman, so I was really excited to read a Roman God retelling, because I haven't read one before, and had honestly never heard of Janus. I think this was a perfect novella, and dove directly into the story of Janus and Sabine. The writing is just wonderful, I could really feel/understand the pain that Sabine was dealing with, going centuries sometimes between seeing the one man she wanted the most, but could not have. The physical and emotional torture would create such a grueling existence. And the fact that no matter how bleak her life became, she could not die, and is stuck to walk the earth alone. But, Sabine is a strong woman, and decided enough was enough, if Janus wouldn't give her the time of day, she would take matters into her own hands...
It would have been equally as difficult for Janus to continue on with his Godly duties, also in love with a human woman he could not have, mainly because if any other Gods found out about her, she would probably be thrown in Tartarus. So Janus has to keep his distance.
This story is of two tortured souls....and you have to read to find out how it ends for them!
Some Fav Quotes:
"I may have called her mine, but we can never be. We are doomed to linger in the periphery of each other's lives."
"Her eyes find mine, and it's as if I'm falling down a never-ending galaxy where only she and I exist. I love so much about this creature-my human."
"If I don't consume her, she will consume me."
"Grief would take me, sucking me down deep into its despair where all I could think of was him. The one man I could never have."
"Pain is my pleasure. When you spend an eternity having your heart ripped out of your chest over and over again, how else are you meant to find joy?"
"I pick prey I inevitably kill to open a doorway for my god to enter through."
"I was trying to reform myself at the time, hoping I could be better, do better....Stop craving him. But it's impossible to stop a drug when it's already working its way through your system."
"If I could, I would serve this world to you on a platter, or I would burn everything to ash if it were in my power. Your pain brings me pain for the first time in my existence, and I have no idea what to do but bow at your feet and hope that, one day, you will forgive me. I'm yours infinitus."
"Obsessions doesn't even come close to how I feel about this woman."
Thank you so much to the author for a copy of this book!