A self-victimising, insufferable FMC being a pariah on the MMC who gives her literally everything.
Trust me, I wanted nothing more than to come here with a glowing review, especially since I signed up for this ARC after watching Riley’s video and feeling the passion she spoke about the book with. I am genuinely pained to be writing a negative review, particularly for a debut novel.
That said, one book does not define an author’s style, their career, or their worth. This is just my perspective and how I experienced this story.
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Maddison… Madds… Maddyy… Why?
The FMC really ruins the book, and I tried hard to find redeeming qualities, but I just couldn’t.
Maddison is insufferable. She is selfish, self-victimising, one-dimensional, emotionally immature, and childlike.
She’s a toxic red flag who demands and demands and demands from everyone around her, while giving nothing in return, hiding under the guise of:
• “Everyone left me” (they died, and she abandoned the rest)
• “I’m scared”
• “I leave before I am left”
This wasn’t a romance. It was a guide to being apologetic towards Maddison.
Everyone in her life has been nothing but supportive and constant, yet she’s so stuck in her own narrative of victimhood that she can’t see beyond it.
The worst part? Everyone enables this narrative: excusing her behaviour, forgiving her when she’s done nothing to earn that forgiveness, and allowing her to hurt people deeply without consequences.
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Justice for Jaxon
Poor Jaxon deserved so much more. His entire purpose in this book was to make Maddison feel safe, to get her to trust him, even though she’s the one who hurt and abandoned him over and over.
What’s the message here?
That men should carry the entire load while women act bratty and refuse to grow up?
That men like Jaxon -who love deeply and truly- deserve to have their hearts broken, stomped on, and then be expected to forgive without the bare minimum effort from their partner?
This is unacceptable and toxic.
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So Many Unclear Details
On top of all that, so much in this book is vague or unexplained:
• Is her father dead or in prison?
• When did the accident happen?
• How is she surviving financially?
• How has she lived up until this point?
Music is supposedly her passion, but it’s not reflected in her personality.
We don’t even find out she’s a music major until around 65% into the book, and even then, in passing.
She wants to be a music therapist but is oblivious to her own flaws. How can you make someone feel safe in therapy if you can’t do the same in your own life, and expect others to do all the emotional labour just to stay in it?
Thank you, Hambright PR and Riley Paige, for the ARC. I truly wish this story had a different impact on me, but I trust Riley will pull other strings in her next books.
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Pre-read:
I just received this ARC and kinda have the urge to immediately jump on it!
👩❤️👨 Childhood Friends
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Thank you, Riley Paige and Hambright PR for the opportunity. 🥰